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billyscotia
@billyscotia
04/28/16 03:18:37AM
5 posts

Feeling Like my life is over.


Empath

I have been where you are but my ex wife didn't cheat on me but she became a compulsive gambler, She wasalso bipolar. Which really messed me up because as an empath my mood would swing with hers, I lost my house and now I live on my own, I too am in my 50s,Things do get better but it is hard finding someone but now I don't need someone it just would be nice, I am still emotionally numb but I am working on feeling again. I hope things get better for you.

billyscotia
@billyscotia
04/25/16 08:21:13PM
5 posts

I have Lost my own feelings and need to feed off of others to feel


Empath

I've been an empath all my life but over time I have lost all of my own feelings and wants. The only way I feel is to be in a crowd or with someone, In relationships I know how to give but I don't want to take, My wants are there wants, They don't understand, when they ask "What do you want?" I say nothing, I want more of them. A relationship cant last when only one person gives. My pleasure is creating pleasure in someone else and then feeding off of it, I need external stimuli, music, movies, concerts, even work, I need to feed so I can feel, My gift has become my trap. Nowthat Ilive alone my lack of my own emotionsstairsme in the face every day, I have vowed to find out what I want or to find a need butIts not there, I am an empath and this is how I must live.


updated by @billyscotia: 01/09/17 06:51:24AM
billyscotia
@billyscotia
04/25/16 08:01:08PM
5 posts

What do you think triggered your empathic abilities?


Empath

I grew up in a hotel/bar setting, I realized at a young age that I could read people. I was also fascinated with people. Atthe bar I could feel the mood of the bar and the mood of the person. But I became very reactive to strong one sided options and a hatred of religion. To me astrong one sided option was like a shark to blood. I know what buttons to push, Alsousing myempathic abilitiesdid not work to my advantage in relationships, I was attracted to hedonistic femalesfollowed by getting into an opposite relationship,

But I always feel it was years of bartending that honed my abilities. I had notraumas in my life, I was just lucky enough to be place in an environment that helped to enhance my abilities,

Bill

billyscotia
@billyscotia
04/18/16 08:03:36AM
5 posts

What do empaths do for a living?


Empath

I grew up in a bar and at a very young age I knew I was an empath. As a bar tender it was a great skill. Then I went on to be a paramedic and then I worked with the disabled but I would always burn out. I'm now I'm retail, not as much stress and I can use my ability.
billyscotia
@billyscotia
04/18/16 07:57:20AM
5 posts

Is It Just Me Who Attracts Narcissists/ Sociopaths?


Empath

I know what u mean. I attract hedonistic females. It makes things easy for an empath, they want, we give. In a relationship I find it hard to express my needs because my need is to please there needs. When I was younger I would say I could go into a bar and come out with the craziest female in there. Finding that someone is a challenge.