All in My Mind
Psychic and Paranormal
CORRECTION It is not 1 1/2 years I have actually been under seige for 3 1/2 years
All in My Mind
I know I am not making anything up. I know the difference between when something looks mysterious and it turns out to be a lamp. I always assume what I see is simply explained. So, when I see things I know there is something really there but ONLY visable to me. It really IS ONLY in MY mind.
I fight constantly to not look or think about it because something will appear. It is like it sits there waiting for me; I guess it's like I summon it. A thought will pop into my head that I haven't seen anything in a while and they start, both visually and mentally. The moment I start thinking about writing I get hit with all their wrath. I will barely be able to see or feel where I am in the house or outside especially at night. Every room and everything thing is draped with the burgandy patterned whatever it is - more like a waving curtain. The webs still hang around. They start to crawl along walls where it meets the ceiling; spreading as proceeding. Nights are hellish because if I open my eyes it will look like a very perpetually moving dense snowy fog. Sometimes a group or the man's face will be in front of me waiting for me to see them. It's SO creepy. How can something live inside of my brain but not be a conscience or unconscious thought that I have no control over? I can't predict.
I still see a burgundy pattern in anything black and a yellow pattern on white. I spent almost a week at my son's house 100 miles from my home. No reprieve; it all came with me.
2/8/19 still procrastinating...
The other night I saw a man with a young boy standing in front of my dresser. He seemed to be combing the boys hair.
It was an odd vision because although it was formed by what appeared to be web formed shapes there was more solidity. I didn't actually see details of the forms; yet I had a strong impression leading me to believe what I described
I have been turning off the TV at night. Once I close my eyes I don't want to open them again until daylight because I know the moment I do they will start swarming the bedroom.
Occasionally if I need to use the bathroom I get up quickly and avoid looking around. I hold my arms up with my palms facing out. I make a pushing motion and the webs will move backward. I quickly turn on a light. The light makes them retreat. They are not gone but they are not readily visible. I usually pull the sheet over my head. Once in a while I awaken and peek out from beneath the sheet. I will always see 1 or more groupings within the massive snowy foggy cluster. They immediately advance toward me. Sometimes the man's face will be waiting in front of my face. I need to retreat quickly.
Last night there were 2 faces actually with an nondescript partial body. As they advance I quickly hold my hand up to stop them. This time the man was not disguising himself. In his anger he neglected to create an interesting and vulnerable face. His face was angry with teeth bared. Now that I think about it these forms have been an overall red. I retreat back down under the covers not out of fear but in avoidance. I do not want to find out what will happen if I don't. Its SO CREEPY.
For a reason unbeknownst to me they can not do anything unless I allow or invite.
On a previous night I did actually see a woman to the left of my bed. The vision was still a fuzzy static, however, it was clear enough to know it was a middle age woman average in size. She had short curly hair. The webs have suppressed the visitors and once in a while the webs try to appear as a person but their attempt is still primitive.
I was in my (home) office the other day. My desk faces the wall on the right side. Across the room my husband's desk faces left. I turned to briefly look out the window which faces the front yard. As I turned back toward my desk I saw my husband's chair make a deliberate quarter turn. There was no one there, no air movement. Nothing to explain the turn
Fast forward (because I STILL haven't posted this) I always plan to then but then I resist Why?? I don't know
Last night the webs were very bad; forming large black groups and rushing me if I peeked out. I could see them through the sheet, waiting. I gave up and went to the living room and laid on the couch. I turn the light to the brightest on my tablet and ignore. That usually keeps them at bay.
Tonight, TV doesn't deter them. They are more dense to my left. A glance is taken as an invite.
As I lay in bed I feel a tremendous magnetic like pull throughout my body. I have felt this before but not nearly with this intensity.
Still mostly ignoring. The pull is so strong I feel small jerks throughout my body. I feel slightly faint. Every morning I wake with my left forearm feeling cold and a pressure from my wrist to elbow WHAT IS THIS? Does anyone know?
Looking back at some notes I discovered this web thing has been going on for 1 1/2 years with about 6 months of just the visitors.
I NEED/WANT these webs to go find someone else to haunt because I will NEVER help them.
