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Calla Lily
@calla-lily
03/09/17 12:16:30PM
10 posts

Empaths and NDE's or Near Death Experiences


Empath

Although I did have an NDE at the age of 24, when I actually recognized my empathic abilities at 36 and thought back, I realized I'd had them since I was a small child.  The other abilities I have were also around long before the NDE.  My childhood was normal except a lot of teasing/bullying at school from other kids and also a volatile household at times with temperamental father and oldest brother.  Being a sensitive introvert, I would usually head for a quiet place until the turmoil was over with.  Since I was that sensitive at the earliest age I can remember, I believe I was born this way.  There are also other empaths in my family/extended family with various other abilities as well. 

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
02/09/17 01:12:22PM
10 posts

Scary Dream Where I Saw Myself From Above The Bed


Dreams

Thank you Hop Daddy and Hermes.  A lot of what both of you said makes sense.  I was through a divorce with an abusive (narc) ex-husband a few years ago, followed back-to-back with a boss I no longer work for who was the same.  After those experiences, although my empathic abilities were still going strong, the other abilities seemed to be clogged.  It's taken a while to feel as if I've gotten my entire self back but the other experiences are slowly starting to trickle back in as well.  (Have taken extra precautions at home with safety too, just to be sure.)  Seeing myself in the dream and tapping into something spiritual, plus the knife, I wonder if it meant that my 'voice' or 'expression' was being cut off with my abilities or spiritual self.  That makes sense too, in light of what you have both said and what has gone on in the last four years.  With the nightgown, I suppose the feeling that came with it was 'mother.'  Thanks again to both of you - this has helped me a great deal.  :-)

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
02/06/17 10:26:41PM
10 posts

Scary Dream Where I Saw Myself From Above The Bed


Dreams

So this dream occurred probably about a month ago.  In the dream I saw myself from above the bed wearing a nightgown I actually have but not the one I was wearing when the dream occurred and there was a person (a male) holding a long, thin knife to my neck.  (Could have even been one of those skinny handsaws).  I couldn't see his face, just his arm and hand holding the knife and he was wearing a black and white striped, long sleeved, close-fitting shirt.  I immediately woke up after this 'dream' and the natural light in the room was identical to the light in the dream as if it had really happened but there was no one in the room when I woke up of course.  I was a little startled because I was thinking, "Did that really happen, is it going to happen, or was it just a scary dream?"  Has anyone else ever had a dream like this?  This is the first time something like his has happened so it freaked me out a bit. 


updated by @calla-lily: 06/12/17 11:23:00PM
Calla Lily
@calla-lily
02/06/17 10:02:01PM
10 posts

Attacked in a dream last night.


Psychic and Paranormal

I'm guessing it may have been one of two or three things:  either a bullyish entity is challenging you or what manifested in your dream was a 'feedback' thing where your subconscious was telling you to challenge yourself with your abilities.  Have you seen this particular entity before or did it seem familiar to you? When you used to have dreams with these things in them before, were other people in those dreams too that you knew in real life? I'm wondering if it could also be a subconscious thing where you wonder if people may challenge you if you tell them about your abilities.

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
02/01/17 12:19:49PM
10 posts

advise needed, has anyone dealt with this?????


Empath

This has happened to me countless times over the years.  My guess is that it's your intuition telling you that this girl is someone you shouldn't be around.  As you have expressed, there is the 'fake user' vibe with her.  As a 'user' she will undoubtedly be on the lookout to take advantage of or compare herself to others - perhaps the insecurity thing with her you are feeling.  I think you are probably picking up on 'negative intention.'  You have the need to be there for your friend who's having her first baby.  Sometimes we can't avoid social situations for various reasons.  But from what you've said, I think it's wise to keep  your distance from this person while you are there.  -  Oftentimes if we'd have a department lunch where I used to work (bad place - bad situation), I would get these feelings of anxiety and outright dread that day, before we went.  Like "I'd rather have a poke in the eye than do this,' feeling.  And it was because I knew I would be forced to socially interact with people who were like the girl you're talking about and I couldn't avoid them by being busy at my desk.  A lot of times, people that are users or narcissistic people will use social situations to stick you or create situations you are not anticipating and all of a sudden you find yourself in a 'hot seat' not of your own making, sometimes trying to defend yourself. The sneak attack. People like this need an audience to perform in front of because this is where they play out their little games.  My advice would be if she says or does anything untoward to put you in that spotlight, be prepared to have a neutral comeback, or don't say anything at all, therefore forcing everyone present to make their own conclusions about what she just said.  As an empath, I get very strong vibes of negativity whenever I'm around a narc or a fake user.  In retrospect I understand now why these vibes happened to me so often when I was younger and it wasn't until I had some up close and personal run-ins with this type of person that I finally figured out why those negative vibes were happening. Intuition is a very handy tool. ;-)

