Would this be clairaudience?

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Raindancer
@raindancer
10 months ago
28 posts

Some years ago i wrote a celebrity.  Shortly after i wrote her i saw someone who looked just like her and started hearing a voice that referred to a white Russian.  I thought it about the one who i just saw.  Years later i was at a place thinking about the celebrity after much synchronicity had happened.  I heard a reference Wharton and had an image of two sitting together, one finally at peace with love. I had thought the reference to the latest i had seen who looked so much like the celebrity to whom all the synchronicity was alluding.  I thought, Brad needs to contact me on Facebook and it will lead somehow to her (the celebrity) being talked about.

Brad and I had not talked for nearly 20 years.  When getting back from my trip, guess whose friendship request was awaiting on Facebook?  Yep, Brad. 

We talked, something came up, and finally one day in resignation i posted about the celebrity that i had written to in concern of her welfare and about whom there seemed a TON of synchronicity.  A few weeks later, I was walking into a store.  When leaving i saw a woman entering wearing a jacket with a hood covering her face.  She was peeking at me with one eye but with the hood it was impossible to make out who it was.  She didn't walk away but walked right toward me. When getting within a foot, she looked down but then i looked into the hood and guess who? The celebrity i had originally written.  I guess she had looked at my facebook and saw me talking about her.  For years i had been where i had no public phone number or way to be contact and a few months before i finally got more in the open and once talking about her, she showed up! 

I went into shock, walked away from her. Ouch.  Posted something about her on Facebook about the honest eyes and sincere expression on her face.  Got a call the next day, "That was me in the store!"  click.  My mind struggled with the identity as when i talked about it none believed and there was someone who showed up on a dating site the day i joined who i thought may be her, so i struggled with who is who as i had fallen into dissociation. 

Posted on my facebook about needing a partner in life, someone to dance through life with. The white Russian reference i had for years changed to Mishkutenok, a Russian ice skater during those months.  Found something online during my haze about a possible name (women's names can change) out of a city from which i was called but not home to take the call after writing the letters of concern.  I looked up the name and found someone on VK, a site out of the Ukraine, and looked up the listing and a picture was there of a woman that looked just like the one who followed me into the store a few months earlier.  Um, wasn't Ukraine called White Russia in 1917?  Was the White Russian reference i heard in voice all the years the very celebrity i had written and the reference changed to a Russian skater whose name i was familiar with when i started posting "i need the dance"?  Pairs skating is afterall a type of dance. 

Just a week ago someone was looking into my Facebook i hadn't talked with for 30 years.  I had dated his ex before he did and he married her.  At some level i had been concerned about her for years as she had some haunting abuse issues.  One link led to another and i found her Facebook listing, teaching in Wharton now.  She had remarried.  I felt certain that the Wharton reference was not about the most recent who looked just like the celebrity but that my question of how the one i had dated was doing was finally answer.  If not for dating her, i would not have fled to the city where i first quite by accident learned of the celebrity. 

 I had a breakdown and went into some state where all boundaries collapsed and a couple who never wanted the celebrity around trashed her and in my state without boundaries i lashed out against her.  My mind couldn't tell the difference much anymore.  So what she knew is she did hold onto my letters with enough affection for years, showed up when i wrote about her and i walked away leaving her disappointed (in a totally different state than where both of us where when first writing - had she moved to the same place and somehow was there when i wrote?)  Then i lashed out against her and she does not know why. I was brokenhearted to in that state lash out at her after years of concern.  I am confused and dismayed.  If synchronicity is still happening, does that mean the situation is not yet final? 

The White Russian, Mishkutenok, and Wharton references, do those sound at all like clairaudience?  The synchronicity involved over the celebrity was jaw dropping apart from the voices.  Any thoughts on what is going on and if what i experienced may indeed be clairaudience?  The voice always seemed like from someone outside of me, as if someone approaching then speaking, someone maybe a tad stronger than me.  There was this sense when pulling up the listing from out of the Ukraine of him asking, do you understand now?  It was like someone had for years been talking in a metaphor that would reveal itself.

The first question though, does some of what i put sound like clairaudience , two being done in metaphoric terms with White Russian and then the skaters name and one with a city name that did refer to someone i had been concerned about and felt like it was hard to move on from until knowing she was at peace?  


updated by @raindancer: 07/07/17 02:49:06AM
Hop Daddy
@hop-daddy
10 months ago
535 posts

@raindancer:

With clairaudience you typically will hear a voice in your head or ringing in the ears. And the voice is not your own thoughts but one that seems to be dropped in there from someone else.

I have had a lot of things happen similar to what you described where you think of a person and they contact you a short time later. I believe that falls more under precognitive skills. Here is a link that may help.

