Empaths and Their Concept of Work
In the interest of time I had only skimmed the responses and responding mainly to the original post. There is no disrespect in this, but I do have a terrible upper respiratory illness. Yet, I felt a certain connection with the OP (original poster) and wanted to reach out.
I formerly worked in the legal field, during the years when that meant REAL job security. Unfortunately, at that time most legal offices had a tremendous amount of cigarette and cigar smoke to contend with. As my health went down hill, I was forced to make a change. The very first opportunity that presented itself, seemed miraculous. I took it. It only lasted a year but I was totally in my element. Unfortunately, the legal work has tainted me for life. When in my new job I saw a potential for personal injury, I could not (like the general public would) shove my concerns under the rug. When the issues could not be worked out to my satisfaction, I resigned. Initially I had returned to a non-smoking legal office, but that was a terribly unsupportive environment otherwise. So I was again looking for change. Found another situation that was also in my element. Spare you the long story here, ...as supportive as the environment was, I was unable to return to work due to the disability of my first child after birth. Odd jobs and voluntarism kept me mentally intact although I felt a tremendous guilt being supported by my husband at the time. I have made various attempts to re-apply in legal related work, but it appeared that that was not meant to be. I was seeking, what you are looking for now, is at least some stability of income. For years my husband and I had to take on full responsibility of the affairs of the child while the other of us had the opportunity to leave the home for work. Since my husband was the main earner though, my opportunities had to take a back seat.
Although it seems this is the never ending story, there is a point I am trying to make. I got to a point that I was attempting to stack odd jobs in hopes that they would together bring in something/anything. As circumstances would have it, one of the jobs was eliminated when the owner sold her business and the other job with very minimal hours started to raise in me some ethical issues. I literally threw my hands up one night, straight to the sky. I said "that is it". I give up. The very important part of this story is that by then I had years of depression to speak of. Although I continued to be the little go-getter dinamo / the energizer bunny that would not give up, the mounting situation (unknowingly) took its toll. I guess you can be depressed even if you are so busily trying that you are not aware of it. I went to bed that night feeling the lowest low in my life. Could not see anything that could possibly be done after this. My mind was totally exhausted and blank. However, what happened next would change my current life forever.
During the years of trying to make things work as a stay-at-home parent, I had slowly been introduced to certain concepts, books, meditation. The night of the lowest low, when I went to sleep, I had a dream. I visited a place of healing, total calm and tremendous love. The last thing I remember is a hand on my shoulder as someone sent me on my merry way back with the telepathic message that I was doing a great job. Woke up the next morning, kid you not, a different person. The sun was shining and I had a knowing that all would be well. Getting out of bed I was energized and most grateful for the bright sun.
What followed is an enlightenment experience. I started to have past life recall and was able to see others' past lives as well. I saw the connections we ALL had in previous lives, regardless of how insignificant our current relations may now seem.
Well, that was a process to go through, an intensely emotional experience, that is strange for some of us legal people, who are so analytical and rational. Coming out on the other end, so to speak, I started having more psychic experiences. I would know when guiding messages were trying to direct me, and I started trusting the process more and more. Believe me, being a legal person, there was plenty of questioning that I put forth to my husband to ensure that I was still with the program. Everything pointed to the fact that I was well, in fact better than ever. Years of depression just overnight disappeared. I returned from that visit to this strange place (I experienced in the dream) a totally different person.
Four years later, following guidance given to me during meditation I landed a job that seemed to be lined up for me specifically. The work is physically and mentally more challenging than any job I had ever done before, but I am soooo grateful for it. The environment may at times not even seem supportive to me personally, but I keep going back. I am there for a different reason. I consider it my service work. My talents are being utilized, and I am happy for it. Unfortunately, I still have to remain creative to stay afloat with our finances. However, I have to believe that the "intelligent design" that I witnessed putting this all into place, must have a plan for my survival to continue the work.
My suggestion to you is to stop trying to work the problem out with your EGO mind. Give your more intelligent higher self the opportunity to drive. That more intelligent part of you WILL NOT interfere or even give guidance, unless you invite it do do so. For that, you need to STOP thinking. Easier said than done. Some find it more easy to do this if they are actually moving physically, like doing karate or tai chi. Others may do gardening or any activity (even dancing) that they can do mindlessly to clear the chatter that is keeping some real meaningful thoughts from reaching you.
Other empaths can and will reach out to give you suggestions as to possible things to try to make it financially. However, the intelligent YOU, your higher self will know what you really like to do, what are the things that make you real happy. It will help you find what you are looking for, but it must be invited to do so. The law of no interference.
Wish you the peace I have found in this journey. Happiness Always!