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CrystalRose
@crystalrose
08/12/16 10:55:40AM
48 posts

How can I deal with being ugly and social anxiety


Empath

I agree with what everyone else is saying. You are NOT ugly. Those people that are treating you like that are being ugly. NOT you. :) I've always had issues with self-esteem as well and I'm starting to gain more confidence in myself. It's a practice. Tell your self everyday that you love yourself. Explain why. Make a list of the reasons why you are beautiful. Trust me, you have plenty of reasons. We all do. It'll be hard to find them at first because it's not something you're used to doing but those reasons are there.

Here's something I do when someone tries to make me feel bad by making a nasty comment or whatever. I'll say: "Awww thank you so much!" As if they paid me a compliment rather than an insult. I'll say it with genuine enthusiasm and a smile and it completely throws them off! It's pretty funny actually.

Really, if they feel the need to insult/make you feel bad, it's a compliment. They're taking the time to do so because for whatever reason, they feel insecure about themselves. That's why they feel the need to make others feel bad. To make themselves feel superior. They almost need to do that to feel good about themselves because without it, they don't feel anything. They thrive on it. So don't give them the response they are looking for when they act this way. It will make them face themselves in the ways they are trying to avoid. Let them feel ugly. Let you feel beautiful. <3

Sending lots of positive loving energy to you! Things will get better. :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
08/12/16 10:13:32AM
48 posts

Is there such a thing as binding an Empath's gifts?


Empath

Hi Rene'

how do you keep yourself and family protected from these dark energies? This whole post talking about it gives me the complete creeps. I'm not sure if anything like that has happened to me or my family but I'd definitely like to protect myself and them from any harm. I feel I especially need to learn more about protection because I've been told my energy can be easy to read sometimes. I know it to be true because of someone at work who is an Empath and is able to tap in and know things about me. Like, they came up to me and said "what's his name?" asking about a guy I'm talking to and am interested in even though I haven't said anything to them. I don't get bad vibes from them really and I'm not afraid of this person as they kind of give me life advice but that did get me thinking... if this person can tap in... could someone who means to do harm do so as well? I think so and that's why this post gives me the creeps. haha If you'd like, you can message me instead of posting here. Thank you, hope all is well with you! <3

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
08/04/16 10:46:21AM
48 posts

Does anyone else feel hated for no reason, or that they're always doing something wrong?


Empath

Yes, this happens to me all the time. What I do when this happens, and it's happened recently to me with a guy I like not wanting to talk because of a bad night. First thing I thought was maybe I did/said something wrong. The key thing he said was that he was having a bad night. SO I focus on that. I didn't do anything wrong, he just wasn't having a good night and therefore he wanted to be alone. Nothing to do with me. It's easy to focus on the negative aspect that maybe we did/said something wrong. What I've started doing lately whenever something like that happens, is I tell myself over and over that it's not me and if it was, they'd say so and we'd work it out from there. If there so happens to actually be an issue, I try and focus more on solving it as opposed to dwelling on it. Easier said than done though. I'm still working on making that a stronger habit and kicking out the old one of thinking I did something wrong. :) hehe

As Empaths, we are very sensitive to subtle changes in peoples behaviors, energies, and tones in their voices which can lead us to over analyze things. I'm constantly over analyzing things. It's even easier for us to do so because of our sensitivity. Whenever you feel like that, just tell yourself that you didn't do anything wrong. It'll feel weird and you'll probably still feel like you did but just say that to yourself every time you feel it. Try not to worry about it too much and remember that things always tend to work themselves out at the right time.

I hope you're having a great day and welcome to the EC! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
07/28/16 03:34:15PM
48 posts



I feel like this is true as well. We as empaths can feel peoples energies and emotions. Even complete strangers. So when we come across a soulmate, our soul recognizes their energy. I don't think it's that we're more drawn to them but that we are more able to recognize the connection because of our abilities and sensitivity to energies.

I've met a few soulmates. The last soulmate I encountered was a karmic soulmate relationship that was extremely intense. So much so that I actually thought he was my twin flame because we had such a deep bond. We're from the same soul group so that bond wont ever go away but he is not my twin flame. Now that I see and accept that he is actually not my twin flame, and also having learned from the situation, I feel much better and happier.

The way I know that these people are soulmates (other than having confirmation from a psychic) is the connection I felt when I looked into their eyes. I could feel my soul recognizing them. The first time that happened, was very confusing. Especially for me because I tend to avoid looking into peoples eyes for too long due to the intensity but with these soulmates, it was as if I couldn't look away and I didn't know why.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/17/16 08:47:01AM
48 posts

Needing Good Vibes/Prayers


Empath

Aw thanks Karma! <33

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/16/16 05:30:58PM
48 posts

Do you guys believe in twin flames?


Empath

It's hard to explain really. It's just something that I feel deep within my soul. I've never felt that way with anyone before. He's said the same for me and he's been in a lot more relationships than I have. Even when we've broken up which of course at the time I was upset but for some reason I'd let it go and feel okay because I felt like I knew things would be okay with us. And that confused me SO MUCH because I was still upset about us breaking up. Also, it never really felt like we actually broke up. We still loved each other and talked to each other. Even though people know we've broken up, they still assumed we are together. They ask me about him all the time.

With me... there's no doubt because no matter what has happened... I still love him. I've tried letting go. I've tried not thinking about him. I was the one sort of running in the beginning because I was scared lol But despite my fear of the intensity of it, I LOVED it, and no matter what I did I simply could not stay away. I tried to, I really did. I just couldn't help it. It was like I was magnetically drawn to him. It was as if the harder I tried to stay away, the stronger I was pulled in.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/16/16 02:46:02PM
48 posts

Needing Good Vibes/Prayers


Empath

Just wanted to say thank you so very much, Rene. <3

Hope all is well with you!

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/16/16 02:41:59PM
48 posts

something to Calm you ( it is very good...trust me)


Empath

Thanks for posting this! I love these kinds of things! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/16/16 02:24:16PM
48 posts

Do you guys believe in twin flames?


