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Kate T
@kate
08/31/18 05:43:32PM
145 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

Ah, that is true. I also think that fasting is good for the body and mind of a healthy individual, or to achieve it. If you think about it, animals have to regularly fast in the wild, and we probably did that too at the beginning of times. Just not done in excess or forced, I would say. A lot of religions do suggest vegetarianism or fasting at certain times of the year, and it has to do with controling yourself, remaining focused, to "cleanse" your body and notice the sensations and changes.

Still couldn't do it myself though at this point in life because I don't have enough resources stored in my body anymore xD but I can shut down the sensation of hunger and go for half a day without food, or more if needed.


updated by @kate: 08/31/18 05:48:42PM
Kate T
@kate
08/31/18 03:09:50AM
145 posts

Seeing other worldly beings - Question


Psychic and Paranormal

Paul:

I have come across some Mythical Creatures that I thought would never be real. Dragons and a Gryphon. So I know they could be real but in the etheric world that interfaces with our own.

About dragons. For me it's interesting in the sense that it always made me feel sad when other people were "deifying" acts of... what can be called medieval cruelty due to lack of knowledge, ever since i was small. 

I am Christian myself, but you know how they have the picture of St. George killing the dragon in so many places, and preaching about how killing the dragon symbolizes the destruction of evil? I can understand symbolism and association, but it bothers me how no one is feeling like they missed a chance to study an amazing species of reptile or maybe a more "supernatural" occurrence, or tame/befriend/come to understand it (i mean in the actual days, as obviously back in those days they had more fear when it came to wild animals) and is like "yeah that's cool boo to anything that looks weird and looks like it could kill us, even if it never actually would unless poked in the eye" pun intended. It's probably the only re-occurring visual representation that i feel at odds/uneasy with still. The story of course was, even back then, told/popularised from a third person perspective and got changed a lot during the centuries, but I'm referring to the modern day thinking about the concept, or lack of. I've only found one picture so far of an artist who probably had similar thoughts at some point named "St. George's Remorse" on DeviantArt. 

People are mostly like "it's a fictional thing" but that does not or cannot cancel out what i felt myself. Today I could say that the same symbolism goes the other way around, showing or predicting how unbothered some people have been and still are by the killing of so many animal species, and thus their environments, and of some rich layers of reality. I depicted them (dragons, or beings that resemble "chimeras") in my drawings a lot ever since I started drawing, being one of my favorite subjects along with other more "down to earth things". I was never able to see them as bad and it bothers me when i read or know about stories or movies where the "dragon" is killed, because of the magical potency and intelligence they withhold, yet also ability to exist in the natural world without disrupting it... what happens is in the west this/these get automatically attributed to evilness. Same with snakes.

Or used to. Quite a few noticeable changes in the past few years. Still not much changed in terms of adult collective consciousness. And the young people/mass-media nowdays are more bothered by whom they are legally allowed to have sex with or not (and gender pronouns) when we have so many other cool things to debate or bring into reality/manifest. Sigh. It is a start, but on a quite low level, as in vibe. Beautiful the times when you went with your 9 yr old friends to the essentially wild forests around your mountain holiday home in search of fairies, dragons and magical creatures xD. 

I've been waiting for games where you can play as a magical being and more exactly as a dragon for ages (and some other fangirls/boys too probably) but we're stuck with a very old-fashioned The I of the Dragon Game which bugs quite easily and needs a remake, I'm not aware of any serious other ones. 

They are very underrepresented in quality stories despite being the most popular by far! At least we got HTTYD, and it would be a shame to belittle adults who loved it (like myself, at least on the outside) just because it has a "for kids" tag. The concept is beautiful. 


updated by @kate: 08/31/18 03:59:31PM
Kate T
@kate
08/31/18 02:02:42AM
145 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

How old are you and what is your body type/how is your metabolism? What do you drink during the fasting days? How long do you, can you, or did you fast?

Before I even or ever started thinking this was a good idea, I did it, but I blamed stress. 

It worked and I felt interesting but I did not "fast" for long at a time (15 hrs max probably), and I definitely don't really like the sensation anymore now. I have always been lean, and I never liked eating cooked animal fat (only raw or for example prepared with herbs and in brine and kept in cold :) like they do with pig fat/ham) so my body doesn't have much stored to both be active/have an alert mind and not eat anything. 22 here. Impossible for me, unless I ate a lot for two months and fasted the third or something like that, with the requirement that the food was highly nutrition/good/and not much processed or prepared from shitty "mistery dust" in factories. Or maybe in a very cold country especially during winter, as I tend to get cold easier than others when temps drop and that would spark some metabolic needs. Another way would be if I had the most relaxed time of my life and didn't have to think much, as the brain takes it all ;). I also think that in developed countries and especially in the west, the access to organically grown, highly nutritious VEGETARIAN foods is limited, and is one of the downsides of food mismanagement/waste and lack of recycling. Same for very developed cities, where you're left with healthier animal alternatives unless you have an impressive income and afford to buy all the imported quality goods. So it comes down to sensitivity (physical or emotional/related to heightened perception or manifesting medical condition) towards meat etc more than anything else to make you quit eating meat given the above factors.

I'm not falling for any pre packaged "healthy veggie burgers" & "drinks" and I oftentimes find the smell of bottled "original indian sauces/mixes" awful. In fact, unless you're getting your soy milk from some kind of special farm or big asian store directly, there's absolutely no soy milk alternative commercially sold that has over 8% actual soy milk, and it's processed. Yet another trick on the market to fool people to drink what is essentially flavoured water with added lab vitamins. I still prefer full fat milk (4% or more) over skimmed highly heated homogenized etc etc milk. I'm still firmly convinced it's the processing and heat treatment of everything that makes a product bad, as in the original state it comes with all the good stuff (boiling unpasteurised milk from a cow is a must though, of course, for safety reasons, unless you can test it everytime and make sure it's safe). But then you remember about the "lovely" food they eat and hormones/antibiotics they receive... way to go, capitalism. Not one should be falling for the "but otherwise there wouldn't be enough for everyone" either as that is a fictive excuse and people have always had more than they can chew, but greediness stood and still stands in the way of sustainable progress. Sure, there were some goat and sheep (commercially viable) alternatives, if you buy directly from farms, which are a bit better than cow now days, but depends. 

But you (or anyone) shouldn't be discouraged from becoming vegetarians by what I write if you know you do have healthy alternatives where you live, of course. For "reference" purposes, I've only lived and travelled through Europe : )


updated by @kate: 08/31/18 02:42:49AM
Kate T
@kate
08/26/18 02:27:25PM
145 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

A quick search on google actually made me think about buying one as well... I'm not much into rings (more into a pendant/a bracelet or two) but i seem to really like these ones' designs. Thanks for sharing :D


updated by @kate: 08/26/18 02:28:21PM
Kate T
@kate
08/19/18 12:06:17PM
145 posts

Herbs knowledge anybody?


Empath

My godmother used to pick herbs all the time from the wild for various things (south-eastern Europe). A popular advice that I also like giving is getting herbs specific to your region (specific to where you grew up as a kid, to where you are right now, or depending on your ancestry). There is always a more special link between you and what grows in your area, supposing it's not overly polluted in the present days... (this thought always saddens me). Otherwise, if they are not available, you can still benefit from something brough for example from Japan or Russia, even if they are from a foreign place, of course, it will not cancel out their properties. 

If you are from a temperate region/climate (oceanic or continental), my examples could help you:

Examples of how different common plants ( aka that grow in many places, even on the side of roads, though of course people don't want to pick those) are used where I come from:

Linden tea.

Calendula/marigold powder with honey for skin healing: scars, tattoos, wounds, burns. Same with backwort (symphitum officinale), strong skin healing properties. Absinthe (artemisia), same, very good for healing. 

Cabbage is anti-inflammatory and can be applied on swollen parts. 

Equisetum arvense (horse's tail), for ovaries and gynecologic problems.

Achillea millefolium (mouse tail), tea for internal use (read about it if you want, not too sure myself). 

Fennel tea, for digestive problems, colds, coughing, etc.

The ever popular camomile tea used as eye patches as well. 

Celandine, a more powerful equivalent of aloe vera, used to prevent infections (the yellow "juice" of the plant) and also in tea (I swear we make "tea" -infusions- out of everything), for the liver, metabolism... but can be toxic if ingested in high quantities. The tea is kinda analgesic, so can alleviate pain. 

Rosehips (Rosa canina) are also very popular, I only know they have a lot of Vitamin C and are really good for the immune system. Again, they make drinks (but don't think about alcohol) out of them.

Thyme tea is a thing, sage, so is parsley for memory... lots of flavonoids they have.

Nettle tea. Even the stings/burning sensation when you pick them is supposed to be good for you and for your skin. 

Sea buckthorn... very-very appreciated, this one is something I feel i could recommend to you. Tell me if that's true :). You combine it with honey (real honey, not dilluted or from bees treated with 1000 antibiotics). 1/4 honey and 3/4 slightly crushed buckthorn (the red-yellow-orangey tiny fruits). You leave it one week in the fridge, jar sealed (or whatever you can do to prevent air from getting inside, in order for it to macerate/soak). It can taste pretty sour, but it has a lot of vitamins and good stuff in it.

I suppose everyone knows about mint tea.

Pure ginger tea is also popular for certain affections, but i am not sure how well it grows in my country, it probably needs more attention that some simple garlic for instance. It's very appreciated though, can get very hot/"spicy". 

Very important! Do not combine a lot of teas in a short amount of time without consulting a specialist, because you can actually die from an overdose... depending on what health issues you have... they can over-stimulate you, so read about their effects. A relative of some family friends died doing "plant tea experiments" on himself. The term tea here means more like infusion, we do not really eat crushed leaf powder, although some stuff might remain in the tea on the bottom of the cup, but no problem, don't worry. Also, if you drink them for their raw medicinal qualities, you are not supposed to sweeten them with anything or add milks. Maybe only some lemon allowed. Then again, different people, different preferences, there will always be that 10% or more for whom things work a bit differently. Also, the water shouldn't be immediately poured on the plant at boiling temperature, should be let to cool a little, like 2 minutes, but this can differ too, it's just a general rule. 

Point number 2, never trust mass-media when they "deify" a certain product like they just discovered it for the first time. The Omega 3s in salmon? 90% is farmed and jokes on you, those studies were done on wild salmons, as the captive ones barely get half of what their counterparts do, because of what they are fed with. 

The amazing super foods that some products are said to be, like matcha and cacao? Jokes on you, you can probably get the same amount of minerals from blueberries and you don't have to worry about where they come from usually and if they've been roasted and if they are eco etc. (or it is much easier to tell).

I don't want to say they are bad either (they aren't), but be aware of mass-media campaigns and traps (purely economical interests). You might read numerous articles saying stuff like "wow! 180 degrees life change after trying this! check it out!" but always be vigilant and trust your bodily needs first and foremost. If you want to try something don't buy the biggest pack you can find on the shelf. 

Not a herb but very interesting: nature's most powerful antibiotic is considered to be propolis tincture. It boosts the immune system, can treat colds, coughing etc. It has a very unpleasant taste, so it's best to have it with honey. But it is very cheap where I come from and has no counter-indication, unlike the medication we know as antibiotic. But don't take it on an empty stomach (best is an hour or so after a meal, 2-3 times a day). It usually contains alcohol solution so one spoon is enough to heat you up for half an hour, heh. Now of course, if you have health problems that persist, reappear, or seem to be getting worse, consult your medic. 

Also, we used to seasonally drink elderberry juice prepared at home, even after it got slightly alcoholic (it seriously doesn't matter even if you're smaller than 18 lol), because we had so many trees growing by. We've had wine in our homes constantly since I was little, the "natural" ones prepared by people in the countryside who only had enough to give to friends and family, and I still rarely drink, and never get drunk (or never entirely). At first it's non alcoholic, and it's simply tasty grape juice. As it ages, especially if you leave it outside, it starts becoming more and more alcoholic, aka wine. Just saying that to clear any "politically correct" thoughts and fears and preconceived ideas about alcohol. Same for my brother. The real issues here have always been over-processing of food and drinks. But I digress. I am not sure about the properties, I know elderberry has quite a handful good ones, but also that if you drink the stuff on the bottom or ingest too many of the flowers then it can be toxic.

Also, rant time, don't even get me started on garlic and green onions in countries like UK, the ones you can find in supermarkets, even organic. They do not taste nice once cooked, on the bitter side, and aren't that good raw either. Where I come from they are very good raw eaten as a side dish for most meats and stuff, in salads etc... and are on the sweet side, not bitter! Maybe they are better if from a garden, I don't know. People are just slowly and gradually losing/killing all the gifts nature gave them, and forgetting everything that used to be good, had taste and aroma. Both garlic and onion are supposed to be very healthy for you (uncooked).

Ramson is a plant that tastes like garlic and can replace it, very aromatic and nice in salads. 

Capsules and vitamins? A medium-sized no no as long as you have the actual plants/foods available. Anyone who recommends them first and foremost loses credibility in my eyes. 


updated by @kate: 08/19/18 01:42:16PM
Kate T
@kate
06/05/18 01:20:22PM
145 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

Feeling weird or drained after talking with certain people or after certain social situations. I will need time to recharge and ponder over what happened/reflect, sometimes I can't even eat or so, I have to go straight to sleep. 

Always been hard for me to keep/remain collected and grounded, yet at the same time able to pick up the good stuff "from the air" or surroundings. 

Having to put extra time and care into who I keep as friends, where I go, what I pursue or do as my job, what i eat, how much I sleep, into what and how I think, and so on. Things can materialise for me pretty quickly, or if I'm not careful and get low, it can get pretty bad, like @hop-daddy explained. To deal with these I had to come to absolutely be certain of MY OWN way, and have belief in the way life works in general and my intuition, for they caused the least harm to myself ^^. Basically center my own energy around myself and make doubts go away. Realising that the weirdest, stray-est thoughts can have the biggest meaning. What's more, I had to NOTICE this in someone else, to learn how to do it myself, or rather to crystallise it. Otherwise just knowing what you want theoretically without searching or seeing does not have the same power. 


updated by @kate: 06/05/18 01:27:35PM
Kate T
@kate
05/23/18 09:03:27AM
145 posts

Spiritual activity and menstruation


Psychic and Paranormal

Interestingly enough, people do not realise how useful and crucial menstruation is for females. 

