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Renee
@renee
10/11/16 08:11:04AM
137 posts

Deep Bond


Empath

Rene': Karen, is this also true when a year has passed and you haven't spoken due to lives going on different directions. I have a couple of people that stays on my mind everyday and was very close to and I wondered did I think of them so much was be caused it missed them so much or if they was also thinking of me and that was the reason why they stayed on my mind.

I'm wondering this one! I asked a little while ago about cutting cords, I've since done a lot of cutting cords, has worked for everyone.... except for 1 person. we are no longer in contact, and we had little in person contact (we met a few times, went out and had some great times and had an awesome connection however had remained in contact via daily messages  and chatting for 6mths before that contact was cut), yet theres a constant out of the blue reminder of them if they haven't come into mind. they generally are not far from mind, but i notice if i am occupied or haven't thought of them for quite a while their name will show up or songs or movies that remind me of them, or specific things we would talk about etc and after attempting cord cutting it was like energetically there was a massive pull from their end, then i was bombarded with dreams of them! Really wondering how that works.... going to check out that link thats posted! 

Renee
@renee
10/11/16 05:44:38AM
137 posts

Dreams


Empath

Nikki3:

I get that hesitation to sleep a lot. I think it's because I'm afraid of what my mind will do while i sleep. I used to have vivid nightmares, even though I've gained control and don't have them any more i still get that lack of control feeling and think it would be less exhausting to stay awake. When i feel like this i have to mentally prep my subconscious to 'block' in essence nightmares and trigger me to rise to enough consciousness to change my dreams if they get out of hand... and wake me up if that doesn't work. I've been doing this nearly nightly as a bedtime ritual for 25 years.  It is a rare morning to wake up and feel refreshed. That's one thing i miss about being in a relationship, fo some reason if i have someone beside me my subconscious feels protected and i don't dream as much, the non empath is like a shield of quiet against my ever moving mind.

thats really interesting. i know for me i definitely sleep a lot better with another adult (or even my teenage son) in the house, however id always put it down to being a mum and always on high alert as a safety kind of thing. 

the idea of being afraid of sleep is strange for me as i really love sleep, but I'm noticing more and more that i will stay awake quite late through the night and then nap during the day. When studying i used to sleep with my kids around 7pm, then wake at 11pm and study till 4am, then go back to sleep, wake and then nap during the day. If i have an afternoon where i drop my kids to their grandparents i will generally come straight home and go to bed around 3/4pm and wake at 9/10pm and stay awake..... this isn't frequent or recent so its not a body clock issue... its just an avoidance of night sleep I've noticed recently.... 

Renee
@renee
10/11/16 05:35:12AM
137 posts

What kind of Empath are you?


Empath

interesting...but not what i thought. so - claircognizant empath, noticed the other month that flora empath was developing slightly, fauna empath.... telepathic kind of fits but i wouldn't say at all that i can read unexpressed thoughts, emotions and energies yes but not specific thoughts..... wondering though - to see other beings from time to time, would that come under "medium" as i wouldn't think they are deceased individuals.... then again, does it matter? 

Renee
@renee
10/11/16 05:22:15AM
137 posts

God...the big question


Empath

Renee:
dproper:

renee...

Are you open to a new concept, a different aspect, on not only your talents to see your ancestor's, but the ancestor's of other humans?

Plus... may I ask where your family defended from?  Briefly... I know you have a library of knowledge...Wink


Always open to new ideas and new theories, love exploring ideas. My family lines are Maori (fathers side) and welsh (mothers side) - Egyptian like guide? Hmm no idea but she is there however whether my interpretation of Egyptian like is correct I have no idea, it's more her energy that I've been fascinated by..... My other guide who has been around as long as I can recall is a male Maori tohunga (Maori shaman type) .... 

^^^ I responded earlier from my phone, but your full comment hadn't actually shown up :-/ so.... yes, always open to new concepts however i don't know so much if its a "talent" as such to be able to see as it doesn't seem to be anything I've ever had much control over, they just come and go as they please and sometimes i can actually see them during meditation - in general though its their energies i feel strongly... can i see the ancestors of others? No but i would love too.... is there a way to further develop this so it can become a talent as such?

 i wouldn't think the beings in my aunty's death bed vision as @goodhealingenergy called them were not ancestors as such as her lineage is also maori/pacific island descent. The connection i feel was more so the energy they brought that was inline with her energy as well as the energy that has come into my life since then..... 

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 04:53:59PM
137 posts

God...the big question


Empath

dproper:

renee...

Are you open to a new concept, a different aspect, on not only your talents to see your ancestor's, but the ancestor's of other humans?

Plus... may I ask where your family defended from?  Briefly... I know you have a library of knowledge...Wink

Always open to new ideas and new theories, love exploring ideas. My family lines are Maori (fathers side) and welsh (mothers side) - Egyptian like guide? Hmm no idea but she is there however whether my interpretation of Egyptian like is correct I have no idea, it's more her energy that I've been fascinated by..... My other guide who has been around as long as I can recall is a male Maori tohunga (Maori shaman type) .... 

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 05:42:17AM
137 posts

Dreams


Empath

I think it is so very exhausting @tigerlily - someone else posted a thread re empaths working and that was my thoughts, how can you maintain wellbeing whilst each day **can** be so very draining, sleep time is releasing and cleansing, which can be exhausting too and then put a 9-5 on that! I'm lucky I don't work and live 2min from the beach which I get to every day and have just come back from a week in the country/forest/national parks where I feel like I've had a massive energy reset which has been great. But I cannot imagine not having that respite at the moment. I know when I didn't have the life I do now I was shutting down constantly..... But yep I agree a lot of the time I'm not sure that I've overly rested after sleeping. Sometimes a 20min nap will refresh me more than a full nights sleep! 

