It sounds like you could be ending up with narcissistic people that are onlyout for themselves and we attract them sadly. Ihave only had short term relationships my whole life and lately have been looking back over the relationships, im pretty certain themajority were narcissists and I look back so I can figure out how to notend up withanother one again.I also tell myself that even if I feel that I cant find anyone that feels right that I wont just give up because im using being an empath as a reason/excuse not to keep trying. I find dating so hard but after the narc I was with this year that made me realise im an empath Iv learnt its me attracting them and also learnt as much about them as I can to try and spot as many as I can in preparation for more. I have always looked for a "feeling" I felt it before and I seem to feel that with narcs but im hoping that feeling im looking for will one day be in a healthy fore filled woman that I can make alife with. I know its hard attimes but we have a gift, its just learning more about ourselvesand others andthen find ways to keep in control of this gift. Im glad to have it and it made my life all of a sudden make sense when I found out but it can be tricky for sure. Just know you are worthy and are an amazing and unique human being like we all are, stay positive and always have an onwards and upwards mentality even when times are tough and you will get there in the end.
Good luck to us all