Experience with Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personalities or acquired pain?
Glad I was able to help
Hi everyone before I write I just want to say that this is very akaward for me to say and I will be doing a lot of ....'
Well I'll start from the beginning I need awnsers this feeling of confusion feels like it's eating me from inside. OK so... About not very long ago are neighbours accidently threw there ball over our fence and they came over at first I could not find it so my mum let them inside. My mum then Asked what school they go to you know normal mother to young children talk all of them were in primary except... For this one guy who said he went to the same school as me mum said oh (my name) goes to that school too he's a year below me in his in year 7 I'm in year 8 but I actually repeated a year so I'm meant to be in year nine well anyways today at school.. While I was eating recess with my friends... (Its hard for me go write this..) He was in a group of his friend and I saw him pointing towards my direction I looked away a bit embarrassed then continued eating then a few minutes later he walked past my group I was on the end of the sitting area and I heard his friend say to him"you can't shes year 8??!? I'm a year 8 girl what the heck??!?? He could of been talking about someone else but I literally can't stop thinking about him his my next door neighbour and to be honest whenever I hang out with my sisters friend who is the little girl next door our neighbour I always see him ride his bike with his little brother and he always comes to tell if she needs to come home or go check on her because his her big brother but I get really happy when I see him.
I also have been to his house with my sister to hang out with the little girl who is 2 years younger then my sister
Well anyways me and my sister had a conversation today and I asked who's your favorite neighbour friend? She said that little girl then she asked mine then she guessed my crushes who I have lost interest in a bit and I said no then she said the little girl and yeah I said no then she said her little brother nope then she said her other brother which is the dude who I'm talking about I still said no but I was happy she said his name because I wanted to try tell her how I was confused then she said his to old for you anyways this angered me my sister is only 10 and she is not attracted to the opposite gender or whatever who sexuality is yet but this made me a bit more uneasy and confused it hurts... I hate this confusion... I keep denying it... I keep thinking no I like (my crushname) not him bit really I have lost a lot of interest in my current crush. i can't stop thinking about him I am not sure if my feelings are real so I don't know I feel like I need approval for some reason? PLEASE HELP ME
well i do have ADHD so i am easily distracted and i get really hyper active from it so i take pills but i really don't think your theory is it at all i know you have really thought of it a lot and really excited to hear my response.. but it just doesn't seem at all i was in a workplace game and i am not really into games anymore but i can use my ability on people on skype so that proves that its not because pressure on other people all i gotta do is try think how do i do this? and like half a second later i literally have like information thats not mine i even get flash backs of what happened i never have used this ability in PVP mainly the workplace game and skill puzzled game which is transformice
i guess i do think of a lot of fantaisies sorry i took so long to respond btw) i don't think you get it very well at the start i don't exactly focus as much as you would probably think i just think i need to focus and like i only need to for a second and it all comes to me i have done it in inrl some times but its got nothing to do with love or my ADHD because i have things that stop me from being so distracted and hyperactive from ADHD) i am just curious on why i am so unafraid of it everyone else on here is all talking about they thought everyone has there ability and for me i hope that only a few and me have it i get disappointing when people say they relate tbh... unless they say its something different well its just my personality maybe cause am younger
i decided to first talk about what i adore most about myself. ever since i was young i always knew i was different i did not know why i just somehow knew i would be powerful although half of those may of been fantasies but i always knew that i would posses some kind of power. ever since i found out i was a empath it suddenly hit me that i realized that i was not like other normal people or other empaths for that matter for one reason i just don't seem to be afraid of any of this instead of me being fearful i am proud and excited and i find it strange seeing i'm so different that some try to hide it and are so scared when it might became exposed well if that happens i would be very excited for everyone to know what i can do. i have been looking at other peoples discussions and they all describe it differently how empathy is meant to work but mine works a bit differently. so now ill talk about my ability in detail. so when i started going through puberty i played this online computer games and one in particular allows you to go into different games and make your own character well once when i was playing a game there was this person and he bet me to something because he had a special payment gear in the game which allowed you to do things well after he got what he wanted he started teasing me for it and boasting so i argued for a bit and in this game he had game powers so he could teleport people back to the spawning area and kick them and stuff like that well he kept doing that and he went into my house (in the game) and he started playing with all my furniture like my DJ set i didn't really care i kept my cool but he was really annoying me so i focused on him. but then all of a sudden i had parts of knowledge this is what came to me. he gets bullied badly at school and the game helps him. he was also a member of the game too so he must of really liked that like it made him happy. after i told him that he denied it but i knew it was true i could also tell because he said stuff that only bully victims would i don't know how i knew bully victims were more emotionally weaker and it made them act differently. i was a little surprised that i knew but one day i went onto another game it was not the same as the one with the guy teasing me this one was were you played as mice the game is called transformice and there was this one girl bullying everyone and there was this other girl who was a lot lower level. well there's this thing were when your shaman you lead your mouse through the round and that girl supported the lower level (will call her Lilly) after a while i had a go with her and then i got all the knowledge and this is what came to me now i am sorry if i may sound a bit mean but its what came to me. she was a lesbian with that lower leveled girl and the higher leveled parents found out and she got kicked out and that she was feeling really bad. before i told them that i said i know what you have been through i am pretty sure then Lilly said shut up (lets call myself rose) rose you don't know what we have been through then i told them and after a long pause Lilly then said well bad things happen to bad people. i was shocked that i got it right i also felt a bit invasive but i was only defending myself. after that they kept quiet and i thing i saw some people say in the chat oh wow and similar stuff but i don't know if that was for me. on another game yes i love playing games i had a friend and she told me she got bullied so one day i asked her if she was OK with me seeing what had happened and this is what i got. she was sitting at a table minding her own business when these people came up and started bullying her. she said OMG thats so close. but she said they came up to her because there was rumors of her liking someone. i even tell some of my friends i don't know in real life on social medias and they all say its all right.
now i know i get some of it wrong but its strange instead of me feeling someones emotion as there own i get knowledge of others as its my own. i noticed that i only see the knowledge of a problem of the past that they still have in the future. i was misconceived and thought i was an empath because i thought, i thought others emotions but its the same thing but with knowledge. i am happy that there is a comment section on everyone's discussion so its not just for reading i found out thats what the blog section is for. i am not afraid i am not worried i am proud, excited , happy with my ability but does anyone know if its called something!? i have heard of people who can read the future of others and to be honest sometimes i can predict if my day is gonna be good or bad but the real deal is my ability too get peoples knowledge of the past. its really opposite i'm not doubting myself but it doesn't seem as useful as getting the knowledge of peoples future but i have figured a way for it to be useful i have been told I'd be a good therapist after helping one of my contacts of social media like skype i just seem to have very good skills to help people emotionally like i consider heaps better by far then teachers who just say oh ignore it. well i say its your personality here's a quote i made up
"your personality tells a lot about you it controls you it controls how people treat you and how you react but if less people like you then others then it it means your personality is gonna do good for your future""
i don't know if this is a big post ha ha but if you have read through it all or at least read some of it then could you tell me in the comments if you have this ability, not that i'm scared just would be cool if we could share experiences). or you know someone with it i am not trying to sound violative if thats a word then could you please tell me it would be nice to ask someone who has this what its like for them.