Yet, still they are here. It is to the point I realize even in daylight no matter what I do or where I go I am or they are my world. I thought my eyes were failing but it is because even when I don't know it I am looking through what seems like very thin swirling almost invisable plastic wrap. I don't know if I am behind it or in front of it. I dont know if I am here or there.
I would like to see if I have other talents but I am afraid to try as long as they are here (or I am there). I am definately going to post this tonight..
But.... One last ironically funny happening.
I have long hair so it is everywhere. My husband found a clump of it with a spider nestled in it (no longer of the living thank God)
Passed my Expiration Date
I think I am done!
I just can't deal with the anger and pain in this world anymore. I feel it all too much. More & more less & less makes sense. Everything seems so primative. I have removed myself from as much as I can. Even family are hard maybe even harder to endure. I don't understand life choices and values. Life in general seems pointless. I mean really, why? What purpose does it serve. Every aspect of human life seems so primal. Human functioning is becoming hard to relate to. I have filled my life with caring and sharing, achievements and accomplishments. I have been a good helpful person. I just feel like I have done all I can do.
I can't perceive what could be next but this just isn't it
I never felt like I belonged here. I used to think maybe I was some alien dropped off in the wrong place. LOL
I don't know if all this was enhanced by being tossed into a paranormal world I had never believed in and still don't understand. I don't know if it is because of excelerated unexplained failing health or the failing health is caused by a paranormal force. I am driven to explore but held back by a feeling of a less than trustful presence I can not be rid of and even with currently being on the upper end of the power struggle it's still incorporated into my life. It is a viewable matrix that surrounds
I was ignorant to "Empathic" most of my life. I thought everyone had the same feelings as I did and couldn't understand why others were not relating.
Fibromyalgia finally explained so much of health problems from earlier on and I embraced it; happy not to have to search for cures anymore. Although not connected I have lived with pain ever since I can remember starting with migranes and expanding. It wasn't until long after I was diagnosed that I realized that feeling some sort of pain constantly wasn't the norm. I still can't imagine what it would be like not to feel pain somewhere for even one day.
Years before I knew about being an Empath I went to the funeral of a teenage girl my daughter went to school with It was a senseless car accient less than a mile from the school
As I went through the viewing line and came to the mom. I reached out my hand and as I looked into her eyes I could feel her deep pain. As her eyes met mine I knew she knew I understood. We stayed that way for several seconds. I always felt like I gave her just a tiny bit of comfort.
It takes a while to understand how this works with you...it took a few years for me to figure things out, although I'm still surprised from time to time. From the beginning though, I understood that I wasn't making things up or imagining things but it was how society has trained us to think that made it difficult to be completely ok with ourselves and the way we are...my ability is mine and no one can make me or tell me that I'm sick or mentally unstable and have me believe THAT...lol...you have to get to that place where you're ok with you...I believe everything you describe...no doubt...what you experience is very cool and interesting...and since you're spiders showed themselves to me I don't question your sanity at all,so you know at least one person and possibly more here don't think you're nuts at all...I myself have experienced my own stuff so why wouldn't I believe you?...I'm responding to your 1st couple of lines.. .lol...the rest is you are on a huge energy lei line and those will enhance your abilities....when I lived at my other place my own abilities burst open 100% like yours. I moved and even though I still have my abilities I feel they've changed. Not as strong.
As for the trees....they are living beings...calm, majestic and beautiful...I have 3 huge ones beside my house...they're like a part of my family...I talk to them when I'm outside and I've smudged them occasionally to clear them of the energy gunk they pick up while living in the city....I don't bother with telling them to do things...they do it naturally...lol...
Lately, for a month or two. I feel a presence. It's not perceived in the way it feels like when someone walks by or they're just hanging around
The only way I can think to describe it is the opposite of Deja Vu
It's not like "this has happened before"
It's like "I know it will happen again"
Simple every day things and just once in awhile not with everything. Maybe do something a certain way that I should / could have done differently and then I think it's ok I'll do it that way the next time
It's not a conscious thought it just comes over me.
My daughter is in last trimester of pregnancy. The baby is very active
The are 100 miles away
I put my hand on my stomach relaxed calm and projected
I could physically feel another heart beating. It slowed baby stopped kicking and daughter got much needed sleep
Coincidence or Wishful thinking?
