Why am I so different? Past life reading
I'm seeing 2 past lives for you. The first one is a soldier in WWI. British, a man, very tall, thin, very pale skin, and dirty blonde hair. Young, like 19. There's a real feeling of disjointedness, clumsy, disconnected. He felt a strong sense of service when he enrolled in the army. Also, a sense of loneliness, never really fitting in. It started with his birth family, they were sort of strict in their beliefs, but really they were just a little selfish, and used their beliefs as an excuse to be selfish. More so the dad, he was the ruler of the house, and the mother wanted to be more emotional with the kids, but was prevented by the dad. I see a sister as well, although when she acted out, it was a little more accepted because she was the apple of her dad's eye. You (as this man) tried very hard to be religious, and be what you were supposed to be, but it only left you feeling disconnected from yourself & everyone else. I him kneeling by his bed at night and praying really hard. I feel like he was injured in the war, and expected a hero's welcome when he came home, but it was almost like the opposite when he came back, like he's family forgot about him while he was gone, and there was just a cold shoulder when he came back. This led to horrible depression, and while it wasn't advisable for him to re-enlist in the war, he did, and was killed. It's almost like a suicide because he basically knew (and didn't care) that he would die. Yikes!
The second one is a woman, a very powerful shaman-type lady. Lots of powers & abilities, a wonderful life, completely connected, grounded, etc. This is like the total opposite of the other life! I do feel like you have many similar lives from both sides of this spectrum. I even think the disjointed ones are usually (possibly always) male, and the connected ones are female. I'm seeing another female, possibly in England. I see you as a 16 year old girl, full of life & mischeif. It's older, like 1600 or 1700's. It was just a wonderful life. Interesting! I'd appreciate any feedback you might have.