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Ash2016
@ash2016
10/17/16 03:49:29PM
34 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

It is very interesting that so many of you go through this too. I also have always seemed to find the broken ones, but I think @jenstone is right.. we are all broken to some extent. Even when we seem to have it all together there are usually things we still need to work on. I've never been in a relationship with another empath that I know of, but I have noticed that my husband seems to pick up on my feelings now more than he used to. I'm not sure if it has something to do with me realizing I am an empath or what, but I find it odd that it has changed. It has been a really good change though.

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/12/16 09:34:05AM
34 posts

Male friends falling for me


Empath

@tigerlily Sorry to say, but based on my experiences you will most likely have to cut them both out of your life eventually. Saying something negative while making it sound positive totally makes sense to me. I knew a guy who used to do that all the time.. I think he tried to be a friend and be supportive but in the end his feelings for me would get in the way of that. It always made me feel like he was only trying to be a friend to get close to me in hopes that one day it would be more. I didn't cut him out of my life, but I did like you and stopped talking to him about new guys that would come into my life. So the friendship eventually died a natural death because of it. 

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/05/16 06:21:39PM
34 posts



@bookworm I agree. I'm sure once she was back with her granddaughter she found some comfort. It was just at the time she was sitting there all alone and she just looked helplessly broken. I do think I was supposed to have the experience. That day was the first time that I really questioned what was wrong with me...lol I thought I was going crazy. But eventually it all led me here and to answers. So I do think I was meant to be there for that reason.


updated by @ash2016: 10/05/16 06:22:20PM
Ash2016
@ash2016
10/05/16 12:50:22PM
34 posts



I once received complete validation for what I picked up on, though it was different than what happened with you. I wasn't aware that I was an empath back then.. it was several years ago. My husband and I went to the hospital for a procedure his father was having, and all of this happened while we sat in the waiting room.. 

I was happy and it a good mood. It was a simple procedure he was having, nothing to worry about, and we were mostly only there because he needed someone to drive him home afterwards. So there we sat, flipping through magazines, joking and laughing.. just waiting. Suddenly I was completely overcome with sadness and I didn't know why. My whole demeanor changed and my husband questioned me about what was wrong, thinking he had upset me somehow. All I could say is that he didn't and that I was okay.. but he knew I wasn't. I leaned my head against the wall behind me and closed my eyes, hoping the feeling would go away. As I said, I didn't know I was empath.. so to me this feeling was very much mine, although I had no idea why I felt that way. Then, the validation came. A lady, who looked to be in her 80s, had entered the room with her granddaughter around the same time this feeling came over me. The granddaughter was called back to be seen, leaving the old lady there alone, and I found out exactly where the feelings were coming from when her cell phone rang. She was only a few feet from me so I could hear all of her end of the conversation as she bursted into tears telling the caller that her brother had passed away that morning. I know in my soul that I felt every ounce of that poor lady's grief right there in that waiting room that day! I had to turn and face the corner to keep those around me from seeing the flood of tears that streamed down my face as the heart wrenching pain was too much for me to bear. Now part of this might have been my imagination running away with the sadness, but I felt that her husband had already passed. I felt that this was her last remaining sibling and that she felt alone in the world now that he was gone. I felt memories of the two of them as children and felt that they were very close in age but he was definitely her older brother. I felt that she had no idea how to carry on with the remainder of her life without him by her side, the only constant in her life for 80 some years.

I have more tears now as I remember it.. I felt the overwhelming urge to get out of my seat and wrap that lady in my arms and comfort her. Looking back, I KNOW that I was supposed to do exactly that. But I didn't. I was a mess and was trying to prevent others from seeing that side of me and also worried that it would scare the hell out of this lady if a stranger approached her with a red teary face and embraced her! To this day, not moving from that chair is still a regret that has haunted me. Not one person in that crowded waiting room made any move to offer comfort to this poor woman as she cried her heart out.. maybe they didn't notice or maybe they were scared like me. But I felt her pain and I have always had intense regret for letting her suffer through that feeling alone. Once we were out of that room, I explained things to my husband and he hadn't even noticed the lady at all or heard any part of her conversation and he was right beside me. I think I was meant to hear it, meant to feel it, and meant to act on it. So I will forever regret letting her down.


updated by @ash2016: 02/02/17 11:28:38PM
Ash2016
@ash2016
10/05/16 12:15:51PM
34 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