Not meaning to offend anyone but for me personally it still seems so unreal. I cant tell where fact leaves off and fantasy begins. I never know if what I see, hear or feel is realistic? Possible?
Does anyone feel like you can control weather to a certain degree. Just little experiments but too many to be seen as a coincidence. I seem to be able to have an effect on rain. Especially if it is hard rain it is like I can make it stop.
Some times when I am in the pool or to be honest floating; it gets real hot. I ask the trees to make a gentle breeze.
Since I can see or make all kinds of things move but nothing actually does move I wondered if this is the same thing. My yard is surrounded by all kinds of trees. I usually ask one at a time but they will all work together.
But the thing is they are moving and within seconds I feel the breeze
This is kind of timely and ironic
For a day or 2 then weeks and now months I have been thinking about contacting you. I wanted to tell you if you were still doing something it was working.
As long as I didnt look at anything longer than a second and tried to keep my mind clear it was (exhausting but liveable).
Still havent figured out shields or how to make one. When I think of a shield it has a man dressed out in a metal suit and helmet with a feather
So the minute i started forming a message to you in my head they would go berserk. Cover every inch of the furniture and walls I couldnt tell where I was. It was like a House of Mirrors.
Then they wound calm down until I thought about it again.
The man's face I thought was all but faded. I could immediately shut him down.
Then I sent a message to someone (not even about that) and it would act up.
I though I would be brave and started turning off the TV at night. Determined to keep my eyes closed and sleep if I did open my eyes I could barely see or breath the web activity in the room was so dense. It extended into other room but not nearly as bad and I can shoo that away.
One night I felt a presence I thought it was my husband next to the bed bending down to kiss me. I opened my eyes to respond but it was that face. Yikes! A real close call.
Still determined to turn TV off. Again, sensing a presence I opened my eyes to find human type shapes floating all around. Any time I open my eyes for a nano second I am rushed by clusters.
The other night - sensing; I look and there is a smiling older short chubby woman. She is wearing a full white ruffled apron with a chef's hat tied in a bow under her chin. She is more than just a shape but still not clear. I look at her trying to decide what to think. All of a sudden she's snarling and a blue flat thick stick shoots out the end of her arm. I pull back quickly. She becomes surrounded by familar faces the man's face prominent and scowling. Covers over my head!
I realize the background I have been seeing for quite a while is not burgundy any longer. When I close my eyes it is almost always red with some kind of black pattern. The color can chance trying to make me more receptive. I try to hang on to blue because the water in the pool is blue and the sky is blue often without a cloud anywhere. That color does not seem to be in his control.
Last night I looked over at my husband and a stream of what could have looked like big black ants were crawling across his face and around his ear. Of course I knew they weren't there but I couldn't help reaching out to make sure.
I felt, I sensed, I saw "Devil" (I don't know what that really is) but this is not "Evil" But NOT good if that makes sense
Still not afraid but more complex
I guess I must be strong to be able to keep the playing field fairly level. I think its killing my health, energy and state of mind.
Still trying to figure out what's the obsession with me?
I am not motivated by material things. There is nothing I would trade for
My hands are still tied with being able to try, buy or do anything. My husband is really freaked out. He really thinks its mental / physical. Now everytime his sees me type he wants to know to who.
Way back in the "BEGINNING OF TIME" when man ruled the Earth or at least for me LOL I would have to check back on notes because I am not sure which came first the chicken or the egg - more LOL (because its the only thing that keeps me sane)
Probably webs had begun but in a minor way; when I would be walking through the house I would get stings on my lower legs. It didn't matter which room. They were sharp and instantaneous. I would look but never saw anything. I could be looking at the exact spot feel it but not see anything. Then it started happening to my husband. He was convinced it was fleas. We had no pets. He even went out and bought bombs but we never used them. I knew what it was but no way would he believe that. Then it abruptly stopped.
I would notice if I did or said or even thought about ridding the webs I would get very strong stings.
I'm guessing punishment. I dont react or at least in the way they want so they try some other tactic.
I rarely feel the webs unless they want me to. For a while when I went through my bedroom door they would wrap around my legs and try to trip me.