Empath

Yes I do but it's a very difficult relationship to deal with. You have to face everything that you haven't healed in yourself and even the things they haven't healed for themselves. It's push and pull. Run and chase. Sometimes both are running from each other because of past hurts. But they are always on our minds and in our hearts no matter what other relationships they may be in. Nothing compares to the energy between you and your twin flame. A lot of people think that it's one soul split into two but it's not two half souls. Twin flames are two complete souls that reflect each other. They compliment each other and most are very opposite of each other but in ways that compliment the other but they have the same views about life and values. It's not just about romance and marriage, it's about learning from each other and growing into your true self. That's why it's so hard at first. You have all of these lessons to learn and they have to be over come before you're able to reunite with one other. They are not like soulmates because you can have more than one soulmate but only one twin flame. Soulmates help to prepare you for a life with your twin flame. The karmic scale has to be in balance. Sometimes our twin flame isn't actually physically on earth with us and we're not meant to live that life out with them, and instead they are watching over us and guiding us. They are always with us. Always a part of us. And it's an amazing unconditional love. Nothing compares to it but you have to both be ready for it. Some times it's not always meant to be. But that unconditional love is always there. They are always going to love you and you love them. No matter what has happened. That's another thing that makes it so hard.

You have to be ready to face everything that you have buried deep inside you because it will all come to the surface to be cleansed and healed. But you can only do that for yourself. You can't do that for them. They have to learn and heal themselves. That can take a long time but that depends. You have to have a LOT of patience.... lol

Basically it's not easy but it will always be worth it. I believe that I am meant to be with my twin flame this life time (which can of course change due to his own choices and mine). I've met other soulmates and although I have loved them and at the times I was with/around them I wanted to be with them but there was always that part of me that felt like I couldn't be with them. That it just didn't feel right. It didn't satisfy that feeling that I get when I'm with my twin flame. And since we are not together right now... I've met other guys that I've kinda liked but I can't actually be with anyone because I just think about my twin flame literally all the time. And I feel like if I were to be with someone else, it wouldn't be fair to them or to me because my heart and soul wants to be with him. It's confusing because these other guys are good guys. I've been having a hard time with this lately and I believe it to be one of my lessons.

I'm not afraid to be alone because I know that I'm never truly alone. So I'm not looking to be in any relationship right now. I feel this is a time for me to heal myself since I am not with my twin and he hasn't contacted me in nearly a month. I think he feels rejected by me because I told him "no" to something I always said yes to before. I did it because I didn't want him to cause me any more pain and add more karmic barriers between us and thus keep us apart. I was protecting myself and him as well whether he sees that or not.

Anyway... lol Sorry for the rant. I think for anyone who is searching to be with their twin flame, the best thing would be not to look. Focus on being you and healing yourself. They can feel you and you them so send them lots of positive, loving vibes and encourage them to focus on growing themselves. Do that for you and do it for them and when you do find each other, you'll be ready for them. And you'll KNOW it's them. There is no mistaking that feeling you get. It's comforting and you feel it all over and when you look into their eyes, you're not afraid because they love you unconditionally (that's how it is for me and my twin anyway, such intense longing and loving looks into his eyes that I could literally do forever...) If your not ready you might not recognize them. So ready yourself and hope they do the same. Also be ready for the challenges. There will be some.

Good luck and I wish you ALL the best! <333

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/11/16 01:15:32PM
48 posts

Needing Good Vibes/Prayers


Empath

Hey everyone. So I've been going through a lot of big changes lately. The biggest one is that our landlord has decided to sell our house and I really don't want to have to move as I love the house we are living in. The rent in my town is expensive and we've been looking but it's hard to find a place that fits our needs that we can afford. We have a pet too so that complicates things further as I don't want to leave/get rid of my dog. He's a part of the family and I love him. We're really hoping the landlord changes her mind. This house is in the perfect location for us and I really don't want to have to move. If only we could afford to buy it from her...

I'm also looking for a new job because I'm sick of the place I work at right now. Nothing pays as well and if we're really moving I can't afford to take a job that pays less than what I'm making now. I saw a few job openings in some other nearby towns that pay better but I don't drive. So I'd have no way to get to work anywhere else. I've got my permit and I'm working on getting my DL soon though. So there is that. But then I'd need a reliable car.

I've been doing my best to stay positive but sometimes it's hard and I get frustrated and my anxiety will kick in. I just really hope everything starts to turn back around soon. I hate the feeling of not knowing where I'm going to live. I know that we will find some place. I just hope it's within our town or that my landlord changes her mind but I don't think she will.

I'd really appreciate any positive vibes/energy/prayers right now. I hope you all are doing much better. Sincerely. Thank you.

<333


updated by @crystalrose: 01/12/17 01:01:22AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
06/02/16 10:19:51AM
48 posts

Upcoming visa decision - positive vibes appreciated


Empath

Sending positive vibes! You will be back, I can FEEL it. Good luck! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/20/16 08:59:47AM
48 posts

Interesting Dream


Empath

So I just had a very interesting dream and it's sparked a whole bunch of questions (I've been googling and reading about it online too) Here it is:

I was a part of some out door class with other people like me. They were around my age but I get the feeling they were like me a lot more than just my age. I'm guessing they also had empath/intuitive abilities. We were walking in a group following this lady who I'm assuming was the teacher or whatever. She stopped at some table thing where there were cards all over it and each one had a picture of one thing. She said each of us were to get a picture and that we were to use nothing but our intuition to find that item and bring it back. One by one we each got our card. I was the last one to get mine but when I got mine something else appeared next to it. It was a little rounded palm mirror with a smooth dark raised boarder all around and resting on top of it was a clear crystal ball. I picked them up and looked at the teacher and said "Why do I get this too?" and she said "Because that's your special gift/power".

