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Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/09/18 12:30:31AM
151 posts

Just a Thank You!


Psychic and Paranormal

I read and research all the time.

The more I learn the less I know 🤣😅

I'll keep reading and I'll try to figure things out

But how do I get spirit guides or see aura

I am much better at organizing managing merchandising  and marketing LOL  😊

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/08/18 11:49:48PM
151 posts

Just a Thank You!


Psychic and Paranormal

no special room or anything
It's a general depressive mood with no desire to do anything
I can't keep focus and don't seem to care

I can't tell which is Fibro fog, possible illness or in limbo

Friday I have two very unpleasant outpatient procedures 😝
then I have to have another MRI of my hip to see why tendon surgery I had a year ago still leaves me worse than I was 🤔🙄
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/08/18 11:37:44PM
151 posts

Just a Thank You!


Psychic and Paranormal

WOW! I hope your ok I would hate to have you be harmed trying to help me

By under control I meant more that it is a power struggle and they need me to be agreeable. I have enough control that I can make them get back or move in a different direction and stop what they are doing Unless they are flooding the room with perpetual motion then it is too overwhelming

I don't know what a third eye Is?

Even when I hear or even understand I can't relate Nothing in my life has prepared me for this

When I think back I can see where maybe I was aware of things but never connected the dots
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/08/18 11:06:33PM
151 posts

Just a Thank You!


Psychic and Paranormal

My husband & I both heard scratching in the wall separately. Shortly after there was no mistaken that something had died. The smell is putrid.
I had mold in our last house. I kept insisting there was mold under the tile surrounding the bathtub. Finally my husband ripped out the walls and Yup I was right. There was no odor I just knew.

The wall between our office and master bath is concrete. There was no way to determine exactly where it was. We couldn't tell from the attic because the roof has several elevations and it is impossible to get across to that side. We drilled small holes in the back of the cabinets and removed the medicine cabinet but it just wasn't possible to determine a location.
We used all kind of professional products that were supposed to break down the odor. We have multiple fans trained on open Windows to extract but nothing works. It's better but not livable.

I can't move. I am bonded to this house and property. I can't imagine myself any where else. My husband HATES the house. Too much upkeep (because something is always going up and everything is practically new) plus an acre of mostly cleared land with constant landscaping upkeep. Mostly because some good ole boys think it's ok to hunt the wooded mostly vacant acre properties. One day one shot into our yard at a turkey (I used to feed them)

The entities go with me wherever I go so I don't think it's the house.

Out of no where I became the host to the ghosts. It was quite interesting and fun until something slipped in and took over.
Lots of activity and new mindset in the last couple years. I believe something needs me and are trying to use me to duplicate.
The man's face that tries to engage me seems desperate to reach me. It's my fault in my ignorance I engaged him (long story) now he won't give up. I still feel very much in control but it's a constant struggle

The spiders and webs have evolved so many times I can't even describe it. They can and do learn. Ground zero is/was the ceiling fan in my room. I don't know if it still is. I refuse to engage.
I am not sure what all the players are but almost everyday I wake up with my left arm, elbow to hand, feeling as though it was being held. Occasionally the right also. Sometimes when I am laying in bed I feel a current running through me like a butterfly. It's freaky.
I wonder if any of this will ever make sense. Sometimes I am not sure what world I am in LOL

Thank you again! I really appreciate your help

p.s. the thing with my husband is he tried to get on board but with no proof he just thinks there is something wrong with me. I need to see a doctor. If no one else sees anything it's got to be me. So now. it's the elephant in the room.
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/08/18 09:52:03AM
151 posts

Just a Thank You!


Psychic and Paranormal

Just a Thank You to all that have helped me try to get a handle on everything. It is much appreciated!

Although still there, these entities (?) seem to be in a downhill slide!

WomanWhoWalks Karen 2 - I dont think I've figured how how to PM yet. I am Social Media challenged. Please tell me how I do it 😉😃

I have been meaning to get back to you but once again Procrastination.

Whatever you did or are still doing is working great!

The chains of spider/webs are laying low. They are not GONE and they know I know that but unless I actively look I don't see them. They still sprawl across doorways but I just push them back and tell them to go. The web has spawned a new member. It is connecting to create a very thin translucent sheet that appears even in daylight. The other sheeting burgundy w/ black checkered tiny boxes and intermittent pattern (I will never in a million years know how to describe what I see) is still there but in less places. Like I open up my walk-in closet Hello! Bye Bye! as I turn the light on It's probably still thier but I can no longer see it draped over everything.

The man is still determined to reach me but he has weakened, not as much zealous. So still have to be on guard when closing my eyes.I wish I could turn my thoughts off but alas, no. I'll be ok then my mind says I havent seen him yet and then there he is. I think to myself "Hey, I haven't been seeing the burgundy color intermingled on anything black and the same goes for yellow on white. Then guess what Whoops! there it is... again

I still hear the music mostly Orchestra playing randomly. I guess I could deal with that but the rest is wearing thin. I hope to one day, soon. to be able to go back to the "friend" visits or explore any talents I might have. More on the sidelines though. LOL

The thing that concerns me most is I am getting weaker with more depressed. I seem to be in la la land. I can't complete a sentence without forgetting a word. Just poof! It's gone. A few seconds later it pops back in but sure puts a dent in conversation LOL

I am having more tests because I know something is wrong but my symptoms are so vague and disconnected I know the Drs. think I'm nuts. So trying to rule out everything but can't help but feel like these "things" are deliberately causing many of the problems. I still don't believe any are harmful but they have a mission and it is me. From a gathering of many activities it is pretty clear to me they are studying and trying to recreate me. I have even wondered "aliens"? but I already sound like someone out of a Steven King book. Lol

Ok here it is a week later and I've yet to send this
A couple of days ago I was thinking theyre on there way out and wondering if you were or had done something
It seems almost normal but I still have to concentrate on NOT seeing or noticing or not think (that is really hard because it just pops into my head)

Anyway, after thinking about them maybe leaving; wondering about your participation and vowing to finish this they displayed there disapproval BIG TIME. They seem weak but still watching for an opening.

Anyway thank you for all you have done, doing or gonna do!