They seem to have a strong need to keep in phyical contact. I will see almost invisible threads extend to me from all places. The ceiling fan seems to still be the hub so mostly from there. Lately the fan is doing its best to get my attention. It wiggles and waves. I ignore all thier pranks except to maybe shake my head to idicate NO (they do understand what I say, do or think), and firmly say you don't belong here. Your not going to get my help. I don't trust you. I think your intentions are not good. GO AWAY! So yeah, I'm pretty much talking to myself for all the good it does.
Another thing early on; related or not? I used to feel a rain drop or two. I could be outside in a car or a house. It was a definite feeling of wetness but if I touched the spot it was dry.
Mostly now and usually when I awaken I feel a firm wrapping (like an Ace bandage) from my wrist to my elbow.
As I stated much earlier on; they are constantly evolving. They would try to scare me forming ridiculous stick figure Tarantulas. I am terrified of bugs yet as realisticas they have become I can always tell and put my hand up to stop and laugh. One night while lying in bed a tiny spider thread descended from the ceiling.At the end was medium size yellow spider with black markings. I waved it away. Their Tarantulas have become so realistic its unbelievable. Tiny hairs covering and a creepy walk.
I guess my point is watch for subtle changes in behaviors. ALWAYS something new ALWAYS trying to control.
Just a Thank You to all that have helped me try to get a handle on everything. It is much appreciated!
Although still there, these entities (?) seem to be in a downhill slide!
WomanWhoWalks Karen 2 - I dont think I've figured how how to PM yet. I am Social Media challenged. Please tell me how I do it 😉😃
I have been meaning to get back to you but once again Procrastination.
Whatever you did or are still doing is working great!
The chains of spider/webs are laying low. They are not GONE and they know I know that but unless I actively look I don't see them. They still sprawl across doorways but I just push them back and tell them to go. The web has spawned a new member. It is connecting to create a very thin translucent sheet that appears even in daylight. The other sheeting burgundy w/ black checkered tiny boxes and intermittent pattern (I will never in a million years know how to describe what I see) is still there but in less places. Like I open up my walk-in closet Hello! Bye Bye! as I turn the light on It's probably still thier but I can no longer see it draped over everything.
The man is still determined to reach me but he has weakened, not as much zealous. So still have to be on guard when closing my eyes.I wish I could turn my thoughts off but alas, no. I'll be ok then my mind says I havent seen him yet and then there he is. I think to myself "Hey, I haven't been seeing the burgundy color intermingled on anything black and the same goes for yellow on white. Then guess what Whoops! there it is... again
I still hear the music mostly Orchestra playing randomly. I guess I could deal with that but the rest is wearing thin. I hope to one day, soon. to be able to go back to the "friend" visits or explore any talents I might have. More on the sidelines though. LOL
The thing that concerns me most is I am getting weaker with more depressed. I seem to be in la la land. I can't complete a sentence without forgetting a word. Just poof! It's gone. A few seconds later it pops back in but sure puts a dent in conversation LOL
I am having more tests because I know something is wrong but my symptoms are so vague and disconnected I know the Drs. think I'm nuts. So trying to rule out everything but can't help but feel like these "things" are deliberately causing many of the problems. I still don't believe any are harmful but they have a mission and it is me. From a gathering of many activities it is pretty clear to me they are studying and trying to recreate me. I have even wondered "aliens"? but I already sound like someone out of a Steven King book. Lol
Ok here it is a week later and I've yet to send this
A couple of days ago I was thinking theyre on there way out and wondering if you were or had done something
It seems almost normal but I still have to concentrate on NOT seeing or noticing or not think (that is really hard because it just pops into my head)
Anyway, after thinking about them maybe leaving; wondering about your participation and vowing to finish this they displayed there disapproval BIG TIME. They seem weak but still watching for an opening.
Anyway thank you for all you have done, doing or gonna do!
Also we still have the dead animal (no access to) smell
It's been months We have spent a fortune on products that SUPPOSEDLY work within a week. Ah, no
Tried every suggestion offer
Haven't used our master bath since 😝
No way it could my borders, right? 👻
Is this even possible and if it is would it have meaning?
I was organizing some photos on my PC. I have a thing for clouds. I came across one that had the face of a cat looking forward and to the left, separate a car wheel - tire.