Some other guy who was hanging back saw that I got something extra and was sort of jealous but then he went off to find his own item in a hurry because he wanted to beat me. I went off and was looking into the mirror and the crystal ball. I'd place it against the mirror like how it was when I first picked it up and lifted it off. Basically just trying to make sense of them. If I were to use them together or separately. I didn't see anything in them but then I found myself outside a cemetery. And I walked in and stopped just inside with a girl (I have no idea what the girl was doing with me). I saw a gold thing laying against the cemetery gate. It wasn't my item but it looked like it could lead me to something so I looked more in the area and just below it in the dirt I saw a ring. My item was a gold ring with a pink gem. It wasn't my ring but I kept digging around in that corner and found more rings. Some silver, some gold. I put on a silver one with a blue gem just for fun. Then I saw a gold band but when I lifted it out of the dirt it had a purple gem. It starts to get fuzzy around this part and I'm not sure if I find the ring or not. I think I start waking up or something because at this point, I randomly find nail polish and me and that random girl start polishing our nails lol

It was just a very interesting dream. The part that gets me is the mirror and crystal ball? Why would I be getting those things when no one else got them? Why would I even be dreaming about this? What makes it more interesting to me is that I remember a psychic once told me that one of my great aunts or grandmothers was able to see things in her coffee or tea mugs but she never told anyone about it. It makes sense why she wouldn't say anything because it seems crazy and most people wouldn't believe it. Either way, I find it interesting and I'd like to know if anyone knows anything about scrying. This dream sparked my curiosity and that makes me feel like it wasn't just an ordinary dream. For one, it was very vivid and my dreams usually are but this one felt different. Not sure how though. Let me know what you guys think about the dream and what you know about water/mirror scrying and crystal balls. Thank you. :)

Lots of love and light to you all <3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/21/17 05:18:12AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/15/16 07:46:12PM
48 posts

Straind relationship with my mom


Empath

Just me. I am the last to leave and also the only girl out of 3 brothers so I guess it makes sense that she'd be over protective. I actually do have some sage and palo santo that I occasionally use to smudge my room. I will try doing this more often. The palo santo really does seem to help a lot and I just love the smell of it.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/14/16 10:13:44AM
48 posts

Straind relationship with my mom


Empath

I'm glad you've discovered ways to make that situation better for you! I'm doing the cord cutting thing as well but since I'm still living at home with her and she currently is on a leave from work, it's hard. I've told her things through text before too. And usually she'll read it and not respond after I've had it and said what I needed to say at the time because she knows what I said was true. That's the only way I can get her to stop texting me when I'm not home. She'll constantly text me when I'm out sometimes and I'm like really? lol It gets to the point where she'll send "hello" like multiple times in a row until I respond. She's basically why I have to keep my phone on silence all the time... lol

Once I move out, I'll probably do what you are doing when it comes to a relationship with my mom. Mainly because I get along with all of my brothers and they have my nephews and I couldn't completely cut ties from them. I love those little boogers too much! lol Thank you for responding to my post. I appreciate it! Hope everything is going well for you! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/14/16 10:01:26AM
48 posts

Straind relationship with my mom


Empath

Yeah, that sounds like the best thing to do. It's like, of course you love them but you don't like their behavior towards you and all the bad and negative energy is harmful.

I'm trying to get away from them and I will as soon as I'm able because it's hard for me to just be when they are always criticizing everything I do. I hope you are doing much better now that you've gotten away from all of those bad vibes. :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/12/16 10:48:21AM
48 posts

Straind relationship with my mom


Empath

And it's always been that way for as long as I can remember. Don't get me wrong, I love her, she is my mother and I am much closer to her than I am with my dad but we just do not get along with each other.

I can't completely open up to her about things because she always takes everything the wrong way and flips out. Even for the littlest of things. And I understand that it's because she is unhappy, she's had an unhappy marriage with my dad. She resents him and just can't seem to let the past go. I'm always caught in the middle of them. They argue for the stupidest things and they are both stubborn so it will go on for days sometimes. I try and just stay out of it because they need to work out their own problems but it disrupts my peace and I lose it sometimes and I let them have it lol I tell them to let it go because they are arguing over something that is dumb and tell them to be quiet. And they do stop because they know I'm right but they are stubborn so it doesn't always work. Someone always has to have the last word kind of thing. Very childish.

I hate admitting it but there are a lot of things I can't trust my mom with. She can say some mean things to me but will deny that she says things like that. But she knows. She just lies about it because she feels bad about it and doesn't want to face it. She's not a bad person. She's just... really unhappy. And we all know how that can change a persons behavior towards others. She still treats me like I'm a child and I'm 25. She invades my privacy and that is a major no-no. Especially for me. And at my age. I'm an adult. I just find that extremely disrespectful and I can't even begin to describe how that makes me feel. I guess the best word would be violated.

She has never seen me for who I really am. The other day she said I was cold and lacked compassion. And that hurt. I'm not a mean person. I don't hurt any one or start fights. In fact, I've never been in a fight. I always know when someone is feeling sad, or mad, and I always ask them if they are okay or if there's something I can do. I do that with her too. But sometimes she verbally attacks me when she's mad. Even if it's nothing I did. So it's hard. Especially when she blames things on me that are her own fault.

Whenever she says things like that about me... it makes me question who I am. It makes me wonder if maybe I really am a bad person. Even when I know I'm not. That's the kind of "mental abuse" I've been going through all my life. And it's made me see that it's no wonder I've always had a low self esteem growing up. I get hurt very easily. Up until a year ago she never really knew just how sensitive I was. And the day she realized it was after she said something that was mean and I ended up crying. She was getting ready to go see my grandma and she wanted me to go with her and she was trying to get me to go. So she said "why do you hate her?" or something like that and that was extremely hurtful. I walked into the other room and cried. The fact that she would even accuse me of hating my grandmother was very offensive to me. I go to see her more than most of my cousins do. Aside from the one that lives with her but that's different. After she saw that I cried she apologized and said "I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were that sensitive." That didn't make me feel better. It made me realize that I'm really not seen for who I really am, by her.

It's been hard with her right now because I'm doing and discovering who I really am. I'm doing the things that I want to do and that make me happy. And she'll say that it's not who I am. And I'm just like "who are you to tell me who I am?" Only I can do that. She wants me to fit into her mold. Be like her. But I wont. I refuse to be negative like her. It's hard to stay positive around her but I'm getting better at it. I'm cutting the cord. That sounds mean for me to say but I have to. Yes, I love her. She is my mom. But she seriously brings me down. And for my own good... I have to keep my distance from her. She feels hurt that we're not close but that's her own fault. She pushed me away. And I'm not opposed to trying to get a closer relationship with her. Just not at this time. This is the time I need to get away and become solid in who I am. And that's not something I can do around her. She judges me too much and she tries to emotionally manipulate me.