Also we still have the dead animal (no access to) smell
It's been months We have spent a fortune on products that SUPPOSEDLY work within a week. Ah, no
Tried every suggestion offer
Haven't used our master bath since 😝
No way it could my borders, right? 👻

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
08/08/18 09:37:17AM
151 posts

I need help or something/anything


Empath

Hi hoofbeats

Just checking on you It's been a while

I hope you are in a better place both physically emotionally and on a a clearer path now

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/31/18 03:22:58PM
151 posts

To See or not to See? That is the question


Psychic and Paranormal

Is this even possible and if it is would it have meaning?

I was organizing some photos on my PC. I have a thing for clouds. I came across one that had the face of a cat looking forward and to the left, separate a car wheel - tire.
I know a lot of clouds resemble all kind of things but this was different. The face of the cat was part of a cloud 2 sky eyes yet surrounded by clouds. As I looked more closely details became clearer. It seemed like the picture of the cloud was superimposed over the cat and wheel. They appeared to be separate images under the picture itself. For a moment I wondered if I had caused it but HOW could I? The wheel was very detailed. After several minutes it slowly faded to the original picture.

Now I am wondering even more if there is some kind of connection to the event I described underneath. Not with each other but in "Am I seeing or imagining?"

For several weeks everywhere I looked or went I would see a clip lasting 3 - 4 sec then returning after same. It was not still it was active. I could see carnival rides especially the gears and motors so I knew that's what it was. I could identify some rides as it progressed. I started being able to differentiate adult vs child and once in a while could make out a little clothing color ie. red
One day it just stopped. I shortly heard on the news a carnival ride accident in another state with injuries had happened.
To make this even weirder the visions  started out with people in hospital beds swinging back and forth

Coincidence  or Imagination
but not a Dream
And why so far away?
With Disney & Universal Studios we don't lack for ride mishaps. Some months ago a child was decapitated on a water slide.


updated by @just-stevie: 08/03/18 10:05:23PM
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/20/18 10:33:52PM
151 posts



Just thought of an event that might fit in but its REALLY weird I was out on the patio It was very dark. I can't really see in the dark anymore I'm guessing it is because there is the translucent shimmering (whatever) surrounding me But I digress My husband wanted to show me something I followed his voice When I got within a few feet I got very startled and jumped back People (?) were exiting his body as though they were getting off a bus About 5 or 6 full bodied and in color dressed in business clothing They exited turn right and disappeared 

There is a heavy presence in the bedroom They are not reaching out but heavily draping walls and hanging from the ceiling blocking door & hallway I am feeling butterflies in my stomach tingling in my arms & legs I am having trouble with words

P.S. NOW they are reaching & clinging LOL

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/20/18 09:48:34PM
151 posts



THANK YOU ALL!!

I really appreciate the help and tips

It is difficult for me to grasp It is like using my left arm and not right Awkward I love learrning about the "Paranormal World" just haven't been able to piece it together yet

It is also difficult because I have always lived in reverse I am always the "helper" to be truthful sometimes I am the enabler LOL

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/20/18 08:52:16PM
151 posts



SURE! KAREN 2

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/20/18 02:35:54PM
151 posts



THANK YOU!
The webs were getting obnoxious Clinging to me and wrapping around anything I am holding The bed coverings were rippling and rolling The floors looked like they were covered with water because somehow the webs can form translucent irridecent shimmering sheets that can lay on drape over or hang to close in a large area so it feels like a box

For the GOOD NEWS Woman who walks
If you were doing your VooDoo again (LOL) It is working The latter part of the afternoon was really tame and I just realized I am not hearing the orchestra playing Eureka!
When I woke up this morning pain was seriously diminished and I was not as fatigued
So if it was you Bless you! If not I'll still give you credit.😊
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/20/18 07:24:25AM
151 posts



Womanwhowalks

It was nice not having to worry about these stupid webs and man's face for awhile - not gone but noticably weakened All good things must come to an end 😔

They are winding back up again. It seems everytime someone helps it works for a little while than gradually grows back with a vengeance It was great to have a reprieve even if for a short time For almost a whole day and night the Orchestra music even stopped. Unfortunately I believe it fed on me and got it's strength back. During that time I was so weak & and in so much pain I would just go back to bed & was always in LaLa Land. I don't think in all fairness I can blame Fibro / Fibro Fog for ALL the pain & lack of focus

This thing / things wants me for some reason The webs are becoming more visable in daylight It's like a translucent shimmery film During the reprieve there were always these almost invisible threads reaching and attaching to me (more than usual) I always woke up with my left forearm feeling wrapped and cold - more so than usual

I am powerless to do anything to remedy. My husband is convinced and worried something is very wrong with me He wants me to see a doctor (and say what? I see ghosts) So i just don't mention or do anything so he won't know it's still going on Every time he sees me type he asks "to who?" If I look off into space for a few minutes "what are you looking at" He can't handle it He freaks out No friends or family nearby (as if that would help) I am still trying to get back strength and balance from a major surgery - tendon repair almost a year ago I should have never had it done I traded isolated pain and limping for increased pain in more areas still limping and a 6" scar Anyway, I am still dependent therefore not able to do anything to remedy. I have tried all the suggested but everything done is a temporary kind of fix

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CONTINUING TO TRY TO HELP!!!

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/17/18 11:59:39PM
151 posts



WomanWhoWalks
I am not sure but if you've done something to discourage my web creatures it's working Thank you Thank you Keep up the great work!
If not thank you for trying please keep trying I can use all the help I can get