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 04:01:43AM
137 posts

What kind of Empath are you?


Empath

Rene':
Wilburhawes85:




     I was just reading your link and yes it does make sense but I also believe that the type of empaths people can do a little bit of both on each type of empathy. I know for sure that I can. I am not just one type of Empath. im preety fimiler on a few of them only because I do experience it myself. I find my self being this type of empath when im around or even speaking to the mother of my youngest daughter Claircognizant Empath. She lyes alot and find her very manipulating to others that are not aware like I am. I find myself very ill when im around her and my rage just hearing her voice is just painful. My feeling I find her a bit of a sociopath. but that is just one of example of what experience. I could probably write a book on the type of things I can do and what I have experienced. but this link I found very useful as im a beginner. I believe I was borned this way I wasn't aware what I had until not to long ago. 


I was born this way also.  Those liers though....so many people in this world lies for no reason except to start a conversation!   I'm like you, I pick of a lie before the complete lie comes out of their mouth. That's why I have trust issues, because I don't believe anything anymore.  I respect a person more that is blunt honest and hurts my feelings then to sugar me with lies.  We are walking lie detectors.  

Im similar in being able to pick lies a mile away. I sometimes struggle to understand if the person is lying to me specifically or lying to themselves and therefore doesn't even know they are actually lying. I also pick up on a kind of "soul lying" i guess.... I interpret it as - on a day to day basis the person isn't lying, however if they are not yet living in line with their souls purpose i still receive that as a lie. It can get very muddled.... however i generally accept there is a discrepancy between what is being said and felt and wanted, however allow them to keep the lie under the idea that they are not yet ready to face the truth themselves and when they are they will realise the lie themselves and come forth with their new truth....... does this make sense? 

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 03:50:20AM
137 posts

Dreams


Empath

I remember significant dreams but as was mentioned up the thread, a peaceful night without dreams is welcomed! A lot of my dreams tend to be quite symbolic, some of them repeating over long periods of time - i have 1 consistent dream that changed slightly, but continued for about 5 years. others have continued for a year or so here and there and they all seem to hold a lot of guidance for me. I enjoy tracking and interpreting them. 

From what I've read we do our most deepest healing and cleaning when we sleep. Those things we cannot face whilst waking and brought to the surface whilst sleeping in order to be released...... maybe why we wake up so very tired!!!!! Sleep is such a busy time! I know at the moment I'm almost scared of sleeping some nights. Not for fear of dreams, but just have a really hesitation of sleeping which is extremely strange for me! anyone else have this?

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 03:43:29AM
137 posts

God...the big question


Empath

interesting food for thought! I have to say i most definitely believe in a higher consciousness, however not entirely convinced that all is being orchestrated. I like to think of the human realm as a bit of a theatre, we all choose to walk on stage, play our characters, follow the storylines we have scripted, learn the lessons we need and continue on our way. I do also agree with @goodhealingenergy that we are energy and energy cannot be destroyed only transmuted, therefore after our human existence (however many lifetimes that may be) I would hope and believe we go on to else where. 

I had a beautiful experience of sitting with my aunty 48hrs before she passed, she had been terminally ill for many years and was in the stage of drifting between here and there (wherever there was) and she was in dialogue with other spiritual beings. Others (friends and family - closer than i was) who were there would go sit with her however the other beings would shut down the communications, however when i sat with her they continued speaking. I asked her if it was ok for me to be with her and she said they had said yes as they know me. As she described them (to me they the image was ancient egyptian high priest and priestesses as well as the "place" she was "working" in for them was what i imagined egyptian temples to be with the symbols and engravings she was describing) i realised that the high priest was a being that had come to me months earlier - he was surrounded by a light and music i could not for the life of me describe or replicate - and one of the females - high priestesses - is now my guide coming in about a year after this event. At the time they did tell her to tell me they would be staying close and would see me again soon. Because of all this and so much else that has happened, i cannot even begin to believe that "nothing else" exists. That we are the best of the best. 

What is the plan behind all this? I have no idea but what I'm getting lately is, the purpose is to just find our way home......thats it. Go Home...... and I'm feeling like i only have a few (relative to the souls complete journey so whether that is 1 or 100 i have no idea) more lives left before i reach home! I hope so, because i am tired!!!!! 

Renee
@renee
10/10/16 03:22:03AM
137 posts

Empaths and Their Concept of Work


Empath

I can soooo relate to this! you mentioned being only 45, Im only 33 and have felt this way my entire adult life! Don't get me wrong, I worked, and i worked my butt off! I worked for 12 years in community services management as well as (partially) studying a degree in architecture, and been a full-time mum the whole time. Now, I should be looking to head back into the workforce and yet i have no desire whatsoever to go back into the "normal" workforce. I cannot handle the energy and emotions connected with community services as i was in constant contact with people who had/still are suffering so much trauma and yet the system that i was in only sought to maintain those very same structures that caused the trauma, therefore the ability to step outside of and heal was near on impossible! And i cannot continue with the architecture as i cannot for the life of me work out how i would commit to someone else timeframes and conditions etc. If i need time out to disconnect and reconnect i would have no option to do so. If I'm needed elsewhere I would not be able to be! I'm so very grateful that financially i don't NEED to work right now, but i love being productive and know that i am contributing so i am looking at ways to create a position for myself that allows for th flexibility i need to remain emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually well. I know it can be done! 