Oh and @aiden I also meant to add.. I also always know up front what will last and what won't. And the feelings I pick up on have caused many problems for me where relationships are concerned because I can tell when something is off before the other person even realizes it.. and I can't keep my mouth shut when I do...lol

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/05/16 12:11:04PM
34 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

@maryanne I'm so sorry you had to go through that! I also experienced the "popularity" and it caused trouble for me. Truthfully, I didn't lose my virginity until I was 17, but I had a bad reputation for being promiscuous by the time I was 14 due to all the attention I received from boys my age. And sadly, some of them told lies when I didn't share their interests. Friends have also always went on about there being something about me.. they say I'm the easiest person ever to talk to and that I have a way of making them see things from a different perspective. So 2am phone calls full of tears have always been the norm with my friends! 

@aiden me too, me too!! There is actually one person that I have had a major connection with for literally my entire life. We're the same age and his family was always friends with my family.. so we really have known each other since birth. Anyway, other than one kiss when we were 16, we were never more than friends until life had led us down different paths for quite sometime and we reconnected in our 20s. I knew immediately that we would not end up together.. we have an undeniable connection, but I have always known that he's not "the one". If we slept in the same room we had the same dreams. Knowing now that I am an empath, I know that I might have been picking up his dreams.. but he is the only person I've even been aware of this happening with. He is one of the people I had to disconnect with because he actually became somewhat obsessed with me, as conceited as that sounds. He always claimed that he had been in love with me for his entire life. I will always have a deep love for him, but I was never IN love with him. I speak to him maybe once a year or so through emails to catch up, but only when he contacts me first and that has to be the extent of our communication because if I take it farther than that he misunderstands my intentions. Still, I dream about him from time to time. And every time I do I find out from his family members that he is going through something big.. marriage, a baby on the way, divorce, a car accident, an illness.. these are all things my dreams have been a prelude to. I've never understood why there's such a deep connection with someone I was never in love with.. but it exists.

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 06:41:12PM
34 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

It's interesting to know it's not only me that this happens to. I thought it might have something to with people being drawn to us. Like both of you, I have also had the feeling not be mutual with people I am interested in.. I think. But like you Aiden, I haven't always expressed it. I would always assume the feeling wasn't mutual because they didn't come to me like the others normally do. I will say that I've never been rejected when I have actually pursued someone... of course I'm only talking about initially meeting or hooking up with someone. I've had failed relationships like anyone else and have even been cheated on.. though, those people still express feelings they still have for me as well.

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 06:30:51PM
34 posts

New feelings and weird things now..


Empath

@tigerlily and @paul, thank you for your responses! I haven't been on for awhile and didn't see them until today. @paul.. a major shift in reality.. that makes sense.

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 05:45:41PM
34 posts

Extra Weirdness


Empath

I haven't really had anything like this happen much. There have been times in my life that I have seen things, but I honestly try to ignore it for the most part because it scares me. As for your question about Halloween though, have you ever read about the ancient origins of the holiday and why it was created? Check out this link if you haven't. Maybe they were onto something..

http://www.history.com/topics/halloween/history-of-halloween

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 05:32:37PM
34 posts

Change of seasons


Empath

I'm glad you made this post... it's nice to find out that things like this about me are common in others.

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 01:43:58PM
34 posts

Change of seasons


Empath

I have always felt the seasons change, and not just by the temperature. Even though I love the temperatures and the beauty of spring, I don't like the way it makes me feel. It feels very dreadful to me. Summer is the worst.. it brings a feeling of heaviness and gloom. Fall and winter are my favorites. Fall always bring me a high. It's the time of the year when I finally start to relax. As everything in nature starts to die it's almost as if new life is breathed into me. Winter, for me, is calm and peaceful. The relaxing feeling that fall brings tends to carry me through the winter and I'm very content until spring rolls around... then the dread sets in and the whole process begins again. So I am definitely a fall/winter girl...:)

Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 01:28:46PM
34 posts

Dreams


Empath

Lauren3:

I had a really weird dream...

i dreamt that my dogs paws just fell off, and I found them in my room.. Does this have any meaning? I have weird vivid dreams every night but this one stands out a lot to me.

