All Apologies is a title of a song by Nirvana that I use to love and I thought I would borrow the title for my post.
I use to apologize for everything. For the words that didn't come out right to the faults of others. I would Apologies for everything that might hurt someone because I felt their pain. Now that I have gained some control over my Empathness (I may of just invented a new word) I don't apologize near as often because I usually can separate myself from their pain, not always but I'm getting better at it, and I know the worlds problems isn't my fault , not all of them anyway. I know I do get on here and vent when I'm hurt . It may come out as anger but it's actually pain. I'm sorry for burdening you all with that. I do forget from time to time that I could be putting pain on the ones that hadn't gotten control yet. I do apologize. I will do better. Or maybe no one pays me no mind and that would be ok with me also.
One thing I have found is as I gain some control other gifts blossom. One is "the knowing". The knowing what someone means. Knowing what they are thinking even though they plays it off in front of others. Ive become pretty good at reading between the lines and what exactly what someone meant. I had this happen to me bu a...self proclaimed expert..to say it Nicely.
And..for once I called her out on it. I guess to others I sounded mean but she is an Narcissist hiding behind an Empath mask. Of course others come to her defense but that is not what matters What matter to me is she knows now that I know what she was trying to apply to me without words. I guess I shouldn't of called her out but I did and I really don't care how it made her feel and if that makes me a narcissist then so be it. I may be far from intelligents but I am far from being a timid Empath any more. I'm not stupid and a little cocky at times but I love everyone. I have nothing but love for everyone. Even if I have to love from a distance. I do not try to insult anyone's intelligence but with that being said I didn't like my spiritual intelligence being insulted either. I rather greet someone's energy softly because I don't like mine being bumped.
I don't know why I'm posting this...I guess somewhere deep inside I shouldn't of called this "perfect person" out in front of her peers but I did . I hope there is a lesson in it for both of us. Rene's lesson: keep your mouth shut. Hers: never underestimate the abalities of a timided Empath.
I'm sorry if I have come off rough to any of you on here because it wasn't meant that way. If I ever sound uncaring it's because I'm thinking. Lol. Yes...I'm blonde. Lol.
Ok. I'm done
updated by @rene: 09/02/18 12:16:35PM