It actually rids the body of toxins, and it's by far one of the body's most efficient ways of doing so. It is basically preparing you for pregnancy. Eating, drinking, breathing comes at a cost and that is accumulating toxins that need to be eliminated: this happens everywhere and with everything on Earth. The color, odour, length etc of your period can also tell and warn you about any possible issues inside your body, and if you get dizzy and unwell during it it's a clear sign you might be lacking vitamins or iron/zinc etc. and need supplements for it/them (better find a way to enjoy food rich in whatever you lack, rather than through supplements, shakes, pills and painkillers, which are bs, you're not missing an arm, you're just going through menstruation, unless it really does get bad for you).

It is truly sad that during history there were times when menstruation was seen as a shameful thing and women were not allowed to talk about it. 

Menstruation can also make you less grounded, or at least that's the impression I end up with, and when that happens, everything is magnified. Your emotions can also come up to the surface much easier, but that's part of the "cleaning" process as well, and it's not bad, it's a sign that you've simply gathered and bottled up emotions that better get out or will cause you problems later.

Naturally, "light" and shininess attracts. It's not a bad thing... but people nowdays and society seem to be in love with anything unnatural and harmful, so what happens is that natural reactions or happenings/emotions are regarded as bad or stupid by the "normal people". I had to digress, Freud style. But it's directed in general at people who never learn, sorry if it comes off as too "angry".

So much easier to have a 180 degree roll when menstruation strikes if your life is sedentary. Physical activity actually helps to reduce pain, or did in my case. Also listening to your bodily needs, you will feel like eating certain foods and drinking more water a couples days before the "day", and if you won't and will ignore it, which people are taught to do, ignoring their basic needs thoughts and emotions, you will obviously not end up feeling good, or dehydrated, or dizzy. 

You will always feel more spiritual activity and ease of information exchange around a person leading a healthy lifestyle, and menstruation is a natural cleaning cycle, although it does involve losing nutrients. 

However, in nature, many mammals have menstruation, but instead of bleeding the outer womb lining, they just reabsorb it! I am a bit unsure about how much more of a better evolutionary tactic "bleeding it out" (Linking Park reference? :P) is, and how it affects us, but it's definitely an interesting topic.


updated by @kate: 05/23/18 09:29:59AM
Kate T
@kate
04/30/18 02:08:29AM
145 posts

Seeing other worldly beings - Question


Psychic and Paranormal

That is something I'm interested in and I would like to hear more about. I feel sad... or uncomfortable, knowing I have this feeling that like people in the old times we could today refer to coexisting harmoniously with "spirits and everything else".

But people concentrate on the black and white view. In nature a certain smell will attract a certain type of bug, and the same happens with our thoughts, and we have control over them, or should, if only people were more widely taught to look deeper than appearances and also look within themselves. There's that thing that goes, when someone does their job well, or does something good, no one notices... and only when things go bad they start realising... then we are left with what? Reports of exclusively bad encounters and a lot of uncertainty... because only the tragic sets people's minds in motion? Are humans just incredibly forgetful?


updated by @kate: 04/30/18 02:13:58AM
Kate T
@kate
04/22/18 04:36:11AM
145 posts

Seeing other worldly beings - Question


Psychic and Paranormal

If able to :)). My thoughts on the nature of these spirits however is that bad feelings, guilt and sadness attract in turn more of the negative kind, and the way our mind is wired or the way we let it be without actively working on it, on learning and understanding, is the main reason why we get stuck in so many depressing situations. So basically that we are "little gravity centers", even black holes or worm holes at the same time, absorbing "particles" and transforming them. 

Too many life forms to count, and all of them vary. Same with our sensations, no one should ever come to think everything is trying to harm them and completely close away from all the future possible (possibly positive) experiences. 


updated by @kate: 04/22/18 04:39:53AM
Kate T
@kate
04/22/18 03:55:58AM
145 posts

Seeing other worldly beings - Question


Psychic and Paranormal

@hop-daddy

Very interesting to know! I really enjoy reading about what different people's experiences are, good or bad, honestly makes me hopeful about the multiple ways one can perceive "reality", and how many people remain open to doing that, and why their voice seems covered by other "more important" things. I want to remain honest to myself, and I know I might've seen weird appearances in the past as well. I've previously been scared by the idea as well, and so i think this determined part of my mind to try to ignore whatever I might notice for even a split of a second, but something "sparks" these, even if ever so subtle, and I can't erase that from my mind.

@spiritualskies

An organised/pragmatic approach certainly is interesting as well and might lead to finding out interesting stories about the area I'm living in right now ;) We'll see


updated by @kate: 04/22/18 10:47:27PM
Kate T
@kate
04/15/18 02:30:15AM
145 posts



I cannot jump into relationships "just like that" at all for the other must first be able to deal with my intensity and ability to sense his general thoughts and intentions... and tendency to try to change others for the "better" and dealing with challenging situations all the time, more or less. Heavy life lessons. Ability to see beyond random veils and control themselves/himself. And you don't find these people anywhere, but otherwise I am afraid to jump even into random friendships with people because I am aware of my own influence and intensity at times, and not everyone can handle such things.

Sometimes I literally "burn" with my words or gaze if I identify something wrong or become inquisitive if something is hidden and low-key will keep "knock" at the locked door until it opens. I've never had a real relationship in the sense of "been with this person for an year and had sexual contact", because from my previous experiences I reached the conclusion that I should first get to know myself and be able to hold myself back or positively channel and learn to deal with the tendencies or affinities I was born with. I've had people obsessed about my person for years even though I never started a relationship with them or went past the friendship point.

Some even saw me as some kind of "spiritual teacher" and jokingly called me master which freaked me out of course :)) because I used to dislike assuming responsibilities. We can say I was taking everything too seriously, still am possibly, just learned to become a bit more chill and less of a control freak.

And remaining grounded... that was hard and now I'm struggling again. I'm with one foot in this world and with the other... in another. Well at least that's how a lady described it. Wished I could disagree but it was true. Without harsh life experiences I would still be floating, although I used to blame family and/or the direction society is heading towards. "Blaming" because they knew I have some sensibilities (sensing emotions and environment, animals, sometimes even things to come but... don't take it in an "apocalyptic" way, they were or are there because they were related to me, less to others)... so they saw that and tried being overprotective.

I believe we do require essentially complex partners who understand the struggle of trying to remain true to yourself and have a correct judgement, in challenging situations, and also... with understanding towards spiritual matters. But I also think it's more simple to be closer to your human(e) side and natural instincts rather than torn apart by others, constantly in conflicts, leading people to disaster, ill-advising, and so on. Absolutely. We like being simple and returning to our roots, and nothing better for that than nature, old traditions and warm personal relationships based on trust AND acknowledgment about the mysterious nature of this world and effects of our actions and thoughts on everything that surrounds us.


updated by @kate: 04/15/18 02:38:57AM
Kate T
@kate
04/08/18 02:07:51AM
145 posts

Seeing other worldly beings - Question


Psychic and Paranormal

Hello! I was wondering about what different people are able to perceive and see the other day, and some stuck me as being very similar to what some old tales say. My question is, what do you think about people who wrote or talked about having seen beings such as fairies, nature spirits or will o wisps and such, mythologicsl creatures, etc.? What are your thoughts about the origins of these 'visions', and how 'common' would that be (for someone to see such 'things') in the world of today, especially as we've managed to destroy or limit/exploit so many natural sites where they were said to appear? 

How come so many people see only/mainly what they perceive to be negative spirits but you don't really hear of helpful ones unless you live maybe somewhere in the far East?


updated by @kate: 09/05/18 07:41:48PM
Kate T
@kate
04/07/18 03:52:34PM
145 posts



I acknowledge that help and advice for the other things you mentioned could be welcomed, but I will concentrate on what snakes always represented for me and what i'd tell someone who is afraid of them. What you mentioned about the visions does not feel that heavy, or on the fear-phobia side (because I've met people who never touched or met snaked in real life and yet had a snake phobia)and might not really be related to what i'm going to say, but that is good.  

I've had a lot of dreams that involved snakes in the past, but they were never scary. My dreams do take a lot of color from what I actively think and believe about things, and in my case, i find reptiles beautiful, and I touched and photographed snakes in the wild before. I also like drawing them. In dreams, what was scary was, maybe, the environment they were in.

They never appeared as indicating something bad themselves, but more like 'something happened that made them not be docile', or I was not sure how to approach them. 

A very positive dream i had about them when i was younger, was where i woke up at the base of a tree on a small patch of land surrounded by water, like in a sunny, green, beautiful swamp or flooded forest. On that patch surrounding me there were a myriad of colorful snakes on the ground, so many I couldn't see the grass, but they created a path for me to walk forward without stepping on them and got into a boat and started rowing slowly. In another it was night and I was looking for a silvery, almost spirit-like milk-colored anaconda that i could picture in my mind but couldn't find. In another, I felt pain as me and many snakes got caught in big fires in a garage/parking... in another, very poisonous snakes were hanging still in a tree orchard in a desert, trying to keep their energy, and judging whether they could let me touch them/react to me or not... these dreams with them are calm, compared to others I have/had. 

Animals that appeared in very intense dreams in the past, that I can remember: black dogs/wolves, lions (my earliest dream that i remember from early childhood, about 2 lions and roaring in the night, back when dad and mom were still sleeping with me sometimes because i was scared of the dark, and we still had a white/black tv) and then about a caged and angry lion, primates, an Orca, snowy/barn owl, dinosaur (carnivorous bipedal type), horses.

I wouldn't advise you or any person for that matter (and I've discussed this already with other people) to start fearing or associating and animal with something spiritually negative because you heard you should or someone had a bad experience (we are talking about animals). That never leads to good things, and that animal will then become for you a mere shadow, reflection, echo of something that comes from outside which you 'kindly' welcomed inside (fear) for no reason, in dreams, comparisons or passing illusions, in what you project when thinking or looking at it. You ought to have your own experience with animals and decide for yourself, or when not applicable, try to switch your focus to yourself and reflect upon it, don't just 'welcome it in'. Our role as human beings is definitely not to live in fear and on primal instincts, and everyone has different needs and callings...


updated by @kate: 04/07/18 04:56:45PM
Kate T
@kate
03/01/18 04:50:59PM
145 posts

Have you ever gone through a transition that really changed your whole life?


Empath

Yes.

I don't believe or don't want to believe in predestination as in your future is set in stone, yet at one point I felt that choosing to remain in a certain place would have led to that, and me missing something big. It was a big pressure that i tried to lift by moving somewhere else. Couldn't have done much else. What followed was a horrible experience and i kept asking myself what else I was supposed to do, and for 2 years I kept wishing to reverse or freeze time. It wasn't about a significant someone, but related to studies/future work. By all standards, it was bad, and I felt horrible, as it coincided with a period when I felt like reading, studying and trying to understand the world around me and the philosophy behind esoteric practices, religions etc. Was a time when I felt like being with myself but I felt misunderstood because of that, and I was. I felt like I lost a part of myself as well, and I had some very cryptic dreams. 

Right now though I think it challenged me to rethink some things and led to me not regretting anything else ever again, or be in a state of undecidedness. I value straightforwardness much more, although I still don't understand right now why it had to be that bad... at least I had family close and some friends. I kind of still remained with pity for myself in the sense that, it could've been much better, why was i thrown in that social mess? How can our minds become so diffuse, distracted, how can it be so hard to remain grounded and clear your mind? Why are people so weak? But it's like I attracted and collected all the negative situations around me, and felt compelled to solve them, even when they weren't mine, so to say. Was incredible how out of the place i felt at times, but also how fast thought/intention would manifest. 

So I re-learned the role of boundaries the rather painful way. And I finally "sorted" myself out 3 years later, after meeting someone who i believe helped me a lot without realising, simply through his way of being. Was what i thought to be "a correct way". "Finally someone not afraid to be themselves, and who need to be who they are". 

So then no more lies, to others and yourself. Do what you have to do. I left what was hurting me definitively... basically I left my country for the time being. "Studies" I believe they call them in a generic way. I feel fine right now though, and better in the long run. So it did not lead to something bad, but I had to pull myself together, and clean what had been shoved "under the rug", which happens even to the most careful... sometimes you simply don't realise. Maybe it's better, maybe it's worse... at one point though you have to face them. When you realise the futility of many social constructs in a modern society, the illusions some chase, misplaced faiths, and that you have to use what you were given. 


updated by @kate: 03/01/18 05:50:15PM
Kate T
@kate
09/24/17 05:45:13PM
145 posts

I think my son can see auras


Empath

It is amazing to read this and also from my own experience, what I have to say is make him embrace his gifts and never doubt them.

The next step is teaching him to remain grounded. To maintain a simple balance and let him spend time with himself when he needs, or be there for him and listen and talk with him about his observations about the surrounding world. Also, maintaining a healthy lifestyle is important, because it impacts one's capacities as an empath/psychic greatly, especially when young, from foods with a lot of additives to too much salt and sugar and "wild" sleeping patterns or too little water. The "banal" things at first sight, but not really banal at all.

And I definitely agree with the "trying on the whole to not tell too many people about these things he has". Society isn't the most accepting with such gifts, at all...
Kate T
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09/24/17 05:31:03PM
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Questions on how YOU experience vibes/energy...