Dream interpretation has always been a hobby of mine.. I know that seeing animal paws in your dreams is a sign that you should trust your intuition and instincts. Have you been feeling any sort of disconnect with your intuitions lately? If so, perhaps that's why the paws fell off and were disconnected in the dream.


updated by @ash2016: 10/04/16 01:29:14PM
Ash2016
@ash2016
10/04/16 01:00:36PM
34 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

I'm still new to all this, but I've been thinking a lot about past experiences since discovering I am an empath. Since I was old enough to have relationships, I've always had a problem with male friends developing romantic feelings for me. I know that this is somewhat common in close friendships, but this usually happens to me with any male that I spend a lot of time with... at school, at work, etc... not just those that I am close to. It has even happened with friend's boyfriends and once with one of their husbands. They express these feelings to me and act on them.. every time it's described as there just being "something about me" and they claim that the feelings are so strong they can't shake them. I've had to end friendships or distance myself from people because of feelings that they couldn't put aside. So now I am wondering if that has anything to do with me being an empath.. have any of you experienced anything like this?


updated by @ash2016: 02/23/17 02:23:33PM
Ash2016
@ash2016
09/24/16 07:23:11PM
34 posts

New feelings and weird things now..


Empath

@jenstone I think it might have happened again tonight with my camera! My mom stopped by for awhile and she rocked the baby to sleep while she was here. So I grabbed my camera to snap a pic and it just wouldn't cooperate.. no matter what setting I put it on the pictures would come out blurry and this isn't usually a problem. It makes me feel better that this happened to you too. Now I'm kinda looking forward to seeing if anything else happens...lol

@hop-daddy it's interesting that you think it might have been leading me to the store.. I've always believed you are placed where you are supposed to be all the time. I never even thought about passing houses while I'm driving.. that makes sense too. I'll look around and see what I can find on grounding, but I have no idea how to message you..lol I only just now discovered that people were trying to follow me and accepted them. But I would love to hear your thoughts on it if you can message me!

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/24/16 03:16:13PM
34 posts

New feelings and weird things now..


Empath

For those who didn't read my first post, I guess I just "accepted" what I am on Thursday.. so this all took place after I got some sleep and woke up yesterday morning. I woke up with an overall positive attitude, ready to start taking steps in exploring all this. I suddenly had a desire to clean my entire house.. carpets, walls, everything. I don't know why but it just felt like changes needed to be made. So I got started right away. I had a mental plan of everything I wanted to get accomplished and was very motivated. Well, after working on it for a bit I sat down to rest about 1pm. I am a person who tends to procrastinate once I take a break, so I made a rule for myself that I would get back to work on it by 2. This is where things started to get pretty weird. I scrolled through fb, watched a little bit of tv, and then started playing a game on my phone. I had played a couple of rounds when suddenly the game closed out. I reopened it and it immediately closed again. Then I realized it wasn't just the game. The fb app did the same thing and my messenger icon had completely disappeared from my screen. I looked at the time and it was exactly 2:00. So I got up to get back to work thinking I'd try again later. When I went back to it I tried to make a call and ALL of my contacts had also disappeared. I powered the phone off and back on twice.. still the same. About 10 minutes later I decided to make a store run to get what we needed. As I was walking to my car I checked my phone and everything was back to normal. I even opened the game app while to see if it was working and it was too. When I came back home everything went haywire again.. back to exactly the way it was before. My husband has the same phone and apps as me and his was working fine. Mine was saying I wasn't connected to wi-fi too, yet his phone and my kids tablets were all connected fine. Does this mean anything or is it just a crazy coincidence?

Other weird things were just the way I felt. Things feel new. Along with the desire to clean, I have an extreme desire to be outside. I was in a great mood all day (which is out of the ordinary lately) and accomplished more than I have in a month. I've been depressed and didn't expect to wake up yesterday and suddenly be okay. I'm still okay today too. There was one point on the way home where I suddenly felt nervous/anxious for no reason. I was driving down the road alone. Then from out of nowhere a car came flying past me like they were in a hurry to get somewhere. I began to question whether I picked up on something from that driver and tried to push the feeling away. It worked. 

Anyway, just wondering if/how any of this relates to me being an empath? It just feels like changes are happening very fast.. or maybe I'm just paying more attention.. or maybe it's all in my head. Any help?


updated by @ash2016: 02/13/17 03:57:36AM
Ash2016
@ash2016
09/24/16 02:37:42PM
34 posts

Extra Weirdness


Empath

As you know I'm way new to all this, but I do experience some of these things and always have.

