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Ecila
@ecila
10/24/15 01:02:16PM
898 posts

Scary experience; please help


Tools for Empaths

Also, going to the happy place was a form of dissociating. Very effective for children who cannot deal with their environments. (I did that too) Meditation will be the total opposite, ie, you will face your true reality.

Ecila
@ecila
10/24/15 12:54:45PM
898 posts

Scary experience; please help


Tools for Empaths

It could be a manifestation of your fears, an image of pain from the past, or it could be nothing but a mental object or trick of the mind. There is no way to know really what it is. It could be an image that has a lesson for you, but you are not at a point to fully understand that message as yet.

The best way to deal with scary images like these during meditation would be to simplify your meditation. Scrap the chakras and all the colored lights for the time being. The best method to start with would be metta. Stick with metta for several weeks or months at least.

Don't fear the image or try to fight it. You can send him kindness or just ignore him. He isn't something you need to defeat.

If you are aware of any unwholesome mental states, hate, ill will, jealously, and even fear, work on getting rid of them. They can manifest as images during meditation. Metta will help immensely with that.

Lots of elements of our histories (emotions, memories, etc) can be brought to surface during meditation. It can be very helpful in dealing with the past but sometimes it needs to be approached slowly and with tried and tested specific forms of mediation that are known to be safe. Metta is the safest and gives you a platform to base further work.

It is very common for people to see images such as these when beginning meditation. I did and many other people on here have mentioned similar ones. I personally think that they are (sometimes) images representing some negative aspect of ourselves that we are carrying around, but some would say they are actual entities. Even so, they could be an entity created by us from our negative mental states. Whatever they are, they are not to be feared.

Here is an example of metta meditation. At the end of these meditations, it is good practice to send metta to all beings, around you, in your home, in your town, etc...Negative states of mind (or entities) do not bother a person full of kindness:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRHWU122L9sLet me know if this helps:)

Ecila
@ecila
10/23/15 04:43:09PM
898 posts

Meditation for physical healing


Tools for Empaths

Appicato is the name I couldn't remember. This was a great talk as I recall and might be of interest to you:

Ecila
@ecila
10/22/15 03:50:58PM
898 posts

Meditation for physical healing


Tools for Empaths

Glad you like it! Brahm and Bramali are good, and this guy I like but can't remember his name:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1faBi_nwgX4

There are 30 min meditations and written guides on their website at bswa.org.

Let me know how it goes:)

Ecila
@ecila
10/22/15 02:39:29PM
898 posts

Meditation for physical healing


Tools for Empaths

Lots and lots of meditations to get you going. They give a brief intro then silence.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDlTfbz0UtvJWNNQ22O8P7Q

Don't worry about chakras being blocked.

Ecila
@ecila
10/20/15 06:07:10PM
898 posts

Vacation meditation


Tools for Empaths

Yes, Emmy, I have used those sometimes when I was super stressed and couldn't meditate for real. There are some really great ones. A vacation sounds nice!

Ecila
@ecila
10/20/15 06:01:30PM
898 posts

Meditation for physical healing


Tools for Empaths

Hello Darias. I have been trying to heal a neck problem. Can't say I've had any astounding results other than my pain lessening during meditation. I do believe that it is possible, tho. The thing about meditation as I know it, is that you can't really do it if you are expecting anything in particular...at least not at first. To begin you would need to just learn to meditate. Just meditating can help with different body systems including your immune response while would help healing. It is definitely worth trying. As you mentioned, the monks are known for lots of amazing results from meditation.

Ecila
@ecila
10/20/15 05:30:24PM
898 posts

Has Anyone Else Noticed This?


Empath

But, yea, I know what you mean, Kaitlyn. I've posted questions before and got worried when no one answered;)

Ecila
@ecila
10/20/15 05:18:36PM
898 posts

Has Anyone Else Noticed This?