I know a lot of clouds resemble all kind of things but this was different. The face of the cat was part of a cloud 2 sky eyes yet surrounded by clouds. As I looked more closely details became clearer. It seemed like the picture of the cloud was superimposed over the cat and wheel. They appeared to be separate images under the picture itself. For a moment I wondered if I had caused it but HOW could I? The wheel was very detailed. After several minutes it slowly faded to the original picture.
Now I am wondering even more if there is some kind of connection to the event I described underneath. Not with each other but in "Am I seeing or imagining?"
For several weeks everywhere I looked or went I would see a clip lasting 3 - 4 sec then returning after same. It was not still it was active. I could see carnival rides especially the gears and motors so I knew that's what it was. I could identify some rides as it progressed. I started being able to differentiate adult vs child and once in a while could make out a little clothing color ie. red
One day it just stopped. I shortly heard on the news a carnival ride accident in another state with injuries had happened.
To make this even weirder the visions started out with people in hospital beds swinging back and forth
Coincidence or Imagination
but not a Dream
And why so far away?
With Disney & Universal Studios we don't lack for ride mishaps. Some months ago a child was decapitated on a water slide.
Just thought of an event that might fit in but its REALLY weird I was out on the patio It was very dark. I can't really see in the dark anymore I'm guessing it is because there is the translucent shimmering (whatever) surrounding me But I digress My husband wanted to show me something I followed his voice When I got within a few feet I got very startled and jumped back People (?) were exiting his body as though they were getting off a bus About 5 or 6 full bodied and in color dressed in business clothing They exited turn right and disappeared
There is a heavy presence in the bedroom They are not reaching out but heavily draping walls and hanging from the ceiling blocking door & hallway I am feeling butterflies in my stomach tingling in my arms & legs I am having trouble with words
P.S. NOW they are reaching & clinging LOL
THANK YOU ALL!!
I really appreciate the help and tips
It is difficult for me to grasp It is like using my left arm and not right Awkward I love learrning about the "Paranormal World" just haven't been able to piece it together yet
It is also difficult because I have always lived in reverse I am always the "helper" to be truthful sometimes I am the enabler LOL
It was nice not having to worry about these stupid webs and man's face for awhile - not gone but noticably weakened All good things must come to an end 😔
They are winding back up again. It seems everytime someone helps it works for a little while than gradually grows back with a vengeance It was great to have a reprieve even if for a short time For almost a whole day and night the Orchestra music even stopped. Unfortunately I believe it fed on me and got it's strength back. During that time I was so weak & and in so much pain I would just go back to bed & was always in LaLa Land. I don't think in all fairness I can blame Fibro / Fibro Fog for ALL the pain & lack of focus
This thing / things wants me for some reason The webs are becoming more visable in daylight It's like a translucent shimmery film During the reprieve there were always these almost invisible threads reaching and attaching to me (more than usual) I always woke up with my left forearm feeling wrapped and cold - more so than usual
I am powerless to do anything to remedy. My husband is convinced and worried something is very wrong with me He wants me to see a doctor (and say what? I see ghosts) So i just don't mention or do anything so he won't know it's still going on Every time he sees me type he asks "to who?" If I look off into space for a few minutes "what are you looking at" He can't handle it He freaks out No friends or family nearby (as if that would help) I am still trying to get back strength and balance from a major surgery - tendon repair almost a year ago I should have never had it done I traded isolated pain and limping for increased pain in more areas still limping and a 6" scar Anyway, I am still dependent therefore not able to do anything to remedy. I have tried all the suggested but everything done is a temporary kind of fix
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CONTINUING TO TRY TO HELP!!!
I was going to bring up the subject as to whether these "entities" could affect health and well being. It looks like I may have my answer here.