1) I was in a doctor's office last week when a man sitting behind me casually struck up a conversation that within 5 minutes led to him telling me that he divorced his wife (12 years ago) because she got pregnant after he had a vasectomy. I had never met him before.. thought woah man slow down...lol but people generally talk to me that way wherever I go. 

2) This happens to me a lot.. not only them popping in my head but I also dream about them sometimes and then hear from them.

3) I don't think I've noticed this one happening or just thought it was coincidence if it did.

4) I've always questioned a lot of things about my dreams, and I've seen a lot of them play out in front of me later. I have ran into people that I recognized from dreams, but thought I must be crazy. But I know for sure that I got to see my daughter in a dream before she was born. In the dream she was a newborn laying on her daddy's chest. When she was born she looked exactly like my dream.. kinda took the surprise out of it.(:

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/24/16 11:13:29AM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Thank you bookworm! I will make a new thread later then. :)

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/23/16 10:46:45PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

I finally got some sleep. I wasn't able to fall asleep until 2am, but got 4 hours then up for an hour before getting 4 more. Hubby was off today and that allowed me to start my weekend catch up a bit early. It was good sleep and I don't remember dreaming at all. I woke up feeling much better, but today has been.. kinda strange. I'd really like to hear some opinions on a few things. I'm not familiar with how these threads work yet. Will you guys get a notification when I post here? Or would it be better to make a new thread for my new questions? 

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 08:31:27PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

I'm gonna try to keep this as short as possible because it's just about 10:30 here and I feel like I might really be able to sleep tonight. I just wanted to thank you all again for all of the advice you have given me. Every single one of you have helped me. I can honestly say that I am in a much better place emotionally right now than I was less than 24 hours ago when I made this post. Since my last post, I've been doing a lot of thinking. A lot of positive things have happened. It's strange but it's almost as if a feeling of acceptance has washed over me. It's hard to explain.. but this morning my body just felt so heavy. My mind was foggy and I had a general feeling of anxiety that wouldn't go away. But now I feel like a huge weight has been lifted, my mind is clearer than it has been in a week, and even though there's still anxiety I'm much more calm and collected. Oh, and I haven't felt my crown tingle in hours! I wonder what that means?

So, anyway, this all makes me feel like I'm on the right path. And since my feelings run me, I'm gonna be sticking around. I've come up with a game plan to explore all of this based on the advice you've all given me. My fears are slowly fading and being replaced with a desire to know where this leads. I hope it is okay if I keep updating this post and maybe asking new questions along the way. I might need you guys!! But for now... I sleep.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 04:18:22PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Thank you Karen! I will keep that in mind. I have to step away for awhile to do some things.. but all of you please fire away with anything you think could help. I will be back on asap and will reply to everyone when I am. Thank you all so much! You have really helped me more than you know.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 03:58:06PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Indeed Karen! I love quarters and I'm pretty good at throwing them in myself....lol

