Forum Activity for @jls

Jls
@jls
08/30/16 11:48:41PM
12 posts



War cry! Standing right beside you my sister. Your strength is an inspiration.

"Out of the night that covers me,Black as the pit from pole to pole,I thank whatever gods may beFor my unconquerable soul.In the fell clutch of circumstanceI have not winced nor cried aloud.Under the bludgeonings of chanceMy head is bloody, but unbowed.Beyond this place of wrath and tearsLooms but the Horror of the shade,And yet the menace of the yearsFinds, and shall find me, unafraid.It matters not how strait the gate,How charged with punishments the scroll,I am the master of my fate:I am the captain of my soul."INVICTUSOnce, you shared this with me. And now I get to share it right back.Warrior life.
updated by @jls: 02/05/17 10:09:11AM
Jls
@jls
08/22/16 04:37:13PM
12 posts

Resources on Fae?


Psychic and Paranormal

THANK YOU FOR POSTING THIS. Oh my!! Okay so i realize you posted this back on the 5th, but im so glad i stumbled upon it because i feel like i have an overwhelming amount of things to say (and also, i have questions for you about your ability to see fae as true form!). Im not very aware of exactly what transpires in a lightworking session, as ive only recently awakened and am still learning a LOT.
I have to say, there is MORE beyond just what write-ups are easily accessible on the internet and this topic is super frustrating (especially if you know your true form IS Fae and are looking for deep answers to the million questions you have, which is where i have been at!). In my scouring journey of trying to uncover information about others who are like me, i have watched documentaries, skimmed online forums, read books, read articles, stuff about soul origins, etc etc and nothing has resonated with exactly what i am looking for EXCEPT ONE book. It is called "Hybrids: So You Think You Are Human", by Tanis Helliwell. Ive felt like i was just crazy, after a wild goose chase trying to understand these vivid soul memory dreams ive experienced, and why certain things happen to me UNTIL i read this book. I wish there was more information in it, but this is all ive found so far that matches up the closest. Youre definitely not alone on researching/discovering more about Fae, and i will gladly share as much as i can with you if there is more information or help i can offer, dont hesitate to ask! Ive found online forums to be incredibly intimidating, and havent felt safe posting questions for just whomever might stumble upon it, because i felt susceptible to *something*...i dont know if that makes sense. One is a community online http://www.otherkincommunity.net which might give some information, it is free to join and they seem very welcoming to those who have inquiries. I, personally, have just felt more comfortable and safe here with the empath community.
I hope this helps! Id love to help you more if i can. Let me know =>
Sending you loving light!
Jessie
Jls
@jls
08/22/16 03:57:29PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

Thank you for suggesting metta meditation towards her, Ecila. I didnt even know what that was until i looked it up after you mentioned it, and what a wonderful suggestion!! Definitely going to do this :))
Jls
@jls
08/22/16 03:15:35PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

By all means!! Im so glad you did share all this because helping as many people as possible by just one post is an incredible thing and an opportunity not to be passed on.Thank you for sharing this with me and whoever gets to read it in the forum, im going to check out running with the wolves for sure! Funny, i happened to make a lonerwolf account a couple months back and completely forgot about it until you brought it up. Glad you mentioned that!All of what you shared resonates SO much with me. WOW. I think i need to read it like ten times in a row hahah. THANK YOU you are amazing. I feel like so much of this stretches beyond just mother-daughter stuff and into many other aspects of life and love and all types of interpersonal relationships we experience throughout our lives. So much of this can be applied to so many aspects of life. I love it. So much wisdom and strength!!
Jls
@jls
08/22/16 02:55:45PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

