Energetic healing from narcissistic abuse
I used to be in a cult. The guru was , through regression, identified as supposedly having been Jesus, Buddha, and a bunch of other famous prophets, philosophers etc., but in the end turned out to be a psychologically, mentally, and spiritually manipulating psychopath.
As I developed CFS shortly after leaving the cult, I feared for years that he was attacking me, and somehow causing my maladies. I did a lot of healing work too, forgiveness, cutting cords, etc, etc. Whenever I saw healers, they usually confirmed my suspicion - even years after I left the cult. One day I realized though that I was giving him far too much power! I had moved country, I had scores of angels helping me - even if he had the life force of his hundred followers at his disposal to attack me, how could scores of angels not protect me sufficiently? (There is even the English Channel between him and me now, so a decent body of, isolating, protecting salt water buffer!). I decided that is neither that smart, nor capable (nor would have the time!)to reach me, and disaffect me that badly. I let it go, and found other more reasonable sources of my unwellness! I kinda swam in not really knowing what was going on for a while longer, but then life started to make a lot more sense
I know my story is slightly different, but believe me, when I did fear that the attacks were coming from him, it felt very real!! What I am trying to say is - do not close the door to considering that what you feel is not coming from the inside, but from the outside! I am not trying to make you feel paranoid, but I my experience, if I e.g. get particular strong, and viscous healing resistance from a client - those energies will try to convince me of just about any other source, but my client. They'll tell me it is because of my diet, a phone call I had earlier, what I saw on TV last night, what I just read on a spiritual blog, a past life etc. It all feels possible, and somehow logic, but falls apart upon closer inspection, applying logic, my past experiences etc. Yes, some traumas cut deep, but it sounds like you have earnestly tried to cleanse out all hurt etc energies, practice forgiveness etc. Our bodies are not that big, to harbor endless amounts of trauma energies (unless we keep topping them up, by believing they are endless)...
I cannot tell you for certain obviously, if your personal healing process (re your father) is finished, but I would recommend to not 'insist' on knowing where your pain comes from. Accordingly pray, and ask for perfect healing of the source, or sources of any pain you get - wherever, whenever, whatever. Leave it up to your helpers to find, see, and heal the source/ sources. Whenever it is possible for them to let you know about some source, I am sure they'll fill you in (sometimes it might takes a while though for them to get that info through to you. Just be patient, and get on with your life,a s best as possible.) And just make sure that, if you have not already - you give the Divine card blanch re the amount, strength, extend, and frequency of help that is necessary, to make your life fulfilled, happy, and effortless.
Hope that helps in some way! Love and Light!