Reading request, repeating cycle please help
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Thank you for taking the time to open this post, I go through cycles in my life, it generally runs like this.
I have an awakening. I being to grow and grow and grow, I make positive changes and give up all the things holding me back or negatively influencing me. Then I'm sort of told I need to leave my wife. I refuse to do so. I shrink back down forget about my energy become entirely numb to my feelings and become just another body.
Then starts the drinking the anger the cycle of self loathing. Until I've had enough then boom awakening. Usually a year or two process in total.
This cycle has repeated itself 4 times. I'm currently at the cusp of maybe I'm supposed to let her go so I can continue to grow. I need to keep growing I can't shove myself back inside of the box and cut off all of myself again.
If anyone has any insights or experience with something like this, please I'm not sure what to do. I just want to continue to grow and share my light with the world.
updated by @lostsoul1144: 08/22/17 04:34:13AM