If you want to write, YOU SOULD WRITE! 

Renee
@renee
10/02/16 09:40:15AM
137 posts

Empaths & Divorce


Empath

Hi @gem I am so so sorry to hear of the pain you and your child are going through and just really want you to know you are most definitely not alone... I haven't had a chance to read through all the responses above, but just wanted to respond to the original post. I too have experienced a similar thing, my (now ex) partner and i separated 2yrs ago now, he is undiagnosed bi-polar or personality disorder however experienced a sever episode with delusions and psychosis during which myself and our children became the centre of. So I completely understand where you are coming from with regards to doubting yourself and your intuition and the desire to believe them as i did a similar thing and am still trying to recover and build my confidence back up. However what i wanted to share, and this may not be right for everyone so if it doesn't resonate with you feel free to disregard, is I walked with 5 kids, (then) ages 1, 2(now know him to be an empath),3, 9(empath), 13(empath), each of my kids has experienced different aspects of the separation, both the effects from their father and from me, however, they have all seen me have extremely severe panic attacks and literally breaking down (and i do mean the whole thing - on the floor crying convulsions unable to move etc). I know so so many parents who try to hide this side from their children for fear of damaging them more, however from my experience it has opened the door for increased communication regarding how we are feeling and how to manage that. My 1 (she's now 3), 2(now 4) year olds now know we must have quiet time outside in nature to make us feel better, they know they feel a huge sense of sadness and grief and that its ok to cry even if they don't know what they are crying about, they know when we get upset we need to stop and take deep breaths and feel our bellies. My 3 (now 5yr old) has suffered tremendously and now has quite bad anger issues, however knows what things he needs to do to "fill his bucket up" , he now knows we do yoga every night to quiet our mind, he now knows that if he gets really angry we can go do boxing on the bag, he can now identify where in his body he is feeling different emotions and associates them with colours to understand them. My 9 (now 11) knows she must have "health and wellbeing mornings" as we tell the school every now and again, mornings at the beach to scream, cry, talk to her father (he is no longer allowed to see any of them and hasn't done in 12 mnths) or remember good memories of him, she now has a good grasp on mental health issues and all the things above that the other kids have, she also knows that as a woman we do not have to just put on a smile and keep it all together, sometimes we will break and thats ok too... The oldest one (now 15) also has a whole toolbox of strategies to help him as well...... what I'm trying to say is, take deep breaths and allow yourself to feel that whole spectrum of emotion and don't to so afraid to allow your son to see it (maybe not the most intense parts) but allow hims to see that sometimes emotions just suck and are painful and hurt. But that other times we can still experience happiness, love joy excitement as well. He will be ok as long as him mumma is ok. And there are so so many opportunities for growth and learning throughout this period that will also assist you in healing too. As you teach him he will teach you. I also remind myself that we all chose to be here, together at this time to have these experiences. Just as your child has chosen to be with you. YEs he is only 3, but he agreed to his sacred contracts just as you agreed to yours and together you will both fulfil them. take lots of deep breaths and just go one step at a time.... much love and strength to you as you move through this tumultuous journey xxx 

Renee
@renee
10/02/16 09:11:48AM
137 posts

Change of seasons


Empath

i am most definitely a summer girl! especially tropics kind of heat, hot humid and afternoon thunderstorms. I find the electricity and heat in the air makes me feel so alive! I love it!! Im not a winter person at all, unless like you said, its snowing.... but just constant rain and grey is depressing. Where I am at the moment the winter is the worst it has been in about 30 yrs, just that it has been so cold and wet and we are now into spring and yet winter still has not left! I find that i feel almost bi polar during winter, if the sun comes out my mood picks up straight away and i feel like "i can do it" - whatever that may be at the time, and then it disappears and my mood drops instantly to almost a depression and i go straight back to bed! Horrible! 

Renee
@renee
10/01/16 08:53:23AM
137 posts

Welcome New Web Site Early Birds!


Empath

thankyou!!! for the new site! it actually feels a little more streamline than the last site! :-) 

Renee
@renee
10/01/16 08:28:15AM
137 posts

Why you shouldn't shield yourself


Empath

just adding to what @nea has said re the need to love ourselves even as we experience those negative emotions, I think we also need to accept that those negative/dark aspects of self are an essential part of our psyche. Life exists in duality, therefore one can only express light and love as deeply as they've explored and experienced their darkness. Don't shy away from those negative emotions/feelings, delve into them, explore them, seek to understand them and unravel them and you will find your true strength and will no longer fear negativity........ 

however, as @lotusfly asked re negative entities, i take it you mean external to your own self? Can they drain you etc? yes they can. if you are being constantly "contacted" attracting negative entities i would most definitely be calling on any form of protection - shielding, guides/angels, crystals, natures healing whatever tools you have to help you keep them at bay or manage/understand why they are coming to you. If it is a continuous thing i would look within as to why you? Aspects of yourself that they are attracting them to you? The idea that "we seek out what it is we need to be made aware of in ourselves" comes to mind... why are they coming to you? what aspects of self are reflected in the negative energies that you made need to work through?

 If however you are looking to actively work with negative energies i would say definitely guard up.... I opened myself up (whilst in meditation with guides etc) and had an extremely dark energy come forward. As I knew where it had come from and had my guides i was able to semi manage it, however, there were some serious effects for a few more days to come! Arghh not good! and not easy to work with! And i welcomed that one and was expecting it! Doesn't make it easier!! Beware! They are intense!! 

