Hmm,where to start. Alright, you talked about going through an awakening a couple of years ago. You have been studying,absorbing and appling the emense amount of information you obtained and the growth process has seemed to come to a complete hault recently because you have all of this information but now you don't really know what to do with it. You have the desire to share this information and to help others out who are going through similar situations and this feels to be a passion of yours. Your ready to move your life into the next stage and to turn your passion into your career. The problem feels to be that this transition is difficult because the avenues you have tried to do this in, doesn't seem to fit or just isn't working out the way you thought. On one hand, it kind of takes away from it your passion and meaning behind your abilities yet you know that your life revolves around your abilities and to help others in this area. Your wanting to branch out on your own, to not only share your abilities, but to revolve your entire life around, if I'm saying this right, to include your career. I'm picking up that you have already started or attempted to start already but you have some doubt? I could be wrong, but it feels like you are more wondering if you are on the right path, if you will be successful on it, and you want to make sure your doing the right thing, like you don't want to waste time doing something that won't go where you are expecting it to go, if that makes sense. Your VERY big on your life purpose and your priority is to make sure you complete that purpose, to make sure you fulfill that purpose and that you don't take a road that seems to good to be true and eventually taking you off that course. I'm hearing the word "failure" and it feels like on a deeper level you are afraid to fail in this because it's so important to you. You've spent so much time searching and now that you have the knoweldge you have and want to share, there's alot at stake...emotionally. You also question whether or not it is realistic to go for this dream, since it seem's, how do I say it, unreal? Like, is this a realistic thing or are you just spinning your wheels and time on something that will never happen. Your not a time waster and you are ready to jump on board with whatever it is destiny wants you to accomplish. You've sent the memo out to the cosmo's and now your waiting for that "sign", but then the questions, the doubts. On a deeper level, things are so clear, but thinking about it on a conscious level, it seem's so "out there" that's it's hard to accept the truth of your own truth because it defies what most people believe in. And then you tell yourself, that's just ego or negative thinking, got to get rid of it because it's counter productive, but then it all comes back again. It's like a vicious cycle, and then there's the "I'm running out of time" because it feels like you will be in the loop forever, and so you are needing, I don't think it's direction, I think what you are searching for is more like validation that this is the right path and you will be on the beautiful road to fulfilling your life purpose. If this sounds about right, then please keep reading.
This is what I see, I see a HUGE opportunity for you to share, to teach, to mentor and to start a buissness in this field. I do see you doing readings, but more having or building a clientelle, not on some web-site doing psychic readings. You could do it for awhile, but it won't fulfill you. But I do see you speaking to people in groups, could be public speaking or more intimate groups and private settings. They are also showing me hands which seem t symbolize healing/energy healing. You have a diverse set of abilities and it won't be one or the other, but moreso a combination of services you will be providing. Did you do a healing on an older woman, elderly, grandmother type? I just saw a healing being done on an elderly lady. I'm not sure she healed because she appeared to be sick or close to death, but the peace that was given to her felt amazing. I also picked up Angels, so if you work with Angels, continue! You have alot to offer, I would suggest you don't focus on one or the other, but to use what you have according to the need that come's along. The Angels are also saying to have faith, not just in them, but mostly in yourself. Your a child of the divine and you need to believe in that. This isn't something that comes and goes, it is always with you because this is who you are. Believe in yourself and have faith in who you are, in everything you do and know that heaven is watching over you. I also just picked up Reiki?
Ok, now for the last bit, some advice about something I learned a long time ago about life purposes. Your reason for being on this planet is to evolve your soul. Fate controls life/death and whatever it needs to fulfill the bigger picture, but the rest, destiny, is for you to choose, and they will most likely support and assist you in whatever you choose, so long as it doesn't go against the "greater picture". But the most important lesson I learned is that it's NOT about finding our life purpose, but living our life with purpose and finding a purpose within it. We go through seasons in our lives and each brings lessons to evolve our souls, but it also yields opportunities for us to find purpose and meaning in everything we do. And by following those little nudges in our heart, we are fulfilling that purpose, I hope that makes sense. I hope this reading helps you, any feedback would be appreciated. It's been awhile for me But moreso, I wish you many blessings on your path!