I have this feeling of guilt every time i pick up something from somebody
Everytime i pick up something negative from somebody (and unfortunalety in my country Bulgaria there are a lot of negative people)... but anyways. when i feel something negative- anxiety or even hate i start to blame myself and i start to think that I feel something negative towards the other person and i blame myself and feel like a bad man everytime. I know the issue but even knowing, i find it very hard to be allright.and this blaming that i feel something bad when in reality the other person is nothappy is in almost every situation. and i isolated myself and don't go out much.The harm this issue does to myself is that i don't allow myself(don't have enough strenght too) to feel good things towards my family and friends(whichmy friends-are far away in the capital of the country -living their lives) //// and i feel drained i know now that i am not bad. but novice learning to cope man with a bit unusual ablity but still. i need some kind of support ,my parents do not understand how bad i feel and don't support me enough in this. also i'm afraid that ..i think, this empath ability became an ego and i am a megalomaniac trying to take everything negative from all the people and i blame myself for that . i think it is wrong i think it is too much and i invade privacy of others. and i'm not sure it is like that but i feel like an invader and a guy who thinks he can save the world.and besides that i try to find my true nature and i don't find these two things comatible on one hand i feel emotions of others on the other hand i seek Peace and i feel like other people's energies distract me from metitating and transcending my ego.
updated by @shash: 03/13/17 11:31:07AM