4peace, i am so glad to hear you removed yourself from the situation, it is so so important to be happy with where you live! City and house, both :)I agree that the empathic side becomes amplified in strength when subjected to things like abuse. In that light, it makes me feel grateful that others can then benefit as a result, like it didnt happen for nothing. More care and concern and love and healing can be shared to others because of these experiences. Thank you for sharing your situation with not just me but all who read this thread. Very sorry to hear your mother is now dealing with cancer. I pray she comes to the same realozariom you have come to, which is recognizing there is a block between giving and recieving love. And that this realization will open her up to a new mindset, regarding it. <3I LOVE black tourmaline too! Thank you for your suggestions of crystal gridding, i love this idea so much!!
Jls
@jls
08/18/16 08:22:53PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

Thank you for responding, Amanda! Yeah there is definitely no threat to my physical wellbeing at stake in this situation, which I am so so grateful for. I have spent years living away from her and found that i always of course have gotten along with her while not living with her. The current situation has me kinda stuck with her for the next 4-6 months and i'm realizing that it has forced me to face old wounds swept under the rug. Like, i dont believe these wounds would have been brought back out into the light again without this situation and therefore i feel like it happened so i could see there are things that need to be healed, otherwise i probably would have left them compartmentalized for the rest of my life..something i know is definitely not healthy emotionally. Like you said, having to deal with the stuff on a daily basis has made me also wonder if maybe i'm supposed to figure out how to cope with this to mentally/spiritually "toughen up," so to speak. Part of me feels like if i can do that, then i wouldnt be affected by her like this. Like, perhaps i'm looking for things that she is simply incapable of giving to me because she doesnt understand. In which case, i have no real option but to do exactly what you just described, for it is unreasonable to expect what cannot be given. Living with her again after all this time has been pretty tough, i'm dyin' to get out, and as soon as i can i'll be gone hahah. Until then though...i have a little bit of time to deal with. I would love to hear more about how you were able to develop those skills toward your mother. Thank you so much for your response. <3 !
Jls
@jls
08/18/16 07:49:24PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

Hmm. You know, i never considered my mom as one who might have a personality disorder.Though, im not ruling it out either, as anything is possible. Thank you for suggesting it, i will look into that and see if perhaps it has something to do with this situation.I dont particularly feel victimized or even necessarily abused. Its like, Shes almost in denial mode of her actions having hurtful effects on her children. Like I'm the one with the qualms toward her and how she interacts with me. She doesnt have qualms with the way i interact with her though. Its really difficult to explain i suppose. I totally understand the time gaps necessary between interacting, oh man. I have to build up emotional protection to prepare for the point of the day when she gets home because of the energy shift i feel when she comes in the door. Even still, i can only tolerate speaking with her for like an hour TOPS before i feel totally maxed out and frustrated inside. I wind up just avoiding her and hiding out in my room. definitly a bummer! She doesnt even come home in a foul mood....its like, my energy just straight up doesnt like her energy.
Jls
@jls
08/18/16 05:11:13PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

It is quite incredible how much our belief in self is affected by pain carried from childhood, oh my.Thank you for sharing, jenjen. Because it helps me to know that this wont be forever, that healing will come, it is good to hear of others' positive experiences with professional help. It is wonderful to hear that you are lighter and your belief in self is returning. That, healing truly is possible despite all the things you have experienced. You are walking proof, and an example of strength. An example of the blessings that are waiting for those choosing to embark on the path to healing, and continuing along that path. I imagine you have a new understanding of just how strong you were born to be. And are. Emerging from a chrysalis with brand new wings. I sense Hope, not only for yourself but for others with whom you are able to share with (like me for example :o) ) <3
Jls
@jls
08/12/16 07:06:02PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

Oh my goodness thank you so much for responding to my post! I was praying someone who had a similar experience would be willing to share with me about it and am so so grateful to hear from you, Lotusfly. Thank you so much for sending love, I want to tell you, I felt it so strong right in the center of my chest!! A huge wave of healing love and happiness flooded over me. Beyond grateful for this. Very appreciative of your kind words, I believe you are right, thank you for confirming that staying with my mom is probably not the best way to heal this situation. I know my mom does want healing for us too but she seems incapable of accepting or comprehending it....I can't seem to get through to her. Leaving here and healing on my own, first, does seem a healthier route.Sending you golden light and blessings right back, Lotusfly! <3
Jls
@jls
08/12/16 12:24:31PM
12 posts