Renee
@renee
09/29/16 05:09:29AM
137 posts

Why you shouldn't shield yourself


Empath

On that note, I have a friend who has just found out she is an empath, all good, been trying to explain about grounding shielding etc, but have noticed I am not able to release and ground the energy coming from her fast enough!!! and it is quickly beginning to hurt!!! I explained to her, and probably good to add in here if it isn't further up the thread, that another part of the shielding is to keep energy to yourself.... I know i have a very strong energetic presence and don't like overwhelming others so shielding and holding my own energy in is also a big part of that for me. I do know i need to keep my shield up with her because I've tried transmuting that energy, releasing and grounding, but at times it is way to much too fast and too strong!  

Renee
@renee
09/29/16 05:05:48AM
137 posts

Why you shouldn't shield yourself


Empath

So so glad i stumbled across this thread!! I first came across the term empath many many years ago and 1st thing i learnt and promptly did was put up a shield! Was an absolute life saver as i was surrounded by really heavy energy people, one in particular that i was no longer able to be physically around. The shield worked after a while but i noticed i cut off ALOT of contact with other sources. after a while i slowly opened up and was bombarded again, so learnt to ground as well as shield. Great!! started following a few of the development lessons elsewhere on this site and all was going well until some other life stuff happened and i shut everything down! the whole lot! about 6 moths ago i slowly began to open up little by little and have been learning to manage it all a lot better. My thought was the same as @corey_easton in that we are here to transmute that energy and therefore I will try that in a way that doesn't harm me. Ive been practicing connecting with only 1 at a time, opening quickly, feeling the energy, reading it and allowing it to pass and then closing down. Ive had a external few confirmations that it has been effective. Ive also tried to remotely connect to people close to me, but will always call on my guides and go through them to connect with the other persons guides. This seems to be working as well and my guides act as a kind of buffer it feels to me.... I also feel **hope** that this has a little more psychic integrity to it in that i don't want to go actively prying and therefore ask for only what i am permitted to feel. It all seems to feel good to me so I'm happy to keep going with that. I began noticing that as I'm learning and managing this a little better I have been picking up on other empath qualities that id never had... Out bush walking oneday i began reading the energy of various wildflowers (is this normal???!!!) this has never happened, but oh my goodness it was one of the most beautiful gentle empath experiences ever! As Im a drawer and i was there to draw i began taking notes on what was coming through... I would love that one to continue! 

However I also noticed that I have on a rare occasion been able to pick up on physical pains which I've also never had before, but can see it could be of use. I saw someone post about our own energies getting clouded by another and i can see that the physical pains could be an issue, i thought i was having sporadic heart problems and stomach problems until i realised it only happened around 1 person who was on medication for both heart and stomach issues. When i left their presence and released the energy the pains left! 

My point to joining in..... no i don't think shielding will work for everyone as a permanent as there really is a lot of amazing gift to be had and you risk shutting everything down, however as someone else said, it is a must know in the empath tool box especially for those just finding out and as you learn how to manage it all! 

Renee
@renee
09/27/16 11:54:53PM
137 posts

cutting cords


Empath

thankyou so so much for all of this info! i did have a look and then lost it all during the site changeover.... i will need to go back through it all! thank you 

Renee
@renee
08/28/16 08:14:16AM
137 posts

cutting cords


Empath

Oh just going to add to this as i just picked up my phone as i posted and it is 11:11 on my phone. So that was one of the other things, every time each of these things would happen or he would come to mind id check my phone and it would mainly be 11:11 or 12:34 and sometimes other doubles with times i.e. 12:12 or 20:20 etc but normaly the 11:11 or 12:34.... now i try not to look at my phone when he comes to mind - but just forgot that time!! Is annoying me and i would like the cords cut so i can move on.

Renee
@renee
08/28/16 08:10:43AM
137 posts

cutting cords


Empath

hey, so i was wanting some advice or opinion on this.

over a year ago i jumped on a dating site to piss off my ex who had done the same thing, within an hour of being on a pic flashed passed that caught my eye. "Yes" want to meet as it passed and a min later i got a message from him. We began talking away and the connection was instant and the chemistry was bouncing.. we continued talking away from the online platform and then eventually met about 3 moths later (it would have been sooner however i was in another state, when i returned to the state he was in - my home town - he had then gone on a weeks holiday to the state id been in etc etc we were like 2 ships in the night!) we finally met and where i was expecting chemistry bouncing it didn't happen, the energy was one of the nicest, gentlest, energies and almost like i felt way too comfortable - scary as id just come out of a shitty relationship - i described it back then as feeling like id come home. the similarities, with childhood, towns we had grown up in, towns we were connected too - all in another country to the one we are now in -, interests, spiritual beliefs, desires for future etc continued on and to be honest it was just highly freaky for both of us. The only point of difference was he wanted kids didn't have any i had kids - not keen on potential partners with no kids as there is no way I'm having more!

Following our 1st meeting i tried, unsuccessfully, to stop contact as i felt he was way too nice to bring into a bullshit situation i had going on in my life. He returned to our home country, all good, i thought the contact would stop and i could get on with sorting out my life. No. He returned back to where i was and got in contact straight away, however again things came to pass and we couldn't catch up for almost 2 mths. We went out again, same feeling of absolute comfort, safety, i know you, however due to my life stuff i was beginning to get anxious, not because of him, however he would have felt it due to clinginess etc. After about 5 days he extremely respectfully cut contact. I was devastated however knew it was for the best as some stuff had just happened with my kids and i that i really need the time to sort out.