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It's very hard for me to tell all these subtleties because it almost hurts to feel others somehow, and I can't "hide my presence" that easily... but I know that in most cases I feel thoughts related to me. The second someone concentrates on me for whatever reason I feel or hear it on a mental level, although my "barriers" only let friends and people I know inside. Not always ;)

As for feeling, I kinda take the feeling in, which has created me SO many problems until now and especially when I was younger. Many times the feelings go in the stomach/chest area. It feels awful to not have someone who understands you and what you go through, and these subjects being "taboos" here, but I guess and hope it will pay off... at some point:/
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Kate T
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08/16/17 02:56:43PM
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@Hop Daddy

Thank you for sharing! It means a lot to read that other people, and as in your case, entire families, have grown accustomed to their gifts and learned to manage them without hurting anyone or themselves (hopefully). 

Yes, I had to keep it hidden from virtually most people and got used to doing so. Sometimes really nice things happen. Some friends or people might "sense" something and actually want to meet up with me to talk about spirituality, or simply confess stuff in general. I've had some pretty tough things to deal with on a mental level, and for a long time I think I was caught in my family's matters that needed to be solved, on a psychological and spiritual level too. But family remains family... and all for the best, we want to hope, except I was urged to become more independent and so I and so I do judge a few things about them now. 

I have been very concerned over the years about what I do and what I shouldn't, to try and preserve whatever abilities I have... it's kept me away from "dangers" but it's not exactly easy to explain decisions that are different from others', such as needing more time for myself and so on. And it's definitely been a wild ride through the educational system here. Not the best. I mean my grades were good... but there were so many unnecessarily hurtful things... real unnecessary. 

Every time i start writing, a novel unravels, and I have to get self-conscious and write shorter posts here, lol. I am hoping more people will wake up to it... 

Kate T
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08/12/17 09:21:18AM
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I wish to talk about spiritual gifts being passed down or inherited in a family, members "waking up" to it, without any form of education in this sense. A few years ago I became heavily attracted to reading and studying on my own about the many different types of spirituality, belief systems, layers of reality, myths and legends, astrological systems. I believe I was 12 when I started noticing some weird things around me, and the most of all, very strong feelings at time before something was to happen, or IF an act would lead to something potentially dangerous or life-threatening. But such topics were pretty much looked down upon. 

After finally opening up, even if vaguely, to my mother, I found out we have had before in my family, my grand-grand mother and a mother's relative, accurately doing readings for friends and family. My own mother admitted to having precognitive dreams but being scared or uncertain about them. She's been trying to tell apart what is real from what are fears. When I started waking up to a few more things I really did not like around me I had to pull back because such thoughts were too much for my own family to take in rationally. So I was just by myself... and forums from time to time, always searching to remain rooted and conscious about my gut feelings and the things I can perceive. It wasn't exactly a straight road...

The signals are everywhere if you can listen to them, and nothing happens without warning, that I know. I have been able to hear thoughts at times especially if they are connected to me and perfectly re-tell them, sometimes kind of scaring people especially when I was younger, which ended with me talking much less than anyone else, being more shy, and having them think I'm weird... I've learned that people, as they grow up, detach so much sometimes from their real selves, maybe because of their environments they end up working in, that they are afraid of being seen as they are or looked at in this way, especially if by a non-family member. I have always had a special thing for animals, nature and kids, and a way of digging up potential lies. It's funny how you learn to not be scared of the more shadowy part of people or of yourself, a pretty valuable and interesting lesson. It's more about balance and re-directing it, and the asian spirituality is right about portraying both ligth and darkness. 

As I grew up I learned more about personal power, detaching more and creating healthier boundaries. (but not typical conscious shielding, no matter what I read here I don't feel it at the moment to be the best option at all for... people in general, not talking about specific cases) I even kept it secret-ish when, in search for a quiet place where closing your eyes and thinking about spiritual things is not an issue, I ended up in church gardens on a bench or inside it, and everything was fine, but I had to keep it for myself not to alarm my family.......... which is basically the story of my life till now. I've been working towards connecting this side to the mundane life in a way that family, my close ones and even other people that come in contact with me can understand and accept, because I can't be someone else (I've tried to. Had self-undoing tendencies too. So my advice: don't repeat the same mistake, just because some people who don't know you think you should behave a certain way). I'm not using many specific words, in fact it's interesting what pure thinking/attitude and actions do by themselves. All in the while, I was a "normal" kid, then teenager, now finished university, going for Masters. I've been keeping an eye on my dreams as well. 

My father's mother also had 3 big precognitive moments in her life, last one being before a big earthquake, which could have killed my father as a baby: she saw a wall falling on him, and so she woke up and moved him away. Then after a few minutes this is exactly what happened, the bed on which he was previously sleeping was covered in the wall's debris, after the earthquake occured. 

I don't know what to say about this other than I did not suddenly wake up to it, but just kept it for myself or tried to redirect it until I could no more. I've talked with my grandmother about my relatives but it seems like it was allright during those times and people did not mock or try to bring them down. They were doing it as part of their lives, of course I was curious to hear about repercussions, but there weren't any happenings connected to their forecasting as far as I'm or grandmother was aware of. Also on the maternal line, there is a 90% incidence of Cystic fibrosis, and I already had a few minor issues related to this as well, but again, just minor fortunately, and I've been healthy overall, "thanks God" as we say here ^^. I also have a weirdly sensible sense of hearing. I very much like to think it's normal for us as a species to have such gifts in order to positively advance, and a big shame to disdain them, like it is happening. 

Note: I still consider myself Christian because this is how I grew up and the way I was raised, it's never been a contradicting system of beliefs, not at all. But I also believe in these other things and valuable lessons that all religions on this earth can offer. 

What do you think about it? What are your experiences with people claiming to have "gifts" running in families? I know this forum has many American members in it, and the native American heritage is rich in spirituality and respect for one's land... (just one example). What is your story, connected to your family? 


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Kate T
@kate
08/07/17 01:15:40AM
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I ran across this article & thought I'd post it here to see what others thoughts are.


Empath

I think it's true and at times I have pondered over how I can be my own single greatest "enemy", which is why it was so important for me to learn quick, and the truth, as much or deep as I could, about me or the people around me, and judge less.

While the title looks to me a bit like specially made to engage other people to click read about "empaths" (and thus it doesn't sound too right. "Aware" could have been a better word rather than cautious lol) what grinds my gears is when people write and believe in things such as "smart manipulators" and so on.

Part of being part of this world is learning to grow stronger but not while walking on everyone around you or kicking them aside. And as much as some people want to consider themselves separate, different souls or entities, your biological body with an encrypted genetic code remains as your "vessel" and the earthly rules or unwritten rules of this Universe remain. You get back what you send, you meet with what you keep hidden inside, for it always searches for an outlet or flow. Boundaries are healthy and must exist, sometimes pain is necessary, but "manipulators" as you call them are never "incarnations of evil from birth" in my honest opinion. They need someone to "see" and like them just as you do, but then there are all those past experiences and mirrors you've broken yourself into to fit a mold that others believe in but is unnecessary. How you realise this is not through shielding and pampering but neither through succumbing to vices or addictions. It's through living but keeping hope and belief. It's a thin line, but we are made (and desired) to learn to walk on it rather than always stumble and fall into some of the darkest pits: violence, genocides, religious crimes, destroying of the environment all around in every way. In the sea, kilometres under the Earth (fracking), air, soil, animals, plants.

Maybe the "narcissists" you meet reflect a part of you, that part which, confined in a cage with walls made of some negative past experiences, made you primarily and only think about yourself or self-pity, or cases when just your constructed ego was hurt, not your true purpose or core, and thus there was nothing to fear in the first place, but only more to analyze about yourself. Let some think they're smarter and chuckle under your breath, you don't need to waste your energy on no one who you think doesn't deserve and who have forgotten even what joy is. What I mean to say is that sometimes it is hard not to get involved, it's like an obsessive disappointing deeply saddening thought of "But why, this isn't necessary, come let me show you something better!". I had to learn that if someone refuses it once and again, it's not your place anymore to try and force and opinion, even if you (think/feel as if you) are right. They will realise later. And if you did your "job" well, they won't even link the good thought with you necessarily, but realise the existence of an abstract form/idea/way/choice that is better. The more people you meet with your feet grounded the less you attribute to them superlatives such as "the most evil person I know" because you'll meet "worse" (for you) and if you did your part, might even find out the person you once perceived as "evil" or "master manipulator" had, say, an abusive father and family, and now tries to correct themselves and lead by better principles. And by the way, family remains the most important unit in this world, and the environment/ideas you grow up in ends up end up dictating what you will do later, whether you chose to go away from them, chose something tangent or follow them.

Some people will always have strong callings and a need to fulfill their purpose, that seemingly not even family was able to dull, but still.
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Kate T
@kate
04/24/17 03:36:23AM
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Posts like these bother me, I have to admit. They're generalizations, and it's not a good idea to make great big assumptions on something we still know so little about. I didn't know I was empathic until a few years ago. It never occurred to me that there are more females. I would tread cautiously before making a blanket statement like this.

I agree with your concept, but differently. Many if not most people agree with females being more in tune to their empathic side or accepting it, but let me tell you why i think this happens, and why i don't see it as a blanket statement. It simply comes from how gender roles have been for centuries and how females have to bear and take care of children, so they have to be naturally in tune with the emotional needs of the other, and there's even the maternal/nursing instinct in there. Guys haven't been traditionally encouraged to polish these attributes, and might've been seen as weaknesses among their peers when shown. 

At the core, I strongly believe most of us are born fully able to become balanced empaths or intuitive thinkers, with 0 differentiation between male or female. And if I am not mistaken about sensibility (in my mind empathy, being psychic... they go hand in hand, like the majority of these abilities), there have been both male and female names to go down history as great people-healers.


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Kate T
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04/19/17 06:09:35AM
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I also had the same thing going but with a tougher luck... in my country there aren't many opportunities on what i would have had a personal drive for (psychology/special education/sustainable tourism/environmental sciences/even biology field) or they have a abd reputation for not being good, so I just went along with foreign languages since parents etc noticed it easy for me to pick them up. Ends up that it's so much the environment and people through which I pick them up and not the way they are taught at universities with no field trips, little to no interaction, games or auditory materials, basically just paperwork and whatever you can do at home. I realized I could have very well learned what I wanted to learn by staying at a host family from a certain nationality while doing something real for myself or for the career i was "draming" about. It's definitely not the first time normal education leaves me cold though (I talk - you listen, no projects, no interaction, I'm smarter-you're dumber type of stuff).

So what i am doing is I'm finding opportunities to go abroad (Europe) at the moment though it's pretty annoying being in the terminal year here and having to finish something that I don't like ^^. I am naturally artistic and I feel the need to draw all the time, read and listen to so many things, I can't just go conventional... 

It can be worse to have multiple things in mind that you feel like doing, rather than "just one calling". xD And going for the material aspect only? I'm afraid for me it works the other way around... by doing what I can dedicate myself to, I'm able to sustain myself. 


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Kate T
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04/09/17 03:04:34AM
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It's pretty sad to read how often religion goes hand in hand with unpleasant memories and strictness... :/

I can't say they shut me down, and I've definitely been nurtured because my own mother had premonitions and these kind of feelings that i had as well, especially through dreams. My grandma was/is a strong character, and my grand-grandmother used to help the wives of the soldiers with readings during WWII. It took me years until she finally told me this, because it's a bit of a taboo, borderline between being right and wrong, especially with my mother.

With me, I had a strong "calling" towards learning more and I've always had a special thing for children, animals, people in need and so on. I'm also a confessions magnet at times, and the one people spot first when they're lost in the city or at the subway and looking for directions xD

As far as religiousness goes, my family was a bit, but not so much, we just always respected the major dates that were a source of celebration/party and happiness/being together with friends or family so, it never ever got bad connotations. We each had our own vision on religion and when we felt like of course we did a prayer or went to the church... sometimes... not often lol. But still. I had a period when I went more often, but it was purely out of personal curiosity and searching for meanings, history and a lot of stuff, so it was during the same period when i was reading about astrology, occult branches and so on. I kinda mashed them together. Went to a Reiki course that I did not enjoy much (the after feeling was... to say at least, weird) but I was also welcomed by an energy therapeutist lady and I liked those sessions more. It was more calming, and it was hand in hand with healing and using natural medication to treat affections or whatever... she was quite well known in my city actually). During the thingy I used to feel a tingle on top of my head so strong it made me smile widely or laugh, I couldn't control it, it made me happy. As far as my vision goes on it, I believe every religion has something beautiful to teach, and I am sad our priests for example don't focus wordly issues such as pollution and respecting nature and animals, something people were I live lack a lot... respect for nature. I don't make religion a central subject in my head, though it remains an important part of the society here, and while I will always keep my own ideas (mostly related to certain distorted images created by the human mind when spread further through speech or put in words), I also believe in Christianity to a certain extent from a historical point of view. 

Where I lived, having feelings about something that is to happen was never something "omg the devil" blah blah. Anything spiritual of this kind was seen as something that could possibly help, but it needed pondering over and deciding whether it's good or not to give it much attention. Usually people wouldn't speak about it in these contexts that we are on this forum though. The branches that involve communicating with spirits, using gemstones or cards and whatnot are on the forbidden/not safe side and no priest would like hearing you talk about them as a "yo hey I do that in my free time" xD. I have my doubts when it comes to these things as well, and the steps are really small and careful. Generally speaking I don't like certain colors of it, but I feel more at peace when associating or delving into the Norse/rune reading culture for example, rather than the french, italian or arabic roots of the tarot, and also more than some of the chinese bone/turtle shell/etc practices. It's also related to the character of the individual. If you had a good image, were doing good things, were calm or from a good family and so on, people would respect more when you had premonitions or these kind of things, as opposed to someone with a less fortunate start in life whose "dreams" might have been equally true. 

Looking at what i wrote I wonder if some people feel like calling it a Fantasy World i lived in xD it surely wasn't, and while I had a fine childhood as far as family, travelling and everything related to them is included, I was the one willful enough not to accept bad things happening to me or trying to calm the waters. I also meditated over what happened to me and over time filtered out the unpleasant things, though I sure remember them, I don't feel remorse... or anger. It also helps talking to someone about them. It was pretty bad when it came to school and classmates though and I only mean the social side of it... :/ I didn't like it. I had my trust in people lost for a long time. And I'm social by nature but simply sensible to the negative stuff so I was a bit lost. Had issues with bullies too... What i believed in was always challenged more or less. Grades & relationship with teachers or bigger people were always ok. 

