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cplove33
@cplove33
04/01/16 08:35:40AM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

ive known this person for most of my life! I met him when I was 14 yrs ago and it was instant crush. no one knew about my crush because I was best friends with his sister, I didn't want her to think I was using her friendship to be close to him. 2yrs later, he called me out of the blue and we started hanging out. we kept it quiet, one to not hurt jewel but also because my mother did not approve of her white daughter dating black guys (this was the mid 80s lol). we were always in touch one way or the other. our longest "time-out" was for 10 yrs....I had moved out of state, and then moved to another state. he contacted me out of the blue and it was like nothing changed and no time had passed. I do not get bad vibes from him. hes a good person, hard worker and is loyal. im just an emotional messand a self sabotager!!! I have never felt uncomfortable around him. I have never felt the need to protect myself with him. but I do thank you for your input! im happy that you were able to feel that that relationship was not good for you.

cplove33
@cplove33
04/01/16 03:24:29AM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

Thank you! It's nice to know I'm not alone in the way I feel. I'm starting to understand on a deeper level the "mistakes" I've made. I kept pushing and asking why he was pushing me away when in all actuality I'm the twin flame runner but he is to! I found a cool diagram on Pinterest about twin flame running.....it really opened my eyes!Can I ask about your combined emotions when your together? The intensity? I think he is an empath and so our energies combined in private moments are amplified....like at a rock concert! Lol
cplove33
@cplove33
03/30/16 05:03:39PM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

I wondered if possibly he is an empath! His circle of friends is very small and he doesn't always get along with people...."they rub him the wrong way"!!! He likes working alone. He's a bit of a lone wolf. We both ride motorcycles....last summer we rode a few times together and I was constantly catching him watching me....with a smile I only saw in his eyes. He wears a full helmet. I only wear a half one. I always used to ride with him back in the day but in our long absence I learned to ride my own! I know I deeply affect him, that i can feel.
cplove33
@cplove33
03/30/16 04:55:55PM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

I very seldom get overwhelmed! I'm like a sponge when I learn something new....I will basically keep reading and learning about being an empath....as I find it truly fascinating! The more I think about my past I realize just how much I absorbed all the negative energies around. I had a "best friend" for 12 yrs....she was mean to people, disrespectful. I didn't act like that but I was treated differently due to association. She isolated herself...and after we walked away from the friendship I realized how much like her I had become. On top of that my boyfriend was very negative....by the time I moved to Texas I had taken on his personality. I had a friend aside from everyone....I always felt so good when we were hanging out. I felt happy and accepted. It's crazy to see the differences now that time has passed.
cplove33
@cplove33
03/30/16 02:10:11PM
19 posts

Living In Toxic Home


Empath

I live in a toxic environment, but theres no abuse. its my sisters house. there is a lot of negativity, sadness and chaos when her step daughter is over. its a serious drain on me emotionally, physically and mentally. I am in counseling for a different issue and it helps but I read about exercises to block out the negative energies. i did them for a couple of days and felt a lot of relief, then stopped fora couple of days and yesterday turned out to be a very bad day for me once i got home. so i did my exercises again this morning and will do them when i lay down tonight.

i hover my right hand over my pubic bone, i don't lay it directly on me. as i inhale i bring my hand upwards until it reaches my bottom lip. i exhale as i round my hand out and down to the starting point. i do that 3 times.

my other one is also while i am laying down. i close my eyes and envision a force field around me. i push outwards with my hands until my arms are stretched out. i do that above my head, face, chest, abdomen. i keep doing it till it feels as if my "bubble" has been expanded. i guess if the bubble is too close, the negative energies havean easier time getting to and disrupting your energies. by expanding your bubble you are shielding your energies to allow them to flow naturally and happily. the first time i did it, i felt like there was resistance especially around my head and face, i felt like i was really working to expand my bubble there. so when i do this exercises i really focus on that area. i do have a tendency to overthink thinks and my thought processes to get messed up pretty easily.

i hope this helps you....and anyone who reads it! good luck!

cplove33
@cplove33
03/30/16 11:40:17AM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

I have been reading up more on soulmates as well. soulmates can be numerous, and come from all walks of life. they can be family members or just friends. so its possible your group of friends that you maintain contact with are all soulmates...together! Im just guessing as I amno expert...but it think its a great concept and would explain a lot!