Empath

Sometimes I notice a post hasn't had a reply for a while and I will say something. Sometimes I just don't know what to say or don't feel like what I have to say would be helpful. For a new person, a simple hello would be welcomed, I suppose, although several times I've given long answers and gotten no response at all. People come and go...There are also lots of repeated questions so sometimes a search might be helpful. There are a few people on here who usually do a nice job at welcoming new folks. If a question gets no response it is probably because no one has seen it who knows a good answer. Just leave it up and most likely someone will answer eventually.

Ecila
@ecila
10/20/15 01:55:20PM
898 posts

Who takes care of the Empath


Empath

Oh yes. . . but I have given up on that thought. It's not gonna happen. There's a quote that I've found helpful from Dgha Nikya: "...live with yourself as an island, yourself as a refuge, with no other refuge, with the Teaching as an island, the Teaching as a refuge, with no other refuge."

Ecila
@ecila
10/16/15 09:01:32AM
898 posts

Meditation properly


Tools for Empaths

I've have trouble these days with neck pain that makes it really hard. Lately I've decided that good enough is just going to have to do, since I'm never really comfortable. I think you can get used to using whatever position you set your mind to but it can be challenging. I don't think you have to be straightly aligned...just a position that keeps you from falling asleep and yet is comfortable enough that you can let go of the body.

Ecila
@ecila
10/14/15 01:17:33PM
898 posts

Empath Characteristics ? Please read and answer if you can


Empath

When I started seriously meditating years ago I also met a dark presence that spooked me. I think now that it was a remnant of a lot of dark energies that belonged to me or had gotten attached to me. I also did the white light for a while after that. Actually, I quit meditating for a while first! I went through a phase of space cleansing too, but now I feel I have finally cleared out all the negative stuff and send out metta to all beings that might be around.

Awakening for me started with a divorce, a death, reading and watching a lot of conspiracy books and movies, going crazy for a while down the rabbit hole, quitting the job I hated, facing a lot of ugly history from childhood on through the bad marriage, starting to meditate, making time for me for the first time ever, learning to trust myself, and finally validating that I am super sensitive/psychic/empathic.

Crowds vary with me. I think it depends on the type of crowd and my mood or energy level at the time. Some people are so unpleasant that I immediately want to get away from them and the feeling they bring about in me.

Ecila
@ecila
10/13/15 06:00:39PM
898 posts



I second contacting Trevor. He is wonderful:)

Also wanted to mention that there is no need to feel stressed about being psychic or astral travel. Neither are all that important or even needed. It's most important that you get grounded and centered within your own skin. Take it easy on yourself.

Ecila
@ecila
10/04/15 06:38:51AM
898 posts

Untitled painting


Arts

Thanks, Chuck!

Ecila
@ecila
10/04/15 06:38:34AM
898 posts

Untitled painting


Arts

That's it! "Pulling" is what I'll call it...I was thinking of clinging or hanging on. Thanks for the encouragement, Waxing.

Ecila
@ecila
10/03/15 08:13:44PM
898 posts

Untitled painting


Arts

Thanks so much Karla:)

Ecila
@ecila
10/03/15 07:22:51PM
898 posts

Untitled painting


Arts

The photo is blurry. I can't decide if I like this or not. And I can't think of a name.


updated by @ecila: 07/02/17 06:56:33PM
Ecila
@ecila
09/30/15 08:37:48AM
898 posts

Can anyone help me understand?


Dreams

Yes I think so too, Robin, and wouldn't that be cool!

5wildponies, I meant to add that I believe everything works out for the good since you do find your little girl.

Ecila
@ecila
09/29/15 04:20:52PM
898 posts

Can anyone help me understand?


Dreams

I am certain that the two dreams are related. I can't be certain of the rest but I'll give you my opinion.

I believe you are right that the first part is about your plans for a new way of life and new baby. It is generally a good sign to have a baby who is healthy. They can often represent new possibilities opening up to you, creativity and hope. It could also just be a reflection of your desire to conceive, but I feel there is more to it than that based on what you said about other plans.