Maybe they are resting up
I am afraid I'll jinx it so I'm trying to keep a clear head but activity is cut way back
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/15/18 09:15:55PM
151 posts



womanwhowalks
I am pretty savvy in the medical field. I don't trust Drs very much. I get blood tests regularly. Tyroids ok I monitor liver it creeps up a little once in a while. I also watch kidney because I have Medullary Sponge kidney and I am prone to UTIs & stones. Creatinine levels run a bit above there is some kidney damage My primary missed or ignored my iron levels. A Dermatologist diagnosed low iron - Anemia I take Biotin for hair & nails plus vitamins.
I have been telling my Primary Doctor for months that something is wrong. She runs tests and when nothing shows up it's "oh well"
That is why I am wondering about something else putting a hand in it.
I tell her I have bloating in my face abdomen and thighs Because it's not ankles it doesn't count apparently.
She rolls her eyes when I keep insisting & demonstrating by pushing my fingers into my cheeks and the indentations stay. I have dark circles and bags under my eyes. I didn't tell her about depression because then she would blame everything on that.
The depression and greater fatigue than usual got me to thinking even though I think I am handling the situation there may be something working against me that I hadn't recognized.
It is hard to believe but this mess has been going on for a few years now
In the beginning the visitors came on most nights They were fun & interesting from different planes. Unfortunately before I had a chance to understand Something took over and started sending Orbs through (I think) and the stupid webs started.
The man I guess was all me. I allowed Mind Travel (while awake) From what I saw I felt there was something going on with him. Possibly controlling and harmful to females.
There were Pods w / beings in them. That's a whole complicated thing not gonna even try to go there.
So bottom line I interacted with him. I challenged him to show himself and explain. Be Careful what you ask for...
Ever since then he has been obsessed with me. Everytime I close my eyes I see a red drape creating a box confinement. If I don't open my eyes or blink the face comes toward me. It appears from any direction and with open mouth true to make a connection. He will drop back and disappear if I say or signal. He always looks sad & disappointed. I have seen a side of him he doesn't want me to see. It's not pretty but not really evil
The spiderlike web crawlers were on the down low last night and today. As I type this they are crawling across the walls. Not happy with my attempts to rid them. I have determined one reason my eye sight is diminished is because even in day light there is always a translucent film through out my physical world My hearing has diminished because almost constantly music plays in the background. Sometimes it is Big Band loud horns playing anything from Hello Dolly to Looney Tunes Cartoon. It changes to different songs midway. Sometimes it's Orchestra with violins Some songs I recognize some I don't. I have to be careful not to yell out to turn it off or down Oops almost forgot it's only me hearing it
It is stressful trying not to look at anything because it will start moving. Carpets ripple drapes wave walls roll.. Of course not really but I see it. Even staring at my leg it will pulse I can see every vein.
I start to believe I am ready for the Funny Farm but there is just way too much detail and the unexpected.
If this comes out in a ramble it's because I am struggling to focus and remember words
Thanks for Caring!
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/13/18 01:04:04PM
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I was going to bring up the subject as to whether these "entities" could affect health and well being. It looks like I may have my answer here.

Surface wise I may have things in check but I think the "entities" are playing dirty. For quite some time I have been having trouble dealing with changes in my body and face - aging, weight gain, losing my LONG hair, fingernails chipping peeling and breaking. Drs / tests but can't find a reason. All very unusual for me (I am vain and I am sure they know that) Petty health problems and more than usual pain. Tipping the scale is a deep depression setting in with no interest or energy. I think I mentioned before I was having trouble putting pen to paper. In fact keeping with that is losing a post before I can finish it. It happened again when I tried to start this post. They just disappear as I am typing. I can't maintain focus or keep a thought in my head. I have Fibro but this is way more than Fibro Fog. I especially am having trouble posting here. I want to. I kind of know what I want to say. I get some time when I can do it. I just can't make my self do it. PROCRASTINATION big time. It doesn't  make sense. Its like I am not in charge of my thoughts

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/13/18 07:12:52AM
151 posts



I am not sure what you mean Of course, that could just be me not understanding the whole process 🤔   😅🤣

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
07/11/18 06:31:02AM
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I have been trying to post back to all since the4e was some great ideas but something is stopping me

I am going to start a new thread about physical health This one is getting way to long

Hopdaddy @hop-daddy

I do want to say. I am sorry I didn't mean to trivialize your daughters experiences By "not real" I meant like an actual physical bodied Witch that (and I am probably wrong) at the initial contact stage could not do phyical harm I think we are setting the scene as to how we react and who starts off with the most original power SO many contacts in SO many different ways that were / are made I think that what makes this manageable is that I originally set the ground work. Not knowing or understanding ANY of what was going on; out of curiosity I allowed it? them? to enter my mind. For whatever reason i firmly stated "Ok, but I am coming back"

Even though I still don't understand what is going on; (probably never will) and it is driving crazy, as long as I demand & expect; that will be the deciding factor. My common sense kicks in then the paranormal comes into play. Ignorance is bliss So they say.

Sorry for the run-on LOL I never can seem to be able to make simple statements

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/14/18 03:17:26PM
151 posts



hi Hop Daddy
I don't even know what a shaman is ha! ha! I have heard of auras but never saw one or know if I have one
I swim in a salt pool almost daily then shower
I had major surgery for a torn tendon in my hip My strength is not returning like it should Muscles not springing back so PT 2x a week exercise in pool as much as I can But when I am chilling (roasting LOL) on a float if I close my eyes here comes the face trying to get to me When I close my eyes to keep shampoo out of them Game On...
Since I thought about posting I am being punished
I woke up this a.m. about 5 a.m. Open my eyes but it is so thick with whatever it is I could barely see. As I raised up several separate ones were rushing at me trying to form shapes It was more like a sad rendition of ghosts
Pull sheet over my head go back to sleep until the daylight comes

I am sorry your daughter was so frightened Try to make her understand no matter how scary it looks "it's not real" That's how I survive I just refuse to accept it as harmful There really is nothing they can do except annoy and drive you crazy
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/12/18 11:29:46PM
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"Hey...I'm trying to close the portals in you house...tell me if there's a difference....gonna clear your energy of stuff....if you have stuff to smudge give yourself a good smudge and the area above your bed....gonna work on that dark entity you've been seeing too....if...of course...you dont mind?...lol..you might feel some strange things happening...dont worry...that will be me clearing your energy"....updated by @womanwhowalks: 06/02/18 12:24:31PM

Not sure if anything cleared because it seems like they need to replenish after being excessively active. I try to keep my mind clear of them but it's hard  Yes they definately act up when I reach out Also when they are calm and I think to myself maybe they are leaving but no... They will remind me real quick

I can't actively do anything to fight them because I have to keep my "ghost thing" to myself to avoid conflict. I have done all the things suggested though with no results

Although weakened the man still fights to get through

Cheshire Cat and Hop Daddy suggested showers The problem is since the man is in my head they are welcomed. When I close my eyes I get the face trying to reach me. It's hard to describe but when I close my eyes I see the patterned curtain it changes colors but it's aways the face trying to come through. Slowly it tries to break through coming from different angles. If I allow it he gets closer and more in focus. I have to quickly open my eyes, blink or change direction while my eyes are closed continuously. I actually don't remember what I used to see when I closed my eyes 

Cheshire Cat

I am afraid alligators here are bit more aggressive. They are found on golf courses, crossing roads, in garages, in pools. One of them snatched a 3 yr old off Disney World property. The father tried to grab him but the alligator pulled him under water; body never found. A women was walking her dogs and disappeared. The body was found in the water. Her arm was found in the gator. Sharks love to take arms legs whatever they can get. 