However energetically i still held on to him. This is 10mths ago now. Since then, I have tried to detatch from him, there has been no contact, however he doesn't leave my mind for long. Ive tried to do meditations to see what the connection is or why it is so strong, nothing. Ive sat in meditation with the intention of letting him go. Ive tried ritual type releasing to let him go. Ive gone back over and found lots of lessons and processed those and integrated a lot into life to my benefit, thanked and given gratitude now i let you go. Still not working. each time I've done this something happens to bring him back to mind such as - a school library book fell out of another kids bag, i picked it up, the title had this guys name in it! same book happened 3 different occasions across 1 month - not my kid borrowing the book. Or my phone would crash and i would reboot and his number would be back in favourites... OR Social media platforms - the number of likers i get that have his nickname on their profile name! - I refuse to follow or acknowledge them! Or a movie or song would come on that we had spent time listening to or talking about!! So my next step was to try cord cutting... Kids all asleep, house quiet, relaxation music, candles etc begin meditation and theres a knock on the door, but no-one is there, wait a bit, start again, relax, starting to go into meditation knock again. This happened 3 times knocking me out of concentration!!! What the hell is this?!?!?! HAs anyone had similar? What else can i do? He is an amazing great guy, but i don't want to hold onto him and i don't want him to be picking up on my energy either and me holding him back!! Any next steps to try would be really helpful!! PLEASE!


updated by @renee: 02/23/17 09:05:26AM
Renee
@renee
08/24/16 06:17:41AM
137 posts

Psychic/Medium/Telepath/Kinetic/Empath/Intuitive


Healers

Hi Lotusfly,

I would suggest if you have a connection to nature and animals, that you let go of the need to work out "what to do" and just go "be" in nature and connect with animals. It'll come to you.

xxx

Renee
@renee
08/23/16 05:52:47AM
137 posts

Abortion and Empaths


Empath

I am Pro Life... HOWEVER.... I have had an abortion. Yes i hear the condemnation, I was my worst enemy as well ...UNTIL it was over.

The situation was, I am a mum of 5, my youngest at the time were 3,2,1 and I found out i was pregnant again. I had always wanted a large family so under normal circumstances I would have been elated, however I wasn't in normal circumstances. I was in the process of separating from my partner and father of the other children under extremely volatile circumstances. He was partially diagnosed with personality disorder and bi-polar, however at the time was suffering a sever episode with psychosis and delusional symptoms, which i found myself at the centre of. IT was an extremely abusive and violent period throughout my life, one which i am still cleaning up the psychological and legal effects of, and then to find out i was pregnant was just too much. Deciding to have an abortion was the hardest decision I've made, I had to fly to another town and attend the centre on my own. IT was extremely traumatic for me as I felt it was like a meat processing plant, whilst others sat around laughing and joking, updating snapchats and Facebook and discussing how many times they had been there, i sat in tears and in prayer. I had called on my guides and an aunty who had passed the year prior to come be with me. When i went into the theatre I closed my eyes with tears rolling down and asked my aunty to come take my baby before the doctors did. When I woke up i had been expecting to feel like an emotional wreck, however it was the most at peace that i had felt in so many months, i felt so full of love knowing i had done the right thing, knowing my baby was safe and well cared for, she was loved and had so much joy surrounding her. I left and later that day i passed by a crystal shop and a little gypsy lady came out to tell me "all was ok and my aunty had HER!" well.... I just cried!! I still see her in my dreams, I have a few token momentos, however i communicate with her frequently. I don't feel she has come back elsewhere yet, she is still with my aunty and she is so so happy. When I feel down i am able to draw on this very pure joyous energy that is full of innocence. Outside of this, I have miscarried a number of times whilst trying for baby #3. I would say neither are an easy journey to work through, however am comfortable with my decision. I wouldn't do it again though! And don't recommend it!

Renee
@renee
08/23/16 05:28:07AM
137 posts

regaining lost gifts


Psychic and Paranormal

yes i feel thats exactly whats happened bill, i have done this before - turning it off i mean - however it just kind of kept back up on me last time. I will keep persisting with meditation.

Renee
@renee
08/17/16 05:06:25PM
137 posts

regaining lost gifts


Psychic and Paranormal

Hi EC,

I haven't been in this forum for quite some time as I turned away from my empath abilities and spiritual beliefs for quite some time. I'm wondering how to go about bringing these gifts back..... and strengthening them. A few years ago I had gotten to the point where i was able to see and converse with guides, see aura's, would have frequent visions, reasonably clear tarot and oracle readings and divination, read the energy of others and what i called "dropping back or connecting with other time and spaces", however I put a stop to it due to my then partner questioning my intentions of it during a destructive breakup. Im now ready to open back up to this and would love to strengthen it..... how would one go about doing this? Ive noticed through meditation there are some aspects beginning to come back, however it feels almost as if its being withheld as i made a conscious decision to let it go....... any advice or guidance most welcome xx


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Renee
@renee
02/27/14 03:55:33AM
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I am so glad I stumbled upon this post. I know it was a while ago. This has been a question I've asked and played around with for so many years, almost a sceptic to my own abilities, wondering if it is real or if it is simply my own Higher Self. I had formed the realisation that we are energy which is all connected and therefore my guides must be a representation of characteristics and strengths that I already possess, however once viewed as an external entity maybe they are easier to comprehend.......?? I like your waves in the ocean analogy better though, it sounds more succinct :-)

Thankyou for your wise words in helping me to understand this better

Renee


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Renee
@renee
06/09/12 12:38:17AM
137 posts

How to keep my mouth shut???


