updated by @rene: 03/02/17 10:47:55PM
I am not at my best right now, so forgive me. The only advice I can offer you is to be patient, it will come. The whole concept behind meditation is to center yourself, first and foremost. For many of us, we get alot of visions or hear things we go nuts trying to affix meaning to.
I am sure you were given a message bc the vision was so personal. If you didn't understand what that message was, it isn't time for you to understand yet. Trust me, I know how frustrating it can be trying to get at the message. Trust that your guides are working in your best interest, allow whatever comes, and when the timing is right, you will understand. Hang in there. May you be blessed... Chris