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Sadness is a very powerful emotion. You can use it to grow. I still don't understand how I grew using sadness, envy, and anger, but I did. I started putting more effort into myself out of rage. My workouts became an everyday thing. My long hours at work were the last thing on my mind through this point. The only thing I desired was revenge.One day I woke up thinking to myself, "why should I continue to feel this way? I don't need to feel this way, I've accomplished a lot and others see me as their leader wanting my secrets as if I have any."During that time I was alone and greatly depressed. Everyday was a reminder of what I must do. My sadness, envy, and anger pushed me into my greater self. Now I am happy and enjoying myself constantly. Everyone sees me as a leader but there are times when the emotions come and I dismiss them because I feel satisfied with myself.I hope it makes sense because truthfully I don't understand how I was able to do it. It seemed more like determination to prove to myself I can be what I want.
Grounding quickly in a pinch. How do you do it?
Cheer myself up by promising to do something by the end of the day that I will enjoy. During that time I'd think about what was bothering me and find some type of solution. If I think of something then that's good, if not then I'll enjoy the night.This could be as simple as watching a bunch of series, listening to music, playing with animals or kids, or just going to hang with some friends. Maybe even a workout. Working out keeps you in a good mood overall and makes you feel better about yourself.
another post about depression ...
At least you're not me.
Ive had more than enough bosses hate me to where I can't get a raise. They were so immature. I was young and making min wage but I was highly despised by the upper management no matter how hard I worked. Had lazy coworkers and my work would be piled up. I eventually quit. I had to do it in a tacky way too.
I had a gf that I thought was so good. She left me for her boss. Then she'd visit me at work to say she missed me and lead me to nothing.
I crashed my car on the night of my bday...
My house burnt down
My family is not there for me. They all turned their back to me for a stranger. Called me a liar even when they knew the other person was lying. They just did not care for me. When things were good they would not leave me alone with bad news. As soon as things got bad for me they were so happy and couldn't help but mention my misfortune. But I am a very strong minded person. I got better than all of them during a bad time and they dislike me more yet they try to be like me..
Friends? I don't have that. The guys that acted like my friend only liked my company because I attract women. Women who acted like my friends left after my ex.
It doesn't help that I have to worry about death every night. Criminals dislike me because I make so much money yet Im not their enemy.
If you were me for a day, then you'd enjoy it because the outside world is so kind. You'd hate it because in your world you are not liked and you know it.It took a while. After I was done feeling Sorry for myself and wanted to do something about it, I did.
You sound like you have the ability to "disarm" a person because you can sense what you should say to them. If that makes sense to you? I have the same effect on others as well. It's like you know exactly what to say yet you're terrified but not showing any signs of fear.There's a group about healers if you'd like to read somethingNice, long, interesting introduction and welcome!
updated by @reckless: 03/11/17 04:02:47AM
Haha that's sad really but that's how most guys are. I don't bother with any person that rejects me. These days that's rare though.
I can relate to being hit on and feeling uncomfortable. I quit this job, thank goodness. This lady is so fine but she was married and spoke no English. I would try to speak Spanish but I couldn't understand her every word so it was hard to talk. One day she asked me to date her daughter and I said Id like to meet her. When I met her and had no interest... Now work is hella weird and she hit on me for two days straight kept asking to hang out right then and there. I was considered bad for rejecting her...but she's not my type.
One night in a bar Im wasted and this lady walks over talking to the guys Im with then drags me in. She followed me for the rest of the night.. I took her number to attend a house party but never sent a text
I used to get wasted so often. I was hanging with the wrong crowd now that I look back. They didn't like me much but they knew I attract the finest women and they are the biggest liars you could ever meet. I hung with them just to feel accepted. I don't drink as much as I used to, I can hold my own, but I go when in the mood..once every two or three months haha
Parties weren't a big deal. I got used to them after being dragged to them at Age 19.
You sound like a strong person, mentally, Id have to see a bicep to say physically haha.
I went through hell too. Not that long ago either. I kept saying to myself before it happened "something is going to happen. I feel Sorry for my future self because hell is going to break loose soon" and it did.. crashed my fast car at 100mph and my finger had a scratch that was 1-2cm deep. The day I got my car everyone distanced themselves from me. After they came back criticizing and saying they'd miss me. From that day I tore my heart in half and got rid of a lot of people that I was so close to. I am alone, and I do not care. I knew one day Id be all alone and a part of me looked forward to it. Everything is fine and the same people are repeating history. I have no interest in that at all.
