Would this be clairaudience?
Psychic and Paranormal
Thank you for the reply Hop-Daddy. For what you go through, it is good that you do get urgent warnings when there is danger about. If it is a guardian angel good! We all need protection in this life as things get pretty darn hairy at times. That you hear voices relating to people you hadn't talked to in awhile and then they call quickly after, i wonder if you have either something precognitive going on or if there is something they pick up from afar after you think of them, if that makes sense. Getting answers to life's problems is nice. I could use a huge dose of that about now.
I appreciate your wishes that i can help with better understanding what is going on. Much that alluded to one person both in voice and outrageous synchronicity and feeling of spirits did unfold, yet in a sad nearly tragic way. I had written a celebrity some years back with concern about her, wondering if she was just being appreciated for her body and looks and yet being battered down by some unsavory types. Right after writing her i got a couple of unexplained phone calls from Atlanta, but was not there to take them. After years of synchronicity and thinking something was supposed to happen, i wrote about it on my facebook and a few weeks later i was coming out of a Safeway and something astounding happened. I saw this woman coming in who was hiding her face by a hooded coat, though the store was warm inside. She was peeking at me with one eye, yet unlike someone who would be a schizoid personality or such shyly hiding themselves but walking the other direction, she walked right toward me. When close she bowed her head, i looked down under the hood just barely and she lifted her head then and the hood fell. Guess who it was???? Yuppers. She had this brief expression of fear because her hood falling but then had this look of relief and pained anticipation. My jaw dropped. It was her, after so many years. She had remembered my letters, that someone actually gave a crud about her heart rather than just her body or face, with enough affection to be looking into my facebook years later. Sadly, this states that maybe my hunch was right in that she hadn't been treated so well when a celebrity gets a couple of letters of concern then is looking at their facebook years later. How little concern has been shown for her that she does that?
My mind blanked out and i went into shock. I posted something on my facebook that night about the woman with honest eyes and a sincere look in her face. The next morning there was a phone call, the voice being an angry type of hurt, "That was me in the store!", click. My mind was swirling and i tried to come to terms with it being her, but others disbelieved enough that dissociation worsened. My boundaries collapsed and in that state a couple spoke in sharp terms against her and my mind broke more fully and i bashed her on facebook. That after it was me who walked away? There are some who it seems resented anything about her at all and my mind was too far gone to decipher what was what. I wonder how she felt. I was shattered in how things went and my healing from it is compromised by many not believing me. I did post on my facebook at one point when she still may have been looking in trying to explain everything. At another point i asked for at least a note i could take to a therapist so i could be believed, none has come.
So much of what it seemed to allude to went badly because i was too silly in some of my influences and should have been keeping some riff raff out of my life a bit better to be honest. My bad. I felt horrible about things i said, yet angry about being in position for being doubted and even struggle with God/ the universe etc about many things that happened that have me in position for being disbelieved for things that really did happen. Some of the most extraordinary could be comfirmed by someone who was multiple personality , but her therapist insists on 'alter death' at times so that rather than having her memories more in tact, after years of therapy she is missing many memories including those of raising her son.
The most recent confirmation of one of the voices happened after this, but i don't know if that means anything else will come of it all or not. I am dismayed and hurt and look to the sky going 'why?'. I am sure that in no way all of how this went after she showed up helped her. It has certainly hurt me and my life. I had a terrible tirade against her after some said 'it wasn't a God thing but a satan thing and she was satan's toy sent to break my faith'. My mind was too far gone to see what a horrendous and outrageous thing for anyone to say. I fought out of the state where my boundaries had been totally shattered as part of me was fighting against what seemed so terrible things to say about her not seeming right on their parts somehow.
My life has been terribly hurt by all of this, with me having my spirit very broken. My faith in God and the universe is not good right now. Why like this? I am feeling guilty about things i said yet angry and hurt about being left in position to where people disbelieve me for something that really did happen. Much secondary trauma from being disbelieved.
