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Gem
@gem
11/26/15 05:06:17AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Interesting isn't it Karma! There is loads of info on Google...have you come across any that resonates for you even a little bit? X
Gem
@gem
11/26/15 05:04:11AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Hi Cat. I've had terrible health that started about 18months ago. I had sooo many tests for things like ms, Lupus, etc. I have disc disease in my neck but it didn't explain the myriad of other concerning symptoms. They eventually said fibromyalgia and classical migraine with aura oh and depression/anxiety so I've had 18months of being pumped full of painkillers and antidepressants. I also was found to be extremely deficient in vits c, d and b12 but docs only gave me c and d I pay for my own b12 shots. The vits have improved things somewhat but I ache all the time. They never found a cause for my tinnitus and fasciculations (muscle twitches)..they didnt think my b12 number was low enough to cause those so and they haven't gone despite giving myself shots. The shots have helped me walk better though so I'm thankful for that!I've read about ascension symptoms and I tick the boxes which has made me wonder/hope that the fibromyalgia might not really be my correct diagnosis!How about you? X
Gem
@gem
11/24/15 09:55:09AM
220 posts

How to protect my suspected empathic 3yr old from my physical pain?


Empath

Thanks Trevor, I was going to put this in an inbox to you too...wasn't sure if it was middle of the night or something where you are lol.Yes sounds a good game to try, ive been trying to think of fun ways to help him.Tried getting him to do deep breath work with me but he loses interest quickly.Ill do the conduit then..I was scared of him feeling anything from me more intensely!Today I'm grateful to the universe for aloe Vera and whoever invented the electric fan!And for kind souls like you!Thanks again x
Gem
@gem
11/24/15 08:01:49AM
220 posts

How to protect my suspected empathic 3yr old from my physical pain?


Empath

I'm in severe pain have been since yesterday. Having a lot if trouble with my skin and the cream the doc had given me 3weeks ago (been using daily) seems to have decided to cause a reaction and my skin feels totally scalded. Agony. I had to take tranquilisers (3 of them) to knock me out last night to sleep.He's been in nursery today but is home now. I'm sat in front of a fan with aloe Vera gel all over my face!He's very whingy and clingy and I said 'are you ok sweetheart' he said in an upset voice 'no mummy not ok'.He is very sensitive to how those around him are feeling. I don't want him to feel what I'm feeling right now because if I could crawl out of my skin..I would!If I do the conduit of energy through me to him will it help him or might it cause him to feel more of my pain..?Any ideas x Blessings
updated by @gem: 02/04/17 05:30:51AM
Gem
@gem
11/24/15 01:39:16AM
220 posts

Anyone else identify?


Empath

I just wanted to thank you for the above advice and I'll come back and re-read this before any difficult discussions I need to have where I need to have my voice heard!Great tips for all of us who struggle with this! Blessings x
Gem
@gem
11/23/15 11:38:38AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Interesting BP, I'll do my best to be alert. I've had 111 again on receipts today and 000 but that was only once so will see if it reoccurs significantly x
Gem
@gem
11/23/15 11:32:16AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Hi yes it was uncanny he mentioned that in particular. Also the friend of his he asked me to friend request is an intuitive reader.So clearly he is well into his own path.I feel better for having contacted him.Blessings FGGem x
Gem
@gem
11/23/15 04:18:09AM
220 posts

need advice


Empath

You're welcome I just wrote what came straight away..I'm learning and new to all this but the word sister kept repeating so thought I'd best mention it just in case.I very strongly felt you should store your things back in your hometown so hopefully that means it's the right path at this time for you!You just need to really recuperate and take time in simple things..the right direction will come when you're more at peace.Wishing you much luck and light wherever that path eventually takes you x
Gem
@gem
11/23/15 03:51:52AM
220 posts

need advice


Empath

I'm just going to go with what came straight away for me when reading this which is back home..your hometown.I'm so sorry about your mother passing sending you love and light.I feel although it's your hometown it's still a kind of fresh start because your going there having had all these different experiences in the town you're currently in. You're going back with a fresh set of eyes so to speak. I think this is currently what you need. Spend some time recuperating and healing from hurts. Take as much time as is needed figuring out your next chapter.Blessings and condolences xxPs do you have a sister? It's just I keep getting the word sister and I don't have one so wondering if I'm getting this word through or for you?
Gem
@gem
11/23/15 01:47:55AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Just to update, I did message him on fb last night. He replied this morning. I was honest about what I felt and apologised in case he thought I was bonkers.His reply wasNot bonkers Gem..gut instinct and intuition, I've been better but am ok.We continued to message and he said I should friend request a friend of his who I don't know. He said obviously my consciousness is expanding and I should keep an eye out for syncronisities. I said well.. Funnily enough had a fair few of those yesterday lol!So yeah just very strange he never expanded on his feelings but assured me he's ok.Blessings x
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 11:44:22PM
220 posts