We still are plagued by the Amarillo nightly. He has gotten out of a cage once and sprung 3 others. Then a coyote sneaks into the woods next to us to bed down He has figured out how to avoid tripping the security lights LOL

Also I avoid plants. I have killed a rubber tree, cactus and been banned from a nursery 

Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/04/18 03:59:05PM
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hospital. She was basically gone but they had to wait until she flatlined I am telling this because on the eve of her death a woman appeared in the bedroom and walked toward me She was smiling but not at me She walked past and then she was gone. I can tell you color & cut of her hair her body size and what she was wearing. I've met her mother a few times but don't really remember her. I can't ask or tell anyone but I think this lady knew where she was going and was happy
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/04/18 02:55:12PM
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yes they get very angry everytime I try to get help they react I believe they even tried to attack a helper

I have stayed at my son's home several times They just pack up and come with me for the three hour trip

In fact we spent several days there My daughter-in-law's mother was in the hospitsl
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/04/18 01:42:28PM
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I tried to post this last night but the words disappeared
I went into the bedroom, fully lite, and they crawled around the door into the room then spread
A large white poof appeared and twirled till the shape of the man came into view Not the whole body It was so brief I didn't register details. He was very close I quickly held up my hand shook my head and moved away. It is a constant struggle. I can't help but wonder/worry just what would happen if I dropped my guard. They/it/whatever are totally obsessed with me - but why?

This is so difficult to do alone I can't talk to anyone Heck I don't even believe it LOL There is so much too much I feel half here and half not
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/03/18 06:15:34PM
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THEY ARE PLAYING DIRTY!!
Sitting on the couch I start to look up & around ALL the walls are being draped as well as the tray ceiling creating a tent and closing in The face is huge and moving around behind the drapes with the spidery webs trying to make me look at him they are either very close or even touching me
I feel a tremendous pull
The entire room is being covered and they are getting closer
Large television on TV was something that kept them back until now
I am feeling a little jittery inside
I can't say or do anything my husband is sitting by me and would freak out and take me to a hospital!!
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/03/18 02:24:10PM
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Hop Daddy:
@womanwhowalks:
"The suspense is killing me!"

OK Now I'm curious LOL 😉😃
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/02/18 10:26:55PM
151 posts



how long they have been here? maybe a year
They chased away the "Visitors" I used to have nightly
I felt a connection to most of them Some deeper than others I didn't understand any of it but it was never frightening I felt like there was something I had to do or help in someway
Not Always though One lady came up to me grabbed my shoulders and starting shaking me hard and yelling at me but I couldnt hear her LOL
Of course we didn't really touch I tried in the beginning when they first appeared but we would go right through
One little boy tried to hug me. He was so cute!

I use the natural and artificial lighting as much as possible It does run them off
They would just emerge into the Spanish Lace walls
They kind of work into and adopt the shapes in the plaster
I keep the TV on all night That used to work well
They are getting braver If the TV turns off it's CHARGE time If I wake up during that time it is so overwhelming I can barely breath
Even right now laying in the bed I feel an inner pull I constantly feel as if some one has a hold of my right arm elbow to hand and it gets cold Only that of my arm
Still have to do more reading great links

This is new - kinda and freaky!
I went down a short hall to the pool bath. The night light was not on yet. I felt my way to the bathroom (open)door The doorway was heavily draped I felt confused and disoriented I came to the door way. I tried to push them away. My hand went through As I looked at my hand it was distorted It would change l
have gone through a curtain before but this was more dense only using my hand to explore It was like being in a fun house looking into a fun house mirror. Right now the are they are heavily clinging (With TV on) to where it meets the wall
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/02/18 03:53:48PM
151 posts



OOPS!
I hit send too soon Part 2
As I pass through wherever they are blocking holding my palms up with a pushback signal They part or move back but lately they're covering every thing in all rooms I almost knocked over a lamp in the dark Some how they know how to make it seem much darker and I lose my sense of direction
They are draped all over and hanging everywhere

They are still there during the day only more of a translucency webbing

They reach out to touch and surround me I don't even realize it right away
Of course the man's face tries to push through my closed eyes and I am having to open my eyes or change direction of sight Then he just tries another way with another look

Why? Is he ONLY in my mind? It sure makes it look like I am crazy - Even to me


SO....Anyway I wanted to tell that I have now a dead Direct TV modem and A dead internet router The list keeps getting longer
I barely have the energy to type this
When I wanted to try to find a time to post I kept feeling like I just couldn't do it My mind was/is making it seem just too difficult to think and I should put it off until later Can a subconscious planted thought override a conscience thought?
Are they draining me as well as my electronics?
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
06/02/18 02:56:05PM
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hi
sorry for the gap in response There was a lot of great advice

My husband has been watching my every move because there must be something wrong wiyh me I need to see a doctor He is REALLY very worried