Surface wise I may have things in check but I think the "entities" are playing dirty. For quite some time I have been having trouble dealing with changes in my body and face - aging, weight gain, losing my LONG hair, fingernails chipping peeling and breaking. Drs / tests but can't find a reason. All very unusual for me (I am vain and I am sure they know that) Petty health problems and more than usual pain. Tipping the scale is a deep depression setting in with no interest or energy. I think I mentioned before I was having trouble putting pen to paper. In fact keeping with that is losing a post before I can finish it. It happened again when I tried to start this post. They just disappear as I am typing. I can't maintain focus or keep a thought in my head. I have Fibro but this is way more than Fibro Fog. I especially am having trouble posting here. I want to. I kind of know what I want to say. I get some time when I can do it. I just can't make my self do it. PROCRASTINATION big time. It doesn't make sense. Its like I am not in charge of my thoughts
I have been trying to post back to all since the4e was some great ideas but something is stopping me
I am going to start a new thread about physical health This one is getting way to long
I do want to say. I am sorry I didn't mean to trivialize your daughters experiences By "not real" I meant like an actual physical bodied Witch that (and I am probably wrong) at the initial contact stage could not do phyical harm I think we are setting the scene as to how we react and who starts off with the most original power SO many contacts in SO many different ways that were / are made I think that what makes this manageable is that I originally set the ground work. Not knowing or understanding ANY of what was going on; out of curiosity I allowed it? them? to enter my mind. For whatever reason i firmly stated "Ok, but I am coming back"
Even though I still don't understand what is going on; (probably never will) and it is driving crazy, as long as I demand & expect; that will be the deciding factor. My common sense kicks in then the paranormal comes into play. Ignorance is bliss So they say.
Sorry for the run-on LOL I never can seem to be able to make simple statements
"Hey...I'm trying to close the portals in you house...tell me if there's a difference....gonna clear your energy of stuff....if you have stuff to smudge give yourself a good smudge and the area above your bed....gonna work on that dark entity you've been seeing too....if...of course...you dont mind?...lol..you might feel some strange things happening...dont worry...that will be me clearing your energy"....updated by : 06/02/18 12:24:31PM
Not sure if anything cleared because it seems like they need to replenish after being excessively active. I try to keep my mind clear of them but it's hard Yes they definately act up when I reach out Also when they are calm and I think to myself maybe they are leaving but no... They will remind me real quick
I can't actively do anything to fight them because I have to keep my "ghost thing" to myself to avoid conflict. I have done all the things suggested though with no results
Although weakened the man still fights to get through
Cheshire Cat and Hop Daddy suggested showers The problem is since the man is in my head they are welcomed. When I close my eyes I get the face trying to reach me. It's hard to describe but when I close my eyes I see the patterned curtain it changes colors but it's aways the face trying to come through. Slowly it tries to break through coming from different angles. If I allow it he gets closer and more in focus. I have to quickly open my eyes, blink or change direction while my eyes are closed continuously. I actually don't remember what I used to see when I closed my eyes
I am afraid alligators here are bit more aggressive. They are found on golf courses, crossing roads, in garages, in pools. One of them snatched a 3 yr old off Disney World property. The father tried to grab him but the alligator pulled him under water; body never found. A women was walking her dogs and disappeared. The body was found in the water. Her arm was found in the gator. Sharks love to take arms legs whatever they can get.
We still are plagued by the Amarillo nightly. He has gotten out of a cage once and sprung 3 others. Then a coyote sneaks into the woods next to us to bed down He has figured out how to avoid tripping the security lights LOL
Also I avoid plants. I have killed a rubber tree, cactus and been banned from a nursery
In the last few years we have replaced the circuit board on our pool pump 3 times. Replaced circuit board on the well. We have had to replace several computers. One just died. We had to pull out the hard drive and transfer the info to a special hard drive. The one I have now the C: Drive disappeared - GONE - where? I have no idea! I can get to files but can't move them because the PC won't recognize another device. I can't pull the hard drive because it is all in one. My cellphone and tablet won't hold a charge. The dryer vent filled with water and I still can't use differnt cycles. Fun time getting that fixed. The washer leaked water all over the floor. From where I know not. The dishwasher leaked all over the floor twice, the microwave over the stove just quit. The Jacuzzi tub quit. Armadillo come every night and tear up the grass and plants my husband works so hard on. We have tried every deterrent. 11 yr old mature fruit bearing trees died from the cold. A palm tree we planted when we first got here, just now died. Now there is a dead animal behind a wall that has the bath sinks and counter on one side and concrete on the other so we can't get it out. We have tried every product (professional) there is to remove the odor. A month later still working on it.
