I've always been the one everyone has leaned on. Since I was 5, I have felt like it's been my responsibility to take care of everyone. This led me to get my doctorate in natural healing.
Working with severally I'll individuals has always been draining because of the fear, depression and anxiety... so I took a break and want to get back to work but I feel completely detached, not wanting to be bothered and numb. I no longer have compassion for people, let alone empathy... strange because I am an empath. I still pickup on people's energy and can feel what others are feeling if I allow myself to be open. It's one extreme or the other. I have lost my desire to help others... and I don't like feeling this way. In the last month several individuals have passed away that have been close to the family and I feel nothing.
I also have felt like certain individuals in my life know how I am and have been taking advantage of my big heart... I'm sure this isn't helping. I see people as parasites and have detached.
I have very little towards animals also, I'm assuming this is because of the animal abuse I was exposed to last year and I was unable to do anything about it until the animals were in my possession.
I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from compassion fatigue and I don't know how to deal. Currently I'm dealing with it with isolation...Any suggestions?
PS ... and I just had a baby and that seemed to push me over the edge. My emotions towards my baby and husband are intense and no one matters to me.
updated by @cara: 01/24/18 10:03:28AM