Hermes- Thank you for that beautiful post. I need to remember this. I feel like an unpolished gemstone. I know I have beauty in me but I don't know how to show it. I am often told that when I walk into a room peoples moods change for the better. I see this a little spot of my gemstone being polished. I always feel better when I can make someone smile or laugh. At those times I feel truly beautiful.
Rene- Thank you so much. I thrive when I am around people but at the same time feel drained. I want to interact and be around others but it is hard sometimes. People have always found it easy to talk to me and I love to talk to people. However, this can start to weigh heavy on me because people open up about their lives. I don't mind listening but the intense feelings I get often make me want to retreat and hide from the world. Sorry I don't know why I am telling you all this. I don't want to burden you. I will say I am at the point in my life where I am planting seeds for a wonderful future. It will take awhile for things to come to fruition but I look forward to better days.
Igor- Thank you so much. I am exploring my life. I found I was unhappy in the work I was doing and decided to make a career switch. This means going back to college. I am only in my second term but I am already so much more happy than I was. I often follow my heart and when my 'gut' tells me someone is bad for me I will avoid them. Lately I feel my gut has been failing me as I grow close to people only to find they are using me. That is when I cut ties with them. I hate being used. I will continue to explore my life! :D
Hop-Daddy- Thank you so much. I do feel like a sponge that is maxed out. I get major anxiety doing things I enjoy. I also find myself worrying about every little thing. I have many, many health issues I am dealing with right now, most of them from worrying so much. I would like to know more about grounding. I have heard of it but I am unsure if I am doing it right. I often feel like people are draining me. I feel like some are sucking me dry. Those are the people I cut ties with.
Thank you to everyone! I am shy and I was really nervous posting this. Thank you for all the feedback and making me feel welcome.