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 03:54:54PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Cheshire-cat thank you for the advice! I don't take any medications, prescriptions or otherwise, except for occasionally for migraines. I don't get them often anymore, but lack of sleep does give them to me sometimes. I have wondered if I should get antidepressants, but I'm not a fan and would only do it as a last resort. I've only taken them once in my life but felt that it only hid a problem that didn't actually go away.. and I want more than that. I'm glad to know that you have also experienced the tingling and voices. Hearing that others have experienced it reassures me and lessens my fear that it's a medical problem.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 03:49:42PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Karen2, I would like to ask you a question about spirits if you don't mind.. do they ever visit you in your dreams instead of in reality? I ask because I truly believe that I have had this happen to me on several occasions, and perhaps even more times than I realize. I have been visited by my late aunt (who was like my mother) many, many times. In the dreams I knew she was dead and I knew she was visiting me. In fact, she told me in the first one as I was crying not to worry about her because she would "be back to see me". This was a couple of days after she passed 10 years ago and I have met with her in my dreams countless times since then. I'm not scared when this happens, I think because I feel comfortable knowing it's "only" a dream. It makes me SO happy when I get to see her and I've noticed that she comes in times when I need it most. My dad (who passed when I was a kid) also visited me once. It was a very short dream and the only words he said to me were, "I can't stay. I just had something I had to do and wanted to make sure I got to see you while I was here." Then the phone rang and woke me up. It was a family member calling to say my aunt (his sister) had just passed a few minutes ago. I whole heartedly believe he came to take her home. These are the only times I really felt like I was being visited, but I have also had countless dreams where people I don't know are there. In my dream I know them, if that makes sense, but I wake up trying to figure out who the hell they were with a sense that I should know, but I never do. I know that something exists in my dreams that is not typical. I have always known this. I can even remember a dream that I had at 3 years old that is still VERY vivid in my mind. I have never been able to decipher its meaning, but I know it has one. If I am going to be visited by spirits, can I keep them in my dreams? Maybe that's ridiculous.. I don't know. But I know that I could explore it much easier without fear if I could limit it to that instead of my waking life.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 03:45:18PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Thank you hop-daddy! You never know.. maybe we knew each other in a previous life. :) He is definitely NOT spiritual. His mother, however, claims to be a bit of a psychic. I've never really seen proof of that with her though. I do think she has some ability, but maybe hasn't fine tuned it in the way that she should've or something. Anyway, he rolls his eyes and laughs at her advice sometimes lol he is a wonderful man though, very loving and a rare find. I can feel things in him that I don't believe he even knows is there. I also feel an emotional wall that I don't think he knows he built.. and I constantly have to remind myself that the wall was already there when we met and has nothing to do with me. He makes no effort to break it down, because as I said I don't feel he is even aware of it. A big part of me feels like I'm supposed to help him with that, but I don't know how to.

I can definitely buy the created our own bad luck thing. We have often joked that there is an "us clause" on every situation in our lives...lol things that always work for other people never work for us. We can have a plan that seems fool proof, but SOMETHING will get in the way and it will come crashing down for us. He is very pessimistic too because life has taught him to be. He never expects anything to go right. I feel kinda weird talking about him like this.. I normally don't share any personal details of our marriage because it feels like I am disrespecting him. So, I do want to add that I'm not trying to bash him or point out his flaws. I embrace his flaws just as I do my own. I love him for every piece of what he is and would never give him up. I just want to make sure I'm not giving the impression of it being any other way.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 02:56:46PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

I just got word that my cousin (who I believe the voice warned me about) passed away. I'm not sure how to feel. I've never been good at dealing with death. I wasn't very close to her, but am I so saddened by her passing. Today was her birthday.. she came into the world on this day and left it exactly 33 years later. She left behind a 12 year old daughter who my heart is really aching for at the moment. At the same time, I feel at peace knowing that her long road of suffering has ended and she is no longer in pain.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 02:51:00PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Karen and hop-daddy, thank you both for continuing to talk with me about this! It really helps. I should clarify that my husband does generally give me what I tell him I need. He is very supportive and, not to brag, but much better than my friend's husbands when it comes to taking on more responsibility with the kids when he is home. It's just that I know he won't understand the "why" I need it. I can't expect him to because I don't fully understand it myself. For now, I think I will just approach it like I need these things because of my stress, depression, and anxiety.. because that's really what it boils down to in the big picture. I'm just gonna leave out the other stuff for the time being so that it doesn't confuse him about my sanity...lol

Can either of you offer advice on not picking up his stuff? Because I'm beginning to think this is a big problem for me too. With him, I always know exactly what his mood is even from just speaking to him through text. It's so strong with him that sometimes I have to remind myself that I can't read his mind...lol He is really stressed himself. We are not in the best situation financially at the moment and it's very hard on him since he brings in the only income. So he comes home stressed and irritated a lot. I have noticed that sometimes I can be in an "okay" place emotionally until he comes home. Then it's like all of a sudden I'm irritated when I have no reason to be. He doesn't irritate me. I love him to pieces and look forward to seeing him every day, but I still get the same irritation a lot for no reason at all. So I have to assume I'm taking on his feelings when this happens. It causes me to be snappy with him, which only makes things worse. So that is something I really need to learn to control if it's possible.

Jenstone,  thank you so much for sharing your story with me! It gives me hope. I have been left with no choice but to accept that this is who I am, though I still have doubts at times and a lot of fear. But I know I have to explore it and see where it leads me. It's interesting that you say narcissists and sociopaths are attracted to you. I spent a few years married to a narcissist when I was younger (now my ex-husband) and I have always found it incredibly weird that he seems to be the only person in my entire life who I didn't see through from the beginning. He was poison in my life, but I totally missed it and hung on every word he said. I've never been so naive with anyone else but him and I've never figured out why.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 01:15:39PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Oh, on the subject of stones.. I have a set of several stone charms for a necklace that I've never used. I'm not sure which ones I have, but I know I have tigers eye, jade, and labradorite. Can any of those help any of this?

