Hi I’m looking for some advice on some conflicting advice I have had on my healing abilities. I have been able to heal for 30 plus years but not really bothered about it, but due to being ill a few years ago I got into Reiki and rose up to Master 6 months ago. My Master said I had always been able to heal and was channelling Reiki from the start. I set up a website and have adverts on the top line in yell and at my local Asda/Walmart in a prominent position. Six months later I have had 1 customer. I understand I may not be ready yet but my intentions have always been to be a healer.
In order to raise my vibration further I have been attending a local Meetup meeting of like minded people who want to chat about spiritual awakening. The chair is a lady who says she is connected to source and has been for ages. I had a private session with her and she said the reason why I have no business, and this is from source is that I am not being “authentic”. She says I am a natural healer and Reiki was invented by Mr Usui a few hundred years ago and it was his journey not mine. I should be my own healer and advertise as this and not advertise Reiki healing.
It took a leap of faith, I have always been a scientist and wanted proof of things, to believe in the “force” that is Reiki and have had lots of proof since. Now I am being asked to discard it and go back to being just me as a healer and do that. I can’t distinguish between the two anymore and I don’t know what is what and which direction to go.
She says there is a paradigm shift going on and people will come to me because I am an authentic healer and I don’t need a certificate saying I can do it. Her advice was to advertise on local Fb as a healer and ask for people one day a week. Just do what I feel I need to and word of mouth will get me the business I need to live, donations only. I understand this but I am struggling with the definition of the healing I am doing. The Empath in me is just a bit suspicious of her, she said I needed to drink water, which I hate with avengence and if I don’t look after myself how can I expect source to look after me? Are they words to come from a pure love source? I pride myself in being able to spot lies/bull and something just rings the bell when she speaks.
I don’t really know what I can do to understand the dilemma and hope you can shed some light on it for me. I want to move forward but I’m at an impasse!
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