Is there anyone who can offer advice on mother-daughter relationship healing?<3


Empath

Hi guys, hope everyone out there is doing well today and has a healthy dose of light shining down :)I'm praying someone can offer heartfelt advice on a situation Ive been trying to figure out, between my mother and me. In desperate need of relationship healing.How do I heal things between us, while at the same time living with her, and having the same things that caused the disharmony and pain to begin with (since childhood), reiterated to me on a daily basis?I have times of releasing and forgiving and wanting to heal with her and extend love to her. Then the following day I find myself sucked back into bitterness and internal rage toward her (which I bottle up)- truly the ONLY person I harbor such awful feelings toward. It is so not in my nature to be like this toward another soul, and that alone deeply bothers me.A fraction of background- I grew up feeling constantly judged by her, a lack of validation, and a lack of deep mother-daughter love. I grew up fearful of her getting angry with me. Condemning me for things I had no control over (trivial things such as unpredictable television content or lyrics to songs on my radio)from a very young age. Always judgmental of looks, of my friends, and others in general I suppose. In high school she began accusing me of things I never even considered (such as drug use, yet I was such a naive goody-two-shoes, who thought the D.A.R.E. program made it so drugs weren't even used by people, let alone people my age, deeply hurtful and offensive). And many more things that just crushed my trust in her over the years. Overall she (along with my grandmother, her mother, who always lived with us) instilled enormous levels of fear and guilt into both me and my older brother. To where we were afraid to walk down our own suburban street in the #1 ranked safest town here in the states. Stuff passed down generationally, I feel.I've never stopped sensing suspiciousness, judgment, lack of acceptance, and lack of unconditional love, from my mother. It doesn't help that I've been able to read what she is thinking my whole life. I do know she has love for me though. I want so badly to forgive her and let these things go and to heal; its drastically affected my spirit. Unfortunately, feelings of worthlessness and anger have been showing up as things surface more and more.I have tried talking to her about it all. On different occasions. I've approached it several different ways. I sense her not believing me, and I sense her thinking I am wrong in how I feel. She does not acknowledge my feelings, and so I find it more difficult. I've been trying for a long time to figure this out. Very circular feeling.I feel my heart chakra open and then slam shut repeatedly. So so sensitive with this woman. I feel the need to note that I realize things could be so very much worse and in that light I should consider myself blessed and I am grateful for the positives which I'm able to identify; I feel like healing can and will come. I've just become confused how, by this point though.How do I heal from something while it's stuff that's still happening/old wounds being revisited? Am I wrong in thinking I can heal from this while also living under the same roof as her? A part of me felt like I was put in my present life circumstances so I'd be forced to face this, but now I don't understand how to heal properly while under the same roof. I need advice on how to handle communication with someone who triggers the memories I'm trying to let go of, and advice on how to properly deeply connect with those painful things enough to effectively let go of them, because what I've been doing has clearly not been working :-/(I am so so so sorry for sharing emotional burden, the last thing I ever want to do is dump how I feel on anyone else, it's taken quite a lot for me to arrive at the point where I felt no other option than to reach out for help from someone through the empath community. Beyond grateful for all you guys!) <3<3<3
updated by @jls: 01/13/17 01:07:23AM
Jls
@jls
07/09/16 02:44:00AM
12 posts

Aura sparking?


New Age

Does anyone know what it means to see someone's aura around their wrists begin to move, kinda like one of those 4th of July sparklers or a fuse, sparking around both their wrists, and it happens only when they are speaking about one person in particular? The aura color is a light blue
updated by @jls: 03/04/17 08:25:28AM