The major issue I noticed within the society is being taught to disregard inner feelings and emotions, or not follow them. This is a huge mistake I wish it was no longer taught within families as well. Instead of strengthening/empowering the individual or teaching balance/consideration for the people within society, you weaken it to make it more malleable or less resistant to other people will? That's how I felt about myself, and I've always been about figuring out what I want to do, what I have to do, who I am, what I am capable of ^^. The need for boundaries and personal limitations (Especially coming from essentially... well, having a body xd as weird as that sounds, I wish I could do things without being bothered by sleep or need to eat sometimes). Well...

My bad for a not that correct English.


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Kate T
@kate
04/09/17 01:00:39AM
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There are a few different degrees of perceptibility.. the ones where I feel emotions as if they were my own (only recently...few years have I started being able to differentiate them) happen between me and family and very close friends. Otherwise it happened with other people sometimes but they were sudden surges so it's always been easier to tell apart. I've let myself dragged down by other people's emotions so many damned(shh) times... 

Then there is something about emotions that are a result of intense wishes that the individual wants fulfilled. This can happen with animals as well (i.e. horses) and has happened to me. What I mean is: a horse riding center I went to had a pretty sick horse that couldn't be ridden (Respiratory issues> coughing, pulmonary pain, mucus). He was not only hungry for some love and affection, but a few seconds after looking at him I was transported for a brief moment in my head on a meadow watching a horse run and feeling as if this was the biggest most intense wish I (the horse) had and then I felt as if I wanted to take him out of there, and it was pretty annoying to try and calm myself :) I figured they must have been keeping him closed inside the stables for ages and I did not like it. I don't have any training about horse health and stuff, but the picture I got was crystal clear, I wished they took him out. I went and told them my thoughts (obviously not what I've seen they would have thought I'm crazy I guess) and yet they kept keeping him inside for another 2 weeks until the vet came. He hasn't been out in 2 months. The vet was negatively impressed and told them the horse needs to stay out as much as he can, and that the stables are only aggravating his condition because of the hay dust and all.

Another one was while riding, a few moments after hopping in the saddle i felt as if someone stabbed my leg. Then the next few moments after stretching I noticed there was nothing wrong with mine... I told my trainer there is something weird with my leg and I think with the horse as well... soon enough he started walking weird or lumping, though I was pretty newbie at that time so my trainer noticed the horse first... well apparently he had to lounge him for another 15 minutes while I (my leg) was fine the entire time. 

It's not the only case I got sudden images containing emotions/wishes, but it's the freshest, and was by far among the clearest I've ever got, the one with the sick gelding. That's animals for you... clear consciousness.


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Kate T
@kate
04/09/17 12:46:27AM
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Consciousness


Empath

A pleasurably noisy swarm of colorful butterflies when awake, curious/open and content/happy in the moment, as you feel it "communicating" ;)

Or that might as well have another name. I don't know


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Kate T
@kate
03/17/17 04:23:19PM
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Relationships....help!!


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Relationships, by their general definition, are probably the hardest thing for me. It sure takes a lot of time before I can open up to someone in the intimate sense. Maybe it's because of the way that I know energy can flow between me and another person and I take responsibility if I can't control it or correctly interpret the "messages" i get (or transform into a psychological bully), secondly because of this inner struggle for getting it right and not screwing it up. Weirdly enough, there haven't been many people that left me with the "there's such a weird link between us" feeling. Deep in there I'm not even curious to mess around. Instead it's like this persisting hope and belief that when I will meet the right person I will feel it. What puts me at odds is actually the people around me: bit desperate for this feeling of attention and love I would say, so much that their relationships become just superficial connections. I'm happy to say that at least I have heard or seen happy and positive relationship cases from people closer to me. 

Regardless of my own little hurtful experiences or anything that left a mark on me, I'm the type who will try to meditate on it and fix it, not go to someone else for pity or, I don't know... (there are many deeper things about myself I have never even spoken about to my parents. I'd feel guilty to let them know I was hurt by certain experiences and people when they wanted me to be happy) Going back to it, I don't want to form anything that doesn't have a spiritual or a bit of a fated feeling to it, or that doesn't awake my admiration ^^ It's pretty simple actually. I just feel at odds with the "average person's requirements" of our society honestly, when they are redirected towards me or if I am asked to do the same. I just wish to grow as a person and correctly understand my inner needs, and follow my intuition, not what others or society, as I have the luck to experience it at the moment, tell me I should go for. 


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Kate T
@kate
01/27/17 01:50:57AM
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Sun and Ascendant in Capricorn, Moon and Venus in Aquarius.

But I also got Mars, Mercury, Juno, Uranus and Neptune In Capricorn, and saturn in Pisces is in mutual reception w Nep and disposits my Cappy planets. Try figuring out this chunk of earth ^^

I've been drawn to astrology for years even though irl here and in my family it is like believing in unicorns. I feel it to be natural. It's not only as if it makes sense somehow, but it does provide a sense of calmness as well, and I like reading between the lines of people's charts.
I do not like exagerration and I don't guide my life after astrology. In fact I just felt a huge urge to learn about it so I taught myself, reading everything possible for about 5 years (15-20), and now the feeling is less intense and I just concentrate on other things. One of my personal hobbies so to say, it was. I have always been looking for new ways to see or understand the world and astrology is a gate to a deeper mindset. I also looked into chinese, indian, aztec calendars and so on. Hawaiian or amerindian. I don't find them to be bullshit at all, and a chart does show a lot of clues about a person's life or developpment. What I am not so sure I like is economical/political/other kinds of bullshit (just imo) predictive astrology and synastry.
I also remain a firm believer in my right to chose a path.
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Kate T
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01/24/17 04:27:59PM
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If we were to talk about evolution being practical, then blue eyes and light skin are not handy at all when it comes to being exposed to sun, have higher risk of developping skin cancer, and light eyed people also have more issues driving something in sunlight so that they'll have to wear sunglasses even when others wouldn't feel the need. This is why evolution favored certain colors more depending on the geographical area... now I won't delve into the matter of otherwordly beings that are blue eyed and so on. We can sure argue about all the "many star children coming in the nordic countries", about the culture of portraying evolved beings or noble races such as elves with lighter skin-eyes-hair. Blue and gold. Sky and Sun. But speaking of human beings, whether your eyes are green, blue, brown, black, 2 combined or something else is not an accurate indicator of empathic or psychic prowess alone... pretty sure of that xD

The "latest" males in my family all have blue or green eyes (both grandpas, father, brother, great-grampa), whereas all the females have darker or lighter shades of brown, me included. We have always been more sensitive and open to other kind of perceptions however. You can argue it's the female factor here playing its role.

It really depends on where you live.

More than anything everyone carries a gift but not everyone gets to develop it, retain their sensitivity, work with it, and so on... it's kind of unfortunate
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Kate T
@kate
12/25/16 02:20:22PM
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I definitely believe there are areas that attract certain types of people or help them grow, because the places themselves have a different kind of energy. I've heard quite a few awesome things about many places in the USA regarded as energy vortexes and frequent meetings organised around. Some of them that come to mind would be Crater Lake, Arizona, and latest though I am not sure where more exactly, in Hawai'i, especially in the latest years. 

Lucky guys lol. Walking solo here...

I can't even tell my family about my thoughts regarding this "problem" (they inevitably caught up on the fact that i am more sensitive towards stimuli, high creativity, I do not like agitation and noise, and so on) but I've always been encouraged to overcome them as if they were some kind of undesirable traits and nuisances, being calm, preferring peace. I am not even kidding, and to tell you honestly I've rarely felt at ease with myself, only in certain scenarios: in nature, in competitive environments when it came down to remembering or solving things (though then you kinda attract envy or stuff), in dealing with animals or listening to someone, in dealing with kids, drawing... After the storm subsides, the suddenly-desirable-traits become something you should be "wary of" once again. Way to go. 

To friends? I have only been able to open the subject after real things happened between us... coincidences, thinking about the same things, realizing something is going to happen and having it happening, certain dreams; never big (i guess?), but impactful on a personal level... even so, it's still more like a taboo. I only came here (on the forums) when I could no longer not speak of these... and just writing about them for myself was insufficient as well. A good night's sleep didn't make the pressure go away either. I do wish to talk more freely about gifts and sensitivity, perceptions, astrology, occult subjects and so on. Not as something negative, but as something that can possibly help us relieve or repair all the mistakes that we've done or keep doing, the way we hurt each other, cut wings, the way we keep hurting our environment and so on. As a gate to deeper insights. But lol, I should keep dreaming for now, I believe, and it seems. 

To tell you the truth, quite a few "real" people from here with whom I have interacted and spoken to about such subjects were a bit on the fanatic side. The material reality was a second reality, subject to interpretations that never came true, or modified by measures such as constantly wielding crystals and doing meditation in a context where they did not bring actual achievements or a sense of enlightening to too many others (I am having a certain someone in mind when thinking about these, and I am sure that someone wouldn't really like it and I'm sorry, but... yeah). In fact, I felt awkward, a little bit scared actually sensing it actually. All these measures were having the opposite effect, fostering negative energies. The search in this direction was driven by fear or bad recent happenings, not by some kind of inner peaceful calling. Rarely have I met balanced people myself (that were actually searching things in a spiritual way, not referring to those who do not usually think about this side ^^), and it becomes so obvious why these subjects catch a negative connotation in the eye of someone who never thought about them but is introduced to them through someone who is unbalanced. I became so wary of other people myself I rarely accept outside help unless I feel a strong calling.

I don't want to judge or generalize, but it's how it's been here more or less and through my eyes. 

And I can tell you even more honestly, the people ruling certain countries themselves do not want you by any means to develop spiritually and mentally, to have accepting views, to work for the benefit of the society... !! I have 'worked' with an international students organisation and I cannot even tell you the situation in some countries such as Russia and some Muslim ones from Africa. How they struggle with simple projects about Women rights that or Eco-sustainability and the police tries to stop projects from happening. It's funny. Yet it's not. Where is the help in 3rd world countries, I wonder. Gone, on the wings of endless meditation about worldly problems from our cozy homes. I'm not even excluding myself :( I could do so much more... 

South-Eastern EU here. 


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Kate T
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12/24/16 10:23:14AM
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Hop Daddy:

@gem

Wow, a war hospital? No wonder your son is seeing things. There must have been a lot going on there. I have the oppositie situation with not prior history on my land that I am aware of. I live in AZ and I am the original owner of my house (it was built on vacant land where there had not been any prior housing). And I would think that it would be free of ghosts with no prior living or death history on the land. But the opposite is true. It's like grand central station with ghosts. I can't see them but hear them. And my daughter sees them and says she rarely sees the same one twice except for a tall man in a civil war costume that likes to hang out in my home office. We also seem to attract a fair amount of child spirits ranging from 5-16. Arizona was not very active in the civil war but did have Indian wars so I've always been curious about our civil war ghost and how he is attached to our house. I'm also curious how we get so many child ghosts (I assumed it is because they are attracted to my kids).

This. I get goosebumps myself in a lot of places and when I was small they easily overwhelmed me. Your son has reasons not to feel at ease. My own symptoms in old places where the atmosphere is heavy, became physical: tearing, and energy pulses through my body. They are quite refreshing, but fear of unknown is not. This however is a direct and instant instinctive reaction that, I believe, creates a barrier naturally. I learned to calm myself down in such places, or be left at peace in a way or another. You have to be direct and decided, the power of will here decides what stays and what goes form or around you ^^ Everything has a reason though. With children, they have the good energy that can clear the atmosphere of a place. Even the tormented souls of living people draw them closer to those who can potentially help them, now imagine with the so-called spirits , "orbs" still lingering. I am one of those people who must let themselves feel the problems, otherwise I become... alienated form myself? or disappointed at myself, a feeling that will not go and i dislike. What you do next you pray or send good thoughts, hope that they go in peace. Finding the good inside myself and sending good thoughts has been the only way for me to be feel again as if "I'm left in peace". Maybe we are contacted sometimes with this purpose, to help. You have to live a bit differently to be able to manage such thoughts, emotions and feelings. Lying to yourself? Good luck with that. I can't "abuse" myself or have addictions and so on either. I can't even tolerate people who "steal" away energy easily. It's a complicated little world. Fun too. Sometimes sad. Everyone has its own life and purpose. 

It's important to have healthy boundaries, but it is also important to not ignore. Do not try to "ignore" them, please. Do not think they will automatically bring harm either, no, they will react according to your own inner state. You can channel energies and enlighten the place a little. Use this wisely, don't just separate yourself from the problem and not feel it ^^ let yourself feel it actually. Images of war, thoughts about the things that might have happened there. They will arrange themselves in an order and then you have all the rights to call to be left alone by whatever your son might be seeing. This is just my opinion. It's difficult living in such places, with tormented histories where people died full of heavy thoughts and sad or unfulfilled, holding grudges... a I'm writing this message my eyes fill again :/ Cannot help it. Little can be done after (after someone died that is) only acceptance, change in your own way of thinking and in what you teach other people or bring to the present. Time flows. Things overlap sometimes too. Unlearned lessons will repeat themselves. 

I've never seen spirits in such a way, and yet I've always been terrified of this thought. I always thought I could hear things, as opposed to seeing them, and all my childhood I was pretty certain that if anything happened to appear before my eyes I'd faint so I 'prayed' for that not to happen xD. I never wished "not to feel" though. I'm not the kind that gets scared that easily tho so it's weird. It simply was my childhood taboo subject.


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Kate T
@kate
10/28/16 03:10:06AM
145 posts

Interpreting warning signs


Empath

Hey guys, thanks for the responses, I always feel them useful.

I did take the decision I was talking above according to my gut and even though I am still unsure how it will further play out, I am happy/I was glad I did that.