Another thing is interference

Everything was staying pretty much contained
I ignore and pretend I haven't noticed anything (With a great deal effort ) or I. walk a
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
05/18/18 09:08:24AM
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Cheshire-cat
I know and I am guilty too
When I was a kid "it came from the store" I still pretend it does
I have such Empathy for animals. It kills me to think of any animal being harmed or suffering
Well maybe not Alligators & Sharks 😁
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
05/18/18 08:08:27AM
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Cheshire-Cat
Wild Life Fish and Game
Good to know!
I am gonna get right on that
Thank you!
Just Stevie
@just-stevie
05/18/18 12:02:42AM
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In the last few years we have replaced the circuit board on our pool pump 3 times. Replaced circuit board on the well. We have had to replace several computers. One just died. We had to pull out the hard drive and transfer the info to a special hard drive. The one I have now the C: Drive disappeared - GONE - where? I have no idea! I can get to files but can't move them because the PC won't recognize another device. I can't pull the hard drive because it is all in one. My cellphone and tablet won't hold a charge. The dryer vent filled with water and I still can't use differnt cycles. Fun time getting that fixed. The washer leaked water all over the floor. From where I know not. The dishwasher leaked all over the floor twice, the microwave over the stove just quit. The Jacuzzi tub quit. Armadillo come every night and tear up the grass and plants my husband works so hard on. We have tried every deterrent. 11 yr old mature fruit bearing trees died from the cold. A palm tree we planted when we first got here, just now died. Now there is a dead animal behind a wall that has the bath sinks and counter on one side and concrete on the other so we can't get it out. We have tried every product (professional) there is to remove the odor. A month later still working on it.
This is just what I can think of off hand.🤔

Just Stevie
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05/17/18 11:59:26PM
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Just Stevie
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05/17/18 11:58:34PM
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I have sadly established we have no friends No one who cares enough to spook me. LOL

My house was built in 2007. I have met and found the previous owners most pleasant.
I have had the experiences other places
I don't want to think it's my house.
We moved here 5 yrs ago. (No problems for the first few years)

I LOVE THIS HOUSE. Not just because it is beautiful and we got a fabulous deal on it. I have had other houses; two of which we had built. I loved them too. I can't explain it but I do not want or even can leave. I can't go somewhere else. This is where i belong. My husband hates it for many reasons but mostly because there is just a few houses sprinkled on acre lots in a community that didnt take off. The rest of it is heavily wooded and on lime rock roads. Some good old boys try to hunt in them and do alot of target practise shooting. He worries about stray bullets. One day a hunter tried to shoot across our yard to hit turkeys that I would feed. Police said as long as they are not on other peoples property (how would anyone know?) it was ok.

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05/17/18 11:53:30PM
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I have been laying low because my husband is suspicious any time he sees me type. He really believes there is something wrong with me and gets worried.

Now that i think of it I may have experienced current. I am pretty sure the webs do it. Usually I am in bed and they're crawling all around the walls. They especially like to attach themselves to me. I push them away as best I can.
It is a weird kind of tingly feeling running through my entire body. It's not unpleasant but it is not pleasant either

I think I get the same zaps. Only the stings are just tiny on my lower legs. It happens when I have displeased the webs (spirits?). I usually don't feel the webs but one time they spread across a doorway from floor to 2 ft up. They wrapped around my ankles and tried to trip me. They were especially annoyed. Most of the time they're across entire doors they hang from fans, light fixtures, lamps etc and cover furniture & whatever. I have no choice but to walk through them. I hold my hand up and push them back or up as I go through.

As of late I have had them & the man pretty much under control. I have to focus on not looking anywhere and I am totally ignoring them except to sometimes say "get out of my way!". Completely emotion free. Usually when i have the TV on in the bedroom they just sneak across and around where the walls meet the ceiling.

TONIGHT - they totally Know I am posting. They don't like it. They are black and covering all the walls in the bedroom. If I look up I see them filling the entire room with a barely visable incandescents. I feel they're presence on my left. I am feeling kind of a pulling and pressure moving through me. My arm elbow to wrist feels cold and like something is wrapped around it with a slight pulling. This happens a lot to both arms.

Just Stevie
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05/13/18 10:33:26PM
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I'm  little slow on the draw but i did want to say

Woman who walks

My husband is retired. We have no friends. I am where i can avoid contact and withdraw. The overload was getting to much. I'll expand later.

Hop Daddy

That link was incredible. I want to start a new thread about it. Just need more time. Minutes turn into hours,  hours into days, days into weeks etc. Basically getting nothing done LOL

Just Stevie
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05/13/18 10:19:25PM
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I need help or something/anything


Empath

Hoofbeats

My advice will be a little more down to earth. I am still struggling to accept the Paranormal. Empath I get because it explains a lot. Unfortunately, all this came later in life.

Step back and take a breath. You need to love yourself before you can accept love from another. Get to know yourself and enjoy being you. Being alone does not have to be lonely.

Perhaps the reason you cant get in touch with your "gifts" may be as simple as you are just burnt out. Your body is taking charge. Being an Empath and having gifts is not what defines you. Once the presure is off and you start to relax if it is meant they will return;  don't  look for signs or worry about it. Let it flow naturally.

Several years ago I was depressed and concentrating on how unhappy I was. I had all the things to experience a great life. One day it hit me. I was spending too much time worrying about myself. 

I chose a cause and expanded on it. I founded a Charity and turned it in to something very rewarding.  Although it's on the shelf for now I have already layed the ground work to add another facet. This may not work for you. I am a realist with a bleeding heart.

Find your passion. Take charge.

I have found in life you often get what you expect. No amount of dreaming and praying are going to get you where you want to be. I always say God helps those who help themselves. The glass can be half empty or half full. No matter how bleak there is also something positive if you let yourself see it.

Just Stevie
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05/13/18 09:26:11PM
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Has anyone tried and had success with acupuncture?


Tools for Empaths

It REALLY works especially if you have the right Acupuncturist.

Before I moved 5 yrs ago I had a GREAT guy. He came to my house twice a week. He used a combination of treatments.

We had great conversations about the esoteric. At that time I was hard core logic. He also would explain what he was doing and where and why. It's certainly not instant because so many areas you wouldn't expect can come into play.

We became friends with his family because he was so personable.

After I moved I noticed I gradually went downhill. I live in a undeveloped area so my options are limited now for professional help

Just Stevie
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05/08/18 10:01:58PM
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My cats been attached at my hip lately


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I had a cat that was about 7 lbs of fluff. She started attacking my husband. He was frightened. At the same time she became totally dependent on me. She lay on my chest sit in my lap followed me everywhere. She would wake from a sound sleep if I moved. She was never much of a cuddler. Pet her, great pick her up, not so much. I took her to the Vets and found her thyroid was way off. A few days of medication and she went back to herself.