Sorry for this long rant. This has been on my mind lately. I'm currently living with her and my dad so it's hard to avoid the situations that I'm trying to avoid. She'll seek me out and ask what I'm doing. Like she has to know everything that I do. I have to tell her everything. It's the same with my dad but he mainly just asks where I'm going and who with kind of thing. She does that too though. But see, how I can't have any sort of time alone? Or keep anything just for me? I feel smothered. I need space lol I'm a very reserved person. I know most people don't feel things the way I do and it's not that I'm hiding it.... I'm just not openly sharing how sensitive I am. I feel like people would try to manipulate me more if they knew. And people sense that I'm not totally open about myself so there is that mystery. And I think that's why my parents are constantly questioning me and what I'm doing. They don't understand my need for solitude. My need to be away from people and my need to even be away from them.

So, do any of you have people like this in your life? I'm sure you do. How do you cope? What are your methods of staying positive when you encounter them? Right now, I can't move so I'm sort of stuck. I hope you all are doing well!

Sending you all love, light, and positive vibes <3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/21/17 12:52:02PM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/08/16 09:32:35AM
48 posts

Kryon


Empath

A lot of people in my life would not get something like this as well. That's part of the reason why I would feel lonely sometimes but this made me see that I'm not alone. Ever. And I kind of knew that already, just not to the degree that this video helped me to understand.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
05/07/16 05:57:04PM
48 posts

Kryon


Empath

I needed to hear this. Thank you for posting it.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/22/16 12:41:31PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

Yeah, staying away from him now. I have more important things to focus on. He can try all he wants to take from me now but he wont get any of my energy anymore. This little dance is just a waste of my time.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/22/16 12:39:15PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

You're right. Sent a happy birthday and no gift. Throwing my focus on myself now. Looking into school and a career change. Thanks!

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/20/16 04:17:39PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

I have been trying it for the past hour or so. I came to the park and I've been relaxing and doing breathing exercises and it's helped. I focused on letting go and disconnecting from him and I do feel better. Trying not to think about it so I don't revert back to how I was feeling earlier but I'm going to keep doing this until I get better at it. It does seem to really help. And it doesn't mean I don't still care or have feelings for him. It just means I'm taking the time to step back and take care of myself. Have any more tips about the disconnecting thing? Thank you so much. :)
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/20/16 03:03:19PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

It really sucks lol Hope you are doing well! <3
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/20/16 03:01:28PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

I'll look into it. The sound of that actually makes me kind of sad but him having that hold over me is more sad because I'm not getting what I want and need. I really don't want him to be gone from my life. But this pain is too much for me to handle. I guess what's made it so hard and why I've let this slide for so long was because I know he cares for me. But his behavior towards me... The distance, the excuse that it's too hard for us right now... That is what gave me doubts. And right now I feel very doubtful about it all. And I have a right to.Thanks for your reply. It means a lot and I will be looking into what you've said.
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/20/16 02:52:58PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

Thank you. I don't want to end things but I think some space will be very good for me. And if things work out later on... That would be great. But I won't be putting myself on the line anymore. The pain is too great and is distracting me from getting my life together.Thank you for responding. It means a lot.
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/20/16 02:48:34PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

I could and I'm guessing I might have to. I really don't want to. I don't want things to be over. But I do need to take care of myself.A coworker of mine was telling me that today too. She knows the whole story. She said he's a good guy but she knows he's an ass to me. And he is a good guy. But his behavior to me has been unfair.His birthday is tomorrow. I'll text him a happy birthday but that's it. I did get him a gift but I don't know if I should give it to him now.I was already considering cutting him off after his birthday. I guess that's what I'll do.Thank you for your reply to my post. It really has made me feel better.
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/19/16 04:31:53PM
48 posts

Warning: intese emotions.


Empath

Hello everyone. I hope all is well with each and every one of you. Right now, I'm posting mainly to release some emotions. Maybe gain some insight or advice from any of you or to share similar situations and help each other out by consoling one another.

I left work early today. I sensed something was up with my ex yesterday and I discovered some heart wrenching things. It's crazy how my intuition is always on point with these things. Before yesterday I was feeling fine. Happy, optimistic, and I felt generally good. I hadn't talked to him for a week and I felt good. Not something that would have been easy for me before. Sure I missed him but I didn't really think nothing of it. I didn't get upset by it. Even now, despite everything, there's a part of me that feels okay. But this other part of me feels so hurt. I have no words for the pain. It literally made me sick. I didn't eat dinner, barely ate breakfast this morning, and half my lunch. And I still can't even imagine myself stomaching any food. I've been drinking so much water because I find that makes me feel better. Water always seems to calm me down some how.

I just don't get why he pulls away from me and then when I pull away and he sees that I'm doing okay, he comes back but only to pull away again. He'll want me and then act like he doesn't and say that things with us are hard. But he's the one making it hard. It literally drives me crazy sometimes and I don't know what to do. I know it's because he's been hurt in the past. That's why I've had so much patience with him. I just don't know what to do. I stay away and I feel okay and I know that I am but he's always somewhere in my mind. And if not on my mind I can feel him in my heart and soul. We have a deep bond. We have deep feelings for each other. I can see how that can be scary because it scares me too. Especially when he does things like this. There's nothing I can do to stop these feelings that I have for him. No matter what has happened because I love him unconditionally. But I'm starting to feel like a love like that sucks. I'm becoming afraid to open up to him or be around him, even though that is what I long for most, because I don't want to be hurt anymore.

I leave him to contact me first as I can't get myself to do it anymore. I've had a psychic advice that this was the best thing to do because he needs to be the one to step forward. And that seemed to help but after yesterday... I'm not so sure. I wish I could forget. As much as my time with him has meant to me... right now.... I wish I could forget. And just be. And not worry about anyone hurting me ever again. Right now.... I wish I could just shut off. Everything. Not die or anything.... but just shut off. Not feel anything for awhile. Not think about anything. Not do anything.