You seem to be very busy in the first dream with the new baby, which seems to lead to the second dream of loosing your daughter. Maybe you are feeling a little overwhelmed with the notions of a new baby and new way of life, and it is causing some worry about neglecting your daughter. The new baby and new life would take a lot of your attention away from her. You might feel to absorbed in minor details (tending to the routine needs of the baby) and forgetting what is most important right now. Your daughter could also represent other aspects of yourself that you feel are being overlooked or undernourished. I don't think that your daughter is in danger of being lost, but it wouldn't hurt to pay her some special attention anyways, since you said you do have fortuitous dreams.

That's just my take on it and certainly not gospel! I don't know how many kids you already have but just one is enough to stress a person. Combine that with a big change like you have planned and you have the potential to be overwhelmed. Take it easy on yourself. I hope this helped a little and good luck:)

Ecila
@ecila
09/28/15 06:01:15PM
898 posts

Dream of Forgiveness


Dreams

Just wanted to share this...Last night's dream was of a sort like I'd never had before. I think it was prompted by my recent - or perhaps ongoing - soul searching and general life difficulties plus Fly-Robin's previous post about dreams that are hard to interpret.

I was in the presence of some type of other-worldly or celestial group. They were conveying to me that they would sort my dreams for me and that I didn't need to worry. They also let me know that any thoughts that felt to me as bad, or anything that I was worrying about, was understood and forgiven. In other words, they knew I hadn't purposely done anything wrong. It was like all of my thoughts and deeds were included within the dreams that they were sorting out. Karmic traces combined with dreams, maybe...

Hard to explain it, but it was a comforting dream:)


updated by @ecila: 03/05/17 05:52:40AM
Ecila
@ecila
09/27/15 08:45:11PM
898 posts

Dreaming about people from the past.


Dreams

Those are some tough, mind-expanding ones to figure out. Sorry I'm not much help right now. Mine have been jumbled lately too. "The eternal now" needs to be said for some reason...

Ecila
@ecila
09/27/15 05:33:42PM
898 posts

Dreaming about people from the past.


Dreams

I know what you mean. I have those sometimes. It's like there are no differences in space and time, all events are happening at once. It is very curious. I recently read about an early Buddhist sect, the Sarvstivda, who believed that the past, present and future all happen at the same time. Maybe it's a trace of all things in the astral or maybe we don't really understand space and time at all. .. but I have certainly felt it being concurrent.

Ecila
@ecila
09/23/15 11:38:23AM
898 posts

Same dream


Empath

I had a doc give me that once. It has some really bad side effects and there are some lawsuits out over it. The drug is really for psychotics.

Ecila
@ecila
09/19/15 09:51:37AM
898 posts

Soul Calls?


Psychic and Paranormal

I don't know about that Meeps. It is good that you are aware of obsessive tendencies. It might be best for you to concentrate on yourself, learn how to be complete within yourself. If you try to develop a friendship, take it very slowly. Maybe it is some kind of call but that doesn't necessarily mean the other person feels it. It is possible that it is only a developing obsession on your part. Just take it easy around that person and let things come to light naturally. Obsessions are nasty but often pass as quickly as they arise.

Ecila
@ecila
09/17/15 10:12:47AM
898 posts

How to stop feeling guilty over leaving someone you're not meant to be with


Empath

I was thinking about this last night. I never could tell anyone I left that I flat-out didn't love them. I would say something like I needed time to be alone...a part of me will always love them...timing not right....it's all my fault....etc. All of that was really true and less harsh.

Ecila
@ecila
09/15/15 03:08:53PM
898 posts

Overwhelmed and nervous


Empath

This is the most supportive place on the web! Glad you found your way here.

Ecila
@ecila
09/14/15 07:01:26PM
898 posts

Some of my art :)


Arts

Those are wonderful! Love the warm golden kitty against the cool countryside!