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05/08/18 02:49:41PM
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To set the scene
Years ago I had a rescue dog; for a few years. I was a dog trainer taught by a Dog Pyschologist I had trained Rebel. He was a sweet friendly 45 Lb not allowed on furniture adult dog. I invited someone to the house that was interest in helping out with my "Animal Adoption" Charity I ran. She was a pretty well groomed young woman. We spoke awhile I liked her She seemed compassionate.
Rebel came into the living room and looked at her. Nothing had been said. All of a sudden he jumped onto her lap. I say onto because he was spread across her lap head up and tense but no bite signs. Of course, I didnt use her. I trusted my dog. Now I am thinking maybe it wasnt her but it was some kind of entity tagging along ??
Just Stevie
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05/06/18 09:11:12PM
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womanwhowalks
I would love any help I can get.
Im not sure about a live person.
I moved to a undeveloped area in a wooded 1 acre lot community with limestone roads. The houses are far and few between. I did this to be away from everyone Even my kids and their families are 100 miles away. I have retreated from the violent sad world. I couldnt keep going through all the turmoil and pain
I tried Smudging, bought a tourmaline necklace More than once I told, begged, demanded and made it perfectly clear whatever/whoever did not belong here and I would be not be aiding. I never showed fear I am ignoring & denying
Just Stevie
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05/06/18 08:41:34PM
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spiritualskies
Right now - By ignoring to the point where I am so exhausted and disengaged I literally cant think straight. Of course Fibro fog doesnt help
I don't look at a wall because it will ripple and I can see the webs there but I pretend I don't If I do hesitate they will think it's play time At night as long as I keep the TV on they stay pretty much contained if the TV gets turned off the entire room will fill with wispy little webs in perpetual motion that you can hardly see. It looks like a dense fog and they creep me out I never know where else they'll be draped or hanging, kitchen bathroom living room, from a light fixture a ceiling fan Then there's the man's face coming toward me with his mouth open He morphs into whatever he thinks will work looking like my long deceased grandmother and wearing glasses like her's, changes facial hair, once holding a baby another time pushed a child of 8 or 9 toward me, a wolf. I shake my head no or hold my hand up he retreats dejected. One time he got angry and showed his actual face snarling with broken teeth.
I think I have pushed him back and he can not reach me as easily
Just Stevie
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05/06/18 06:18:03AM
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Just Stevie:
I have felt the stings when I displease whatever entities are trying to control me. My husband felt them too. He swore there were some kind of bug or fleas. I couldnt tell him what I thought it was because he already is SO worried there is something wtong with me that a doctor can fix. It was only for a short time.
I also feel (mostly when I wake up) like there is something wrapped around my arm (elbow to wrist) it is a slight even pressure and my arm will feel cold. I mostly ignore it.

Probably not related but my C:Drive disappeared from my PC - Poof gone! No trace of it. Also somewhere between my office wall and master bath was a scratching sound. Then an odor. Some kind of animal has died there. It is immpossible to reach. We have been working on odor control for over a week. We may have found the solution. We have Armadillo dystroying our yard and plants. We caught one but now there are two more.
My washer leaked all over the floor. It gave a code that doesnt exist. Couldn't find out why. Both electronic starter Car key batteries went up at the sametime. The Robot vacuumn battery is not holding much of a charge and it insists its brush needs to be cleaned. It was/is cleaned. Pretty much all the time I hear a wire singing noise. It is so loud right now that I could scream. All these things occured in the last week
Just Stevie
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05/06/18 06:14:59AM
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I have felt the stings when I displease whatever entities are trying to control me. My husband felt them too. He swore there were some kind of bug or fleas. I couldnt tell him what I thought it was because he already is SO worried there is something wtong with me that a doctor can fix. It was only for a short time.
I also feel (mostly when I wake up) like there is something wrapped around my arm (elbow to wrist) it is a slight even pressure and my arm will feel cold. I mostly ignore it.

Probably not related but my C:Drive disappeared from my PC - Poof gone! No trace of it. Also somewhere between my office wall and master bath was a scratching sound. Then an odor. Some kind of animal has died there. It is immpossible to reach. We have been working on odor control for over a week. We may have found the solution. We have Armadillo dystroying our yard and plants. We caught one but now there are two more.
My washer leaked all over the floor. It gave a code the doesnt exist. Couldn't find ouy why. Both electronic starter Car key batteries went up at the sametime. The Robot vacuumn battery is not holding much of a charge and it insists its brush needs to be cleaned. It was/is cleaned. Pretty much all the time I hear a wire singing noise. It is so loud right now that I could scream. All these things occured in the last week
Just Stevie
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04/18/18 11:46:20PM
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Cheshire Cat:

@just-stevie,

Your post alarmed me. I am awake due to a heart arrhythmia attack called PSVT caused by worry over how to handle that procedure when I am this ill, which almost caused me to need an ambulance.  I am going to have to cancel it. I simply can't do it now, while in drug withdrawal, and will have to wait for another year or longer if needed. My spirit simply refuses to tolerate any more of conventional medicine's profit making torture. 

I agree about anti-depressants and am glad you warned people. They are the second hardest to get off after what I am on (benzos). I can't take them anyway, since they don't work for me, due to a genetic mutation that 28% of people have. This particular withdrawal removes all the breaks from my nervous system as the slow down neurotransmitter, GABA is removed, so there is no small stuff for me to not sweat now. Everything is sheer terror 24/7 until/unless my GABA receptors come back online. That is why most people cannot handle the withdrawal. This drug destroys lives, but Upjohn Pharmaceuticals will never have to pay a dime for their lies. 

My first diagnosis was MS, then Fibromyalgia, then after 21 years of slowly worsening symptoms, finally Lyme. Anyone with those symptoms should be properly checked for Lyme, the fastest growing illness in the world, far surpassing breast cancer already and grossly under diagnosed. Proper dignosis is very hard, but it can be treated if you are not yet in stage III, have lots of money, and are not allergic to almost all antibiotics like me. I would suggest lymenet.org. Go to "flash discussion", and ask for names of LLMD's in your area under the find a doctor forum there. Regular docs hardly ever know what they are doing. Lyme can cause every psychiatric or physical problem you can imagine and some that do not fit any definitions. If your pains migrate or are referred from one place to another, those are especially red flags. Facial twitches or a knee that swells are also red flags. 