Empath

Hi Peter thankyou for your thoughts on this I do truly appreciate them. I too am a believer in our environment and experiences are a reflection of whats within. I have thought about what you have said and believe it to be a reflection of my ability to receive love or be loved maybe.

I'm not sure I feel the same regarding dropping to a lower vibration though, as I have seen his vibrations lift with me over the years, however as he is raising his vibrations I am continuing to raise mine so we are still not completely "insync". I'm a believer in Divine timing and divine fate, I do believe him and i are meant to be on this journey together at the moment for as long as that moment needs to last for the good and the bad. its just a matter of navigating our way through the muddy patches.

Thankyou for your insights and thoughts

blessings

renee

Renee
@renee
06/09/12 12:29:39AM
137 posts

How to keep my mouth shut???


Empath

Thankyou so much for your thoughts on this Q, they do resonate deeply with me. I love recieving replies on here as i know they will be beneficial for me and in the same plane as i am on.... thankyou

I guess, in general, I have learnt to be at peace with the love I recieve from him, i look at it as "this is within his abilities to love", he is more physical, Its taken a long time but I'm ok with that. The problem is now that he works away from home, so he is away fro 4 weeks at a time. In the past when i would begin to "feel" this "something" coming through I would cuddle him, lay with him, whatever i took to feel that love from him. But now I cannot do that and it becomes really difficult when i can just feel that "something" and nothing else from him.

I actually had a really beautiful and strange experience right after writing this post, I had meditated early in the day and asked why we were together if there was this disconnection with us and was shown that our relationship was to heal alot of past hurts (which it has been and still is), i was then interupted and had to stop. Later in the night after writing this post I decided to meditate again and go back to this point, I asked if it was to simply heal what would come after, immediately i felt him hold me and had an overwhelming sense of warmth and love come through from him, I could hear him thanking me for everything and telling me how much he loved me as well as reassuring me that I was ok and he accepted me. I was overcome with emotion and just sat and cried with happiness and sadness at the same time.

Later in the evening (as we had had an argument and he had been refusing to ring or message me) i was sending him love and asking for a sign that he felt this love on a physical level, rather than just spiritually, within a minute the phone rang and it was him to tell me that he loved me more than he could explain!!! the whole lot was truly beautiful and the love that i felt was something that i had never felt from him in that way before.

I am trying to work my way through the survival techniques, however i am finding that I really do need to work constantly on them. At the moment when i ground or shield it will give me a small amount of time of relief, so i find myself shielding and grounding all day.... I need to work on strengthening it, i am going to look into some crystals that i can wear that may help in shielding.

I think I will definately need to speak with him about this as I really don't want it to ruin all the progress we have made. I will have a window of opportunity to speak with him in 4 weeks so will definately be bringing it up as well as just a general discussion regarding what is going on with me. I think this will help a great deal.

I do feel also that I need someone to be able to openly speak to someone about being an empath, however I have noone around me....hence why i am loving this website. My partner is open at times to discussing or listening, however this is few and far between. I have a sister who is very spiritual, however, not empathic, she is very closed off in general, very guarded and will pick and choose when she lets people in, so i can speak to her briefly about spirituality, shamanism etc but havent yet brought up the subject or empathic. Other than that, no one!!!

How long have you and your partner been together? I questioned my relationship constantly, and we used to separate very frequently, however I am a believer in divine timing/fate and found that we were never both ready to leave at the same time. The only time we were ready I then found out I was pregnant again and we were pulled back together. at this point i did suggest he leave if he wasnt ready for this, however if he chose to stay he had to lift him game and make the transition to be more inline with where me and the kids were headed. he very quickly made the changes to shift more towards us rather than his old way of living....

I do feel that 2 yrs on he is now beginning to open up a little bit to more spiritual beliefs.... but it is a lloonnnggg process. I do truly love him, so i feel this will need to suffice until we reach the next step...

Renee
@renee
06/08/12 04:44:24AM
137 posts

How to keep my mouth shut???


Empath

Hello all,

I was wanting/needing some advice on how to be in a relationship and NOT respond to your emotional baggage??

Background - Ive been with my partner off and on for 8yrs, we have 3 children together + i have an older child from prev. relationship. When we first met he was in a very very dark place (so was I but I guess mine wasn't as dark as his) and literally no one was giving him the time of day. Over the years we have been through so much, so much hurt, so much pain, but have I have felt an intense love towards him. I gave him what he needed throughout the beginning years, which was simply an ear to be heard, a shoulder to cry on, a person to "see" him for the amazing guy he is. I helped him to get to "a place of relative normalsy" basically to a point he could walk into a counsellor and they wouldn't send him to an institution.... He has since worked so hard at becoming an amazing person, fantastic father, wonderful partner and a great provider.

I have always been an empath, but have only recently found the term "empath" and learning that I'm not crazy and not alone. I have talked to him so many times about "absorbing others emotions and feelings and thoughts" and he has always reassured me that he "understands" (although he will very rarely comment or discuss it rather just listen to what i'm saying, he also doesn't like it too much or is fearful/annoyed by it) and doesn't think I'm crazy. We have had many discussions about the spiritual and share very similar beliefs. However, I am always plagued with this feeling that there is "something" standing between us... kind of like the "big white elephant in the room" and I struggle with understanding whether this is something that he has done that he is lying about, or something that is more spiritually based that he has no idea about and therefore does not yet exist for him, or is something that he can feel but is just blocking it. The "something" I feel is that he doesn't feel that intense love that I feel for him, not because of me, but simply because he doesn't feel that deeply due to all the hurt and pain he has felt in his lifetime and that he guards himself from loving.