Akashic records meditation success


Tools for Empaths

So after a very strange day of repetitive numbers, thoughts etc I decided to give this type of guided meditation another go. I've done this particular one once before without success. Although I did have an Akashic records experience randomly with a binaral beat meditation a few weeks ago..and got a past life glimpse.This time I asked specific questions once there.What are my soul talents/gifts?Seeing Knowing HearingWhat is my purpose here now?Love and healingWhere does my soul originate from?I didn't know how to spell the sound or if it was pal or pla it had a d in it somewhere.So I've Googled and had to put in extra words to the search like spirituality etcFirst I got a wiki page on the star system pladies (think that's spelt wrong but my phone won't let me cut and paste the word.Anyway it was all about this star system but not over much about it spiritually so I kept looking because the word sounded right.I came across the article I've linked, and it talks about all star systems and characteristics of people who's souls originated from these various places. I found my word about 4th one down and OMG it was like reading about myself..it was uncanny right down to the less appealing characteristics lol.http://in5d.com/which-star-system-did-you-originate-from/Just really wanted to share this bazaar experience.Blessings allGem x
updated by @gem: 06/12/17 07:28:33AM
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 11:51:13AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Thanks I'll try to keep as Aware as possible. It helps to know examples of how a message might come through so thanks for the examples :) x
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 10:27:44AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

Hi FG thanks I'll have a look. Yes I was thinking about sending a msg just in case. Not sure what's stopping me really. X
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 09:06:24AM
220 posts

Strange day!


Empath

I'm trying to find my intuitive feet so to speak. This morning I opened a post on here and pretty much immediately started crying..now the subject matter was close to my heart but it came into my head that maybe it had to do with how the person felt who write it.Today for the first time I've had lots of 11 and 11.1 enough to make me think hang in this can't be a coincidence. From reading it seems this number pattern means to keep thoughts positive as they may manifest?I've had a friend who is also an ex from about 17yrs ago in my head all day. I don't know why. We don't live near eachother, we very early text other than Xmas but are friends on fb. His recent posts seem fine but I feel he's having an awakening of sorts himself due to a lot of his subject matter in his posts.Ten mins ago I got tears out of the blue for no reason I can think of?It's a strange day!The lovely Trevor cleared me about a month ago so I'm wondering if it's issues surfacing around that or if I'm picking something up from someone somewhere??I don't feel like the tears were mine because I can't attach them to anything I'm feeling personally right now.Is there a way to figure out who it is?I don't think the tears are my friend/ex I feel his popping into my head a lot today is a separate thing but again I don't know why?Blessings all x
updated by @gem: 10/22/17 02:10:48PM
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 06:18:57AM
220 posts

Empaths and depressive spouses


Empath

I just wanted to say how very sorry I am that you are both in this situation. There is love. This is hard.I can tell you as someone who has suffered depression on and off for about 15yrs I eventually had to take a really good look inside of myself for why/what triggers me. For myself it's a mixture of my own past traumas but also I didn't realise I was taking on so much from other people. If your girlfriend isn't an empath then she really needs to address what led to her depression and face up to it in order to heal. She needs to put things in place to lift her mood for herself (very difficult when you're depressed but worth it to save yourself and relationships) light excersise, aromatherapy, continuous counselling to eventually heal what led to this, a date night if possible where you agree only upbeat topics are allowed for that evening.For yourself I agree with the others that you should think about protecting your energy by way of shielding yourself before any heavy talks or maybe before you leave work to go home?I hope you find a way to work it out I really do for both of you. Ultimately though if after trying these things nothing improves you'll need to do what's best for you and your health.Love, light and blessings to both of you x
Gem
@gem
11/22/15 12:46:43AM
220 posts

Heavy hearted


Empath

I'm crying with you Rene. I don't think we ever get over it properly. They are our family our furbabies whom we share such love with.I know and I mean truly know the pain of your beloved animal passing in a traumatic way. I begged them to save my Pixi, she was losing her back legs ect with age but she was meant to go peacefully and naturally. I held her paw, nuzzling her head as they put her to sleep telling her how much I love her.I'm so so sorry you're going through this pain.He is at peace now and I know we'll meet those precious souls again!Sending you much love and solidarity in this grief xxx
Gem
@gem
11/21/15 11:15:21AM
220 posts

Anyone else identify?


