By Dice, 2016-02-09
I have been very emotional the last few weeks and now it has been made clear as to why.
My family prepares to let my mom go.
It is has been very emotional for me because despite my different ways of "viewing" the world she has always encouraged me to be myself. She has never faulted me for my sesitivity/inspirations or made me feel as though it was something to be ashamed of. Letting go would not be so hard if she was not one of my biggest fans.
Having said that I know that she is physically exhausted and in a great deal of pain. I have to acknowledge that if I were in her shoes I don't know that I could fight like she has. She is an example of never giving up no matter how bad things are, but also that when even when the fight is almost over that there also has to be a choice about quality of life for the remainder of her time here.
I am glad to have had "borrowed" time with her and grateful that because of the technology today, my kids have been able to know her when they would not have otherwise. We are loosing the family matriarch, but she does not go without very solid instruction for myself and my siblings to be closer to each other.
All of her doctors tell her that they wish all of their patients were like her. She loves to make people smile despite everything she has been through.
I am also glad that I have had time to spend with her to prepare for this special transition. She will "walk through the door into the next room".. as she puts it. From my experiences and what I have seen I know that this is true. They never really leave us and if you listen closely you canstill use your senses to know they are there.Iexperience thiswith the family and friends who have already gone.
I wanted to share this for anyone that is facing the loss of a loved oneeither suddenly or over a period of time. They never really leave, they just step into the next room.
By Dice, 2016-01-24
I do not practice mediation as a profession though I keep finding myself being sought to do it.
I have recently become aware of the darker side of trying to help others on a whole new level. Though this was gradual over a period of years, I found myself to be in a situation with friends where I had tocut ties altogether.
Where a mediator would try to help find a common ground or place so that communication is possible,I found myself being used as the common ground. Lesson learned but I thought I would share for those of you that might find yourself in a situation such as this. This became an extreme drain because I have been doing this over a period of years.. before becoming a member here.
I love my friends and am saddened that I have had to distance myself from them. The hurt is my inability to set the boundary where I should have. They will not go to professionals or take accountability for their actions causing the disconnect in their relationship.
Be Aware. There are many that do this every day without knowing it. If proper steps are not taken to keep yourself out of the pitfall I found myself in it can really be hurtful for everyone.
By Dice, 2014-09-14
"I no longer have patience for certain things, not because Ive become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me.
I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and thats why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience. Meryl Streep
By Dice, 2014-08-10
"Imagine feeling more love from someone than you have ever known. Youre being loved even more than your mother loved you when you were an infant, more than you were ever loved by your father, your child, or your most intimate loveranyone. This lover doesnt need anything from you, isnt looking for personal gratification, and only wants your complete fulfillment.
You are loved just for being who you are, just for existing. You dont have to do anything to earn it. Your shortcomings, your lack of self-esteem, physical perfection, or social and economic success none of that matters. No one can take this love away from you, and it will always be here."
From Energy Therapy
By Dice, 2013-08-24
I miss you.. it has been an adventure the last few weeks. I have been hit with one thing after another... and my life is backtracking if that makes sense.. I have been finding people from my past and making peace with them. Such a good feeling to be here.. but I also feel the rest of what is to come.
You should all know... that I am blessed to know you... lift each other up everyday.. and pull yourselves into the uncomfortable so you can press forward. Much love to all of you..
Youre the most gorgeous creature on the planet. How do you not know that youve completely ruined me for other men?
R.K. Lilley, In Flight
By Dice, 2013-02-24
What Love means to a 4-8 year old: A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, What does love mean? The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined
See what you think:
When my grandmother got arthritis , she couldnt bend over and paint her toenails anymore.. So my grandfather does it for her all the time , even when his hands got arthritis too. Thats love. Rebecca, age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth. Billy, age 4
Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other. Karl, age 5
Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs. Chrissy, age 6
Love is what makes you smile when youre tired. -Terri, age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him , to make sure the taste is OK. Danny, age 7
Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing , you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that.
They look gross when they kiss Emily, age 8
Love is whats in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presentsand listen. Bobby, age 7
If you want to learn to love better , you should start with a friend who you hate Nikka, age 6
Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt , then he wears it everyday.. Noelle, age 7
Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well. Tommy, age 6
During my piano recital , I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasnt scared anymore. Cindy, age 8
My mommy loves me more than anybody. You dont see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night. Clare, age 6
Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken. Elaine, age 5
Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford. Chris, age 7
Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day. -Mary Ann, age 4
I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones. Lauren, age 4
When you love somebody , your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you. - Karen, age 7
Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesnt think its gross.. Mark, age 6
You really shouldnt say I love you unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget. Jessica, age 8
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentlemans yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, Nothing , I just helped him cry.
By Dice, 2013-01-26
Growing up feeling connected but alone pushed me to find peace in music for expression of what I could not express otherwise. I still find this to be true today.
I see people around me placing blame of behavior on certain types of music. I think people choose music based on what they want to feel. I hope that one day we could teach those around us that this is the case and that while I agree certain music is not "good" for biological rythymn, we also choose what to listen to.
I also wanted to share that I saw an interesting show about the effects of music on water quite some time ago. It was very interesting and opened up for me the ionic response that changes water. That traumatic experiences show in plants and is being used to solve crimes and give missing pieces related to time and place. Intriguing to watch..
Moving right along.........
By Dice, 2013-01-21
I got curious about events that may have happened on the day I was born, and found it quite interesting. Watch out world here I come moment?> Interesting none - the - less. Mom went into labor on 4/3/74...and I was born on 4/4/74. Premature by exactly one month.. I find I have always questioned how 9 months figures into what our traits will be and if that is disrupted when that cycle is not complete. Have asked this question before but suspect I have more qualified people than ever to help sort this out. Light and Love ~ Candice Oh..and my dad passed on April 23rd 2011..just weird. Neat to look back and see what it was like when I born.. although many passed as I was coming in..
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