Ecila
@ecila
09/13/15 10:39:07AM
898 posts

How to stop feeling guilty over leaving someone you're not meant to be with


Empath

It sounds like you've tried to let him know in an easy way without one big blow which was nice of you. Since you are married, this had to be coming on for a while. At this point it might make it easier on him if you did just cut it off. So you can think of it as helping him. He will get over it sooner the sooner he accepts it. There isn't much else you can do if you know you can't stay with him. Not an easy situation. I hope you both can stay kind to each other throughout.

Best wishes to you and him.

Ecila
@ecila
09/11/15 09:48:54AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

So sorry you have to deal with that Karen. I hope all we have to go through will make us stronger in this life or the next! I could swear my mother is possessed too.

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 07:35:54PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

I didn't know that would help anxiety! And yea I have that too pretty often but not like it used to be...I was buying the lime version of that but as you said, it's pricey! I can't swallow the gelcaps. On a related note dealing with health, I found out this week that I have some kind of autoimmune thing going on and need to see a rhuematologist. I also read that autoimmune problems are common for survivors of abuse like this. Another thing to deal with and have to read up on!

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 11:57:24AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Since I am 2 hours away, it should be okay if I only talk to her on the phone and limit any visits to only a day trip with no overnights. I will try that this time along with many of the other suggestions on this thread. Narrowing it down is a good way to look at it. Thank goodness I'm 2 hours away. If I was near her that wouldn't work. She used to show up at my house a lot and expected me to stop by all the time. I literally had to pass her house to go home everyday and it was always a guilt trip.

I called her roommate/boyfriend/whatever he is and she might not have surgery. I offered to go if needed. I've dealt with her this long. I guess I'll endure a while longer. At least we aren't children and dependant on them anymore!

The book, Surviving a Borderline Parent, came today. I have read a lot years past but nothing lately. Toxic Parents was a really good one. Alice Miller has some good ones. I gave them all away and wish I hadn't now! Seems all my friends also had toxic parents.

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 10:08:49AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Thank you for that comment, Beautyearth. Those are wise words. I believe that is how I'm going to have to deal with this, too, after a lot of thought this week. That's the only way I'll be able to live with it, but more difficult in many ways.

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 10:01:45AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Sarah...My son said those exact words to me a few years ago and it was a revelation. "It's not about you..." I'm glad my son has become smarter and wiser than me....lol....I also try to look at them as they are children but my patience isn't always where it should be, and the last time I was with her I wasn't prepared for the onslaught. Next time I might envision a suit of armour around me complete with iron shields and swords instead of the nice white bubble:) It's sad to have to go through all that to be around your parents, but it is as it is.

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 09:53:02AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Karen...That was a terrible way for her to ruin Santa for you! Glad you got a little revenge and it made you feel better. Is your mom still alive?

Ecila
@ecila
09/09/15 09:50:03AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Lavender&Rose...You describe it well. I dreamed last night she was going in to surgery and she told me "I'm going to die now." I think I will have to make up with her or the guilt will eat me alive. Guilt and shame were/are her strongest effects on me. I ordered a book on BPD and signed up for a retreat at the Buddhist monastery nearby on Oct 5. Lotsa lotsa self care! Thanks for that comment. It give me hope:)

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 04:49:16PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Visitor...I can relate. I took my bed out of my room to make room for my piano and slept on a feather bed on the floor. I used music. My stepbrother got it from her even worst then me and is a addict to this day. Also been down the counselor...shaman...meditation roads. Also had depression since I can remember but I deal okay most of the time when I'm to myself. I do believe it can be a symptom of empathy. With repeated, intense and long-term exposure, tho, it can be hard to shake. I did leave home at 15 in an attempt of survival but later after I was settled she moved to be near me. After my son went to college I moved again. She still always wants to visit or me to go there.

As for labeling, sometimes you just gotta call the kettle black. Your mom sounds like she had a lot of the sociopathic tendencies as well as others from the spectrum. So glad you have gained control.

Thanks for the comment. I might check out some liquid vitamins when I re-up and keep in mind that I must keep tight control on my life.

