I am desperate for advice..
TL;DR - Have known I am an empath for a couple of years but decided to ignore it until weird things forced me to come here.. key questions I have are can being an empath make the crown of your head tingle and if so what does it mean? Have you ever heard a voice when no one was there? I would also like to hear any advice you can offer on where to START exploring this "gift" that feels more like a curse. I would appreciate you taking the time to answer what you can even if my post is too long for you!
Now, for those of you who prefer the novel version..
I guess you could say realized I am an empath about two years ago. I stumbled upon an article and thought huh, this sounds like me. Then google led me here, where I lurked on the forums for awhile before deciding to push the idea aside and proceed with life. I did this for a few reasons... 1. The things I feel make me feel like I am crazy. 2. I am afraid of where this will lead me if I try to explore it. 3. I have never really been a spiritual person and wouldn't know where to even start. So I decided to just keep living my life as I did for the 30 years before I knew and that's what I've done. I'm starting to think that was a bad call. Something is happening to me and I could really, really use some answers. I am depressed, but not suicidal kind of depressed.. just really unhappy with a lot of anxiety. It has really been interfering with my life and relationships lately. I've been experiencing some really weird things that I can't ignore and I need to know if any of your have experienced these things and what I should do.
I am a married stay at home mother of four. I don't sleep much at night. At night, I feel at peace and energized. Everyone is in bed and my house is quiet. I try to sleep but I just can't settle my mind and relax. So routine for me is to finally catch an hour before I have to be back up to get the big kids on the bus, then another hour before the baby wakes up, and then a 2 hour nap with the baby mid-morning. This is horrible. I'm exhausted all the time. About a week ago I was trying to clear my head on my pillow about 2am. I think I was between awake and asleep, in that stage just before you drift off. Suddenly I heard a voice. It was a male voice, but it was not my husband. I have replayed it over in my mind so many times that it's hard to even describe the voice now, but it wasn't scary. It was just a normal voice with a very flat, non emotional tone. And it said, very cleary, "someone is in the hospital". My eyes popped open instantly. I might have been asleep and it might have been a dream, but I heard it either way. I worried for hours, not about the voice but about WHO was in the hospital. To sum it up, morning came and no one close to me was in the hospital. So I kinda let it go. Then two days later I found out a cousin by marriage who I don't talk to often is in fact in the hospital on life support.
Ok, the night after I heard the voice my head started to tingle in the crown. It's sort of a pins and needles kind of feeling like you get when your foot falls asleep and it's in a very limited area, about the size of a softball around the crown of my head. It has been doing it every day since, though it has been less today. It isn't constant, but it happens for several minutes several times a day. I also started having very strange dreams (again) the night this started. Dream interpretation has always been a hobby.. so I looked up the meanings. Every single random thing in these dreams over a span of several nights all pointed to basically the same thing, some sort of spiritual enlightening or wisdom.
Since this latest series of events have taken place, my anxiety has kicked into overdrive. I don't know what to think or what to do. I really need some help. What does all this mean? Do empaths hear voices or have premonitions? How can I get some sleep? Can being an empath make my head tingle? I admit that I have a secret fear that I really am crazy because there's a tumor in there and that it's ME who will be in the hospital! Any questions you can answer or advice you can offer would be greatly appreciated. But please remember that I am new to all of this and might have to have things dumbed down for me. I really tried to shorten this up as much as possible. So there are other things that have been happening as well and lots of details I left out. So please feel free to ask me any questions that could help you help me. I would be glad to answer them. I am scared. I'm not even 100% sure I am an empath or if I am something else. I don't know what to do.
updated by @ash2016: 01/23/17 05:47:41AM