Birds creep me out. Of all the places to land you choose my cars mirror?! Then they just stare. Im sure people think on weird.One thing I hate is when you try your best not to be noticed and people just won't look away. I know empaths have higher frequencies and they're noticed by most, but Im so tired of unwanted attention. Then you can't ignore them completely. Even if you miss every word they say you just feel it.
Ive cut off some friends from years and been cut by others.Some guys I just stopped talking to them. Others I guess don't like being around me often, which means they don't like me.Had two women I was close to but each stopped talking months after my ex left me. I guess I wasn't their friend..I knew them growing up. It hurt for a while but what can I do? Between 4-11 years of friendships...all gone.
Im just so fed up!I will say in the morning I am too emotional but I always think of my entire day and relationships before I start my day.The thing is everyone won't leave me the hell alone! I want my alone time and just can't have i. I tell them another day and they try to argue and come around the very next day with their emotions I can easily sense because they are too intense. O don't want to be around that bs. I don't want your bad mood around me. I don't want you bragging to me because you feel beneath me for no reason at all.I have to work practically everyday and I tell them this. At first they were all upset because I work 10 hours per day. But now they wait for me to get off to say Let's hang out. Im tired and I had a very long day. I want to sit down, relax, and be alone. Just because I have a day off does not mean you can make plans on my schedule to tell me to hang with you on my day off.. who the hell said I wanted to hang out? No I NEED a day off and away from everyone. I don't need to explain myself to you. Get over it. I don't plan your days or tell you to hang with me because my day is boring or something isn't going my way.Then you hang with them to realize they are more annoying than ever. They always want to tell a story where someone is doing better than you but they can't even talk about themselves ever. It is such a weak thing to do. When people do this and I disappear they get mad. Why would I want to be around someone who wants to talk down upon me? Then the same people you tell you're busy. When they're in your company they want to pretend to be busy. Go back home and handle your business. I have no time for that. Bye. Then they get upset because they can't get "petty revenge"i will not go into how they use lying to get what they want. Then when they have no more lies to run or get seen as who they are they want to give a dry Sorry as if they meant it.Do not be deceived by these people. Keep very far away from them. Do not let them in no matter how much they may seem to need you. They will come as your closest family, friends and maybe as a lover. Watch out because it is not worth it.I apologize for my long posts... I am very emotional only in the mornings. During the day Im fine..
updated by @reckless: 01/29/17 08:25:49PM
Libra sun, Scorpio moon, Sagittarius risingEverything is an adventure, a fun time. There are times when I have to take charge but I enjoy it. One day I can be extremely social to where you would think I had no friend. Talk about any and everything. Then the next day Id be so quiet where you think something bad happened. I will say a few words but you'd think I was planning to kill everyone with the look on my face.I make others feel comfortable the moment I speak. Most times I can sense they are a bit shaken so I will say something to let them know Im calm and you should be too.Sometimes my scorpio side dominates my Libra but Libra always make sure I have a conscious. That means if I happen to lose control then my Libra said will make me say Sorry and repair things. Scorpio wants his way and no other. Very stubborn and gets what he wants through hard work and never listening to others. Even if he fails he just seems to have some other great idea to carry him further.
It is different for everyone.. we may have something's in common but psychic traits are not all the same...I can read a person so well and predict what they will do in the future (not their career or anything like that, I mean their personality and who they are.) Most times when Ive had a bad feeling or good feeling about a person, I am mostly right each time. Even I can't explain itThe part about hearing thoughts and emotions, I think I can experience both at some times.For me to hear what you're saying Id need to tune in to you. When I pay no attention to you it means I do not see you at all. When you catch my attention you will see a person stare into your soul unwillingly and most are very uncomfortable with it.Your thoughts will come across as intuition. You might not show any signs but Id have a good idea What's on your mind. You can tell me you're fine with a smile but I can see something is not right with you.People think Im very good with my words but Im not. I somehow just know what to talk about with certain people. All I would do is mention it to them and they ask who told me and I say it's just a feeling.