Empath

I've just ordered myself a black jet pendant! I'll let you know how I get on with it after I get a feel for it! Should arrive next week. I'll friend request you to let you know how I get on with it if that's ok? Blessings x
Gem
@gem
11/21/15 07:24:16AM
220 posts

depressed by roommate


Empath

I'm glad you've made the decision to not take him with you! Be strong and stick to it even if he uses emotional blackmail etc.In the meantime don't let him corner you for his 'off loading' sessions. Have an excuse ready (have several excuses ready) maybe say you have some heavy stuff of your own to deal with and your sorry but he'll have to find someone else to talk through his problems with because you need ALL your energy for your own!There are good energy vampire meditations on YouTube maybe do one regularly while he's still sharing your place. If you have any friends or family you find uplifting to be around..meet up with them.Time spent alone pamper yourself bit. Read, bubble baths, essential oils to lift your mood etc. These are things I find work for me when I've been zapped.Good luck and stick to moving on without him! You are important too! X
Gem
@gem
11/20/15 08:05:18AM
220 posts

Anyone else identify?


Empath

I've never heard of that one :) it always good to hear of new ones to try out! I'll be looking that one up! X
Gem
@gem
11/20/15 07:11:12AM
220 posts

Anyone else identify?


Empath

Gosh we're so so alike even down to my old job for years was working in a secondary school one to one with several statemented children (mine were mostly physical/medical or on the spectrum) I loved my kids mostly but I do hear you about too much time with certain ones could be detrimental to you. I actually found my line manager and a few of her 'favored' support workers to be more detrimental to me than the kids. I had to leave it made me very ill how toxic our department had become.Shielding doesn't have to block everything..just the negative from sticking to you.YouTube have some good ones! I'll send you some links later to the ones I use so you can try it out.It really sounds like you need to pamper and recuperate after such a traumatic time. It's trauma that made me finally figure the Empath thing out and led me here! So I know how long it can take to return to some sense of normalcy after such a draining time.BreathMeditatePamper (oils etc)Extra sleep where possibleProtect (stones + shield from negative only)Once you begin to feel more recovered you can explore more.. Learn to hone your ability etc.Also maybe have a chat to Trevor Lewis here about a clearing (I've had one facilitated by him and found it very helpful and enlightening..so much so I got him to clear my almost 3yr old).I'll inbox you some links later :) x
Gem
@gem
11/20/15 04:03:31AM
220 posts

Anyone else identify?


Empath

Yes yes yes I identify a lot with this. I seem to have been a magnet for traumatic experiences most of my life.I also saw the good in everyone and tried to fix people, usually to me detriment. There were exceptions though..people who I barley knew directing much hatred towards me and I spent years agonising WHY? Something about me obviously bothered them. These were very hateful, bullying, self centre and ego centric. Oh they hated me. It made me very ill in a different way than when it was someone with negative issues who was essentially just in need of help. I didn't know I could be an empath at that time. I didn't know how to shield myself and kept looking for 'what was wrong with me?' Nothing was wrong with me...I can't tell you how liberating that realisation is.I still struggle but am getting better with putting myself first when someone is taking liberties. My natural thought pattern goes like this;I don't want them to feel bad if I say somethingI don't want to feel their annoyance, frustration or hate if I say somethingFollowing the above led me to two nervous breakdowns in a 6yr period.Now I isolate myself from everyone except immediate family when I start to get ill with negative situations because I still struggle with what will happen if I speak the harsh reality to those who need it. (they don't do subtle lol...these are truths that couldn't be said in a gentle way) so I accept they'll heap blame/name call or whatever because I've removed myself because rather that than let them suck the life out of me!Now ways to help (because becoming a hermit like me isn't fun lol)Regular grounding meditationsRegular energy vampire meditationsRegular healing light meditationsAromatherapy; lavender (protection/calming/clearing) frankincense and clary sage are good for spiritual matters/improved intuition/clearing negativityOrange and bergamot are good mood enhancers to give yourself some 'happy' when you feel zapped.You can add some (in a carrier oil like sweet almond oil) to a bath with epsom salt. It'll sooth and cleanse anything you've picked up.Good crystals I've found (I'm new to them so others may have better suggestions) are black tourmaline (protection from others negative stuff)To boost that I sometimes use/carry clear quartz alongside the black tourmaline.The clear quartz should also boost your intuition and if held during meditation enhance the experience.Angelite and blue lace agate for seeking guidance from guides/angels during meditation.I've also started using a clear quartz pendulum for when I feel I need clarification about a thought/intuition etc.Hope you find some clarity.BlessingsGem x
Gem
@gem
11/20/15 01:11:09AM
220 posts

