Hi all. Sorry for not replying yesterday, but was just really wiped out from everything + just needed to recharge a bit.
I don't know where the day went on Wednesday, there just weren't enough hours in the day, + my head was struggling to process+ focus properly. I ended up staying up all night trying to make my protective gem stone bracelet + just make sure I was ready. It got to the time when I dare'nt sleep for fear of not waking up to the alarm. (I tend to be late for things a lot, but it's not for the lack of trying not to be. So big things events are big pressure.)
There was a clear atmosphere + divide through the family. There was some pettiness, shameless nose rubbing, + a bit of an unpleasant atmosphere/ tension, + obviously considerable grief. It was awkward, but all things considered it went well.
It's just such a shame that things are the way they are. We didn't go to the wake, so didn't really get to see some family for more than a few minutes. The family split into 2 groups. One half went to the wake, my half went somewhere else for a meal. It was difficult as there was family we hadn't seen for decades due to such a distance,+ were unable to spend any time with them. Other guests didn't feel they could openly speak to us for fear of reprimand, but got the impression they might have liked to if things hadn't been as they were. It was difficult, but we made it through without there being any big arguments at all, + a lovely family meal afterwards. It was about 11:30pm by the time I finally stopped.
I had a quiet + reflective day yesterday, + got some good sleep. Feeling much better + a huge amount of relief that everyone survived the funeral. Just a little heavy hearted at the situation...
I was wondering though... I bought my daughter an Onyx pendant for the event, but during the meal afterwards the stone fell out of the bit that holds it. I put it back together, but the same thing happened again. I was wondering if that might have held some significance somewhere...? As I had a similar experience with a silver necklace breaking a few years back, that definitely seemed to be a sign/foretelling of events at the time. Or could just be a poorly crafted pendant... What do you guys think?