Dealing with envy
Hi BB I know the feeling too well of hiding your good qualities to avoid people from disliking you, Ive been doing it since I was a kid. At some point it became a habit but everyone just knew I was different no matter how hard I tried.In high school I was in an honors program and I was one of the five smartest in the room. I was isolated often. I thought maybe racism but nope they were friends with anyone but me. Some days I would be challenged.As I grew older I just wanted to fit in and not be noticed. I knew I could be great at any point but it affected who I thought was my friends and others around me.Then when you're down everyone has something to say and even when they see you have a new plan they are not happy at all. Even when you're down they're still unhappy.You know there's this criminal I knew growing up. He was jealous of me back then and even today yet he's made well over 800k in profits in drugs. I just don't get it. You bought your happiness but you're still jealous because of what?My ex will not leave me alone. Her man is richer than me for now. When she left I wasn't making much, 100-300 per week, compared to making that in a day, but I haven't told her. Even after numerous arguments and saying I would be the very last person in the world but if you met us both then you'd think I broke up with her. It is strange. When she finds me I avoid her.I don't do things to make anyone feel bad or negative. I let them swim in their own misery and avoid them. Why should I lower myself or be something Im not? I'll let them do what they do best, it comes back room them anyway. They complain often too.A lot of people wonder why Im happy all day. It is because I put myself first. If Im in the mood for something then I'll get it in some way. I think Im selfish for that but I won't bring someone with me to make me happy, they will disappoint me in some way. I have no time for it and most have learned that by now.When the world becomes cold, you take care of yourself only. They will come running back treating you better than ever. You will already be happy. The problem is after some time has passed they will revert to their old ways and that is when you give them another vacation from you. They will learn or out of my presence.I am past the point of caring what anyone thinks of me. I just wonder why people do this as well. It doesn't make any type of sense. When I do what I do they come with their head down ashamed wanting me to feel bad but I won't. Do not be so gentle even as an empath. People LOVE taking advantage of our emotions because they know our emotions are our greatest weakness.
Dealing with envy
I am an attractive male that works hard everyday...
I do not have anyone to talk to. No friend. No brother. No dad. Just lonely.
I can't turn to anyone for anything. My mom does not like me. She doesn't talk to me. She'll ask for money then vanish. She does the same to her mom.
My dad pretends to like me. When I crashed my new car he was the first person to laugh. Out of touch for months but called so often to hear me unhappy. When I turned my situation around he stopped calling.
At work if the place is run by a male then Im in sure trouble over nothing. I get called out on everything. They'll ask me all the question like there are no other employees and keep me working alone while everyone works together. They usually have a crush on some female coworker and most times that same woman had a crush on me which didn't help. Even if I avoid the woman Im still a target but greeting her will almost insure he will give me the most work later.
When I meet a person for the first time they usually underestimate me. I try hard not to say much and let them think Im nothing just to avoid them bring jealous. It fails because men are too insecure, even the rich ones. I can make them feel like a million dollars and they will go out of their way to dislike me.
I was working for these people I never met. They were dispatchers and then one day they wanted to meet me since they claimed Im so kind and warm. After meeting I knew I was disliked. The next day they seemed to have an attitude. After that I started to make less money, then less, then less. It was where I was making under minimum wage. Suddenly business was bad. I never mistreated anyone, or did wrong, or piss anyone off, but each time they dispatched me they seemed so unhappy. After a while they started sending me to the farthest places while waiting 2-4 hours vs before with everything being close and a call every 20 minutes.
I just want to be unnoticed and live a normal life.
updated by @reckless: 12/25/17 06:46:30PM
Im not sure if I have any empath abilities or psychic.I just want to know what it means to see parts of your future in a dream. As a teen I had so many that came true and others that were only a nightmare.I haven't had them in so long but recently I did over an ex. Everything I saw became the opposite. It was like I was using my gift through her eyes in my dream. For instance in one I seen her having so much fun without me and never looking my way as if she was avoiding me. In reality it seems I had a great time and I forgot about her. She even came to my job where I avoided her.I was driving and music was up a bit and windows were not cracked. I heard sirens I could not see. Opened the window and heard them at least half mile away. Strange.Dogs act strange around me according to their owners. Cats not so much but mine is gone. 16 years old and had my personality (only pet I'll claim as mine).Kids smile at me and want my attention. One hugged me too. Im a guy btw so yeahI can read people too well. Most times I know what they want and it scares me.
updated by @reckless: 10/21/17 10:41:27AM