I never knew about the twin flame thing until about 2 wks ago. I really have a hard time explaining the intense feelings I have when im with him. nothing bad, but mindblowing at times. the first time I saw him2 yrs ago (after a long 10 yrs)I felt like I couldn't contain myself. I feltlike I was going to bust out of my seams.my body felt crazy and uncontrolled. so nowthat I know whats going on, I can only imagine thathe wasfeeling the same intensity and that I was feeling our energies combined??? does that make sense? I can say its very addictive.....

I usually start researching just so I know how to approach him when we are in a downslide, which we are right now. with him being a cappy, I have that part figured out. but being a twin flame, I think it requires a whole new approach. it took me a while to get him to understand the soulmate thing, this I think may be a little too over the top for him to want to try and understand. lol

cplove33
@cplove33
03/29/16 01:22:37PM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

Thanks! but I should add we aren't married. I have known him since I was 14...am now 49. no matter what entailed he has always found his way back to me. its not without struggles. not understanding the energies surrounding me for the last year has made me a little neurotic to say the least. my moods were all over the place and thought processes out past pluto somewhere! hes angry and hurt right now (hes a Capricorn male to boot, im also a cappy) so I have to be patient with him which is fine. I have a lot of things going on and need to work through them, as well as learn how to control the influx of negative emotions. so I thank you for the encouragement!

cplove33
@cplove33
03/29/16 09:32:45AM
19 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

I am just learning about being an empath. as I learned more about it, I started looking back at my life and realized I probably have been for a majority of my life. I found this page because reading other people's experiences helps to understand my own a little more. I have always been a hands on learner vs reading a book. I am the nurturer in my family, the mediator, the one who tries to make everyone happy above my own. but through counseling for another issue I am learning to stop that behavior and focus on my own.

I have a lot of questions but right now my top one is regarding my personal relationship. I always thought he was a soul mate. I know he is the one, but I recently started reading about twin flames. we definitely fit into that category.

I would like to know peoples experiences being an empath and being in a twin flame relationship. the chemistry we share is very intense, more so when its of a sexual nature. has any one ever dealt with this before?

I could never explain what happens when we are together....that feeling.


updated by @cplove33: 03/10/17 04:39:25PM
cplove33
@cplove33
03/29/16 06:31:19AM
19 posts

Anyone "Coparenting" with an Emotional Manipulator?


Empath

love your name!!! I hope eventually your son will learn to see how the past has affected him. my 27 yr old son grew up with a dad who had very little respect for women and never had good things to say. I have a love/hate relationship with my son now.....(((sigh))). he harbors a lot of resentment and anger towards me for "leaving" him when I moved to ohio from NY. hopefully one day he will let it go.....

i hope things get better for you and your son!

cplove33
@cplove33
03/29/16 05:05:26AM
19 posts

Anyone "Coparenting" with an Emotional Manipulator?


Empath

I got pregnant when I was 19. the father of the baby was a college student and worked part time. it was a burden to him that I was pregnant. he even promised to marry me one day if I had an abortion. to his father I was white trash and from the wrong side of the tracks. I broke up with him when I was 6 mos pregnant. he came to see my son once after he was born. I didn't have paternity tests when Jordan was born because the bio dad'sfather wanted me to pay for it (he was that convinced his son wasn't the father) and if it came back he was the father then they would have reimbursed me. I never showed up. fast forward 20 yrs...Jordan and the bio started talking (I was always in contact with the bio over the years) and they agreed to have paternity tests to just to clear the air and make sure there was no confusion. bio dad procrastinated on this for 3 yrs. my son died almost 2 yrs ago in an accident. he listed bio dad as well as my ex husband. I only allowed bio dad to be on the death certificate as long as he went and had paternity tests, which he did. but I also made it clear he was not entitled to anything that had to do with MY son. it took almost 2 yrs (my son was a Sergeant in the army when he passed) to getmy sonsDNAsample released from the ArmedServices, but the results were finally emailed to us on Good Friday!!! and as Maury would have said.....YOU ARE THE FATHER. to this day, bio dad is still a loser sponging off his parents. he would have been a dead beat no matter what.