Heavy hearted


Empath

I'm so sorry you've suffered a loss like that. I still griev for my beautiful cat Pixi she was 14 and taken very suddenly last year.I know that awful feeling I'm feeling it now writing this.Im sending much love, light and as much comfort as I can muster! Huge cyber hugs too xx
Gem
@gem
11/19/15 11:21:33AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Lol yes they sound like an organisation not to be messed with! I'd imagine they are wanting words with me after my debacle with leaving the sage smoking in it...and you're not kidding the shell was hot hot hot!I shan't make that mistake again lol! :) x
Gem
@gem
11/19/15 01:47:31AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Aww thank you and yes I've woke up and had a laugh reading these comments lol! Pyromania definitely had me laughing out loud.Feeling a bit better than yesterday, think the anesthesia and after affects of my procedure just knocked me back a bit mentally as well as physically. Had a pretty deep counselling session yesterday too which made me emotional.Getting some lovely reiki at home soon though and I always feel better after that!So today I believe will be a better day..with no smoke lol x Blessings
Gem
@gem
11/19/15 01:25:26AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Hi Michellem, lol thanks I do appreciate the 101 as I have read so many conflicting things :) I did say a blessing repeatedly and my thank yous. It's good to know it's ok to put it out myself lol. I was truly starting to panic when it just kept smoking and smoking haha! X
Gem
@gem
11/18/15 12:40:46PM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Thanks and yes I've got a bubble bath running now, I plan to do a guided meditation in there.. I find it very soothing to do in the bath makes me feel like any negativity is thoroughly cleansed away.I'm planning on making my own body scuba with essential oils over weekend too if all I need is delivered on time :) x
Gem
@gem
11/18/15 12:37:42PM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Wow thanks for the info I'll definitely do some recipes including those. It has knocked me sideways. Had a good cry earlier which made me feel a little better.That's very kind of you to send that info. X
Gem
@gem
11/18/15 11:41:33AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Lol did you! Yeah its pretty strong think we'll all be smelling of it for a while haha! I'm glad I know now what to do in future.I had a general anaesthetic on Mon so think my low mood is just to do with the affects of that. I fully intend to have a lovely bubble bath though..and do a bit of drawing/coloring.Blessings and thank you for your kind thoughts :) x
Gem
@gem
11/18/15 05:58:01AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

Hi, thanks for your reply I'll know for next time lol.Yes I'm back, I put two plates under the abalone shell just in case which I was out. It burnt the whole sage wand by the time I came back and had gone out.I'd read on a few sited you should always let it burn itself out and I've felt very low/heavy so didn't want to do it wrong and nit get the benefits.You're right my room is overpowered by it now..but it does feel calmer.It's difficult when there is so much conflicting info out there!Thanks for your response.BlessingsGem
Gem
@gem
11/18/15 01:43:20AM
220 posts

Do you let sage burn itself out when smudging negative energy?


