Empaths and Anti-depressants?
I love this!
I read this and your earlier post.
My wish for you is to find a way to cut all ties with this man and everyone and thing that is connected to him. Including your sister. (yikes! What a betrayal it must feel like that she continues to engage with him and talk to you about it after his abuse and overpowering and threatening you!)
It may take you a long span of time to recover from the trauma of the relationship. Until you do, any continued contact, directly or indirectly through these other connections may just feel like a continued and constant revisiting of the abuse and re-traumatizing emotionally.
I hope that you have some kind of support in your life. Some person or people that understand how much TLC you need in order to heal. If not, are you able to find a part of yourself that understands that and can you find ways to show yourself some tenderness?
I hope that you can find the space to heal, feel what you need to around it, and come home to yourself. It sounds like you've been in the trenches a long time.
There have been many long periods in my life in which I was unable to connect with any beauty or joy. Lots of self-compassion was and still is needed to begin to and continue to heal from the trauma and abuse I lived through.
I hope you find your way, sister.
Sending you peace and vibrations from the heart.
I am new and am glad to have found you all.
I am highly sensitive and feel the vibrations of others.
So much of who I am revolves around this truth. It is so integral to the person I am and what my story has been. From my earliest memories I experienced this heightened awareness of what was going on energetically and emotionally in the people around me.
I look forward to becoming acquainted and checking in here often.
I am really needing the support and to have the understanding of others who have similar experience.