in the end....you can only do what you feel is right for you and your child. I am learning how to stop pleasing other people and just focusing on myself. he does not deserve anything once that baby is born, he has to prove himself. let him. not everyone will grow up just because they become a father. if you are unsure now, trust your instincts. I raised my son on my own. yes I was married and then in a long term relationship after that, but all decisions pertaining to Jordan were solely mine. he was MY child (the birth certificate only lists me). don't make rash decisions but trust your instincts. the fact that you are asking for advice here, says you aren't comfortable with him. don't be.

cplove33
@cplove33
03/23/16 03:22:27AM
19 posts

Using crystals for grounding


Empath

I'm new as well! I like working with stones but I did a lot of research before deciding which ones I wanted based on my individual needs. I cleansed them with sage. I have grouped stones and then individual ones I carry in my pocket! Good luck!
cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 10:24:16AM
19 posts



I am new to being an empath so I can't direct you there, but i do work in the medical field. She probably won't be open to the suggestions but I would recommend that she finds a support group or maybe try counseling. I think she is viewing her diagnosis as it being the end of her life and its not. I have a friend who was diagnosed in her early mid 30s and is now late 40s. She just got back from a vacation in the Caribbean at a resort. She can live life, but only if she wants to! If she isn't willing to make the effort, maybe look for counseling for you to help with the resentment you may be dealing with. Also, maybe you should speak with an herbalist who can recommend alternative therapies she may show interest in? Good luck!


updated by @cplove33: 01/21/17 10:51:23PM
cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 09:24:39AM
19 posts

Needing Guidance


Empath

i got so mad at the news one night, i jokingly gave it up for lent (im only a good girl 6 wks out of the year!!!). i was raised roman catholic but think outside the box on religion, so i consider myself more spiritual than anything. your concerns are real. the world has become a very angry and hostile place. i find as i scroll through facebook and see the various postings and videos i get overwhelmed with disgust. the racism, the hatred, the general unkindness towards one another is horrendous. when did we get like that as a society? i have always lived in mixed neighborhoods, and never had issues with friends or neighbors. i don't see color in a person, i just see them. and there are times i have felt like i needed to prove i wasn't a racist by being extra nice...i resented that. (((sigh)))

cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 08:24:39AM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

I avoid the daughter at all costs...shes been a mean spirited girl since she was a toddler from what her parents say. Lately,I have been spending a lot more time in my room and away from everyone. My sister understands, I have been open and honest with her about what I am going through. I have always been a bit of a loner anyways so my family gets that. I have been dealing with crystals lately to. I did joke with my sister about cleansing the house and she agreed, shes the one who really believes about the black cloud over the house. I can deal well enough with most people like I always have, but its my relationship with Shelby that has me really worked up. I know hes the one....and I know he will be back (he always comes back!) I just want to make sure I understand the emotions I am feeling.

cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 06:23:10AM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

I got into counseling in November....its helping in some areas but I constantly feel like I am nit picking everything in life. I want to be happy I just can't find it or anything to be happy about. I have overcome some serious obstacles in my life and came out on top but this time is different. I have never felt so low and helpless. but I can't determine if that's the house doing it me or if its me. I have always had direction in my life, even when it hasn't been so great, but right now my path is very blurry. im working on exercises now to expand my bubble and not let others emotions in. its only day 2....lol something else....I tried to put myself into his mind and see things from him, at first I could see myself there and I would pop out, get back in and go a little further, pop out and get back in until I could feel him. I was just there and was trying to comprehend was I was feeling and then the dog barked. so I relaxed, and tried again.....I instantly felt like he knew what I was doing and blocked me.

cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 05:26:34AM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

My first trip was back to texas for the lone star rally. there is a large group of friends (25-30 ppl) that rents a large house and we party. When we reconnected I was in a relationship that was not based on love but more of a financial need at that point. I am not a random sex kind of person and this weekend was about connecting with friends that I hadn't seen in along time. He had told me prior that he didn't approve of the rally thing. I had told him months before I was going to go but we dropped the subject. When I told him I was definitely going he told me he didn't want to see me before I left, when I asked why, "because I could get it down there if I wanted". Because of my behavior in the months before, I think he doubted my loyalty to him. check out my replies above for more about what made me change. The other thing is, I really don't have a filter or edit button, I am well known for being brutally honest. Sadly, with him, I was so confused, that my version of what was real was way off. he never gave me any reason to believe I couldn't trust him. (wow, thanks mom!)

cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 05:17:05AM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