Empath

I've only smudged twice. Once myself and once my bedroom. Both occasions it died out itself relatively quickly.I've been feeling low/sad so decided to smudge myself and my bedroom. That was half hour ago and it's still smoking. I've got to leave the house in 20mins.It's in an abalone shell. Will it be safe in that while I leave? I'll be gone about an hour or so?Please someone answer if you know xBlessings
updated by @gem: 01/09/17 06:43:47AM
Gem
@gem
11/14/15 03:37:25AM
220 posts

Does anyone know what is this? Please


Empath

Ooo sounds really interesting and I'll look forward to you sharing that!Yes, there are definitely things happening right now. It's hard for me to interpret everything being so new to all this but I feel it's all positive. I feel very much the sense of new beginning in a very good way.Blessings x
Gem
@gem
11/14/15 03:16:22AM
220 posts

Does anyone know what is this? Please


Empath

Thanks Trevor, my eldest just got up and apparently he dreamt he was fighting over pizza early hours of this morning. It's very odd.Also last night we fell asleep with my candle lit and nature zen sounds on YouTube.One of the times I woke I went to the bathroom and on returning blew the candle out and turned the nature sounds off.This morning when I woke to my youngest calling for me, the nature sounds were playing and my candle lit!!! Now my H is saying I must have dreamt blowing out and turning off. I know I did it and the candle would have been much lower if it had burned all night.An extremely eventful and interesting night/morning for me!I'm feeling rather excited by it.Blessings x
Gem
@gem
11/14/15 02:05:02AM
220 posts

Does anyone know what is this? Please


Empath

To add..not long after posting this I noticed the pizza my H bought me yesterday and put in the fridge had been eaten by my eldest and his gf lol. I didn't smell it when I woke with the word or later when my husband sleep talked the word.I know this my all sound like bazaar ramblings but honestly it's weird.Is it precognition? Is that the right description of what it is. I'm also wondering now if my H is unknowingly tapping into senses of his own.
Gem
@gem
11/13/15 11:36:19PM
220 posts

Does anyone know what is this? Please


Empath

I have not slept at all well. It's 7:30am here. My husband stayed over last night (we're separated) anyway at one of the points I woke last night I has very clearly the word 'pizza' i remember thing 'huh..strange' then a few minutes later my snoring husband said the word pizza in his sleep.My husband is a sleep talker, so I suppose it is possible he'd already sleep talked that word and that's why it was in my head. However I've never had that happen in our 5yrs together..where I've had a word very clearly in my head for him to say it minutes later. It's so odd also pizza isn't a feeling so I'm presuming that wasn't an empathy thing? Could anyone clarify what that would be to have a word yourself before its spoken?Any imput gladly received please.Blessings from a very tired Gem lol x
updated by @gem: 01/15/17 08:33:07AM
Gem
@gem
11/13/15 02:58:35AM
220 posts

Hello, new here and feeling unsettled.


Empath

Hi Brid, I've only been here a month or so and I also have had moments in the very beginning thinking I'm going crazy or something. I also really identify with you saying you always thought it was just normal.You aren't crazy. I've actually had two breakdowns in my life and the mediation/counselling that goes with it. Each time it's happened to me it was because of being daily in really really oppressive/negative environments. One counsellor actually told me I'm a highly sensitive person. Where other people (in the oppressive work environment I was in) went home and switched off, I couldn't and began getting sick to the point of stomach ulcers, nervous bowels, anxiety and depression till I had full on breakdown. I didn't realise that being around so many unhappy, frustrated and angry people was killing me so much because I was dealing with not just my feelings but theirs too.It's taken a trauma in my personal life and lots of reading to attempt to help myself to lead me here. I can tell you I'm feeling better for having found this place to discuss and be open.Ive always believed in 'more' after experience with a passed loved one age 7. So I've never needed science to verify for me but I can understand why people would feel that way. I never understood how crystals/reiki and various other things could work..but i am now having experiences with both.The best advice I can give is trying to keep an open mind whilst trying different things out. You don't have to believe wholeheartedly just be open to things and see what happens.I don't know anything about shutting it off but there are meditations that I find help on YouTube ones for grounding, clearing and protection. X
Gem
@gem
11/10/15 11:27:30PM
220 posts

My heart feels full of love


Empath

Thank you both, yes a truly special loving feeling. Like your heart is soaring!Tears came after I posted but just quiet gentle ones. I made time to thank her for always being there for me.. I've always on some level known she was. It was nice to be able to make that connection with my Dad last night too. I think it'll have brought him comfort and happiness to know she's there with her kind eyes and smile watching over us all!Blessings to you both.I've got the song from Les Misersbles in my head today 'a heart full of love'Lovely lovely feeling. X
Gem
@gem
11/10/15 01:36:38PM
220 posts