I checked the site rene, and i did come across a point that I have been trying to do yet didn't fully get to it: experiment with my intuitive knowing, not fearing imaginary shadows as long as I know I do it with the purpose of learning ^^. Way to go still, and while I cannot say "I wish i knew our hearts are the best compass earlier, even though sometimes I still might want to shut it away" I sure wish more people started torturing themselves... less, and let their imagination and intuitive side free. So many problems can/could be solved this way... : /

Kate T
@kate
10/25/16 06:58:48AM
145 posts

Interpreting warning signs


Empath

I just want to start by saying "Just because it could be worse, doesn't mean it couldn't be better"

And from this, ask a question about myself, or rather said, ourselves in general. I know we are highly sensitive people (though I am wondering whether we should really be named like this... with the conception of "having something weak there". In my opinion it's such a strong gift, it just asks you to take care of it and yourself and make you accept things on a deeper level) and everybody gets premonitions, an eerie or just overall "shaky" feeling that "it will not be ok if i do this" or "this will not bring me any good" even though on the spot it might seems like you cannot find the root cause and your brain and common sense are like "you can treat this 'professionally' and pull it out right? it will be of use in the future, don't give it up" or something like this. And yet, despite all the logical reasons, you wake up as if accessing your heart becomes even harder and so does relating to other people, or you even feel like you cannot tolerate any longer certain people that you didn't mind "borrowing" some energy through the link between you two (well I'm actually quite glad because of this actually). You want, say, a professional thing, but somehow in practice, it drains you of the thing you want to share the most: love, acceptance, easy-going-ness. Sure it might bring a sense of "you are doing something" but at the same time it's like a pretext. Ultimately you feel stressed, and wake up thinking one thing: wanting to give it up as realistically speaking, you've also got plenty of other opportunities, even though you've made plans about this and now you're slightly disappointed.

Now to be more exact, and I am sorry I generalized it so much (i was hoping that others could maybe relate), this is definitely not a one-time feeling/case scenario. I have feelings/premonitions so to call them about things, about people, about anything that might not go well and which does not go according to my... will of doing something better in this lifetime. I was proven right many times, and yet, some other times, despite even getting physical illness after prolonged time in this anxious state of "I don't really want to do this in this environment" i actually pulled it out. Once again, these feelings are re-appearing now, and it is about volunteering at a students organisation, which was cool while I was abroad. The problem is with the one in my country... well... I perceive the community differently, in a bit of a darker shade (which can be explained by a big difference in socio-economical factors............) and yet it drains me, feels like I want to pull away from people rather than open up more, so even though it seemed like this will be the perfect chance to help other students and so on I am ultimately getting these signals that my heart does not agree with it. I even caught a cold in these 2 weeks of "should i do this" after not having any for 2 years. There is one big material factor (my license, and not so much free time) but the most important one remains my gut instinct that keeps making me want to pull away. 

I have been learning to trust it, and interpret a lot of signs, and yet I have a long way to go. I now realize when I was younger I used to get drained and horribly overwhelmed from a sensorial point of view and crowds, malls, stuff with a lot of radio waves etc were not my favorite spots. This is why some of my rationalizing might have been wrong, and I was just scared to do a certain thing. I do not want this to be the case again, and I do not want to be a coward, or get "paranoiac" about it, which for us can oftentimes be a big problem I believe. 

Yet I've always loved to go adventure-mode and do things others are afraid of, so I cannot speak about being scared per se, but rather, unsure of how to interpret the signals that i get and lack of confidence in myself (more in the past). From horse riding, to scuba diving, public speaking, jumping in the defense of someone who gets bullied for bullshit or actually trying to separate fighting dogs or touching wild snakes. I am naming these maybe because I want to underline that i have a different concept of fear...

it's more related to not screwing up all the hopes that my loved ones and family put in me, or even 'better', being afraid to take risks. I also had to create some ripples there because I grew extremely uncomfortable with any traditional role or expectations that were placed upon me and would essentially not benefit my own wishes that i for too long I just kept within myself anyways. I cried so much when i was younger .__. But I am happy to discover wishes do come true. And this is exactly what i want.

So there you have it: how do you know, how have you learned to separate actual premonitions/bad feelings from potentially obsessive/paranoiac thoughts? I know that sometimes you cannot even do that even if you're told or read about it, it's only through experience and time that you can weight the probability and your own will that play a role in something happening or rolling in a certain way... maybe I should just try to reach a calmer state more often :/

Note: I found out there is a history in my family with predictive dreams and images that came true and even some of our close friends or some other people knew about them. If it was not for this, I might have still been questioning my own sanity, since I tend to always first question things. My mother dreams about them however so they are more of a "hard to influence" matter. I have choices, and this is my problem :/ 


updated by @kate: 02/26/17 09:23:32PM
Kate T
@kate
10/14/16 09:24:46AM
145 posts

Are we deemed to Hell?


Empath

This idea always sounded a bit weird to me even though it did go through my mind.

I don't really even know how to start from it other than with the fact that, above every every man-made religion stand unwritten rules of morality and give-and-receive universal laws we obey even if we want even if we don't. Energy reacts to energy, frequency to frequency, everything is in motion, and nothing gets lost but transformed, even though we might end up many times with the idea that we lost something forever, that we cannot return to a certain essence and so on. Well I agree with this to a certain degree but I find it to be a more difficult topic.

Getting back to ours, if you respect those, you cannot possibly consider yourself a "bad human being that will end up in hell". In fact sometimes it can even be called that you have an angel on your shoulder or/and a strong sixth sense, protecting you from harm and certain situations, or simply being able to see the outcome and where it leads, what that situation/idea/thing is part of on a bigger scale. Sometimes that big scale image seems so far apart from the "natural laws" you understand; the ones that I for example think should ease our life not get ignored so that life becomes "hell". In this category we can put using our intuitive nature to navigate in life and concentrate more on "love" vs always fighting and grinding on our path. 

And you have the gift of wisdom so that you can blame, put yourself down, or let others do that to you? The answer is no, for all the reasons in this world. 

Now what some chose to do with it is a personal matter but as always it has repercussions on those around you. There are people who have gone wrong with their gifts, whatever the concept of wrong translates to, even knowing that wrong is sometimes a necessity. But there were some very wrong things that were swimming through societies less than 50 years ago as well, and still are today, I can only talk like this because my home is not plagued by war and famine. And we may thank collective work, allright.

One thing I want to say through this is, even those people using their gifts to help other people to a degree where they give too much might get rejected from societies, blamed, or might have to hide away. In fact, it is still a taboo subject in many parts of the world, though I am so glad it has become less so and people are more at ease with it, as opposed to seeing spirituality as something "demonic", "beyond their understanding and thus dangerous" and so on. It is in our nature to fear what we cannot understand i guess. Less than 60 years ago predicting or being able to tell people what happened with their husbands on the battlefield during the WW2 through spiritual practices even if asked by friends and people would have not been something you wanted to communists/police to find out about. In fact, writers, poets, or people with big ideas and concepts questioning what repressed people and brought pain at the cost of the happiness of a selected few were pretty much being imprisoned, shot, tortured, and it is a big part of our history, the massive "clean up" that happened in Russia during the communist period for example. Also happened in other south-eastern European countries (fun note: it's still happening)

In my country for example, the spiritual values in general are deeply connected with orthodoxism and there are many practitioners actually known in wide circles because of their work and healing, even by those who were once skeptic all their lives and never had contact with such ideas. At one point they needed help because they reached a critical point (or other reasons). Career people or sportsmen. But it's not a one-standing religion that defines it. It's more like everything combined. You can be an christian-born who became Odinist just because you liked the idea more, and still have good memory, accurate intuition, sensible soul and "awesome energy" overall provided excesses don't happen. You can be a shintoist. You can be an atheist. What they have in common is that they are not seeking to hurt others and step on them to reach egoistical goals, and this is all that i see to matter. It's about what shines deep in there. 

I think religion is a beautiful thing that reminded people to go "outside themselves" and think in abstract terms about life and our own species, and I also like how everything says how our Gods came from the sky like reinforcing the ET part of our genetic code ideas heheh :D. Like usual, it was also the human mind capable of twisting religion, but the good intentions behind it exist (I loved Trevor's example about american indians). I'm perfectly aware some believe in and might blame certain actual alien species for bringing the negative in our world or other concepts, but I personally couldn't see it as a sole or even main reason for our problems ... 

I personally feel really good in nature, with kids, animals, but also among people who can think in abstract terms and understand that everything has deep roots that go beyond the surface. Also, as another example, ever since I was a kid, and heard the biblical story of St. George killing the dragon, I was kinda shocked. Why was everyone happy to see it gone, instead of trying to understand what that animal was, or taming it, or capturing and observing it? what if it was a rare animal species and the last of its genus. 

I have a very environmentalist view on life but this is because i feel for them and I think it is part of our duty to protect our own planet that we're part of and gives us everything

Isn't it disrespectful to life in itself to assume that a person doing good deeds constantly will end up in hell for using something like a strong intuition in the process? For sure not even death or "hell" are what people think they are traditionally. I am going to be honest, these things need to be channeled, excess energy exists as well and it needs an outlet, though more than not we end up feeling more drained or tired, in my case for example, but I blame myself of course...

You mentioned, though, mediums and spirits there too. It's a side with which I had contact in a way, given my "one foot here on foot there" nature, and yet I have always been afraid to address it. I didn't like the idea, I still do not much, and I like believing I have more important things to think about yet. I am not totally kicking it aside, but in my head it remains, if not, one of the more or most dangerous branches. Were some of my concepts influenced by the religion/society i was brought up in? Yes, absolutely, more or less fortunately, but part of my 'duty' is to shed what is no longer useful ^^ I'd rather have big walls to tear than being swept by the winds. 

Thus to end this: It is not about trying to delete, nullify or ban what you get to have innately. It's about learning how to use it... positively, preferably xD Thinking that there are "Gods" theoretically "opposing" this and possibly speaking through other even sillier people so that it has repercussions on "myself" makes me giggle. Sorry but if I need to understand something to help me progress, I'm right here. As simple as that: if it wasn't to be, it wouldn't be there.


updated by @kate: 10/14/16 05:15:38PM
Kate T
@kate
10/09/16 01:29:16AM
145 posts

Trump Vs. Clinton


Empath

dproper:

I tried to bring this to everyone's attention months ago on this board... I am a Shaman Empath...

I asked everyone here why no one is sensing the fact THAT THERE IS WAR IN THE SPIRITUAL REALM!!!

I was gained up on and one of the posters told me my energies were all wrong.

My volume is way over 100...

My posts were stuffed into a religious community, and I made it perfectly clear that my posts were not being presented in a religious context!!!! I am not a mind slave to that kind of institution... sorry if what I say next is offensive, but wake up people... Religion means "to bind"... Why do humans of free will want to be "bound" or "tied up" like that? Governments do the same and so does nationalism, patriotism!!!  We are all one!!  You want me to powder it coat it for you or LIE to you????

There has been a war going there for a lot of time I want to add and also the energies floating around this forum are not the best, but same story goes irl. Even writing this here doesn't feel entirely good but i simply don't give a s*it. My inner alarms have been activated again and again so many times repeatedly that sometimes i came to believe as well in a common lie of "everything is ok". I wish I could talk about the people who in this isolated, "i need to survive" state ignore what is ongoing in the depths that some of us feel uninteruptedly and I wish they could "hear" the "screams". From personal experience and carefully observing it or talking with others it became obvious that whatever is left untreated grows in monstruous proportions so my question again is WHY leave the skeletons in the closet and keep making more. No, if I could, i would demand that people stopped doing this. 

Oh man yes! We are imprisoning ourselves and each other like hell, like hell we are. I cannot entirely follow my path peacefully because of so many elements that are meant to hinder your spiritual growth, and i had to make such U turns in life, isolate myself to prevent real alienation from my own values and energy. I am still doing it of course, using exactly the negative to counter the same negative and remind myself to not forget.

Dproper, people/we indeed become or risk becoming masochists as time passes.


updated by @kate: 10/09/16 01:30:29AM
Kate T
@kate
10/08/16 01:40:44AM
145 posts

Trump Vs. Clinton


Empath

I am far from the USA or the american continent so i like to think my thought is a bit more isolated and simply an opinion, but Hillary's energy is nothing about honesty and she looks like a fake doll at the mercy of third parties with power and interest like she has herself. It's like a smell around her but visual, i am sorry. I will get to trump and my main point soon tho, no worries, i'm not trying to say who's more fit to rule the country. Conclusions result regardless.

One thing. Read on wiki or wherever about Berta Caceres. 

Thanks.

Now you have an overview over what should be done, but it obviously isn't being acted upon. Think with your hearts (how s the heart center doing? Is it accepting raw truths and lively, spontaneous or feels rather closed, muddy?) about the real problems we are facing as a species, society, what darkens our vision and what we need to function properly; then think about how it's being destroyed and this process reinforced by these pretended rulers. Did "nature" crosss your mind? Freedom of speech? Warm inter-personal relationships that are not plagued by certain faulty and unnatural neo-modernist concepts? Yes we will always keep doing some of the same mistakes and we will always try to fight to correct it.

Now everyone is mad, nervous, stressed over what could happen if one of these 2 people get elected and I'm sorry but everytime this situation occurs (other countries have it worse unfortunately and fortunately for USA's Bad-o-meter) i find there is an amusing side to it. WHAT HAS GONE WRONG with our families, with our society, that these human beings were able to develop and grow up with such mindsets, to be corrupt, narcissistic, egoistical, to lack foresight, to help "economical enemies" and yet, BE NAMED rulers/presidents/representants of that country's interest? Does this mean the country's consciousness is not directed towards preserving some existential values but simply riding the waves as they come trying to find their ROOTS, ironically, through means that are meant to destroy them over and over again (maybe because they still don't feel good?) Are we embracing the wrong values and things? Is our conscious mind trying to act differently (like it hss been taught in de-spiritualused societies) than our subconsciousness?
Even if you take the unwritten laws into consideration "everything happens with a reason", "every action has an equally powerfull but polary opposite effect" it results like this: maybe we deserve this? What do you think? Have you thought about what YOU would want want? How YOU would act if you were to be named president over something? Would they have even been considered candidates or survived to this day if they didn't bribe, lie, steal? Could a real illuminated ruler even developp and reach such heights in our current society, I'm asking, or would he or she be made fun of? How much unconditional love or by contrast, detachment, is required, how powerful of a heart or open mind that after the pain and anger in itself created by the members of the same species this or these people would still want to help them and not lose their hope.