I need to try to do some vagus nerve breathing to help my condition now. I am praying you will follow up on this and make sure you do not have Lyme. Do not let some uninformed doctor do an Elisa test and say you are negative. They miss more than 50% of cases, since they are so time sensitive. 

sincerely,

C. Cat

Hi Cheshire Cat

Just wanted to check on you to see how you are doing.. Hope you are feeling a little better and have a better handle on everything. You have so much to contend with but I think you will persevere

Just Stevie
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04/11/18 07:43:19PM
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You know i did think Aliens but then I thought it was too far out. This is really far out and probably real stupid but curiousity and the need to help others pushed me forward. I started doing what I guess was mind travel. Who or whatever was trying to do a study of me (it's REAL involved so I won't go too far with it) I said I wanted to see what they were up to and demanded a "tour" of thier "factory" before i would cooperate in the least. Now mind you i have zero imagination, i never remember dreams and I can't meditate because my mind wanders all over if i am idle.

Before anything i said to them "I am coming back." So i close my eyes. I think I am lying on a table but not sure. I start to feel movement like a Disney ride slow but not too slow and jerky. I am going forward (please don't call the men in the little white coats to come and take me away) But... on my left is what i called Pod people a larger male, doesn't show himself.  I could only catch a glimpse now and then.  He was in charge. On my right were several smaller pods they contained females also hiding. He would look at me and then give a nod to the females and they would pass by one by one and inspect me. One time i called out to one to come back and she did but then turned back around and left. The females were to take me on the tour. We moved forward around and upward sometimes stop, pull back, turn and push through a door. I physically felt the movement at times when we quickened I would feel butterflies in my stomach. There were room size glass enclosures on the side. There were people (families - mom dad kids) in them going about normal life preparing dinner etc. Each one performing different tasks. Then we went through a large warehouse type room there were boxes all over and in the corner a huge pile of what looked like mannequin parts, arms, legs etc. We steadily went up and around. Each level had a color. There were several. The top one gold. At that level there was open space i thought we would continue out but we didn't we started back down. 

At one point at a later time. I demanded more adamantly that the man show himself. I think that is the man's face I see. I started to get leary of his intentions. I told him this but he never could make me feel he was good. I felt more and more he might be trouble. I distant myself. Neither he nor whatever was in the ceiling fan could or would make the webs go away. I challenged the fan guy and said "I dont think you have control, do you?" .... 

The moral of the story is watch what you ask for you just might get it.

Just Stevie
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04/11/18 06:06:24PM
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Since I really don't understand entities or much of anything else LOL I try to fit what I learn together like a puzzle I don't even have the border finished

I've been told I have entities (bad dudes) from reliable sources so I have to believe it's true. I guess they work in the background. What I see and experience doesn't sound like what others have and describe. I try not to but can't help interaction at times. I am also wondering if it really matters. I have saged I bought a tourmaline necklace, others have tried to help but were unable. I don't want to put anyone at risk. They're clearly quite comfy where they are and have no intention of leaving.  Unless I go with ??

So... here's the differences. I'll try to be brief but I am so bad at that.

First Visitors (spirits/ghosts) came nightly attempts were made on both parts to communicate - no go. Next Visitors from a different plane. I could see them they could see me but were shocked. Then up another plane I guess. I could see them they did not know I was there. Seeming to run off the visitors then came entities? Or imp? I woke one night to see a room full of Orbs flying around and being allowed to exit by who/whatever controlling from inside the ceiling fan. This part I have never told anyone because I had actually seen something like it on TV. I thought it had to be why I saw what I did. The only thing EVER to have been in my memory before hand. 4 It was a light cute SyFy. A group that were dead but not gone had the task of touching a person right as they died BEFORE the Grim Reaper could steal thier soul. The Grim was a total black small creature that could crawl climb and leap. Well right in the beginning of the change from Visitors to Webs one night I saw that creature jump from the fan to the wall and disappear into it. Maybe that was an entity?

After that more crazy things happened. Something seemed to be burrowing in the wall, webs, crude spiders eventually became realistic. Lots of other stuff but the point being I never felt fear. I felt curiosity and a desire to help. The jist I got from them was they wanted to learn from me, copy me, they needed me. They still do. For some reason they (the Man?) want me. They never do anything harmful or scary. Real creepy and annoying YES They are protective. Even now they still will obey (but won't give up or leave) I shake my head no, hold up my hand, point or speak and get compliance. None of that sounds like the horrid little entities that are so disturbing and disruptive that plague all of you. They, I guess, ran off the visitors then would try to mimic them;  it was laughable. They improved over time to be real close facsimile of them. I had a vision for about 2 weeks of a carnival ride. Apparently there was an accident involving a ride in another state. I no longer saw the vision. Probably a coincident. Now, however, everywhere I look the ride and movement is projected. They never got it right. It's mostly movement covered over with the patterned drape. I saw the actual ride/ rides, the motors and gears. I saw people young and old on the ride. Sometimes the clothes had color.

Just had another strange thing happen. I should have thought of it before LOL. I said out loud "knock it off with the music (Orchestra) I don't want to hear to hear it !"  It stopped and I havent heard it since. WHOA!

Just Stevie
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04/09/18 11:48:48PM
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Cheshire Cat

I couldn't resist another lttle note

Even though you have made yourself abundantly clear what you are feeling. I can usually read people through written word and have to offer my opinion (which is probably not always wanted LOL)

Although I am an Empath I am not the all hearts & flowers type so when I say something it is sincere.

I can't shake the feelings of utter and complete despair I am getting from your posts. You are so close to just giving up. I can't i

magine what it would be like to endure all the blows life is throwing at you. You have every right to cry, complain, scream & yell why me? What did I do to deserve all this? The answer is nothing. There are no answers to those questions. So cry & rage and feel sorry for yourself all you want you have every right and when you are spent try to let it all go. Fear, anger and pain can take more away from us then these little monsters ever can. Let the negative go... look for the positive (even if it's hard to find)

I do know about pain. I had migraines as a child for as long as I remembered. Thankfully they disappeared with mid age. Always plagued with "female" problems, then back & neck problems, I had all kind of ailments that would come and go. Tests showed minor problems that should not have caused that much pain.Then once upon a time my primary said "enough" you either have MS or Fibromyalgia. The test for MS was an MRI the test for Fibromyalgia was a CatScan it was cheaper I chose door # 2 LOL I finally had a diagnois. I didn't have to worry with Drs and tests anymore. I learned something too. I had really believed that everyone had some kind of pain all the time. I couldn't remember a day without pain. Apparently most people do not suffer pain on a regular basis. Dr's nurses couldnt believe such a light touch could cause me so much pain.
I know stress and mental anguish make it worse. So, I dont sweat the small stuff. I tune alot out and pick my battles. I hope you can give yourself a break and practice the same.
People touch & impact the lives of others all the time but never slow down long enough to notice. Take a minute and add up some credits. I bet you'll be amazed the difference you have and will make.