I hate to just pour this all out on you guys. But I can't open up to anyone else about this. And if you guys could spare a few moments and send some positive vibes... I'd really appreciate it. I was doing so well for awhile. I wish I could have made that last longer.

Sending love and light to you all always.


updated by @crystalrose: 02/09/17 11:06:54PM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
04/19/16 04:00:38PM
48 posts

Any empaths have digestive problems?


Empath

I have this problem too. Whenever something has really upset me and I get extreme anxiety.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
03/31/16 10:28:44PM
48 posts

Seeing faces with my eyes closed


Empath

I'll definitely ask questions the next time a face shows up. Sometimes it's only for a brief second and then is gone and doesn't come back but I think that's because I'm trying to force it. I'll relax and calmly ask questions the next time for sure.

I'm going to start a specific journal just for this type of stuff. I already have a journal ready to use and everything. I find it funny because I've always had a weird journal collection but I never actually wrote in them. I think on some level I knew that I'd need them for something someday. Maybe this is what I was gathering them for! hehe

Thank you so much

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
03/30/16 12:09:06PM
48 posts

Seeing faces with my eyes closed


Empath

I've seen an alien like creature too but it was only outlines and no details. I've seen other odd creatures too and remember thinking "What was that thing?" lol None of them ever scare me. Some are creepy but those I just brush away and know that they can't do anything. They eventually go away.

Once I saw a very detailed eye. Just one eye. It was so beautiful. Long curly lashes, almond shaped, I'm not sure on the color but they seemed like a light blue. It's weird that it was just one eye.... lol

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
03/30/16 12:04:36PM
48 posts

Seeing faces with my eyes closed


Empath

I was thinking the same thing about the images I see but I wasn't sure. I just began to see them. It doesn't happen every night. I'm trying to figure out what I do different the nights that it happens. Maybe I'm more relaxed and at peace at those times or something.

I'm not sure what the faces I see are. One I see is an old man. He looks familiar like maybe my grandpa but I don't think so because I only met him when I was a baby and then he passed away. He looks more like my exs grandpa but I never met him so I shouldn't have any connection to him like that. I do, however speak aloud to him because I know how close my ex was to him and I feel like he's still around my ex a lot, trying to help him through his rough times. I've even had a psychic tell me that he liked me but I don't get that because like I said, I never met him.

The other one I've seen is an older woman but I have no idea who she is. I've only seen her once, I think. I've only seen faces and shapes so far. I haven't been able to make anything else out or be able to tell if I'm seeing something. I'll keep trying to develop it. I'll take your advice and start to journal about it. Thank you! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
03/29/16 08:05:38PM
48 posts

Seeing faces with my eyes closed


Empath

Lately, when I'm lying in bed and trying to get to sleep, I'll see a face. It will pop up when my eyes are closed. It will stick around for a few seconds then disappear, then come back and disappear again. Some of the faces will stick around a little longer than others. Some look familiar while others are just random. I'm not really sure what it means. I'm always awake when it happens. It never scares me.

When it first started happening, I didn't really think anything of it because I remembered when I was little... that I used to see things with my eyes closed all the time. I remember loving just lying in bed before going to sleep and just looking at things, and searching through all the shapes and colors that I saw, trying to make sense of it and see if I could recognize anything. I don't remember what I saw... just that it was colorful and that I loved lying in bed and looking at things even though my eyes were closed. I think I must have mentioned it to my mom and having her dismiss it. But it was so long ago that I can't really remember. I had completely forgotten that I used to do that. Maybe it's related to what I'm seeing now?

I know that I've become a lot more sensitive since discovering and accepting that I am an Empath. I'm learning to balance my emotions and to strengthen my intuition. I just can't shake the feeling that these faces have something to do with my awakening. I've never thought to look it up until now. I'm hoping that someone here can give me some information on this. Have any of you been through something similar? Please inform me on what you think, or what this is.

Thank you so much.

Sending love to all of you on this site. Always.

<3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/16/17 07:30:36AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
03/29/16 07:37:14PM
48 posts

being a newly realized empath in twin flame relationship


Empath

I'm currently in the same boat! Right now, we aren't together and it's been hard for me. He's the one doing most of the running away at this point. Although, when he starts coming around me more again, I'm a little hesitant yet still open to him because lets face it...I always will be. We're definitely in the twin flame dance. But the emotions I feel when I look into his eyes... man. There's nothing to explain it. It is felt in a soul level. And no matter what has happened between us, when we broke up and things like that... I always felt like things with us would be okay. And that always confused me. Especially when I hadn't realized he was my twin flame. Things were always okay again with us. That's the dance. I'm not fond of it because I'm a little impatient, but that's part of the what I need to learn with him, I guess lol

Everythings going to be okay with you too. Always. No matter what happens. Part of this process is in learning to love ourselves too. I've struggled with self esteem issues my whole life. I'm over coming that and I'm proud of myself.

That's another thing with Twin Flames. We challenge each other. We are alike but mainly we have what the other needs to grow stronger in themselves. It's not easy, but so worth it. So... if it's worth it, I say that it's easy. Just challenging. I'm missing my guy so much right now. :/ But I feel optimistic. And I hope you do too :)

I'm here to talk! I'm new to this empath journey as well. And I'm always open to talk about Twin Flame drama lol Sometimes the things they do can be so..... fhalhgadljlfj. lol

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
02/03/16 06:52:02PM
48 posts

Any empaths in the San Joaquin Valley area?


Empath

I'm looking to see if any empaths are in the San Joaquin Valley CA area. I'd like to make empaths friends who would like to hang out and discuss empath things, life, and become friends. Anyone around in this area that may be interested?

Thanks <3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/21/17 07:54:58AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
01/27/16 10:01:22PM
48 posts

Coincidence or not?