Cannot but end this with a smile ^^


Have you noticed words of wisdom reach us on a larger scale only when danger sinks its claws?
Dream a little longer and you might not wake up again.
updated by @kate: 10/08/16 02:10:37AM
Kate T
@kate
10/04/16 12:30:45PM
145 posts



 This was/maybe still is the hardest part for me- transferring guts into reality and acting upon it if it feels like I should. In fact, if something deep within your heart pushes you to do it; do it. But never forget to filter it through reason as well as we have the mind there for... a reason.

When telling someone about our perception, I think it is very important that we trust ourselves first and the manner in which we deliver the message. Why not be honest, i have a lot of guts feeling about situations and people and many proved right. Some however were magnified or subject to my own yet untreated fears. I failed or I was not encouraged delivering it through words many times... what I can do is act upon it myself or somehow show how and what. I had to work on my interpersonal skills though, and people feel and react when they see you are rather detached "just telling it but not caring about it further or approaching it as a subject of your curiosity" rather than when you show you care about them. I actually blamed myself a lot. This was not allright either. I can say i was my greatest enemy sometimes. We have to love and care for ourselves even when we see our imperfections or us failing certain little or bigger things due to them. Talking about the time period between 12-20 yrs for me here.

People can be reticent when hearing such things. There is a history in my family however with precognitive abilities and I can tell you that it is better to voice it, especially as today's society is much more open and accepting towards spirituality and practitioners than it was 50 years ago for example. They might think it's weird and scary, that it might lead to obsessions, negative habbits, a sense of predestination that cuts your "elan" in life. Being in tune with yourself or your environment and solving stagnated issues in fact leads to an even greater sense of relief/liberation, not to bad things. Coming back, you may also simply write the messages you perceive on a piece of paper to see how accurate they get if you want to gain confidence, but remember that modifying factors occur due to free will. Sometimes the "joke" goes that your action exactly is what might help make it happen so you see, it's not exactly a game.

Have you heard about the Cassandra syndrome? It's unfortunate, like many greek legends, but you can read about it as the metaphor is still used today to name 'legit' warnings that are disregarded and come true. We can see what forms and lingers before it materialises : ). Everything sends warnings before materialising in fact, for those keen enough to sense it. Remember to not let yourself or your potentially heavy thoughts add up as a burden to a situation rather than cutting through it or clearing it. Respect the idea of not being "sudden, disrupting, as in an uprise manner" unless the situation really got to the point it's asking for it.


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Kate T
@kate
10/04/16 04:44:37AM
145 posts



Cheshire Cat:

Kate, you make a very good point. The INTENT of why we do or don't do things, including shielding, is of utmost importance!

Thanks ^^ It s just that we have the possibility to change things through our will, but it will only get more potent the more we work collectively and not just out of selfishness.


Also, the more you raise your frequency the less you need to act on shielding i believe. There are a few mental tricks so as not to isolate yourself but to avoid submerging yourself in a sea of thoughts and emotions that might or not have to do with you.
updated by @kate: 10/04/16 12:19:36PM
Kate T
@kate
10/01/16 05:48:57AM
145 posts



I believe "shielding" depends on context and some situations ask for action and actually working to alleviate the hard "atmosphere" while in others the desire to get away from it or not let the negative energy pass through your own defenses comes instinctively. 

I want to share a dream that I had 4 years ago and i still vividly remember. This topic reminds me about it as i tried understanding it, and it was pretty much more detailed than this but i just tried to make it short:

It was at dusk and I was inside a beautiful, huge English garden like a maze and at the entrance it had a fountain. The stars were visible and yet the atmosphere both interesting and tense, everyone gathered there to see some kind of astrological event or a special shooting star. The problem was something was lingering around. And the other problem was that i could not reach these people. I was smaller as well so to say, but it was not something i was blocked on. They were all with their small groups or totally absorbed by the events to come, some struggling to ignore any kind of outside influence or message. So caught up in what was to come, that they were not grasping the present. As usual, I could see myself from above yet through my own eyes as well, but also hear the "whispers" around. 

The action starts when a shadow suddenly dashes through these people and some kind of police that caught up form behind asks me if i can see that. I said yes and they ask me to help track it down, because the others could not or totally ignored it; they didn't like being disturbed even by the "police" who actually just took it in their own hands~ if the message was not powerful enough to reach them or if they did not welcome this idea. For me it was like a game full of hope not the coming of a disaster though, i was wondering what did "the weird thing that dashes around" do that it's being followed. At one point the cops spread into other directions as it became invisible but i followed the same path and found it again. At this point, he turned around, perplexed that i could see it. He was pretty much like a man with a cape, but on a side note he was not disagreeable. His expression turned into a smile, and he stretched out his hand inviting me to join him. I was frozen in place for a second but actually laughed in his face about it though I was wondering why. It was a full unknown; i could never say yes. He seemed shocked again, but then he smirked and said or thought something along the lines of "It's not the moment now then" or "Soon" or "Not over" and quickly disappeared as we heard the sounds of police. They dashed just as swiftly after him but all I could tell them was that now they lost him, as his presence rapidly diminished in the distance. 

They just continued after it though. And I just stood there wondering what that was, and I woke up, or slept more but this was the end of the dream. 

Maybe it was a message of a higher importance just to me, or the things that my brain understood during everyday life. But the problem is it reminded me of the people that i have met and claimed to be spiritualists or tried to embrace the new-age ideas yet they were not walking close to it. They want it only because the others do it, or only because it's a trend, and i couldn't feel any will or shine or soul in the direction they are trying to mentally pursuit. To quote someone famous "Too caught up in our own doings, to do something" and the answer to how to do it is not by removing yourself from your environment but to being in balance with it and doing your part. Ignoring the dark things that linger is one of the biggest problems, and it starts from your inter personal relationship and everything that it's being swept under a rug, ignored, whatever. If it doesn't benefit a family why would trying to ignore, or lies and rugs to such a degree benefit a society. People should fight for their own well-being, but the whole concept of well-being is also being distorted or re-defined into something that to me is an abomination as it affects the Planet/natural environment. Fighting or dreaming about illusions that truly do not benefit you as a human being by nature and genetics. For example:

Source:https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2016/sep/16/norway-wolf-cull-government-wwf-friends-earth-environment-protest

And: http://wwf.panda.org/wwf_news/?51160/Switzerland-wants-to-slay-Europes-wolves

It's a story about the whole country of Norway wanting to remain with like only 15 wolves out of the 60 something still remaining as they are afraid they kill too many sheep and people. Obviously only the hunters push it to gain trophies and sell them. Just as obviously, shepherd dogs were not yet 'invented'. Or Switzerland not having any, but wanting to kill every single individual that passes through the border with Italy, which also has only a few hundred individuals, again, because they are afraid they'll kill people. No notion about wolf behavior. No notion about natural balance. Meanwhile, the real 'wolves' in our society feast on or after their little 'sheep'. Not even stressing subjects that are far from the general public's reach or deemed as "conspiracies", what already happened or happens should serve as example.

Good ideas. Eradicate, hide, isolate. "Shield"

What "shield" should stand for is protect to foster, not isolate to destroy, and this also stands for core needs or values. What does shielding mean to you, when do you use it? I think this is more important to answer at least for yourself.


updated by @kate: 10/01/16 05:54:00AM
Kate T
@kate
09/28/16 04:18:33PM
145 posts

About the people that sometimes come into your life


Empath

Thank you for your answers. I will read more about people's stories and kindred souls... It had a different feeling, and it still has. It's fun how many 'little' things life has programmed for you, or how many little enriching things you can find sometimes. I would definitely meet in person first rather than starting a kind of online relationship first, blame the values I've grown up with, but I'd find it too shallow. I am uncertain from his part when it comes to this though and he has been disappointed by people before, making him more sensitive/less trusting from this point of view than I am. Either way, we've actually talked about it jokingly. I'm sad he was sad about things lol The only thing I wished for is for this to just end well and remain friends, I would be hell worried if I wouldn't talk again to him or at least see a "ye, ye, I'm ok." I felt a few things I did not like either (danger lingering? in a way, about him) but I am glad it's over now (not entirely). I also know and felt he has something even more than the empath streak. 

Will see...


updated by @kate: 09/29/16 01:43:48AM
Kate T
@kate
09/25/16 05:45:38AM
145 posts

Barn Owls in dreams?


Dreams

This is so old, 3 years have passed... and yet, haha, ty; even though sometimes i still wonder now about what their true significance might have been (I was way worried at that time, not about losing an opportunity, but a gift) I realized now that nothing is truly lost, just transformed, even though these processes can sometimes be painful... Just as the owl died transforming into matter at the roots of the tree standing between the 2 "worlds" (on one side the beautiful park/forest and weather, on the other concrete, grey sad sky, deserted blocks and cement and windy), the tree still stands no matter how old and grumpy it was back then. I am afraid I might have missed a few things or opportunities to become more stable myself, but the search never ends. Who knows what these 'tiny souls' hide.

Kate T
@kate
09/25/16 03:53:32AM
145 posts

About the people that sometimes come into your life


Empath

... and they seems to fall when you need them most at one certain point even if you fail to realize on the moment. They try to help you and you might refuse, then you try to help them and they might refuse. Then you come to understand each other better, then everything goes nicely, then fights again, then everything gets ok again and no matter what happens, no matter how many times you feel like you've found an old friend an you keep going back at it, the experience is both meant to bring happiness and absolute sadness. 

So I met this person online practically speaking (not dating sites... on a more complex game, and it was pretty funny actually) and yet we were so happy when we met/started talking it's as if we knew each other from long ago. We never articulated it this way, and yet I learned over time we both shared this feeling for some reason or another. In fact at first it wasn't even serious, especially from his part, and i wondered if i was the only one feeling so strange about this (I did not quite like it at first, actually). Eventually we became closer, and I think the link with this person helped me realize a lot of things about myself, even though truth be told I was pretty resistant towards it in a way, blame my ego, or both egos, if it should so be said, because it was the other way around as well. He said things he did not believe in kind of like "mantras" (well he tried to do them but) and I apparently was "blind" towards the obvious things that I already knew and I did not act.

The problem is how we keep fighting, and how much I regret these things and they hurt, even though we never met (yet) in reality. And at the same time we are so close, that we say same things at the same time, shared common views/or root values on certain things... sometimes i can correctly know what goes through his mind. This is how clear it gets, and yet I have a feeling, that while he knows his own instinct is good, he had no idea about the depth of these things and how rare they are or to find someone like this. It's like a knife through my heart every damn time misunderstandings occur (it's like it's doomed to happen) and all i wish for is understanding, maybe from my part as well. I cannot get why I am, for example, continuing this, and yet, in reality, breaking the link with this person would probably tear me down. At first, it felt like i wanted to go away but I wasn't let... it is the weirdest thing ever, and I reached a point where i don't understand anymore what and why, why it feels like "we shouldn't even talk anymore" and yet at the same time a completely different thing goes inside. It's like the words become empty or just worsen it, or simply express what we are "taught" to say or believe in a certain way while our behavior does the opposite... and yet this was our only way of speaking, writing, except skype, of course. Well...

I don't know what I should do except knowing that I shouldn't just... let go, especially since when i should have in the beginning the message about "please no" was so... ufff, how to say :/

It's hard describing these things, and we are both young and talking about ourselves or our lives even though we reduced the personal context and kept it to the game more than not (we still ended up talking a lot, sometimes for 6 hours straight). It's so hard and I gave so much energy and time to this, and apparently he "volunteered" to help when he could, that I keep wondering what was everything for if in the end it's about not talking anymore because of the most stupid fights ever. And then I remember how different it would have been and it is when people can see or touch each other and blame this. 

I met one of my best friends on a forum about horses... we were both passionated about them and about drawing, painting, and many other subjects; and we've been in touch for 8 years, and met each other so many times and told all about ourselves and our fears or thoughts, even thought we were from different parts of the country (our paths still crossed as we both went to universities in the capital). So I know it's possible, and I am so happy i did it so i can tell others ^^ But this one was a piece of cake, no struggle no tears and it felt just right, we never doubted we have to be friends or talk, hen again,we shared common interests, were both open to the idea, were younger and not judgmental... Second time was about someone whom literary works and creations i very much enjoyed, and only after months i found out we were from the same city...

With this person right now, it's so hard. And yet, it's rewarding. It's like everything becomes better when it goes ok with them. 

So I am asking you, have you went through similar experiences? have you met people whom you just knew you can trust? Did you turn the thoughts realm and instinct into material reality/friendship? 


updated by @kate: 09/02/18 07:40:05AM
Kate T
@kate
09/15/16 06:24:37PM
145 posts



They do, they do, unfortunately more than fortunately , I might add, since I always seem to be the one who gets the short end of the stick in the sense that I've ended up being drained more than i ever think I did that to someone unintentionally. The problem is you do not realize this, in fact, you live with it, until you get out of the immediate sphere of influence of thoughts of that person: and this might as well apply to parents and toxic "wheels". I used to get tired and lack energy really fast, and somehow I've tried looking into the problem from multiple angles... do sport, eat healthy, not think about this or that.. turns out it only became better when i actually started paying attention to my inner self/perceptions. On a similar note, many popular "society" teachings are nothing but the opposite of what you should follow to actually reach your goals while maintaining your values if you have any.

