Hey!! I need insight I'm not sure where to go for help with my confusion.I found out I was pregnant with #4 about 3 weeks ago. I thought I was 8 weeks pregnant however confirmed today that I am 11 weeks. This being my 4th, I feel like I should have known much sooner. I knew immediately with my other 3 that I was the first day I was late. And I knew deep down if I was having a girl or boy, and was right. I've always been one of this people who will think "I couldn't handle that, or, I don't know what I would do..."and then eventually I would find myself in that situation. My first born was born with a lot of health issues and has been sick for many years. Never thought I could handle that, especially as a new mom, but there I was. My problem is...I don't feel a connection with this pregnancy that I have with the others. (None were planned, so I wasn't actively trying and waiting.) I can't feel with this one one way or another what the sex is. I can't even see the delivery excitement and anticipation that I did with the others. Is this a sign? Am I reading too much into this? I feel horrible saying it, but, I just don't feel that this pregnancy will end like the others. I've always said, "I don't think I could handle losing a baby, those parents are so much stronger than I am, I couldn't do it". I just can't connect and feel with this one like I did the others, and I've started to really trust and rely on my gut. Please help. Any insight? And reading or energy that anyone can pick up on? I just feel so confused with this one, and am really struggling with why I can't 'feel' anything this time. Please help!!
updated by @phyllis2: 03/21/17 10:42:23PM