So is there something yet unplayed in this where she will muster up the ethics to say 'yes, i followed him into the store' and something that will play out that will explain so many mysteries? I do not know. It doesn't look good. It feels good to at least talk about a couple of voices of things that seemed outlandishly impossible for things that did happen and not be considered insane. White Russian reference? Geez not in a million years could that have come up by sheer coincidence. Some of the synchronicity was so outrageous it seemed it must be a God thing, so then why like this for how things are going? I am changed into a less caring person by how many reacted. I spent years helping others who turned coldly away.
One of the things on synchronicity is that in her home country, i was visiting a town and only talked with one person there all day, some guy at a t-shirt stall. The person talked about his sister being in the states now, on the other side of the camera now, flying back and forth from coast to coast, but her being actually being two years younger than what people thought. Later i found she lived there, does have four brothers. The picture i found of the woman at the VK website (Ukraine, white Russia), was wearing a t-shirt with Paramount studios and the birth year was two years younger than the stated age of the celebrity. After i posted about it on facebook, the year of birth listing was removed from the VK profile. When i say outrageous synchronicity, i mean OUTRAGEOUS. Out of about 40,000 people the only one i talk with is her brother and he says something about her that is exactly what i need to know to find her listing 12 years later and what he said is certainly something she would not have wanted him to say so he probably would not normally. The name that led to the updated name and the finding of the VK listing was out of Atlanta from a few years back, two years younger than the celebrity's stated age. What in heavens name is going on?
I know this is lengthy and appreciate your patience in it. What when all the signs and being loyal to God and the spirits leads ultimately to heartbreak and my intent of her thinking at least one person out there gives a crap about more than just her body and face gets hurt to where my original intent is hurt and i feel duped for having been loyal to the signs?
Is there more than one force out there that plays with empathic signals and synchronicity or was much simply interfered with by some with not so pure intent when it came to it? Was there different ways she should have done? Different ways i should have done? Was it all a prankster or ill influences putting things wrong or is it really still ongoing with better to come? I do not know, but have felt myself shaking at times from some of the events along the way going 'did that really really happen?". It all seemed so enchanting and mystifying along the way, yet part of me under it was going logically 'no way this is happening !!!!!!!!!!!!' and the fall out is very serious.
I am wondering how well a person should develop such senses as it seems like there is a wading pool and the more into it you can get the deeper the waters get. What about getting into shark infested waters? I am thoroughly lost. Again, this is lengthy. I have seen you posting and there seems a kind hearted way about you so hope you will understand my confusion and explanation of a few things that happened, though i leave many many parts out for space sake. I am shaken to the soul and hurting. I look to the sky and ask 'why??????????' and am heartbroken, looking like someone simply insane to any who walk in only a logical world where nothing in spirit ever directs anything.
Oh, and the angel i associated with the voices, Uriel. That is where i know it sounds nearly outlandish as Uriel is one of the top three of all angels. At the same time, i first saw his name and broke down crying when reading about the 'cloaked angel' remembering a night through which i should not have lived. I had taken about 60 - 80 strong meds with alcohol. Part of me turned and said to God, "i leave it to you to decide". I sensed two presences fighting over me that night, one being cloaked and far the stronger wanting me to live. My psych nurse knowing of the meds that i took said i should be dead. That certainly there is no way at all that i should have awakened after 6 1/2 hrs sleep feeling refreshed fully as if taking nothing and seeking no medical help. one of the meds i took normally would leave me groggy 4 hrs after waking up when just taking one of them. It felt as if i had taken nothing at all, rather than being so sick i would be puking my guts out. As i say, my psych nurse says that the chances of this, her knowing these meds, was 0.000. Why me? Why someone as major as Uriel? and why for it to have gone like this? Uriel of all angels supposedly the one who knows the most of the timeline and i don't understand why he would have me live for a time when my faith is fully broken. Is the final verse in this yet written?
I am confused about how these things work so came here where maybe a few could at least understand things that seem paranormal. You having listened means more to me than i can say.
updated by @raindancer: 03/04/17 05:49:41PM