My heart feels full of love


Empath

I've had those little bursting love flutters in my heart on and off all day.I've also had my Nana (passed when I was 7, I'm now 37) popping in and out of my head all day.The last time this happened quite so much (I often sense her but this was more intense/regular and kept seeing her smiling face in my head) was over 10yrs ago. It was her birthday that time, which I didn't know because I'd been so young when she died, however I'd told Dad I'd sensed her and it was him who told me.So about half an hour ago it came into my head it was an important date to do with Nana. So I got my pendant out and asked was today an anniversary..it said yes, I then asked should I let dad know I've sensed her today..it said yes. So I text him to tell him and ask if today was an important date.He replied 'yes Gem, she died 10th Nov 1985 and Dad died a year later same date'My heart is bursting full of love. I've got pulsate tinnitus in my ears and feel teary but not in a sad way.I just really wanted to share that with people who'll understand.BlessingsGem x
updated by @gem: 01/29/17 09:25:19PM
Gem
@gem
11/08/15 11:49:06PM
220 posts

good news I have to share!


Empath

Congratulations how wonderful x
Gem
@gem
11/08/15 11:38:47AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Thank you I'll look up her books! Do you know, it's just so nice to talk to like minded people and be able to express my interests and try to discover things without any judgement!I'm learning so much here. Thanks x
Gem
@gem
11/08/15 04:47:32AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Interesting, just shows you to pay attention to all the little things as they can build a clearer picture!I've been tempted for a while to have someone facilitate a past life recall for me. I've looked into various people local to me and there are two I'm tempted by...with Christmas coming and gifts to buy I'll have to put it on hold and just continue my meditation and see if anything more comes to me.Sounds like you are very well versed in this particular area. It's very interesting stuff.
Gem
@gem
11/07/15 10:07:48AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Wow, thanks for sharing that here! That's really interesting and funny because I've been thinking an awful lot today about syncronisities although I myself haven't had any I'm aware of yet.The general theme of my day though has been one of thinking about the importance of paying attention to things I would usually 'brush off' or not think anything of.. So reading your post just now really made sense to me.Sounds really interesting what you've experienced please do update if you get anymore information you feel like sharing.I've just woken from a nap and I actually had a song stuck on loop in my head whilst I drifted off so I'm going to put it here.It was Alanis Morrisette the bit that kept playing in my head was..'the concepts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses falling, all around, all around'It kept looping round the above.I asked for guidance today and went for my nap holding onto my clear quartz and angelite stones. My hands are tingling with pins and needles at the moment.X
Gem
@gem
11/07/15 12:58:11AM
220 posts

I've been the victim of a malicious act


Empath

Hi thank you that's very kind. Accepted most gratefully.
I'm utilising my black tourmaline, clear quartz and have sage smudged myself.
Luckily it was clear to them it had been malicious. It's just very difficult being related through marriage to these nasty people.
Love and light to you too.
Hope you are well.
Gem
@gem
11/05/15 12:34:21PM
220 posts

I'm so confused please help


Empath

It sounds like maybe you're concerned on some level about the age difference and that could be why you feel the need for approval. I'm presuming if your crush feelings were reciprocated by him, which they may be, you wouldn't be pursuing anything that would be of an adult nature..if that's correct then I really wouldn't worry about the age thing as it's only a couple of years difference and we like who we like.Your sister I'm sure didn't mean any harm but I remember well the the heightened feelings of having crushes and how easy it is to feel hurt by what friends or family say.I agree with KM that it very much sounds like you'd like to explore/discuss your feelings about this boy with someone so school counsellor would be my suggestion too. They honestly do keep things confidential (I used to work in a high school here in the UK).Your confusion of course could always be something your picking up emotion wise from the boy since you're an empath?Try not to over analyse it and get your feelings out with a trusted person as that will help you untangle any confusion.Good luck x
Gem
@gem
11/05/15 06:46:45AM
220 posts