Empath

I don't think he knows either. I think some of the recent things that have happened to him triggered this. I think he suppresses things instead of dealing with them and then when something happens, it all comes flooding to the surface and he doesn't know what to feel. Like an overload of things that he had been hiding and had thought he forgot and moved on from but hasn't because he never dealt with them properly and so he never really healed.

He definitely needs to clear out some energy. Do you mean cedar as in cedar chips? I would love to make him a little cedar bag. Maybe I could even add some other things to it. And actually, just thinking about giving/making him a little thing like that relieves some of my anxiety over this so I will definitely do something with that. I love this idea.

Thank you so much! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
01/27/16 09:51:01PM
48 posts

Coincidence or not?


Empath

Cbxjohn,

I do feel that he and I feel each others emotions. It can be very confusing and intense sometimes. I'm not sure if I feel better or not. Maybe I'm unsure because I still want to be with him and because I've been worrying about him. I was actually hesitant in getting into a relationship when I first met him because I wanted to build a stronger sense of self. And I told him this as well and he said that he would wait and that he wasn't going anywhere. We dated for a bit before I finally decided to become exclusive with him because I felt so drawn to him. I just couldn't stay away from him no matter how hard I tried.

Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better about yourself! I'm starting to feel better about myself too and I'm really proud of that. Especially from where I was coming from which was a very dark and lonely place.

I do feel that I am in the right place now, though. And I do trust that things will work out for the best. I'm learning to love myself and discovering what I can do. It's gonna be interesting.

Thank you for your comment! :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
01/27/16 09:17:21PM
48 posts

Coincidence or not?


Empath

Snap,

I feel that way about coincidences too but sometimes it's hard to find the connection, like you said. That's why I sometimes feel unsure about coincidences. But for the most part, I believe things happen for a reason.

I really like what you had to say. Synchronicity can be a beautiful thing. I hope I will realize the meaning of this at some point. I figure, the reason that I haven't is because there are still more things for me to learn.

Thank you for responding. :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
01/27/16 09:06:04PM
48 posts

Coincidence or not?


Empath

He actually has a lot of friends (or acquaintances I suppose) but doesn't really spend a whole lot of time with them as most of them live far... aside from his childhood friend who he considers a brother. Mainly, he spends a lot of his time alone, that I know of, aside from night outs with some people we know from work about once a week or so. I'm not sure what he was thinking of at the time. He hasn't really gone into detail about it with me. And I don't want to pester him about it. I really wish he would confide in me. Yeah, the place we both work at is not so great right now. But warehouse jobs usually aren't so great anyway lol. You're also unhappy at your currant job?

Thank you so much for your response. :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
01/26/16 06:16:17PM
48 posts

Coincidence or not?


Empath

So I took the day off from work today because I needed some time away from the warehouse that I work at. I felt like being there was draining the life out of me. And I've been finding it increasingly difficult to be working there this month. Not sure if that has anything to do with mercury being in retrograde or what but lets just say works been hell.

I called in this morning and went back to bed and got to sleep in, which was absolutely fantastic. I needed that extra bit of sleep. My body was sore, and I felt lifeless. I knew if I had gone to work I only would have felt worse by being there. So even though I used up some of my time off for work by not showing up, I felt that it was well spent. That the bit of my sanity that I regained from missing work will make up for the decrease in my next paycheck. Or at least, that's what I'm telling myself ... lol.

Anyway, after I decided that I've slept in enough (which is crazy for me to say as I could have slept all day if I so chose) I got up and did my morning routine, and then when I had the house to myself, I began to reflect on things with my ex. I had last been with him on Sunday night. I started to reminisce my time with him. How I've enjoyed every moment we spent together. How I know that I'll always love him. How he is my favorite time of my life. I recalled the moment I first felt something for him. The moment I realized that I loved him. The adventures we had at the beginning of our relationship. And how I miss it all so much. I sat there on my kitchen counter, speaking allowed to myself, with tears streaking down my face. Occasionally wiping them away. The odd thing about all of this was that even though I was missing him and that I was crying, I wasn't sad. Not like how I have been before, anyway. And I realized that it was because I was focusing on love and not my "loss". Once I realized that, I knew that was my key to healing myself. Just focusing on what I know to be true which is my love. For myself as much as my love for him. None of this means that I don't want to be with him. I do. Just as much as I always have. But I know that we still care about each other. I know that he's still in my life and I am so grateful for that. And I know we can work through this. Right now, it's our time to heal ourselves of our pain from our pasts. Separately. That's what was so hard for me to come to terms with. Separately. But I know now that we aren't really separate because we still have that connection.

Right after that whole moment on my counter he texted me saying that he hoped that I was feeling better. I had been feeling sick to my stomach. This was around 11 am. I responded saying that I felt better after getting some much needed rest and thanked him for asking. Just over 30 minutes later, he texted me again saying that he was at Urgent Care. That he was having loss of breath, chest tightening, and heart palpitations and so was getting checked out. Then he said that it was a panic attack and that this happened around 11ish. I was so worried about him. I still am even though he says he's okay. But the truth is, I know that he's not. He's suppressing things. I can tell that he's been off lately. He hasn't worked much all this month. We work at the same building and he says he's tired of being there. Much like I am. It just breaks my heart to see him like this. And I wish he would open up to me. I'm not trying to heal him. I know that he is the only one who can heal himself and that has to be when he is ready to face his problems and I can't make him be ready for that. All I want is for him to let me know what's bothering him. I know that talking about it is a form of release which is why I do it all the time. Even if it's just talking to myself like some crazy person. So I just let him know that I'm here if he needs to talk. And that's all I can do. Which, of course drives me nuts.

I don't know, I just find this all very weird and I'm not sure what to make of it. I wish I knew what caused his panic attack. I know that sometimes it's not always known what the cause is. Especially when you've been suppressing your emotions for so long. Just thought I should share this and see what you guys think. Anyone going through something similar? Any advice? I find myself really wanting to talk about the deeper meaning of things and I figure, this is a good start.

Hope all is well with everyone. <3


updated by @crystalrose: 03/13/17 10:26:54AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
12/10/15 07:25:28PM
48 posts



Hello Dreamer!