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 03:06:58PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

I meant I'm glad that I remembered how I had to recover on my own. I won't feel so guilty if I allow her the same privilege:)

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 03:03:15PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Thanks Chay. I think I will print that out and hang it on my wall. I'm glad you were able to work things out with your mother.

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 02:42:55PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Thanks Karen. She only has the one friend who lives with her (who might be gone on a fishing trip) and one other friend who is very weird but who would help some. She's just expecting me to be there (I'll have to drive 2 hours and stay) and I can just hear it now if I don't go, but I might not. I don't think the recovery is very long, maybe a week. I am thinking of cutting if completely off with her.

I had a major surgery once and she drove me there in the morning but not until she threw a fit that morning at 4:30 am because by her estimation I was late (I wasn't really). She yelled all the way to the hospital and said that she would "get me through this surgery and then I am done with your forever." I went in crying. She was talking to the nurses about getting power of attorney on me while I was recovering on morphine because I wasn't acting right. Oh, and I had to recover on my own when I went home...and it was a major thing. I had countless staples up my front. I couldn't hardly move. So glad you reminded me of that!

Oh, the memories.

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 11:12:53AM
898 posts

Same dream


Empath

Sorry that didn't help. You said on the other page that you are only getting 2-5 hours of sleep! You might just try for the time being to get some more sleep by taking a natural sleep aide. I've had good luck lately with Somnopure. CVS has it. It has most all the good stuff for sleep:

Melatonin 3mg
Chamomile Flower 50mg
Valerian Extract (Root) 500mg
L-Theanine 200mg
Hops Extract (Strobile) 120mg
Lemon Balm Extract (Leaf) 300mg
Passion Flower Extract (Aerial)

Any of those would help sleep if you have them separately. I grow valerian to make a tea, but you can buy tea for sleep, too.

Do you live in a place where you could find a Jungian therapist? They are supposed to be good with dreams.

There is also a routine for space cleansing on my blog that I have used in the past when I have a lot of bad dreams that might be some help. You can adapt it to suit you.

You could try keeping a dream journal and write down every detail you can remember from the dreams. Sometime when you go back and read them over, you can see them in a different way. I would also keep meditating. It might take some time to figure this out. Metta meditation is good for everything and will give you results in a short time. I think there is a link for that on the space cleaning blog post, too.

Yoga is pretty good to help with sleeping. There's a good site on youtube at freeyogatv. You can also find some just for sleep on youtube...

Making your bedroom as comfy as possible is another thing you could try. Calming colors, stuffed animals (I have a pink rabbit:), pictures that you love, pleasant incense before bed, clean sheets, fluffed pillows...you get the idea. Baths in epsoms salts before bed are hard to beat, too, and my favorite.

I hope some of this will help.

Ecila
@ecila
09/08/15 10:26:41AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Lavender&Rose...My ex is also deceased and was sociopathic. I don't think you sound unkind at all. And yes, to the outside world they seem/seemed like wonderful people. Mom is an ultra-christian. The ex was very charming. Dad is aspergers which feels a lot like narcissism...Have you been able to get the the parents out of your head?

I have decided to avoid the mother no matter how she tries to lure me in. She needs surgery soon and expects me to come. I might have to ...and then there's Christmas but I can just make that a short visit, although she will get mad about that, too.

Ecila
@ecila
09/06/15 10:54:08AM
898 posts

Same dream


Empath

I'll throw this out there just as an alternate view.

There is a whole lot of symbolism associated with a griffin. It is thought to represent the strength of the lion and the spirit and intelligence of the eagle. It can be associated with divine power or the guardian of divine power, the combined powers of air and fire, earth and air, and sometimes the perversion of all those.

Since you are seeing him every night, it feels to me like there is a message that is trying to get through to you. He's even calling your name to get your attention. Maybe there are other images in the dreams that you can get some meaning from to help decode this. Before you go to sleep, take a few minutes to meditate on the dream and set and intent or ask that you receive more information to help you understand.

