Are you "in the closet" about your abilities?
Welcome to the group! I've found usually other people are much more receptive to getting it than I am to giving it! LOL!
I replied to this on the weekend, but I must've forgotten to hit the save button cause it disappeared! I was just asking a bunch of different questions about giving readings, anything Icould think of. This has been a key element for me, so I was wondering what role it played in others' development of their reading skills.
It's always helpful for me to find ways to describe it. I see what you're saying about being clairvoyant, I think you're definitely right. I tend to shy away from that word too because I feel like people associate it with fortune telling. Aside from the odd rare occasion, I don't see the future, I only see the past. But, if a need a quick explanation, that actually makes a good one!
I think basically, I can see & feel energy. But, that makes me sound like more of a healer than a psychic. I tried doing energy healing, but I found it too boring! Not for me, I'm afraid.
Voodoo doctor?? =O Oh my. Not that there's anything wrong with being a Voodoo doctor, but my God, it's not synonymous with clairvoyant!!
Actually, past life readings are the easiest one for me! Everyone knows about the theory of past lives, even if they don't believe in it. I've never had any trouble approaching people about that, other than the fact that it blows my cover! I usually ask them if they believe in past lives, and whether they do or not, it doesn't come across as threatening, people are very open to the information, and don't feel like they need to believe in it to find the info intriguing.
I guess it matters to me so much because I'd love to eventually do this for a living, but I don't know how to advertise myself. I hate telling people, "No, sorry, I can't do that." They always seem so disapointed. I'd rather have a limiting definition, and then give them more info later than have them ask questions only to be told no! The only easy one is past life readings, that's pretty straight forward. But, I put too much pressure on myself, and feel like I need to be able to give them their past life names, and accurate dates,places, etc. I can only give generalities. I feel like that's not good enough to charge money for!
I think you should write a book one day!
Another heartbreaking story. I can relate to a lot of what you felt growing up. Man, it's hard being an empath & not understanding what the heck is going on! I coped by virtually shutting off all emotions. The only thing I've never had was encounters demons, although I'm very good at dealing with "dark" energy. I think it's something I learned to deal with in a past life, cause I certainly didn't learn it in this one! Ghosts never bothered me either. I basically told them not to because I was terrified of them. The terror was from my imagination ~ watching scary movies when I was too young, and from my brother telling me stories & winding me up! I'm glad at least your story has a happy ending. Thanks for sharing, and welcome to the group!
I would love to have your explanations to help me! I know it's more my own psychological problems at work here than the words, but it really helps to have that back-up. I would like to be able to tell people I'm psychic without using that word. I'm just not sure how else to describe it. "Intuitive" doesn't seem strong enough.
I don't consider myself a medium, but I can "see" spirits who've passed on, and what they're doing up in heaven. That's a weird one! I don't want to say I communicate with spirits because sometimes I do, but most times I don't. I just see them. Sometimes. LOL!!
This is something that has always confused me. I understand you're supposed to ask permission before you do anything for someone, whether it be healing or whatever. But, for the most part I felt urged to do things for people without asking, and I resisted it, but at the same time I felt like I had an innate sense of whether or not it was OK. Like, if I was doing it, the person was unconsciously giving me permission. I don't generally read people without permission, but there are times when the info is just there without my prompting, and a few times curiosity got the better of me!
I've also had things try to stop me. One lady's abusive husband passed away, and his spirit didn't like me talking to her, but it didn't stop me. In those cases, I don't push thing, but if I'm still getting info, I keep going, despite them trying to intimidate me! I've never encountered a very forceful spirit, though! Nothing I couldn't handle.
Don't get me wrong, I loooooooooooove Halifax. There's kind of a joke around here, "Welcome to Nova Scotia, set your clock back 10 years! That's a big part of what I love about it, though. It's old school, people still take time to enjoy life & appreciate family. There's not as much hustle & bustle as the rest of the world, but there's also consequences to that. It's traditionally a very religious place. People are open minded, but a little set in their ways. There is a "New Age" movement, but it's easily 10 years behind. It's picking up speed though. I hated Calgary, even though that's where I was born & raised. I find it emotionally cold & draining. But, ironically, the spiritual community is very advanced. Living in Nova Scotia is like being wrapped in a warm hug. =)
I feel it's a very special place, and in the 70's, a Buddhist leader felt so too. He encouraged his Buddhist followers to move here, and they did. People here were a little surprised at first, but they've integrated into the city, and now there's a Buddhist school & everything (that's where Ellen Paige went to school). There's even a Buddhist monestary in Cape Breton, which I'm dying to visit!!
OMG, I never would've thought that would make a difference! I don't think it matters for my readings, if the other person is drinking. When I was little, certain TV stars made me feel sick, and years later, I found out they had addiction problems. That instinct has subsided (thank God!) because it felt really gross.