Just Stevie
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04/09/18 09:15:27PM
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Hop Daddy

Bear in mind I really don't know about the Paranormal but I am wondering if your daughter is hearing any voices that may be very critical and attempt to affect how your daughter feels about herself (NOT at all like schizophrenia) and maybe see shadow people?

If her doctor is prescribing an antidepressant and is a Seratonin Reuptaker I would caution you to make sure it is not increasing her depression and losing her feelings of worthiness. Just an FYI if whatever she is prescribed is not doing thier job.

Also consider discussing with her doctor - Norepinephrine - aids in a feeling of welllness attentiveness, emotions, sleeping, dreaming, and learning. Dopamine - works as a neurotransmitter It's considered the feel good hormone responsible for motivation and pleasure

I know girls at that age have enough to worry about They struggle with self- confidence and where they fit in. Body changes and peer pressure and a bit of drama.  She doesnt need to try to find a place to fit in the craziness. I hope she can rid herself of these problems. I hope she knows no matter what happens in life it doesn't define her

Just Stevie
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04/09/18 08:11:27PM
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Cheshire Cat

I know religion is a touchy subject. But, personally, i dont think there is a "God" that does punish or reward. It is all about our choices and how we handle the hand dealt. We all know life is not fair. No matter how horrible life is if we were given a do over where would we choose to start what would we give up because there is no pick and choose. There may be some wonderful things that would never have happened.

I think when considering suicide the #1 thing to think about is "are there others who will be affected by the act?" I totally understand suicide. There are many reasons to choose that option.

Medications can certainly be damaging. The cure could be worse than the illness. Psychotropic drugs in particular. The wonderful Serotonin Reuptakers can actually trigger ideology. Teen girl being treated for depression 3 different medications. Same teen girl makes 3 suicidal attempts AFTER starting each drug therapy. I can say it wasn't the doctors that realized and put a stop to it. They did take the advice to substitute the Serotonin Reuptaker with a medication affecting different brain chemicals. So everyone needs to inform themselves and partner with thier doctors. 

Sorry to get carried away.... I guess the Empath in me is the reason I am considered the family doctor and therapist (No formal training just comon sense and caring 0 cost) LOL 

Although your husband feels helpless it is wonderful that he cares enough to acknowledge your pain.  I hope you can take some comfort knowing that.

OK,  enough soap box. Like I have said it is my nature to (try) to help Not always sure it does but I get "E" for effort. LOL

Just Stevie
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04/09/18 04:07:42PM
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Hop daddy & Cheshire cat

I feel so bad that you are going through such negative encounters. It looks like l am really lucky. They are really messing with my general well-being but it's still manageable.

Someone told me there is more than one and none too nice It is a constant power struggle. And although I am not winning I am not losing.

I too also noticed any time I or any helpers do anything to  try to rememdy the situation they comeback with a vengeance. I never respond to their nonsense, well maybe laugh at them. They do some way out there stuff but no stamina. It gets a little quiet and I think maybe they have given up but Oh No, just resting up for the next attack.

Mine are fortunately silent. I did say right from the start I could not tolerate noises and perhaps that was respected.

I don't know if this ties in but I pretty much constantly have an Orchestra playing in my head. Alot of blaring horns sometimes violins. I often know the songs but although they go on & on they switch out songs mid stream so I can't be causing it. I have always had a thing with mystery music but this is bizarre. Sometimes I almost scream turn that music off!! Then I remember Oh, I am the only one being serenaded.

I feel like I should be able to help, that's my "thing" I am a force to be reckoned with when it's for someone else Sadly I don't really fight for myself.  Especially in this case I am clueless. Nothing makes sense there's no logic.

Perhaps that's why I am not looney by now. It's all surreal This can't be, ergo, it isnt. 

I wish I could send my level head out to help calm the storms. Maybe it's my naivety of all this. "Ignorance is bliss"

Just Stevie
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04/08/18 10:46:31PM
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Hi Cheshire Cat

I guess there are so many combinations, situations and variations its very difficult to identify and assimilate.

I thought of one other kind of "light" type thing I have seen lately but I don't think that's the same thing either. I haven't given too much thought to it but on several occasions in dim light or darkness i have seen a faint oval body of light appearing on draperies, walls or the like. It usually has a tinge of color. It is about 3' high 2' across appearing on an angle midway down. It only last a few seconds. I haven't thought about it too much. I have enough things going on not to invite more. 

I may never understand or be able to make sense of this stuff. Too many years of logical managerial business sense. All about the numbers ($$) and being in charge. I was the one with the control. I have no control now and it's frustrating.

When you say "Source" I am thinking you mean God or Maker or whatever. I have talked to this "man?" Until I am blue in the face. In the begining I tried explaining "I just don't trust you anymore I've given you every chance to show good intentions. You need to go" He would look crushed and puzzled. I just have to shake my head no or hold up my hand to stop him. It still works but he gets more sneaky and determined. I've even seen the angry side Paul said I should not have engaged him at all....

Oops!  Ok, so now I continue to reject with minimal involvment. I have shut everything down. I disengage completely and ignore, I do not look in any direction more than a quick glance. The only reprieve I get is when I turn lights on but even then I see. At night I have to keep the TV on It will automatically turn off after 4 hours of no activity. I have to wake up and change channel or something. If I don't catch it I wake up to a room full of webs, web figures and the "man"  All I can do is throw the covers over my head. I still see them mulling around but they cant get through for some reason. It's SO CREEPY!!

I have always been the helper not the helpee and the enabler at times. The one held responsible. I am in a whole new world. A world I don't know how to fit into

I am thankful to all that have given suggestions, advice and tried to help.

I am going to look up "Archons" rignt now!

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