Reshaping your relationship and re-addressing your own attitude and confidence in yourself are big attributes to develop in order to have a more balanced life... at least for me, it seems, i needed to work on this. Despite how much I did not like aggressive, stressful environments somehow I end up in them. Karma is a bitch I guess, and sometimes I am wondering whether I am actually getting anything useful out of this by default, and not what I actively have to transform into "good stuff" through addressing it differently. People are so messed up. So, so frigging messed up. I am a person too but way too many things just left and still leave me speechless. I want to try and be close to nature as much as I can during my life. 

I am very sensible when it comes to links and perceptions... and this has been a "problem" all my life except when it came to actual people being themselves, or kids, or animals...... For me it feels natural, to be in this kind of contact with someone or something. The confusing part is seeing all the blockages coming from other sides, dubious mindsets and so on that only mess up a natural link that would be created between two souls. So many needless things that we embrace and so many "rugs" to hide the "garbage" under. Being taught a more direct way of addressing your own feelings would be so much more beneficial to the society than aiming at hiding them until you explode or do "what someone else says you should" before you even become aware of yourself. 

The link with certain people gets so close that I can perceive what the others feels during sleep but definitely not only (i mean during mine, in form of dreams, especially if it's about unexpressed things), and they can fast be felt on the physical plane. I am also positive about telepathy and it's as real as it can get. There are a lot of things happening on the mental plane and in fact most things start there. Funny how so many oppose it.

Kate T
@kate
08/19/16 12:49:41AM
145 posts

Have you experienced The Dark Night of the Soul


Empath

I understand what you are saying Rene so this is why i want to ask you something, try and do not get alienated from yourself, please. Why, because I know the feeling and whenever this happens i grow mad at my own self and rapidly change my attitude and try to "find" my roots again or remind myself this will not lead to anything.

First it is about accepting it. Then it is about letting it be/go, then about letting time heal it. You cannot be perfect from the start and we never are, we come into this life not always in the best families or societies, that is, not always the most peaceful or values-protecting, and we can grow to be more or less judgemental or tolerant. But things are there for a reason, and you must use these reasons in your favor because this is what we are supposed to do. When you work with yourself and grow to accept that you tried your best at a certain point (what you thought it was the best) will help more than shutting everything away or blaming yourself again and again. You can always do something and more than you imagine because your own mind gives color and intensity to a problem. We often have enough tools to deal with ourselves but we have to discover the right way to use them. It should be noted however that mixing your present with good thoughts and desire to do something foryourself or the society or the environment and so on, that is, linking yourself to a purpose, can give some amazing things. It is a big change from the individualistic type of thinking and life might arrange itself a little bit differently without "much" but the power of thoughts. Why, because you are more in sync with the universe i like to think. And this is why I believe someone told me I should not see life as a battle... i think the "battle" in their viewpoint might have been the one against a "good tide". Can I ever know for sure ^^?

"What is good, what is bad" they say, but I know what deeply saddens and angers me, for example when we go to our house in the mountains and over the years I've noticed huge areas of forest being cut down even though we are close to a natural reservation and the faun and flora there are amazing. From deeply perceiving this aswrongbecause of the purpose these trees are cut for (that has nothing to do about necessity but greed)I act. Because one side works to make me (And us/more people) feel grounded and empowered (nature) and from the other side i never perceive such things and thus I can be quite ruthless from my standpoint: I wish them gone, or changed. These ideas, of course, are not there like this from the beginning, they are created over years of being ignored or not finding an outlet and yet being provoked. This is how the mechanism in criminals minds or other people doing things works. By acknowledging it I can help myself, but not everyone can go so deep inside their own layers and they will need guidance.

I want to show you something

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XpaOjMXyJGkor the longer version

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=litXW91UauE

Kate T
@kate
08/18/16 08:05:30AM
145 posts

Have you experienced The Dark Night of the Soul


Empath

Of course, and it was one heck of a road... it's never been shadow 100% and yet, what i considered to be of so much value inside this "ego" held a lot of energy that might have been not interpreted in the right way when manifested. I had to "destroy" a lot of the things inside, in a way. And yet my opinion/memories remain the same when i recall it: they were not "bad", they however needed an outlet, a direction with an outcome. And more than everything, these energies were only bad in relation to certain people. Never in relation to animals, children, the natural environment and so on.

I held scars inside from people and they needed to be healed as well. Not like i still don't have, and fortunately never in an abusive sense of speaking. But because of my way of feeling my environment and what goes on inside people('s minds). Detaching from myself came on a daily basis as a necessity when i did not want to have any addictions either and i had to do it to make everything less intense. Cancelling out my own "powers" is something of an abomination to me, and yet finding a lifestyle to develop what you've been given, make people more tolerant, make yourself be accepted and accept yourself is not easy either, but fortunately I believe I have a taste for challenges and growing as a person ^^

I had some thoughts running through my mind at certain points such as people deserve what they chose to get, people should not cry about the people they are ruled by when these rulers grew up among them and in the very same society and were let to develop like this. How best of the Saints can become the worst of "Evils". That people need wake-up calls, that bad can be a necessary good. That at one point "Now I understand why women were not given the right to vote until the 19th century", how the war on "my religion is better" is total bull as every one of them has a good message to send. How even those who call themselves spiritualists gaze at the shooting stars while choosing to ignore the bad that lurks among them, shielding themselves not from bad influences but from truth and the place where thoughts materialize, not into what they want and dream as good but into what those who have the guts to try it want and this includes both good and bad (as many bads come from missing necessities and of course love or understanding that was not received at the right time)

That the concept of war for us as human species is just as idiotic as it could get, and we shouldn't be called homo sapiens sapiens. Homo sheep sapiens maybe, sure. And about my own rage that I might still have inside when it comes to people, but then life throws some very interesting things in your way from which you can learn and which can teach you how to re-direct these. It might be people who are like you, and by perceiving them you realize what is inside you as well, or through trying to help them or maybe through being helped. Someone told me life would better not be seen as a battle but, I am afraid from my point of view it's been one. Not physical, but psychical with only one way out that I am aware of: forward.

Absence of action or responsibility is something that I notice from others and pisses me off. I have moments and moments and yet i "remember" what i sense around, generally. I somehow tend to act like a mirror and act from what i see in my environment or express these problems.

Kate T
@kate
08/16/16 05:45:11AM
145 posts



I would personally like to say that yes it exists and it has effects on people, however, as we all know, what goes around comes around. The power of magic that backfires is far worse than the first fire shot at someone else. A person has all the capabilities of getting over it as much as it might harm in the present, but once it does so, it helps the individual and digs a hole for the attacker. Similarly, such doings attract negative forces and in all honesty, you as an attacker will affect the people around yourself, slowly driving yourself to exclusion and madness ^^ And here I got out of the empath sphere only.

These people feel "burned" when "scanned" or talked to about such things, and nevertheless have to deal with blockages and other bs. Imo, I'd just mind my own business and let the law of attraction and karma do their job for revenge and grudge channeled in the ways of 'black magic' suggest a big imbalance, and from here we can move forward to talking about love and how many problems it can solve when delivered at the right time.

Just a quick insight but everything is fixable and responds to higher frequencies. And why not, to lower ones as well *cough*

There's that nice concept of the Japanese people, the art of repairing a broken piece of pottery so that it ends up looking more beautiful than before: Kintsugi.

Kate T
@kate
07/01/16 04:55:16PM
145 posts



Really interesting, love this subject ^^

Ever since very young I've had a very good hearing to the point i had to always ask my parents to lower the volume on TV, Radio or when talking and I was simply not a fan of high pitched voices or verbal fights which unfortunately i got a lot of (my parents had a lot of disagreements). I also had issues in clubs, at the metro or with certain high pitched kitchen blenders, and i still do. On the other hand, I can perceive distant sounds and whispers to a certain extent and in certain situations my hearing can get really acute (a few moments before falling asleep). It is no secret and my family knows closed doors won t help when they want to talk IF by any chance I happen to be curious. I believe that this trait is merely my ability to concentrate on a certain sound/frequency and isolate it. I do have a very good concentration.

My least good sense is the eyesight as well, due to the hours I've worked/spent/lost time in front of the computer and some genetic sensibility.

My sense of smell is off put by unnatural fregnances even though i wouldn t characterise it as the most sensible. Not sure how you call the ability to sense the environment around you and what moves. I know i've always been catching small fish under rocks bare handed and lizards, or following stuff through high grass using this "sense" ^^ :)) especially when i was small. Martial arts and those movies or clips about shaolins absolutely fascinate me. It unfortunately used to go a bit wrong as soon as night came, and i know i was afraid of the dark due to the fact that i could sense stuff of which origin i was unsure of.

I am sensible to a whole other range of external stimuli around me however among which the thoughts and intention of the other one, due to which i can now appear intrusive, as I try to no longer let them affect me negatively or affect my decisions to such an extent.

The traits made me a big lover of nature and animals and a partial hater of human gatherings, where non-verbal talk was being lost big time and I went through a lot of misunderstandings or ended up feeling really drained and had no idea how to stop it without stopping being myself. It's safe to say my sensibility made me insensible in a way, if you get how that works xD High defenses from an external point of view but essentially i was still internalizing everything.

All these taken together were more of a handicap for me in the society i've grown up with.. with a few exceptions, teachers and adults that saw in the "quiet kid that liked to read and look at people" potential. I had to read a lot about psychology and human behavior to be honest... to come to understand myself better as well.

Maybe they are just a sum of good hearing/perception/etc... other elements, who knows.

Kate T
@kate
06/22/16 09:02:08AM
145 posts



Interesting. Well, I am glad you found something that resonated as "not quite good" and which you can try cutting out form your diet and see how it feels after some time. Other than that, those are the general rules someone who wants to become healthier can follow and apply to their own habbits. I have not faced similar problems as you, but I have this weird thing, as if, in more tensed moments or when I am pressured and I can;t move or have to stay in one place, I feel like I m not getting enough oxygen. It does come from a build-up of anxiety that I manage to control/release through thoughts only, so it is allright. Only one someone else noticed it and asked me if I am ok lol. It's just part of me being more responsive/sensible to stimuli.

Kate T
@kate
06/19/16 05:23:56AM
145 posts



Hello!

About the geographic tongue i read that it might disappear over time but the exact cause and what determines its apparition are yet unknown...

In regards to your diet, how do you eat those eggs? I understand the healthiest are hard boiled, which can be eaten more often, though sportsmen do it for energy purposes. I know that not eating more than a maximum of 3-4 eggs per week is more ideal. Are they only chicken eggs? We have quail eggs as well, which are believed to be much healthier and suited as treatment for a wide variety of respiratory problems. The origin of the food you are eating is by far the most important factor. If the chicken/beef meat was produced in one of those places where they get injected with tones of growth hormones and antibiotics, they are not going to help you much.

I am not an expert on nutrition, but I have managed to keep a healthy diet and never had any problems related or that stemmed from it, and this includes keeping myself physically fit as well. I am typically high-energy (i have a faster metabolism) and don't need things such as coffee or energizers no matter how little I've slept xD They just throw me off sometimes, or cause me to be sleepier. But I enjoy drinking a good coffee (with milk, and sugar...) once a month or even less. That's about how often i drink say wine or beer or whatever. And in small quantities... but then again, that's just me, i don't have to impose it upon myself, it's how I feel about it. I enjoy natural juices/smoothies much more, such as a combo of apple-banana-orange-beetroot-ginger. It is amazing. Or tea (a lot of Linden tea and some others where i was younger, we had a "family tradition")

I find that your own body and what it craves at times are the best indicator of what you lack or need, if you know how to listen to it. Well as a female I always kept a closer eye on my stuff. For example, I had a few (more) problems with the thyroid, do have more sensible lungs, and also had a few hormonal problems (breast cyst) which is kinda genetic. While at the moment none of them is causing me problems anymore, I haven't taken any hardcore medication either more than I tried eating/drinking the right things and exercising. Maybe this is why I'm not keen on coffee/alcohol/fatty or excessively sweet food.

The best advice I can give is try to keep it diverse and avoid those foods that are too high in energy or your doctor has told you not to eat. More than anything, try avoiding commerce meat/processed/canned food if you cannot find a local/trustworthy meat producer. Try more boiled or slightly cooked vegetables like carrot, home made tomato broth, bean pods. How do you feel about fresh fish meat (best are the oily/fat, cold-water ones)? Avocado? Nuts& seeds? rich in oils... almonds, walnuts, pumpkin and sunflower seeds, peanut butter? Are you avoiding fatty cooking methods and going instead for olive oil, steaming, baking, grilling?

How do you get along with dairy products (yogurt, milk, cheese)? Again, not those from packages and additives from supermarkets. More like the ones you can find in the open markets.

How do you drink your water? Bottled/filtered/directly form the tape?

Some doctors have started linking diet with your blood type as well, since it is a well known factor certain health problems have a bigger preponderance in those respective blood types and especially if the RH is negative.

I believe many health issues can be solved with a positive attitude and healthy lifestyle, and those that are genetic, kept in place this way.

More than anything though you should visit a medical specialist, maybe a Gastroenterologist. (unless the one you mentioned is already, but you can always look for a second opinion if you feel the advice you've been given hasn't helped you in the long run) I know there might be costs, but there will be higher costs if you leave anything that is affecting your life to such a degree untreated. Are you currently taking any kind of medication?

I understand living alone might be hard... in fact, emotional issues are the ones causing the real problems that manifest in the diet as well, in everyone's case :( Do you have a job, or are you looking for something? Finding something you can use your energy on but which will not press on your health negatively might help you more than you can imagine, and can also provide a social environment.

Kate T
@kate
06/16/16 10:43:50AM
145 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

Hello.. thank you for your answers Rene.. and sorry for my late ones ;)

I believe I have felt and met certain people in my life that were more than open to the psychic realm or impressions, but they opposed it a lot, which naturally created a "push" response in my attitude and due to which i might have messed up certain relations with some people. Not to be said, however that i was the one seeking to "prolonge" the link, it more than often is the other person doing the first steps or being more curious since i got used to just hold/control myself...

