-- I so enjoyed reading your post. You gave me a lot to ponder. I haven't thought about our calling as empaths. The fact that we're meant to take in people's negative energy & ground it out to better the world. I've felt it a burden my whole life that I have this gift. When I was younger I felt so deeply & intensely it was too much for me to handle at times that I came to really dislike the emotional side of myself. I would drown it out with substances/alcohol but it never lasted. I no longer drown out the feelings & am coming to a place of acceptance with being an empath. It's difficult for me because I don't want to feel other people's negative energy & work to ground it out into the earth, I question, "why me?". I know that's selfish, but it's honest. I do feel as though I've innately completed this task since I was a child though, it's so odd. I didn't realize I was empathic, but as a child I knew I had to connect with nature, express my feelings/thoughts to the earth, trees and ground. I would release it all to this power greater than I. It was magical. I find myself going through what you go through, the ups & downs. They are inevitable. I can focus on the good energies for a period of time, but I always come back down as well. Because, well --- what goes up, must come down. It's the natural cycle of things for me. I'm learning I have to accept it, then find that time for myself to connect with nature & ground out these feelings. Sometimes I don't know who the feeling is coming from, whether it's multiple people or just one individual? I find that if I fixate on the feelings they grow, so there's a lot of ME involved as well. I want to learn more so I can be more of service, but I also want to accept myself. It's hard to accept my empathic qualities for some reason. I'm not sure. Do you have experience with that?
I would also love to know how to identify when there is a hole in my aura/energy @Karen2