So many times I have caused arguments with him because I jump the gun and say there is "something" there, "something" going on. How do I catch myself before this happens so I don't ruin our relationship and how far things have come? How do I not freak him out and make him feel like this is all just too much to handle?

I have so many other things going on due to this empathic ability that i am beginning (yet again as it's happened before) to feel as though I'm a drama queen, or making it up something or like its just waaayyy too much for me to handle....

Thankyou for any advice insights provided.

Sincerest Gratitude

Renee


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Renee
@renee
06/06/12 07:46:50AM
137 posts

spirit guide or lower energy??


Psychic and Paranormal

wow that is so funny that you mention the rabbit around me and that the rabbit is the keeper of fear. Since I was 10 (so the age this all began) i have been scared of rabbits... kind of an internal fear.. i would never hold them nor touch them nor get close to them.... up until a month ago that is, when i was forced to hold one by my child so my child could pat it, then it didn't seem so bad after all these years.... Funny that. :-)

I will sit for a bit and see how i go with meeting my animal and spirit guides and let you know how it goes. Once I have met them and have them around me, should i then just ask this other spirit to come forward and ask what his message is?

Blessings

Renee

Renee
@renee
06/05/12 08:23:37PM
137 posts

spirit guide or lower energy??


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks Ing, I feel that I am closer to my spirit guides and totem animals is one that resonates well however I am yet to meet my animals, I have been told that I have a wolf and bear walking with me, yet I havent met them. How do I go about meeting them. I have read alot of information on how to do it, however they all require large amounts of visualisations, or simply asking for them to show themselves, which I've done, and am shown the raven (crow here in australia), however I don't feel the crow is a lifetime or longterm animal, simply the one that is with me at the moment that i need to pay attention too. Can you help me through meeting my animal and/or spirit guides so I am able toapproach this spirit comfortably?

Absolute gratitude in advance

XX Renee

Renee
@renee
06/05/12 05:54:51AM
137 posts

spirit guide or lower energy??


Psychic and Paranormal

hi ing thankyou for your response. What you are saying does feel right with me, I have recieved that message a number of times recently regarding this "energy/spirit" and feel that the time is right to address this as i feel that in someway i wont move forward much more with this still "looming" overhead. I am completely new to working with the spirit world, so any guidance or advice that you have on how to approach this will be much appreciated. People keep telling me to "work" with this or that angel/guide/energy etc yet i have no idea how to "work" with them..... what does this mean and how do i approach this.... other than the few times where visualisations mentioned above have occured, generally i'm not very good at visuallising so interms of "building a wall or bubble" around me to protect me i don't know how to do this or whether the fact that i don't "see" it makes a difference......... any help is appreciated..... :-)

Renee
@renee
06/02/12 12:08:03AM
137 posts

spirit guide or lower energy??


Psychic and Paranormal

hi, i will apologise in advance if this is the wrong group to post in as ive done before, however, have a question regarding a possible spirit guide or lower energy that has appeared in physical form as well as meditation and scrying.... also its a 18yr story so will try to condense!!!

age 10- walking home from school i felt i was being followed, looked around and there was a tall pale expressionless man following quickly behind, i ran home (which happened to be a very haunted house) & looked out the window, he was at the end of the driveway and wouldnt come closer, then disappeared.

age 12- walking through bushland with a friend, same feeling ofbeing followed, turned around as he was there, we ran, he chased us, then disappeared (the locations of these 2 events is approx 40km apart, so its not a 'local")

age 14 - beginning a very "dark" phase in my life, on a night out and about i saw him at a trainstation and he was following me until i left the station then disappeared

age 15 - breaking up with a boyfriend & in a very depressed state, whilst walking, again felt followed, turned around to see a car following behind closely, the driver and passenger were faceless, as it passed the middle passenger turned and just stared at me as if pleading for help then as the car went around the roundabout it disappeared. at the time, "he" resembled my ex, however i also felt "he" was similar to that ive seen before.

age 17- was looking for a job, walked into a hotel (was a stinking hot day and was sweating profusely) and felt chills cover me then felt queazy, looked up and "he was standing on a balcony staring at me. I left.

current age 28- beginning meditation and slowly beginning to visualise, i ask to meet my spirit guides, i see in the distance a man in a cloak(tribal - either animal skin or feather cloak, i have been told my grandfather is one of my guides, he is an old maori man and would wear a feather cloak so i think its him) also an native american indian (whom i now know as a man i was guided to draw about a yr ago) who came running towards me as if to help, then stopped and stood alongside the other man, then in the foreground appears the cloaked man that i have seen all these times above. it terrifies me and i stop.

it then happened again during meditation at the same time i saw 2 children in fear. they were not me nor my own (current children), i didnt recognise them, but they were very familiar.

then whilst learning how to scry using a bowl of water he appeared again as a cloaked hooded figure and wouldn't remove his hood. Each time i see him he has terrified me. I cannot find a connection as to "place" "event" or "state of mind" with each of these occurances.

I have read into lower/mischievious energies and that they may "play" with your emotions feelings etc or bring to the surface our shadow sides etc and that when "seeing" them they may not reveal their faces etc. I have seen this mans face most of the times above, however when i think of him i very quickly am overwhelmed by my insecurities and cannot discern between whether they are my thoughts or comming from elsewhere. I have tried protecting myself, creating bubbles, mirrors etc and asking my guides that walk in love and light to protect me, however he still comes through.