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 01:12:35PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

I will pick up some rock salt and give it a try. Can I mix it and the epsom salt in the bath? I would like to keep using the epsom salt too since it relaxed me so well. Karen, my husband is very skeptical as well so it makes it difficult to get him on board with helping me make time for these things. He understands the stress and anxiety part and is very supportive, but not so much when I go beyond that when I'm talking to him. He doesn't say anything. He listens. But of course I can tell that he doesn't buy any of it. I didn't tell him about the voice until after I found out the cousin was actually in the hospital. He didn't say much, but I could tell that he was shocked and looked at it a little differently that time. So I'm hoping he will come around.. it makes it difficult when I can't even share it with the one person I share everything with. 

The weekend is coming and that's when I can get the most/best sleep. He's off on weekends and usually handles the kids so that I can sleep in and "catch up" on my sleep. Maybe I can take something to help me sleep deeper while he's with them and hopefully start working towards a better routine by the time Monday rolls around. All of my kids are asleep by 10. So I have the time available for sleep.. I just can't. So first priority is finding a way to make it so I can.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 12:45:32PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Well it's always good to know I'm not crazy! lol it's funny that you say it's blue. I have no idea if this even means anything, but those dreams I was having were FILLED with BLUE! My daughter is a tom boy and rarely wears dresses. When she does they are very simple and plain. Yet, in one of my dreams she had on a light blue dress that was completely covered in dark blue bows of every kind. Some were ribbons, some were even bows that you stick on Christmas packages.. but all blue.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 12:41:47PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

I was also raised that way. It's weird though because I have heard many stories from my grandmother and aunts about seeing things that can't be explained. Though it seemed there solution was to get scared and run away. So that has always been mine as well. Would epsom salt baths give the same results? A few weeks ago when anxiety was really torturing me I forced myself to make time for a 30 minute bath each night for a week straight to try to help me relax. I used epsom salt then and I think I got better sleep that week than I have in months. I stopped though because due to my busy life with the kids I have to skip other tasks to make time for that half hour bath.. maybe I should try rework it back into my schedule on a regular basis.

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 12:22:50PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Karen2, do you have the tingling sensation as well? I have considered mental illness myself! But I am a very sane, very rational person aside from this. I also didn't feel like the voice was "in my head" either.. it sounded like someone was there talking into my ear. It wasn't loud or a whisper, just a normal tone that sounded very real. 


updated by @ash2016: 09/22/16 12:23:30PM
Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 12:17:50PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Hop-daddy, I didn't see your response until I posted mine and the page refreshed. I agree that exhaustion is playing a huge part in some of this.. I can't even think clearly most of the time and I have to use the energy I do have to take care of the kids. It's hard for me to take sleep aids too. I've always been very sensitive to them and they seem to put me in a coma until morning, which doesn't work out well with a 6 month old because I'm afraid I won't hear him. The ghost thing terrifies me and, if i'm honest, it's the main reason I turned away from this a couple of years ago. I've always had a strong fear of the paranormal and am afraid if I explore this I will open up something that I can't stop. I will say I have seen ghosts before. The house I lived in until I was 10 years old had shadows that roamed our hallway at night. I would see them pass my bedroom door often. Then we moved and it stopped until we moved again when I was in my teens. I didn't see anything there but I heard things all the time. I also saw a little boy in a cemetery around that same time. All of these things are the reason I am so afraid of it.. it has been freaking me out from an early age!

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 12:03:49PM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

Thank you all so much! I checked into the ascension symptoms and I can relate to almost everything on the list. So I will definitely do more reading on that. One thing one the list that stood out is warmth in the crown. It sometimes comes with the tingling. I actually had my husband feel my head while it was going on and he could feel the heat.. it felt like I had a slight fever, but only in the crown while the rest of my head was normal temperature. I meant to include in my original post that I googled this tingling soon after it started. I found several health problems that can cause it, but I don't have the other symptoms that go along with those illnesses. It does worry me that it could be something else, but I also find comfort in the fact that I had an MRI on my brain with and without contrast a couple of years ago (due to migraines) and nothing was found. What really amazed me though is that when I googled it my TOP result was a link about empaths and the chakras. This is the only time I have ever seen anything spiritual pop up ahead of medical stuff and I felt as if I had been led there. I've also looked over the empath survival program. I think maybe my next step should be to try those techniques and see if it helps? 