Love this post as I am a dreamer as well. I love to dream. When I was a kid, I'd daydream all day in class! haha It's great to have hope. I'm a pretty hopeful person, myself and I've always loved that Doctor Who quote.


updated by @crystalrose: 02/12/17 07:37:24AM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
12/02/15 07:33:14PM
48 posts

Strange Dream


Empath

Yes, that would be great! It's been on my mind. And I've also had another strange dream last night having to do with my ex again but in a peculiar way. His daughter was the main part of it and I've never met her. But I will copy and paste this posted dream in an email to you and maybe if you want you can try the other one as well. As you said to me, no pressure. :)

Wow, so your dreams are like premonitions. That's very interesting! I had one not too long ago that comes to mind. I didn't realize it until now that it had come true in some way. It had to do with a guy that I'd never met but seemed very familiar. He liked me a lot and there was some feelings between us but it wasn't what I wanted. It didn't feel right to me and even though he was with me in the dream, I kept thinking about my ex. Things with him felt much more right and stronger. So in the dream this guy that I didn't know kept flirting with me but I wasn't too interested. And last week I met a guy that somewhat fits the description of the guy in my dream.

Thank you so much for your response! We can continue this convo in email so we're not going back and forth lol I'm about to send it. Best to you as well!

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
12/01/15 07:26:37PM
48 posts

Strange Dream


Empath

That sounds pretty interesting! I've tried asking questions before but it never worked. Maybe because I wasn't actually asking anyone, I was more just wondering why I had that specific dream.

I used to look mine up to. But I think the internet interpretations are too vague to have an accurate dream interpretation so I don't look them up anymore either.

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
12/01/15 07:20:11PM
48 posts

Strange Dream


Empath

I know, right? lol I wasn't really asking because I wasn't sure if that was against the terms or whatever. Thought maybe I'd ask somewhere else and just copy and paste what I wrote here. If it's not against any terms than that it would be cool to have an interpretation. Otherwise I'll just ask somewhere else. I do want to here other peoples dreams too! I find the things people dream, and dreams in general, very interesting.

Thanks for the response!

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/27/15 07:36:29PM
48 posts

Strange Dream


Empath

Hey Gene,

Thanks for the reply! That sounds like a very interesting dream! I like having vivid dreams. Sometimes they can be scary but usually they are like the ones I mentioned above. Thanks for sharing!

Crystal:)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/26/15 11:21:48AM
48 posts

Strange Dream


Empath

So the other night I had a very strange dream. My dreams have been very vivid for as long as I can remember. They are like movies in my head lol They usually have different parts to them.

The first part of my dream, it was as if I was at work but it was different. Everything seemed and felt normal but I knew it wasn't because my warehouse isn't more than two stories high and I can't see outside. It almost seemed like the warehouse was in an open multi-storied car garage. No windows because there weren't really any walls. That seemed normal to me though. Oh dream logic lol

Anyway, I was going up the floors with an old friend from high-school. She teaches Muay Thai Kick Boxing to kids and I've always wanted to learn it. I've really been considering taking classes lately so I'm assuming that's why she was in my dream because she doesn't work with me and I haven't seen her in years.

We were on an open square elevator and I was a little freaked out because of my fear of heights. There was a lady that was manning the elevator and her and my old friend were telling me I would be fine. And I was saying that I would have felt better if there were at least a railing but I tried my best to stay brave. We came to a slight rumbling stop (which scared me lol) and we were looking around because we were pretty high. And where the elevator stopped there wasn't anyplace to get off. There was, however, a zip line. A freaking zip line. lol I must have been at least 5 or 6 stories high. And the line didn't really go downwards, it stayed around the same height, and it went around, and into this.... I'm not sure how to describe it but it was like a spaceship I guess. It was floating. It was white, long and the zip line went under it. So basically the long skinny part of the "ship" was above the zip line and the line ran along the bottom, which was open. Then at the end it had a circle which is where the zip line would leave you. That circle was like an elevator that wasn't attached to anything. I watched as my old friend went across the zip line and up and I was totally freaking.

The square elevator operator was trying to calm me down. I was almost turning around saying that I can't do that. I couldn't go on that. It was too high and I wouldn't be attached to anything. It seemed way too risky to me. After ranting about my fear, the elevator person told me that it was my choice and that I could go back if I wanted but then I wouldn't get this chance again. So I thought about it for a few seconds. Where does the other elevator lead? It goes into this ufo looking circular thing in the sky. The circle elevator is like the door that takes you into it. And I wanted to know what was in there. I remember thinking, I could go back and feel safe and never know what would have happened, or I can face my fears and be scared for a few moments and learn something new.

Right after that, I didn't even say anything to the elevator person. I just jumped and grabbed onto the zip line and went but it was hard for me to get across because it was all one length. So the elevator person was telling me how to control it. They said that I had to let go of my fears for it to go faster. Accept it and it will take me right along. So I did that and before I knew it, I was on the circular elevator. And as soon as I got on I was like "There is nothing to ******* hold on to!" and then I went up. And it went FAST. So fast I didn't have time to be scared. I still remember the way it felt. Going that fast is a very strange feeling. Almost like a rollercoaster, but way way more intense. I assume that's how astronauts feel on rocket ships. It's almost sickening. You feel so light headed. Things are going so fast and you don't know how to comprehend what's happening to you or how to asses how you're feeling. The weird thing is that it felt familiar.

Once I got into the ufo like thing, I was sitting down. It was small. There was a screen. And there were controls. The first thing that caught my attention was the controls. They were weird because the controls were different creatures and their eyes were blinking! So I touched them. Each one I touched would make a noise and the screen would say something but I didn't pay attention to that. I was exploring the different creatures and the different things they would do. I had no idea what they were but they seemed familiar. One was almost like a cow. I remember being like "Why is there a cow?" lol

Then, there was one that looked like a baby human and I felt connected to it. So I rubbed it's belly (lol) and then I looked at the screen. And it said "30% human". And that got me really thinking hard so I started waking up and that was the end of that part of the dream. Pretty long, I know. I still don't know what it means though.

