Meditation was impossible for me at first, but with the supplements I am taking now, I can listen to isochronic beat music with subliminal sleep messages. That alone is not nearly enough. Withdrawal from this drug (xanax) causes sheer terror, severe shaking, raging anger, crying, sweating, nausea, throwing up, hallucinations, heart attacks, seizures, muscle pain, high blood sugar and pressure, racing pulse, and a lot more. I am using all natural treatments, including the strongest one alt. docs I know of prescribe for this problem, Seriphos. Removing the Xanax removes the brakes from the fight or flight nervous system, so your "rest and digest" functions are turned off entirely. I have a minimum of 60 more weeks of tapering off of this, since it is life-threatening to quit it too fast, so thanks for the prayers. I am seeing a holistic therapist in two weeks for advice. It will also take a minimum of 17 years to get my brain function back, if it does come back, so I will not live to see complete recovery. I hope this will scare anyone reading this away from benzodiazepine drugs. They are never worth it! Back when I was put on them, they were not even sure they were addictive, or so they said.....I don't trust Big Pharma as far as I can throw them.
I hope the job works out for you. It sounds very interesting and rewarding in terms of service to others......the number one requirement for happiness in a job for most of us who are empaths. Designing humane zoos will become very important as we continue to lose species in the wild at a rapid rate. There is a really good TV show on right now called "Zoo" about the Bronx Zoo in NYC and what goes on behind the scenes that is very interesting, if you can get it where you live.