The "push" has never been however about actively talking about the subject, more about first touching the problems from within that keep popping up at the worst of times from anyone who leaves them untreated. People hide and run a lot from these hidden things however, which is a bit surprising for me. I can't afford to do that, for example. In fact, to preserve my nature... and my sensibility, actually to prevent myself going off the track, i always had to have a more "special" kind of life in the sense that addictions such as drinking or smoking, wasting myself in clubs or having sexual partners... had to be cut out. Also the food i eat, the friends i keep... I did many other things though, i do not believe I lost anything or better said, not much, maybe only if I will miss that moment when "I know" it's time...

I do mistakes as well, as I am learning. Never having been able to openly talk about everything with someone though, well, this was not necessarily harder as i developed a self-sustaining attitude (someone compared me to a playable creature in a game and said "you have too much defense, too much resistance..." lol) which can become a negative trait as well in the sense that while looking at my stars i jump in the middle of some situations others wouldn't and try (hope to) emerge with more gains than what i've lost. Or so I like to believe.

In fact from being this "sensible" person the fact that i can sense what is wrong in time makes me very good with kids that are normal or with deficiencies, and animals, and a couple (more) other circumstances. It also works strategically speaking: in a game you know the opponent's next move ^^

What it is, is that it's tiring. It is a constant way of functioning at a level you are getting information all the time and having to control yourself or deal with the other one's things a lot, if somehow you involve yourself too much. You become needed so to say, but then you have to get out. It's ok as long as the experience applies positively for both (all) parties, but otherwise, if you give more than you receive...

To be mentioned is that the important people will respect such traits, but others might try to take advantage hardcore. It is also easier (for the one in tune with others) hurting someone... or manipulating as well, which doesn't end well. What really is there (inside), and it is said (by someone else who might notice/see it), will resonate regardless of how many defenses someone builds.

Another fun fact is that i was less interested in these things than for example scientific things and the natural world, but I had to delve into them when i noticed i can't do what i feel i should without having to ward off the people that play the leech. In fact, without my inherent things (i'm too patient, i want to help too much sometimes) i might have been considered a bit ruthless, shaped this way by the things i went through... i couldn't care less and it is more important still believing in the magic around you NO MATTER what happens, and never stop making connections because life and what happens is interconnected more or less and that is the beauty in it. And I love to say or think this. It actually gives you more satisfaction.

So in the end, I see the people who give up patience, kindness, hopes, due to some unfortunate factors, or because society says so, the real sign of weakness. Weakness is not art, not inspiration, not being kind and wanting to help or do good. Why have the values been shifted however I fail to understand, and how they resonate with some i fail to understand even more. Are some of us truly made of different things, and are our vibrations that different, and what determines it?

My environment has also been pretty restricting in terms of personal development and hobbies (it is in part due to the family as well) and I went volunteering or with international or regional projects and so on. More than anything, I want to be in a position form which "stepping in" and changing is what I am supposed to do (from the other people's perspective as well)... well :/

Kate T
@kate
06/03/16 02:26:32PM
145 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

Hi Rene... thanks for responding xD

Concrete question... hah, well, to put it straight, I am well aware of my ability to hear thoughts on a daily basis. It's not continuous by any means, it's not overwhelming either, albeit i suspect it used to be back ago when i had no idea how to control anything much. I also noticed a huge difference in my mind when returning in a city from the mountains/a trip to wilderness. It just so happens at certain moments when i get an insight about the person i am talking to, but not always then either. It's not... how to call it, schizo LOL or idk what else. I am pretty much normal from other points of view except i have these (confirmed from more than one friend) moments of synchronicity. It even happened in the dreams department, but other than a few exceptions they remains myself xD. A lot with my father as well, in a way that surprised him as well, and me too. Mentally talking (maybe as a self-suggestion of sanity) I have always been among the best in my school and college atm.

I grew up from being very suspicious about these things (spirituality in this way - the same as my environment/parents were) to believing in some more due to the things i have gone through and the desire i had to know/read/understand more about how the world works. And i used to think, not that i still don't judge, that people exagerrating with spiritual stuff are, plainly put, crazy, imbalanced and not the type of people i would like to have in my life.

It is funny however, when I think about it, my first best friend I ever had has a really strong spiritual streak... imagination, creativity, love for animals, and was passionated about spirituality, again, at a age at which i barely understood what she was trying to tell me and i kept being resistant towards it. She even made "aura reading" tests and guessing in tarot cards when we were in the 3rd-4th grade, and believed or wanted to believe in spirits. She uh... we grew up separate ways though, as at one point i grew more accepting and balanced but she... well... made some very weird choices... to be honest, she became a whacko in a way. Put herself together at one point again, but having seen her in those postures... well. And she became a quite popular girl too, in general and high school. I forgave or gave up any negative feeling in the end. There are still a couple of things I do not understand.

We did have a beautiful friendship while we were young, though.

Why I am very sad is how little people i find to function in the same parameters as myself. I don't have to be told things to know or guess them for example, and I can tell emotions apart miles away even if I am talking to the other one who is in front of a screen. Oh, yes, discovered synchronicity in thoughts and others are from form being conditioned by distance or screens. I tried training myself, actually, to learn to discern and very important, not cleanse my own fears that i might mingle with the information i get or even worse, send it to others (And they will feel it)

I even suspected at one point I met a soulmate... it is one of the most hurtful links for me though, and I just hate it for the fact that we fights for stupid things, and, in my opinion, for him not being honest. I find the absence of honesty, the other not being able to confess to you at some point one of the worst things. Too coward to accept the aftermath of his doings or talk about it, yet not able to correctly follow a better path towards trust either. And the problem with my impressions/opinions is that, even if i cannot explain them at a given moment, they prove themselves later on, even if they are denied by the person in cause. As we all know, denial is not the first step to changing something...

This text that i have written is my question :( ... i need a feedback of some kind... i can't stop thinking, how can people be like that, contemplate and see how society is becoming colder how you "can't trust people", "they are so mean" and yet, when they are given kindness and patience and care, they rip them apart with those self-imposed mantras/self-defeating ideologies. What is the gene that makes some people so differently wired, in a less humanitarian/good sense, and more in a bad one?

I cannot help but combine a bit the subjects, tell about myself and then a different experience as there are so many things i'd want to say but it's not the place nor the time and who the heck reads these :P So basically, I'm just writing fragments. And by the way, what do you call that noise around people's "head" area? ^^ Quite strong around those with more artistic tendencies, but, far from being visual, i perceive it as noise, thicker atmosphere... or liability to being "scanned" xD. I enjoy doing that though (scanning), in a way. I am just trying to understand. And I just get hurt in environments or among people that do not permit me to detach or feel in it a threat.

I know I had the tendency to drift off, to retreat, too much. But, I needed it, and i still do, a lot. Because the moments when i should be/have been doing it, I was not correctly let to. I guess I am talking about meditation of some kind. Battery recharging.

Kate T
@kate
05/28/16 11:42:59AM
145 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

It is so complicated I don't even know very well where to start with.

First of all, I am worried about what I can generate. I have some powerful energies running under the surface and I can influence the people around me the same way that i can be influenced as well, and it took me years to learn to control and reduce my "sponginess" and inclination to attract the negative energies in a social setting or environment. Coincidentally, I've always had a big need to express myself artistically or verbally as well and thus I don't only paint, draw, sculpt but also had some nice experiences with a theater crew! :) I also have a never ending love and curiosity for nature and animals, though I read with interest about all scientific fields, and I really wish i could work for the betterment of our environment and implicitly, us.

Now that is only a small resume, as way too many things happen around me. I cannot and have never told anyone about my own... spiritual quests and right now I am annoyed at myself for not being able to correctly put myself out there and make people understand my intentions. While I do value privacy and I do not trust easily by any means, it was so hard to combine my 2 realities, the psychical and spiritual life with the daily one... I want to sketch some quick notes: I can and have correctly predicted events, I can feel certain outcomes, I scan people and can tell the type of thoughts going through their head and especially if I or a person I know is related to them, this form of scan i would describe as sending a thought on the same frequency and knowing whether is right by feeling if it "clicks" or not, i.e. does not have "echo". I've talked and met some very interesting and different people, some part of Reiki courses, another energy therapuetist lady that treated sportsmen and others and had some amazing gits on the same lines of "identifying an illness hidden or forming" and their cause, and some more weird ones... sometimes, i do thank god to my individuality for I just won't let myself fall into someone else's projections. I did struggle with that too though. Apparently and as I have found out, my grand-grand mother had psychic gifts and did readings for the people in her village during the WW2, and my mother also has precognitive dreams.

Worst of all though and coming back to the original story, I am neglecting myself. Then, or more exactly, now, I am also neglecting my sleep, my eating hours to talk to someone who probably does not appreciate half of it, and yet i still do it, even though i usually keep a considerable distance, as i might have fallen for him, because, well, it just happened. I can also get sudden images about people or pieces of information about something they hide or deeply wish for, and being sensible with that has been my second nature, as I simply cannot promote or spread hate if i receive or see. What I also cannot do is having a similar life to everyone of my age. I am not coming by any means from an extremely religious or weird-oriented family and in fact I appear pretty much normal, if not for some quirks. However, I know very well how many hours i have dedicated reading about less... mainstream subjects as I felt pressured to maybe by my own desire to become a better person? I mean, i was my own worst enemy... still am probably... ranging from esoteric subjects to this one (empathy). I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs and even though I am 20 and thankfully been gifted with good looking genes, I never had (and refused to more times!) any physical sexual relationship, because i have this... i don t even know how to call it, huge inner stubbornness that I will know and be ok with finally accepting someone in this way when the right time comes, and I had to find countless reason to explain my family or my friends or be veery vague about it to escape the "you're old enough get a boyfriend already!" remarks... ah, fun times. I do not waste myself in clubs either, I like other types of human interaction and fun, I guess my presence can get just too serious sometimes especially when dealing with emotionally unstable people.

I will get back to the subject I started that, despite all this, I might have fallen for someone even though we fight way too much and for way too many stupid reasons. And yet I can't stop caring, like a promise that i never articulated but it's there even though sometimes this link to him feels draining, and annoying, and useless. It starts with an image of this person that I got at one point in the past, a deep desire (his) of not being left alone, and to describe the image, it was a hug, and him crying in an airport, and... at the moment, however, i took it as a projection. While the setting might have been real, the person he was hugging/crying/telling that they ll meet again was his fear. Well, he did open up to me a lot... he's a third culture kid, had to go with his parents in a lot of countries and leave his natal one and his friends there and, well, he did miss a few more things. So I linked the sudden image to what he told me, and the pull was pretty strong. I simply have this understanding for him that he also had for me when it came to certain subjects and yet there is something that gets in between and, probably, while I feel the situation is not only strong but also serious, he's been trying to minimize everything, with some not so cool results. I also want to say that it's a long distance thing and it is also probably the idea that we can't meet... him with his things and college me with mine and yet it is weird how 2 people can get so close at times that I couldn't really get him out of my head. And yet I feel hurt, a lot, by this thing. I'm not even sure what i am trying. I am also being pretty vague while describing this, I know... sometimes I think, maybe I am exaggerating and it s only me perceiving my thoughts and feelings so strong. However, there is a big however here... We've had a few coincidences going on, thinking the same things, saying and writing the same things on more occasion, which did make us become closer. We're playing the strategy game lol... yay... And the bomb he dropped that he kept being under the impression that we've met somewhere before. And i have had similar feelings about simply knowing who and when to trust and I was right, people that i have never met. In fact, one of my actual best friends, also sensible and loving animals and following Arts, only one year bigger than me that has studied abroad as well, is someone I met for the first time 7 years ago on a forum and we just knew we could trust each other. And it is not the only thing that happened in this category. They happen, and they are real, and you can take them as a gift. Most important for all, i want and appreciate friendship, honesty, and love but, not the passion for the opposite gender type of love coming from such friendships.

Then I remember from past experiences, that i do things that seem out of the blue and weird and later make perfect sense and help a situation arrange itself. Well, not all, of course. Or maybe, what do I know. And I realize this one has a meaning as well, but it s so obscure at the moment it's weird and i struggle not to also let another negative feeling that i perceive as lingering about kick in. I wish I could have helped him somehow without him remaining "indebted" or whatever. Oh and there also is another problem with a girl he's never met but which seemed very prone to online relationships with all kinds of desperate people and many if not most of our fights started from this topic, and while it's been decided we do what we can/want with our lives it still remains a push-go thing between who's more moral and who judges the situation more... it's weird and it will remain weird. Getting a grasp of myself in a more serious manner (thus, mentally speaking) I believe I should just get rid of such connections with people that are effectively toxic and bring so much sadness and are prone to fighting. That "other girl topic" has grown into a serious problem, for some reasons. And yet, your guts also have something different to say. How funny. How sad.

The stubbornness.

Are we made of stars? More than we imagine but then again, I wish to understand more about my own capacities, and why I hurt/neglect myself like I struggle with (not!) doing. The city I am staying in right now is not a helping hand by any means, as it's a stressed and polluted environment essentially, though, a welcomed change from my natal town, albeit it doesn't foster my creative tendencies either, but now with college... i guess for a limited amount of years it works. I can also be perceived as pretty "out of there" by some, and it's kinda true, I can easily space out in all kinds of situations :))

I believe I just wanted to talk about a small part of what is going on in my life at the moment, form a perspective that the society has, for some reason, placed in the taboo category. For me, life has a strong spiritual layer i cannot ignore or mimic not feeling, and I can see a situation from more perspectives. I tend to measure myself (and my inner blockages if i get them for whatever reason or without realising) while interacting with kids and animals. There are so many things to tell about or discuss... scattered impressions and feelings about the society and the world in itself and some "hidden truths" and they are all beautiful in my opinion, but first there are these physical (or maybe just psychical? and personal) barriers that must be overcome.

I would greately appreciate any kind of answer, as abstract as it might get or just a tiny bit related to what i have written, but at least, an opinion, or personal experience about your own efforts or weird happening that made you ask yourself: why am I doing this? Where am I heading to? Should I trust my intuition?

Well...

Thanks for reading


updated by @kate: 02/08/17 04:29:26AM
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