When the feelings are too intense...
Hi there! I'm new to the community, and by spending just 2 minutes reading threads, I may have found my niche. Just wondering if anyone can relate to receiving energy from another that is in so many ways dark or negative, that it physically makes you ill? I feel this in those that one could label sociopaths. It is rare (thank goodness) that I come across a sociopath in my life, but when I do, my reactions are intense. Their eyes are completely devoid of consciousness. The eyes themselves are usually black to me. I can tell right away how their manipulative actions will unfold. A thick darkness comes out that is pretty frightening. I will react to this physically, feeling sick to my stomach and light headed. Emotionally I react with sadness, fear, and anger. I am a person who looks for the good in everyone, and can look at anyone with compassion, with the exception of this situation. All in all, it is a very heavy burden. I bring this up because a close family member now has a baby with a sociopath. Red flags came up from the start. I gave it a year to prove my gut reaction wrong. During this time I would feel ill, low, and depressed during and the day after of interacting with this person. I gave it a year until this individual directly hurt me, and I decided he could not be in my life any more. I went through depression. The problem is, as a result, I have lost a piece of my life. I have not seen this person in 10 months, but I lose out on the rest of the family. There are no hard feelings or resentment on my part, I just cannot be around him. Sorry to turn this into a Dear Abby column, but can anyone relate? This is the biggest struggle I've encountered as an empath, and any feedback would be greatly appreciated! X0
updated by @univrslchild: 01/20/17 08:37:45AM