As far as me drinking and reading, it didn't used to affect me, but I think drinking has had a cumulative effect over the years, and now it's hard for me to think straight after a few drinks, so that definitely affects it. I don't take any other drugs cause I'm too paranoid. I tend to look at drugs as a coping mechanism more than a spiritual aid. I don't judge people who use them, though. I know they're not good for me, but they might help someone else. Everyone's different.
Alcohol has helped me open up to people over the years, so it has been really helpful. Seems to be less helpful nowadays. I end up saying stuff I regret more now than I used to.
I think I asked too many questions for one discussion!! LOL! For me, a lot of my psychic abilities seemed to have come back when I got a soul retrieval done many years ago. I think I was born with them and must've developed them in previous lives, but I still have to practice to get confidence in using them. I can't figure out the source, which is something I would really like to know. I don't know how to meditate, but when I do readings, it's the closest to a meditative state I can get. I just sort of clear my mind (it's the only time my mind IS clear!!) and wait for an answer. I usually see things and get feelings, but they can appear in any form. Usually, it starts as a flash, and it can be easily dismissed, so I have to pay attention to it to get more info. It's like a story that develops as long as I follow it. I don't really ask a question first, which is kinda weird. At least not in words, I kind of ask in feeling. Anyway, as the story progresses, I put it into words, and when I see something I don't quite understand, I ask myself questions about it until I figure it out.
The strangest thing for me has been the fact that I've only been able to confirm certain *types* of readings, even though they all FEEL the same, the info only seems to be correct for certain things. Past life readings have been great, but picking up futures or info about ghosts, fall flat. I get confused because the info comes through exactly the same way, and it's not like I ever draw a blank. I've just learned I can't trust what I get concerning specific categories. This applies to readings about people who've crossed over. Someone can give me the name of a living person, but the info I get doesn't make any sense to them. It's only once they've crossed over the info becomes accurate. Very strange. I can't tell if someone is alive or dead by their energy because they look the same to me!
Thanks for being the first one to take the plunge! Very interesting! You're so good at describing it. When I was 17 just before I went to University, I went to a psychic, and she encouraged me to take sciences & said I could look at things logically where she didn't have that ability to connect the dots, and figure out where these things come from, etc. She said I'd be interested in proving psychic abilities exist. Which I am. I dropped out after the first year, though. Hmmmm....
Don't get too caught up if you are afraid the claw is a negative symbol, it's not. My feeling is that it represents protection, and the ball is like a crystal ball. I feel you may be tapping into some psychic energy within yourself, and you need to trust you will be drawn to things (like these objects) that will protect & guide you.
I don't really know what to tell ya, other than I get a very strong impression there IS *something* you are required to do about it. But, I haven't a clue what that is!!! Usually when this happens, the person is required to pay attention to these spirits to some degree, but I don't think that's it. When Roxy said *gives spirit coyote a milk bone and pats its head* I got the feeling it might be something like that, you need to give them an offering of some kind, on a regular basis. Not that you need to interact with them, but almost like feeding stray animals, they need redirection?? Giving them some kind of offering would help them feel like they've been acknowleged. I'm thinking there's some info about this in other cultures/religions that might be helpful to you.
I'm pretty sure in the first reading I did for you I mentioned something about you being destined for greatness... ok, maybe I didn't say it in those words (probably cause I knew it would freak you out!), and it always sounds better coming from an Archangel.... LOL! I'm just teasing you. This news comes as no suprise to me! BUT, just remember, what you're feeling right now is mostly ego. I say that cause I know you can take it! Just take one step at a time, and focus on what's happening now, rather than the future. It can be overwhelming if you try to look that far ahead. Like, in the 90's when I read stuff about the "earth changes", the world supposedly ending & all that, it had me so freaked out I became paralyzed. Going through it is nothing like what I anticipated, so all that fear was really wasted energy that could've been spent enjoying my life. Remember, the cosmos has a wicked sense of humour, so "greatness" might turn out to be something completely unexpected!!!
Since my Page was stuck, I discovered the "My Discussions" link, so I was going through all the old messages to see if I'd missed anything, and I clicked on a thread that someone had posted awhile ago with a picture of an Orb. At the time, it looked like a Guardian Angel to me, but when I looked at it again, I could see a Swan inside it, so I just posted another message about that. The person must've deleted the thread cause I can't find it now, hence the "error" message!
Nice to hear from ya! I think I've been justifying other people's emotions into my life for so long (before I knew I was an empath) that it's hard for me to know what's actually ME and what's not. Most of the time, I can find reasons for just about any emotion that flies my way. It was only the rare exception that I couldn't find any possible reason for. It's a challenge to figure out who I am in that whole jumble.
Some people say that your "guide" is actually your higher self, so I think you're onto something there! There's constant yammering in my brain, too, and I only realize this stuff in retrospect, never in the moment.