Sickness and shutting down
Jan Howorth: Hi, I have a similar coping mechanism, I purposely don't remember deaths as I try and shut them out. My only sibling brother (the narcissist!) gets depressed a week before and a week after each one. It's 20 since my dad died and if I see anything happening between a father and son, be it in life or on film I still crack up. I can shut out emotions at will and find it easy and as the saying goes bitterness will eat you from insid, it doesn't bother me. Like you suggest it seems callous but it's the only way I can keep my emotions stable. My mother, who abused me, was schitzophrenic and I didn't see her for 20 years and when I met up again she did nothing but talk about my brother. I use her as a yardstick to keep sane, if I feel myself losing the plot I think of her and withdraw till I'm in control of my own mind again. I've just bought a Tourmsline bracelet and feel as though it's helping me, I have just done a term teaching and don't feel as stressed as before. Jan
Hi Jan, I do the same thing. I can shut my emotions off in a minute, most people think that I am so cold, but it is survival for me. Sometimes turning off is the only way that I can make it through the pain. I still process the pain, I just have to do it a little at a time. I'll have to look into tourmaline. Thanks for you input.