I was reading the other night about dreams of being attacked by people who have had some abuse as children. I've had quite a few of those myself. I'm just mentioning this for synchronicity's sake and don't know if it would apply here or not. Could there be something that you are afraid of facing but might be to your benefit? IOW it seems scary (monster type griffin) but would actually give you strength (protector griffin).

Just something to think about and please ignore if it doesn't fit. I have also had dreams that feel like a real presence was hovering and have done the white light, room cleansing routine and feel like that is a good thing to do sometimes. Whatever it turns out to be, there is no need to fear it...

PS...During your meditation, you might suggest, or demand, that he tell you what he wants or leave you alone. You could also make a mental note to do that during the dream.

Ecila
@ecila
09/05/15 07:45:58PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

It's about an hour and a half away, but I'm going, by George!

Ecila
@ecila
09/05/15 07:32:28PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Thank you all for helping me with this. I feel better now in large part due to all of you. It's good to vent sometimes and I feel i can be honest here without seeming weak or self pitying, still I hope I didn't depress anyone.

There was a talk on Youtube last night that mentioned getting an image, or making a sigil, to represent love for yourself. I decided on a simple heart and was going to order something. I went to a thrift store today and found a hemetite (grounding and protection) necklace and a heart of black jasper (good for healing and protection) for a dollar! There is also a gem and mineral show nearby next weekend that I will visit to look for pietersite.

Thanks again to all you beautiful, patient, compassionate people:)

Ecila
@ecila
09/05/15 07:18:56PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Thank you Karen. All that's left to figure out, for me, is how to get over the marks that have been left. Trying to figure out a PD person will make you nuts, so I'm not gonna do that anymore!

Ecila
@ecila
09/05/15 07:15:39PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Cheye, why has work become more difficult? Are the dreams keeping you awake?

Ecila
@ecila
09/05/15 12:49:47PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

I'm so glad you jumped in:) I had not heard of pietersite. It is absolutely gorgeous and after reading the wiki about it, it make perfect sense that it would be good for healing:

"The fibrous structure in pietersite has been folded, stressed, even fractured and/or broken apart via the Earth's geologic processes. The fibrous materials have then been reformed and naturally recemented together by quartz."

This stones life sounds like mine! I need recementing. I will order a piece of pietersite.

I'm not in the habit of working with chakras either but I will give it a try. It does help me to do metta meditation or any meditation. I'm going to have to be better a sticking to the routine.

I also do call on Uriel, Michael, Gabriel and Raphael, usually every morning when I stick to my routine. It does help a lot. I haven't tried Reiki, but have been meaning to check that out. I'll add that to the list.

Thanks so much for this. I will make a complete list of what helps and post in the blog in case anyone else could use the info. It is incredible the amount of healing that needs to be done when you have so many years of abuse behind you, esp when it continues throughout your whole d*** life.

Ecila
@ecila
09/04/15 12:40:42PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

First I had to get old enough to figure out what was going on. The slightest remark, or even tone of voice, to my mother when I was small ( and after I grew up for a long time ) would result in my face being slapped, her throwing an all out fit, or worse. It is very hard to get over those feelings of helplessness, domination and fear. But you are right. It has to be done. You have to sort through all the emotions and take responsibility for your own welfare.

One boundary I will set is to never visit her for longer than a day. Maybe I shouldn't stay overnight anymore. This is so hard. I am an only child and she really plays on my sympathy. She has alienated all her family and only has one friend who lives with her. He was also abused by his family, so abuse is familiar to him. I feel sorry for him, too. I don't know what I'd do if he left her, and he threatens to do so. When we are on good terms she calls me twice a day. I know that isn't normal, either, but we get along fine on the phone.

Ecila
@ecila
09/04/15 12:00:44PM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

Bless you for doing that work. You must be a bit of a saint.

Ecila
@ecila
09/04/15 11:59:10AM
898 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

That's a super deadly combo Cheye! You poor baby. Staying away is the only real solution it seems. I married a sociopath for 17 years, which completed the cluster B experience for me. Do you feel that you have been able to come to terms with it all since you've been away from them?

 
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