I am so new to all of this.. there seems to be a lot of meditation and visualizing things involved and I have zero experience with those. I have never meditated and truly don't even know how to. So I might be bugging you guys with a ton of questions!

Ash2016
@ash2016
09/22/16 01:24:23AM
34 posts

I am desperate for advice..


Empath

TL;DR - Have known I am an empath for a couple of years but decided to ignore it until weird things forced me to come here.. key questions I have are can being an empath make the crown of your head tingle and if so what does it mean? Have you ever heard a voice when no one was there? I would also like to hear any advice you can offer on where to START exploring this "gift" that feels more like a curse. I would appreciate you taking the time to answer what you can even if my post is too long for you! :)

Now, for those of you who prefer the novel version..

I guess you could say realized I am an empath about two years ago. I stumbled upon an article and thought huh, this sounds like me. Then google led me here, where I lurked on the forums for awhile before deciding to push the idea aside and proceed with life. I did this for a few reasons... 1. The things I feel make me feel like I am crazy. 2. I am afraid of where this will lead me if I try to explore it. 3. I have never really been a spiritual person and wouldn't know where to even start. So I decided to just keep living my life as I did for the 30 years before I knew and that's what I've done. I'm starting to think that was a bad call. Something is happening to me and I could really, really use some answers. I am depressed, but not suicidal kind of depressed.. just really unhappy with a lot of anxiety. It has really been interfering with my life and relationships lately. I've been experiencing some really weird things that I can't ignore and I need to know if any of your have experienced these things and what I should do.

I am a married stay at home mother of four. I don't sleep much at night. At night, I feel at peace and energized. Everyone is in bed and my house is quiet. I try to sleep but I just can't settle my mind and relax. So routine for me is to finally catch an hour before I have to be back up to get the big kids on the bus, then another hour before the baby wakes up, and then a 2 hour nap with the baby mid-morning. This is horrible. I'm exhausted all the time. About a week ago I was trying to clear my head on my pillow about 2am. I think I was between awake and asleep, in that stage just before you drift off. Suddenly I heard a voice. It was a male voice, but it was not my husband. I have replayed it over in my mind so many times that it's hard to even describe the voice now, but it wasn't scary. It was just a normal voice with a very flat, non emotional tone. And it said, very cleary, "someone is in the hospital". My eyes popped open instantly. I might have been asleep and it might have been a dream, but I heard it either way. I worried for hours, not about the voice but about WHO was in the hospital. To sum it up, morning came and no one close to me was in the hospital. So I kinda let it go. Then two days later I found out a cousin by marriage who I don't talk to often is in fact in the hospital on life support.

Ok, the night after I heard the voice my head started to tingle in the crown. It's sort of a pins and needles kind of feeling like you get when your foot falls asleep and it's in a very limited area, about the size of a softball around the crown of my head. It has been doing it every day since, though it has been less today. It isn't constant, but it happens for several minutes several times a day. I also started having very strange dreams (again) the night this started. Dream interpretation has always been a hobby.. so I looked up the meanings. Every single random thing in these dreams over a span of several nights all pointed to basically the same thing, some sort of spiritual enlightening or wisdom.

Since this latest series of events have taken place, my anxiety has kicked into overdrive. I don't know what to think or what to do. I really need some help. What does all this mean? Do empaths hear voices or have premonitions? How can I get some sleep? Can being an empath make my head tingle? I admit that I have a secret fear that I really am crazy because there's a tumor in there and that it's ME who will be in the hospital! :( Any questions you can answer or advice you can offer would be greatly appreciated. But please remember that I am new to all of this and might have to have things dumbed down for me. I really tried to shorten this up as much as possible. So there are other things that have been happening as well and lots of details I left out. So please feel free to ask me any questions that could help you help me. I would be glad to answer them. I am scared. I'm not even 100% sure I am an empath or if I am something else. I don't know what to do.


updated by @ash2016: 01/23/17 05:47:41AM