This is just what I can think of off hand.🤔
I have sadly established we have no friends No one who cares enough to spook me. LOL
My house was built in 2007. I have met and found the previous owners most pleasant.
I have had the experiences other places
I don't want to think it's my house.
We moved here 5 yrs ago. (No problems for the first few years)
I LOVE THIS HOUSE. Not just because it is beautiful and we got a fabulous deal on it. I have had other houses; two of which we had built. I loved them too. I can't explain it but I do not want or even can leave. I can't go somewhere else. This is where i belong. My husband hates it for many reasons but mostly because there is just a few houses sprinkled on acre lots in a community that didnt take off. The rest of it is heavily wooded and on lime rock roads. Some good old boys try to hunt in them and do alot of target practise shooting. He worries about stray bullets. One day a hunter tried to shoot across our yard to hit turkeys that I would feed. Police said as long as they are not on other peoples property (how would anyone know?) it was ok.
I have been laying low because my husband is suspicious any time he sees me type. He really believes there is something wrong with me and gets worried.
Now that i think of it I may have experienced current. I am pretty sure the webs do it. Usually I am in bed and they're crawling all around the walls. They especially like to attach themselves to me. I push them away as best I can.
It is a weird kind of tingly feeling running through my entire body. It's not unpleasant but it is not pleasant either
I think I get the same zaps. Only the stings are just tiny on my lower legs. It happens when I have displeased the webs (spirits?). I usually don't feel the webs but one time they spread across a doorway from floor to 2 ft up. They wrapped around my ankles and tried to trip me. They were especially annoyed. Most of the time they're across entire doors they hang from fans, light fixtures, lamps etc and cover furniture & whatever. I have no choice but to walk through them. I hold my hand up and push them back or up as I go through.
As of late I have had them & the man pretty much under control. I have to focus on not looking anywhere and I am totally ignoring them except to sometimes say "get out of my way!". Completely emotion free. Usually when i have the TV on in the bedroom they just sneak across and around where the walls meet the ceiling.
TONIGHT - they totally Know I am posting. They don't like it. They are black and covering all the walls in the bedroom. If I look up I see them filling the entire room with a barely visable incandescents. I feel they're presence on my left. I am feeling kind of a pulling and pressure moving through me. My arm elbow to wrist feels cold and like something is wrapped around it with a slight pulling. This happens a lot to both arms.
I'm little slow on the draw but i did want to say
Woman who walks
My husband is retired. We have no friends. I am where i can avoid contact and withdraw. The overload was getting to much. I'll expand later.
That link was incredible. I want to start a new thread about it. Just need more time. Minutes turn into hours, hours into days, days into weeks etc. Basically getting nothing done LOL
My advice will be a little more down to earth. I am still struggling to accept the Paranormal. Empath I get because it explains a lot. Unfortunately, all this came later in life.
Step back and take a breath. You need to love yourself before you can accept love from another. Get to know yourself and enjoy being you. Being alone does not have to be lonely.
Perhaps the reason you cant get in touch with your "gifts" may be as simple as you are just burnt out. Your body is taking charge. Being an Empath and having gifts is not what defines you. Once the presure is off and you start to relax if it is meant they will return; don't look for signs or worry about it. Let it flow naturally.
Several years ago I was depressed and concentrating on how unhappy I was. I had all the things to experience a great life. One day it hit me. I was spending too much time worrying about myself.
I chose a cause and expanded on it. I founded a Charity and turned it in to something very rewarding. Although it's on the shelf for now I have already layed the ground work to add another facet. This may not work for you. I am a realist with a bleeding heart.
Find your passion. Take charge.
I have found in life you often get what you expect. No amount of dreaming and praying are going to get you where you want to be. I always say God helps those who help themselves. The glass can be half empty or half full. No matter how bleak there is also something positive if you let yourself see it.
It REALLY works especially if you have the right Acupuncturist.
Before I moved 5 yrs ago I had a GREAT guy. He came to my house twice a week. He used a combination of treatments.
We had great conversations about the esoteric. At that time I was hard core logic. He also would explain what he was doing and where and why. It's certainly not instant because so many areas you wouldn't expect can come into play.
We became friends with his family because he was so personable.
After I moved I noticed I gradually went downhill. I live in a undeveloped area so my options are limited now for professional help