I did stop apologizing. But my apologies weren't for the trips I took, they were because I verbally abuse him. I accused him of not loving me, not wanting to be with me. even after he told him that wasn't true and proved it time and time again, I still couldn't control my mouth. I have had low self esteem my whole life. He was the only person throughout my life that I could say knew everything about me, but never judged me and always accepted me for who I was. but I wasn't the mean person I am now. we were in a really good place then almost 2 yrs ago my oldest son died in a motorcycle accident. I didn't deal with very well. My thought processes took a dump on me. I went into a very dark place. that's when then verbal abuse started. Right after I moved back home I really started having serious emotional issues but I am learned quicklythat it wasn't him but the house I am living in. I live with my sister and her boyfriend with his kids. His daughter....uggggghhhh. Horrible, mean spirited, nasty. She makes me feel violent.All I can say is the house is toxic, like there is a black cloud over it. There is a lot of negativity and anger. Going to Shelby's was my refuge. I felt different there and I always hated leaving in the morning. I know I sound like I am making excuses, but its not that. I have always been self aware, but the empath thing has me rethinking a lot of what I have done in life and the choices Imade.

cplove33
@cplove33
03/22/16 05:04:05AM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

A lot unsaid? that's putting it mildly! we have a long and complicated history. and I could ramble for days about everything. hes a good guy, hard worker. if you know anything about Capricorn men, he is a quintessential Capricorn male. A few months after we reconnected and I started planning my move home, my oldest son died in a motorcycle accident. He was a Sgt in the army. My son was the light of my life, we shared a bond that can't be explained. A few months after I went into a dark place filled with anger, hatred, loneliness, depression and thoughts of dying. I am in no way suicidal, but there were times I wished I was dead just so I could stop feeling the pain. I didn't seek help right away, I should have. My thought processes were out past pluto somewhere. I couldn't think straight. I was only functional at work, I think because I was always so busy it kept me distracted. Like I said, I made mistake after mistake. I am a big girl, I take accountability for my actions. He's tired of the apologies since he doesn't think im learning from them. My mistakes have to do with my mouth. I don't have a filter or edit button, and spoke my mind. I was always accusing him of not loving me, not wanting to be with me. I was hurtful. I always had a way with words. I always said I didn't need to use my fists, I could win a war with words. What I am trying to get a handle on right now is what I was feeling from him. Im not jaded by my love for him. Im very aware of what I do and the decisions I make.

cplove33
@cplove33
03/21/16 12:58:47PM
19 posts

Love and complications


Empath

I think I have been an empath for most of my life but am now just becoming very aware of it, especially in the last 2 yrs.

I have had a very intense relationship on and off with my soulmate for the last 35 yrs. We hadn't had contact in 10 yrs and then reconnected about 2.5 yrs ago, I was living out of state and he still had my number. I started making trips back home, mostly to see him. When I saw him the first time, it seemed like no time had passed. Everything felt exactly the same with him.Long story short, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and in order to do so, I moved back home about a year ago. I don't regret that move but in the year I have been back, I have made mistake after mistake with him and bottom line is, I may have ruined one of the most important relationships of my life. I felt like I couldn't get a handle on things with him, I was very confused inside.One thing I reallynoticed was my inability to sleep whenI spent the night with him.And when he would tell me nothing had changed I was taking everything he said and turning it around in my head. I can look back and see where I made mistake after mistake. Each time I would apologize and he accepted it. In November, I went on a trip and didn't tell him until a couple of days before. He was upset but got over it. Two weeks later I was going away again for a family trip with my granddaughter. He was ok, but I over reacted to something that one night before I left. It put a huge wedge between us and it took me over 2 mos to get him to trust me again. (oh, hes a Capricorn!) And then a couple of weeks after that was a complete misunderstanding. He commented about my sleeping so well when I came over. He didn't know I took anti-anxiety meds when I would sleep over...if I didn't I would never sleep. He is very hurt. I try to text, explain, apologize. He will sporadically respond but they are very short responses. I am not giving up. I know better. My gut instinct says to be patient.

So....my question is why can't I sleep when I am there? And why all of a sudden wasn't I able to relax around him? I have read a lot about empaths. I have read a lot about empaths in love. I know there is a survival guide which I have read as well. Iwould just likereal opinions from people who have been through the same thing. Maybe theres someone out there who can tap into me and figure it out. I haven't told him about my sensitivities...

thanks for reading!


updated by @cplove33: 01/24/17 10:37:50PM