Psychic and Paranormal
I dunno, just yet. I'm trying to evaluate and level out on several things going on. I have floaters, and see shadows and mists. I have always had this really weird thing though, that got outta control a while back and scared the daylights outta me, cause I nearly had an accident. Every once in a while, I'd get what I call "flashy lights" . It would be kinda like a jagged silver lined circle flashing in my peripheral vision. But after a bit it would go away. Last summer, I stayed at a friend's place, and this started happening, but it started growing bigger and bigger, like something out of a spook flick,which I don't normally watch, cause they they put me on edge. Anyway, I was kinda scared, so I yelled at whatever it was, said I didn't understand and please go away. It did....kinda faded out. The next evening going home, it started again while I was driving down the hwy, nearly blinding me with light. I yelled a bit and it got smaller, but I stopped at a convenient store, and was trying to talk with the clerk, but it overwhelmed me once again, and I nearly passed out while trying to act semi normal, and told the clerk I was sorry, not feeling good, could he hurry. Got back in my car and was really ticked at this point, cause whatever it was coulda killed me on the road, and then was overwhelming me in front of folks in public and no one else could see or sense it. I suppose I scolded whatever it was, off and on for an hour or so and I didn't think this was a good thing because it endangered my life like it did. I kinda apologized and asked it to go into the light, told it the light was good, but I have zero idea if this is what I should have done or not. Maybe my bad, but I just didn't know how to deal with it. "Flashy lights" have not happened since then.Sometimes I just know stuff. I'll be having a conversation and will just say something to folks I shouldn't know. Same happens at times when I write an email or something. But email is less obvious as it may be something I kinda think about, but just write it in a way that I normally wouldn't. Then I gotta explain myself. Rather than flail around misdirecting though, as I've done most of my life, now I just say, someone is trying to tell you something, and if they want, I talk it thru and try to help them figure it out, cause it certainly doesn't make sense to me. It's Not like I'm getting visions like I've seen on TV shows, Medium or Ghost whisperer, or even hearing voices. But I do get goosebumps, tingling in my ears, and sometimes feel a presence.Oh,and there also was the time I stayed over at another friend's and just as I was about to go to sleep, I felt an arm kind creep up my upper back and hand slide across my neck. Talk about losing my marbles. That really scared me. My friend being a skeptic, was kinda pissed I was making a fuss, and told me it was just a vivid dream. Whatever! Not the first time something not there has touched me. But, I Didn't say that. I've had my foot shaken when I was asleep. I had fallen asleep with the TV on and just as my foot was kinda shaken, they were announcing on the news about Princess Dianna's accident. I have no idea what that had to do with anything, other than I greatly admired her. Mostly I get a light sensation on my arms. To be honest, if this is some kinda calling, I'd really rather not have folks I can't see touching me and stuff. Is that normal? I'm a little apprehensive about delving into this on my own, and I can't afford to pay anyone to mentor or teach me right now, so I suppose keeping it at bay is the best I can hope for at this point. I've kinda learned not to ask for help unless I got dough, and even if I could afford it, I don't know who would be honestly qualified to help. So, I have myself another rock n hard place. LOL.