When describing it to a trusted "mentor" (and this is why i'm writing in the spirit guide group) she advised that it may in fact be a spirit guide of mine that is trying to contact or get a message to me... he may be trying to bring forth my dark side to be resolved and released and that instead of being scared i should approach him not out of fear, but out of ..... im not sure, as he really does scare me.

Is it likely that he is a spirit guide trying to contact me? Would I feel so threatened by him if he was? Would my known spirit guides stay away or not be able to keep him away if he was? Should I ask him to come forward and see what he has to say? If I am wrong and his is NOT a spirit guide but infact a lower energy, can he hurt me in anyway - emotionally, spiritually? If i need to be protected from him and yet my attempts to protect myself are so far failing -and im now reasonably scared of visualisation as he has shown up each time- how else can I protect myself?

Sorry this is very long, but I'm not sure how else to shorten it, but thankyou for reading and for your input and advice :-)


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Renee
@renee
05/21/12 07:51:25PM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

oh i will be back!! im finding this so exciting as i have always been drawn to spirit, so now to be connecting in so many ways is so much fun!!!

Renee
@renee
05/21/12 04:17:49AM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

There is so much more to meditation than i had imagined. I have only been miditating for 2weeks (i know i know im a freshie!!) but last night i did listen to some binaural beats which i liked, they were theta state ones and for the first time ever i actually visualised stuff!! i was so excited as i hadnt practiced visualisation. I think i will need to look into meditation with binaural beats a bit more though.....and past life soul retrieval will need to wait..

Thankyou so much for your invaluable advice and knowledge it has been extremely helpful and insightful. :-)

Renee
@renee
05/20/12 05:50:05AM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

wow thats really interesting about the languages, I do know what you mean as even before I knew anything to do with empath etc i always likened it to remembering and reawakening lost knowledge... my family thought i was crazy!!... I havent yet gotten to the past life retrival as yet however have been having a look at amaya's other development classes, she is absolutely amazing and so full of knowledge!! . Whilst I have just found out that I am not crazy, 2 yrs ago I thought i was and just completely blocked all the energies and my "sensing" out and only a few things have been slipping through since then and i have just been ignoring them, so now that I am fully trusting in myself that I am ok I'm now trying to "reawaken" those abilities again' so have just been reading up on the psychic development stuff, however will pop on over to the past life retrieval, but i think i will need alot more practice before i can attempt that. I find it so difficult to quiet my mind, so meditation has always been a difficult thing for me. That sounds really exciting to be able to just watch various things come up.

Now, to reach that state in meditation, is it going into the theta state? and are you still in control and able to "navigate" through thoughts or intentions whilst there? and is there any particular method to coming out of this state?

Renee
@renee
05/19/12 08:55:36PM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

Thanks, I am now just beginning to enjoy the ride, in the past it has been a bit too much of a rollercoaster... and I dont like rollercoasters!!! Thanks very much for your opinions on this, I am only now just learning to do meditations, however i didnt realise that I would be able to recall past lives, that sounds very exciting to me, I had thought it was a "trained" field i guess is one way to put it, that I would not be able to do...... I love this idea of reawakening some abilities i may have hidden inside. See the architecture calculations and the psychology discussions felt like that was me, like it was my information, the philosophy stuff felt like i was around at that time, 1700's and have been privy to those papers at the time of their release, so i think that one was more of a channeling of passed spirit. I'm so glad to know its not uncommon as I've always struggled as to what it was....

Thankyou so much! :-)

Renee
@renee
05/17/12 07:07:47PM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

hi phyllis, thanks so much for your thoughts on the matter, this makes alot of sense. so basically it all comes down to trust, which i already know to be one of my biggest life lessons..... ohh what an interesting ride this shall be :-)

again thanks

Renee
@renee
05/17/12 04:52:19AM
137 posts

Empath and passed spirits vs. past lives


New Age

Hello all, i am extremely knew to the term "empath/ic" however have experienced this my whole life, now i have a name!! im learning very quickly that i was right in my thoughts of "absorbing others energy and "living" it with them"' however, one question that has always played on my mind, is it poosible to attune this to the energies of those passed, or to "times & events" that have passed. i ask because, i have found numerous occassions where i have been involved in things - whilst studying architecture, speaking with psychologists and reading philosophy being the major ones- where i begin to get major rushes of energies and knowledge that i just shouldn't know from this life time. A psychologist that i came into contact with through work asked where i had studied to get my degrees (which i don't have) as the information i was discussing with him he hadnt learnt until he was completing his doctorate, yet i had assumed it was "common knowledge" from the age of about 16 when it had "flooded" me. whilst studying a unit in architecture the lecture was amazed at how i was able to complete the work without calculators etc using only a pen and paper and remarked that in his 40yrs of lecturing he had never seen that, yet i had never been taught the information at school, nor do i remember recieving it, i just knew. when reading philosophy papers (not all but generally those written during the 1700's) i very quickly am "transported" back to the time, i can see it being written, i can smell the oil, i can feel the dampness in the room, i can feel the energy going into it and i understand it like reading a fairytale, yet ive never been exposed to philosophy in this life time. i have looked at past life regression to check this out however cannot afford it at the moment, but was wondering if anyone has anything similar? is the normal for an empath? am i tapping into my own past lives, or the energies of those passed? or am i just overly weird?? any help, thoughts etc would be greatly appreciated....


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