I agree with you. I do believe I'm being totally used. More problems have risen, and I'm being looked at to take the lead. I have another meeting with my boss to discuss things. She actually just admitted the other day what is and isn't my duties and working to remove them.
I have often thought about that, my life path. I think I'm off of it. When I first took this job years ago, I got such a bad feeling about it. I got sick. Now years later looking back, it's been stressful. However, I did learn more about people from it. But the stress is taking its toll and my health has declined.
I work in such a toxic negative environment it's hard to be positive. I still try everyday. I feel chaos all around. It's not like that thick pea soup feeling of tension, but more like pillow everyday. I often think have I absorbed this much negative energy that is why my car battery keeps dying? Mechanics can't find anything wrong. The lights tend to flicker more, and of course my computer at work keeps freezing up and our IT dept has no idea why.
I need a sick day.