I think all these depressive, reclusive feelings come from my healing crisis, reiki, inner spiritual work and my body is going through a purification process, yes I'm very much an empath, a newly discovered one, explains so much of my suffering!!
Good- Not heard of the Divine card blanche, could you explain this more?, as I've only just found out I'm an empath and on a road to spiritual awakening, hence all the excruciating loneliness.
I've only just discovered angels, I'm a christian, too,thou, to be honest, i don't read my bible much or have a chat to God as much as i used to, so, i'm quite a complex creature, but i'm drawn towards things now i never considered. In the last three months, I've been reading and buying crystals, empath shielding and grounding and coming here to talk to you lovely people.
I have always known loneliness and emptiness as a kind of familar but unwanted friend, its like the birthmark ive had on my left leg since i was born, I know its there, its not pretty, but I've accepted it.
However, the loneliness i feel lately, is due to the healing crisis i've been dealing with, its like a spirtual road, i'm walking all alone, its like I intensely feel its my journey and my jorney only to walk. I
know i need to let others in, that has always been my biggest issue, not reaching out and not wanting to be a burden and bring people down, i feel its my role for others to dump their issues on me, but i'm strong for them, however, when im feeling vulnerable and deeply alone, who do i ring, call , hug, cuddle reach out to, who gets me, who listens to when i cry myself to sleep??
Being alone has taught me to depend upon me, i realise we all are born alone and we die alone, if others want to join me on my life journey they can, i know too, people will dissappoint me, i used to let that worry me, now i know when i'm defriended off facebook, they are friends no longer serving a purpose in my life.
I think the Divine steps in to keep the toxic people away or our angels are protecting us and bringing friends to us for our higher good.
Saturday nights can be tough, unless i've planned ahead- another bad issue, I proscrasinate so much, forget to plan ahead and bingo! i'm home alone on a sat evening, my own fault, self-imposed!!
How can we connect as people?, how we be sure sure of connecting to the 'right' people,? do any of you refuse to attend certain meet up groups thinking you may be harmed by negative or wrong people, i do.
I'm generally a happy being, with lots of love to give, its just, its hard to see others getting ahead , having families, I do question, why my life plan seems so out of sync with others.
Yes i've got my sage and have tried smudging, I'm also without a car, I don't drive, even thou been trying to drive since 17,anyone got any tips on passing their test! Been told i'm a good driver, but get so insecure and nervous!! I get the children thing, it makes it harder, when like me you work with children or when i did, past tense!
Reckless- To be satisfied with yourself is great! I'm getting there, its a batttle thou!
Real- I understand about having goals and ambitions, but having these intense emotions that can make it hard to just go for it, that's very me. Also, I've started a meetup group in my area, i've met some nice people, early days, i do push myself out, it takes huge courage, when your alone, as noone is saying 'go on do it!' you have to motivate and be your own life coach.
Love and peace