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
01/30/17 11:59:42PM
10 posts

Work


Empath

I'm glad to hear you spoke up and hope too that things change for you there. It is difficult to invest so much of yourself in a job only to find that you are being taken advantage of, ignored or passed over for people who brown-nose and don't do the work you do. Empaths tend to be very conscientious workers with integrity. The few times I attempted to push back with my narc boss, she made sure I paid for it later on, once with a lie on my review insulting my character and four other times by promoting the people I'd trained in, over me. But at least I tried. I could no longer be part of a department that was run so shabbily and vindictively as this one was. I'm not normally a person who remembers to pat myself on the back too much but this time I got mad enough to do it. My boss didn't deserve me so I left for greener pastures. The stress was lifted off my shoulders like a two-ton elephant had been sitting on them. I realized that I didn't have to carry that impossible weight anymore. 😊
Calla Lily
@calla-lily
01/27/17 01:57:31PM
10 posts

Work


Empath

The same thing happened to me in work situations, my last one being the worst.  Lots of hoping for merit-based promotions in a 'helper' position with a large corporation which I never got (promoted everyone up over me who I trained in), with a narc boss who was looking for brown-nosing.  I spent 7 years at that job until I got a heart flutter from the stress and decided to give my notice.  I have taken some MS Office courses since then and will be getting my Accounting degree finally.  Right now I'm going to think about me - take care of me.  And an Accounting degree is not what I want to do especially, it's the experience I have with it in my background.  If I could be doing something else, I would, but need the paycheck as a single mom with a daughter in college.  Empaths don't really fit well with narc bosses.  I found this out the hard way, although they go to great lengths to hide it before you start working with them.  They generally use you as the office verbal punching bag and the person at the 'dumping desk' where they assure everyone else you can do the work they say they can't do.  I'm hoping for a more easy-going, less ego-driven, merit-based boss this next time.  It was a lesson for me.  I can't really change myself.  To be a brown-noser instead of doing merit-based work, as an empathic, doesn't really work for me.  It's like lying.  When the pain of staying becomes greater than the pain of leaving, as they say, I left. 

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
12/31/16 01:17:15AM
10 posts

Can likes be from past lives?


New Age

I went through self-hypnosis a set of times, back in the 1990s.  I kept a journal of everything that I saw in the past-life regressions.  What I found out, I believe, is that one of my greatest phobias - heights but only when there is someone else around me - showed up as two times I was pushed off something and died in two previous lifetimes.  And it doesn't matter if it's the most trusted person in my life, I will still be terrified if I am up someplace high with another person, even to the extent of panic attacks.  In both those lifetimes it was a person I trusted who pushed me.  The first time a person I worked with in a manor house pushed me off a stairway balcony and the second time my 'best friend' pushed me off a cliff.  As for my likes, before the regressions I was always drawn to England.  In the regressions I saw no less than three lifetimes there.  So this maybe makes sense as to those likes and dislikes that seem random but probably aren't.  I have never visited England in this lifetime nor was exposed to English things as a child.  At this point I enjoy those likes and incorporate them into my life as much as possible.  They make me happy.  

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
12/31/16 12:39:45AM
10 posts

Has Anyone Had Ghosts Mimic The Voices of Loved Ones?


Psychic and Paranormal

One day shortly after I'd moved into a new house three years ago, my teenage daughter was napping on the couch in the afternoon in the living room and she woke up because she heard 'my voice' like I was talking on the phone to someone and walking past her.  Then she realized I wasn't home yet.  We never figured out who or what that was but the people who owned the house I live in were the original owners and they both died in the house before I bought it.  If I had to guess, I'd think it was the lady.  I've often felt a mother-type figure around me here.  Not a nuisance and not doing bad things, but more supportive.  Why she would have mimicked my voice is a mystery.

Calla Lily
@calla-lily
12/31/16 12:22:15AM
10 posts

Sparks of light


Psychic and Paranormal

I see these frequently. They are usually little sparks of white or pink light that flash and I can see them move from one place to another before they disappear.  They were particularly prevalent right before I was going to file for divorce so it was a stressful time.  Less frequent since then.  I got them on video one time in my living room so I know it's not just my eyes playing tricks on me. I can say that I feel positive about them as if they were there to cheer me up?  I've seen them since I moved out of the house where I took the video too so I know they're there with me and not just in any one place. I welcome the sight of these.