Second part. I was with friends. All people from work. Including my ex. I was with my one friend that I eat lunch with at work. And my ex was with our other friends. We were going to meet up.

When we finally are in sight of each other, my ex is a bit up ahead of them and is walking fast towards me saying he missed me. And I was doing the same thing, walking ahead of my friend to greet him. We hug. My friend goes with our other friends and I stay off with my ex. But it was like we were together again. Next thing I know we're looking deeply into each others eyes. Just like we used to do for long periods of time. And he said "forever is a long time" and I said "I don't care". And he said "That means we have to get married" and I didn't say anything, just kept looking at him. So he says "You would marry me?" not asking me to marry him but asking if I would. I nodded. He smiles and says "marry me". And I said "now?!" and he says "right now". I guess all of the intense emotions from that was starting to wake me up because I can't remember exactly what I said. Just that it was along the lines of "I dunno about right this second". And he wasn't sad, just disappointed I wouldn't right now when he wanted to. He didn't say anything but I felt that. He was still happy that I said I would. I felt he was just thinking of when.

So that's what I dreamt the other night. I've felt better since having those dreams. I just don't know exactly what they mean. I kinda do... but I don't know if I'm fully grasping it. Just thought I'd share it. I'd love to hear some of your dreams too! :) I love to talk about dreams. I usually remember mine in detail. Do you guys do that as well?

Thank you!

Crystal <3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/18/17 03:54:57PM
CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/26/15 09:10:37AM
48 posts

Seeing ladybugs lately


Empath

It is such a coincidence that I just saw this! lol I joined this site last saturday. But on that day ... right before I joined the site ... I was having a chat with a Psychic about my current situation and things I've been struggling with lately. She tells me that I am an Empath (which I've been told before but never believed) and it was a very inspirational and happy talk that left me feeling optimistic, hopeful and ready to start on my Empath journey. After I get off the phone with her, I go into my bathroom and I find a ladybug crawling up the side of my sink! I was so shocked and perplexed! Like, how did it get in there? lol I captured it and held it in my hand for a good while then took it outside and set it on a leaf on one of my mothers plants. I looked up the meaning behind ladybugs and it all resonates quite well with my life right now.

Also, my birthday was on the 7th, and my mother gave me these little lady bug earrings. They have their wings spread open (as in mid flight) and the lady bug bottom underneath the wings is a little diamond. Very cute!

I'm like you in that I have a fear of most bugs. Ladybugs, butterflys, rollypollies, all the cute little ones I like, though. :) lol

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/21/15 07:02:20PM
48 posts

New


Empath

Thank you Fancy Girl! It feels so good to hear that with having felt so misunderstood all my life. Means a lot! <3

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/21/15 07:01:03PM
48 posts

New


Empath

Thank you! It means a lot to hear a response from you. I'll check out the Guide. :)

CrystalRose
@crystalrose
11/21/15 10:41:54AM
48 posts

New


Empath

Hello everyone

I'm a total newb with all of this Empath stuff. I just recently discovered that is what I am.

I've known on some level that I was different, more sensitive than others and how they feel, I just didn't know what.

I started looking into it a few years ago but thought it wasn't likely that I was an Empath because I figured that I wasn't special and that there was something wrong with me. So for a long time, I had carried that around with me and I would look up things to try and find out what was wrong with me. I was depressed for a very long time.

Around this time last year, I was going through a break up. It was actually my first legit relationship and that was because I always held myself back from getting into them because of how strongly I felt about people and how fast I fall for them. It was a rough time but then I got the job I'm currently at and I began feeling so much better. And I eventually met the guy I had been dating most of this year. Now that has ended because he says I need to focus on being myself again. Which is funny to me because that's why I was hesitant about getting into a relationship with him in the first place. Even though I knew I felt strongly for him. And he felt strongly for me too.

If only I had listened to my intuition. I guess the reason I didn't was because I knew he wasn't a bad person and genuinely felt for me. I just wasn't entirely ready at the time. I wanted to get things accomplished that I needed to do for myself. If I had done so, I would have gotten that done instead of focusing on him. And we could have began a relationship after I had the time to focus on myself. He was willing to wait for me. But I felt so drawn to him. And still do. We're going to stay friends for now and once I've had my time we'll try revisiting things again. I hope it works out. When he first told me everything I was heartbroken but I understand now. I need to love myself again.

That is what brought me to finally realize what I am. It through me into a deep sadness and I became more sensitive to everything around me. Just the mere question "are you okay?" would bring me to tears. And at work. Which was difficult because I'm surrounded by people all day. I'd been feeling so dizzy and nauseated at work since that happened and I couldn't figure out why. I thought it was because I was stressing myself out over my ex, which is difficult because he works at the same place I do. All week, I wanted nothing more than to retreat into my room, lay in bed, be alone and cry until I felt better. And I didn't want anyone to bother me. Or to know how I felt because I knew no one would understand. And just thinking about having to explain it... was tiring enough. I actually had called a Psychic and I was told that I was an Empath, and it wasn't the first time I've been told that. I just never believed it until now.

That's why I joined this site. I want to talk to and learn from other Empaths. The hardest part for me right now is learning how to deal with being so sensitive to other peoples emotions. Sometimes I can deflect it, and I'll be fine but other times if even a tiny bit gets through, I start to feel weird. And then I have to try and get rid of it and depending on what the feeling is, that's not always so easy to do. Especially when I'm at work and being surrounded by others all day long. But, I have noticed that allowing myself to feel it, and then letting it pass through, is what works best sometimes. Do any of you have any tips on how to protect myself better? Especially something I can do at work. I work in a warehouse surrounded by people all day and it's very loud and my position is critical, time sensitive, and stressful. During the times where we are rushing, is when I feel extremely dizzy because everyone around me is stressing out. If I can learn to take care of myself during these times at work, I will be okay doing what I do. If I can't... then I'm going to have to request that I do something else because it will take a toll on me and drain me. And I can't have that because I wont be able to do my job correctly.

Anything else that you feel I should know, please feel free to tell me. As I said, I'm a total newb with all of this stuff. Thank you so much. :)

<3


updated by @crystalrose: 01/19/17 12:15:00PM