I've been the victim of a malicious act


Empath

Ok so I've mentioned in other posts in separated from my husband with both of us attending separate counselling and eventually marriage counselling. There has been trauma but there is love so we're doing all we can to go forward in the right way.I believe his parents to be narcissistic one maybe more so than the other.Part of his counselling is figuring out how to become more assertive with them.Unfortunately his parents are his only option to live with at the moment. He has made steps in being more assertive and I believe this has caused one or both of them to make an extremely malicious and untruthful phone call that could have gotten me into trouble if believed and landed my child (their grandchild) in poverty. I'm seething mad.O feel certain it's them but of course it's been done anonymously.I wish I could prove it somehow. I feel so drained and physically sick right now.I can't accuse because it was anonymous. I can see in my husbands face deep down he too believes it's them but I also feel his internal conflict of not wanting to accept it, because then what does he do?I'm not ready to have him move back in with us yet despite getting alone better. He needs to go through his counselling as do I.I'm scared how we'll find a way through this with such determine manipulation on his parents part?
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Gem
@gem
11/04/15 10:38:39PM
220 posts

Can you have more than one spirit animal?


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks, I've always believed in certain things I just never expected anything to happen to me. With meditation obviously we build things up with our imagination. It's learning to differentiate between what's what.Hopefully that'll come with continued faith that some of what's going on isn't what I've built myself.Thanks x Blessings
Gem
@gem
11/04/15 10:08:15AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

I'm really glad you responded KM because these happenings are so new to me (aside from seeing my deceased Nana age 7 and sensing her around periodically through life). Me paying attention to my spiritual inclinations is very new and borne out of a very difficult time for me so it really really helps to hear other peoples advice/perspectives on what I'm going through.I'm definitely more visual and feeling.. Rather than auditory. I 'feel' the words in my meditations I don't hear them in the usual sense.I'd say meditation has been the thing that's been a catalyst and I wish I'd discovered it years ago...although the like you said things seem to happen when they are supposed to and not before. This is a real learning curve for me!Wishing you lots of love and light in your own journey x
Gem
@gem
11/04/15 04:31:01AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Yes I understand. I'll try not to focus too much on specifics but continue to meditate to quieten the mind and learn. Things will come when they are supposed to at a rate that's manageable.Thank you x
Gem
@gem
11/04/15 03:38:16AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Thanks KM, I'm still kind of shocked but you are right..I have learnt a good lesson here that setting expectations/intentions is not always the way. I think it's also taught me to 'just go with it'.I hope she went into the light..such a shame it went foggy at that point. I don't remember coming out of the meditation at all.
Gem
@gem
11/04/15 01:03:51AM
220 posts

Think I had a glimpse of a past life


New Age

Hi, ive been trying lots of different types of meditation and did actually try a past life guided one a month or so ago with no luck.However last night I did one which was just beats iso something and binaural. It was aimed at third eye and opening heart. I didn't have any particular expectations but I was suddenly in what looked like a tropical forest and a gowned older man appeared I felt he was 'a higher up being ' almost God like. He was telling me I'm on the right path and to continue and that he's always there and I'm looked after. He kind of ushered me to continue without him but to know he was always there. I continued and in the forest a door appeared so I went through and up a massive staircase there were doors and corridors leading off at different levels and I just kept going and then asked 'who am I and why am I here?' I kept walking and a friend spirit side appeared next to me walking alongside to a door I felt I wanted to go through. It was a huge room full of books and tables (side note, I have recently read about akashi records and felt this was it) I asked for my book and there was then one in my hands. I opened it and then started to see a maid, there was such anguish and sadness I knew she had lost two children one about 6months old and the other was 4. I knew it had something to do with her partner a bad man. I knew she was eventually hung and she hadn't moved on from this kind of loop of misery. I tried to imagine a light for her to go into and told her she's forgiven for any bad choices she made in that life. She wasn't the one who killed her children. I became aware that MY lesson in this life is to speak out always when I feel someone is doing me wrong not in a nasty way but to not worry so much about those who do me wrong may think of me when I stick up for myself. To have the courage of my convictions. To not make choices based on somebody else's wants/needs just because I can't stand to feel their anger or disapproval.It gets foggy after that but my intention was to get her and the others I could feel but not see in the same loop into the light..where her children were waiting for her!This was very vivid until the end part so I'm not sure if she went. I'm also baffled that this happened without the intention of past life/akashi records. It was just a binaral beat meditation that I had no particular expectations of.I'm a bit blown away by it all today. I've even tried googling about the maid and her kids but didn't find anything.Anyone got any thoughts? X Blessings
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