 

http://in5d.com/10-types-of-empaths/

Raindancer
@raindancer
10 months ago
28 posts

You may be right.  One thing that confuses me though is that it did seem like an outside presence, though maybe part of me dissociated that has ability that i do not understand.  Whatever it is, it seems like it does not need to be preceded by any ringing or anything else.  It is strong enough to simply come forward and say what it wishes, no need for ear ringing or anything.  There is a name i associate with it, but i do not see how that would be the case as the name is of a very important one, though it would be one who works with time lines and metaphor.  So right now i am unclear of what is going on.  Maybe it really is precognitive empathy or it could be something coming from something that has a different conception of the timeline and has no need for others definitions or conventions on how things should be done.  I simply do not know. So much got involved i am really lost a to what is going on.  The presence i mention is one that i only had any clarity about 1992 when something happened that is by no means possible, yet it happened.  At least my psych nurse said the chances of it are 0.00% chance of it unfolding how it did.  I am more than a tiny bit confused on many things. There is a name i associate with some things, yet i find it no way possible as it is the name of an important and rather busy one ( i would think too busy for me and would send a subordinate ), though it would explain a night that is utterly beyond my comprehension.  How do i know when i am sensitive to something or it is something that is so off the charts strong that it will be heard?  Really lost at this point. 

Oh there is one thing that did seem precognitive once, though i am still unsure of 'whose' precognitive it was.  I was once on a bus going to Edinburgh to a music festival.  At the time, i had a question of someone and even a theme song related to that.  I flipped out and wondered about my sanity when i felt what seemed like some amazing presence, loving and gentle, approach in spirit.  I heard myself blurt out the name of the person, then the presence started playing my theme song of finding her to me.  I got to the festival and heard that very song played by a group from Bolivia doing it native american style, then a bagpipe and drum group doing it, then an aboriginal from Australia playing it on a digereedo  (sp?).  It ended up being the theme song of the entire festival.  It was the only festival i had been to in years and the song itself was 16 years old, thus taking it out of the new and trendy thus very likely occurence category. I hadn't thought about the song for a few months before that at all as things had been busy and i was snowed under by others needs and i felt the 'presence' only after i was finally free of others needs hammering me.  Would that happening just be something of my mind playing tricks or something more, like precognitive?     


updated by @raindancer: 03/01/17 06:25:15PM
Hop Daddy
@hop-daddy
10 months ago
535 posts

@raindancer:

It will be interesting to see if these ideas dropped into your head continue. I have had that happen through much of my life. The way it works for me is I'll be thinking about one thing and then a totally random idea will drop into my head that will be like "Call Joe" or "You haven't talked to Sara in a long time". And then in a matter of minutes or hours later that person will call me. I also get ideas and answers to life’s problems dropped into my head. The voice in my head is much like my own so it's not as obvious when it happens that it is coming from an outside source. It took me a while to figure this out. For me I don't know if this is clairaudience as much as it is the precognitive knowing. My wife thinks that when this happens it’s more telepathic that I am picking up on others who are thinking about contacting me. That also seems plausible.

On a clairaudience note, I have had times in my life where I did hear a voice in my head that was not mine. It is generally an urgent warning to keep me away from danger. I like to think that's my guardian angel. But recently I have been having my ears ring really loudly whenever a spirit is near. I have been told that is clairaudience and that they are trying to communicate with me but since I lack the skills to hear them it comes through as ringing.

Anyway, I wanted to share how these things work with me to see if it can maybe help you better understand what you are going through. But I will say this, whenever I do have a voice give me direction in my head, it has always lead to a good thing or result. So go with it. And report back to let us know what path this voice may be leading you to.

Raindancer
@raindancer
10 months ago
28 posts

Thank you for the reply Hop-Daddy.  For what you go through, it is good that you do get urgent warnings when there is danger about.  If it is a guardian angel good!  We all need protection in this life as things get pretty darn hairy at times.  That you hear voices relating to people you hadn't talked to in awhile and then they call quickly after, i wonder if you have either something precognitive going on or if there is something they pick up from afar after you think of them, if that makes sense.  Getting answers to life's problems is nice.  I could use a huge dose of that about now. 

I appreciate your wishes that i can help with better understanding what is going on.  Much that alluded to one person both in voice and outrageous synchronicity and feeling of spirits did unfold, yet in a sad nearly tragic way.  I had written a celebrity some years back with concern about her, wondering if she was just being appreciated for her body and looks and yet being battered down by some unsavory types.  Right after writing her i got a couple of unexplained phone calls from Atlanta, but was not there to take them.   After years of synchronicity and thinking something was supposed to happen, i wrote about it on my facebook and a few weeks later i was coming out of a Safeway and something astounding happened.  I saw this woman coming in who was hiding her face by a hooded coat, though the store was warm inside.  She was peeking at me with one eye, yet unlike someone who would be a schizoid personality or such shyly hiding themselves but walking the other direction, she walked right toward me.  When close she bowed her head, i looked down under the hood just barely and she lifted her head then and the hood fell.  Guess who it was????  Yuppers.  She had this brief expression of fear because her hood falling but then had this look of relief and pained anticipation.  My jaw dropped.  It was her, after so many years.  She had remembered my letters, that someone actually gave a crud about her heart rather than just her body or face, with enough affection to be looking into my facebook years later.  Sadly, this states that maybe my hunch was right in that she hadn't been treated so well when a celebrity gets a couple of letters of concern then is looking at their facebook years later.  How little concern has been shown for her that she does that? 

My mind blanked out and i went into shock.  I posted something on my facebook that night about the woman with honest eyes and a sincere look in her face.  The next morning there was a phone call, the voice being an angry type of hurt, "That was me in the store!",  click.   My mind was swirling and i tried to come to terms with it being her, but others disbelieved enough that dissociation worsened.  My boundaries collapsed and in that state a couple spoke in sharp terms against her and my mind broke more fully and i bashed her on facebook. That after it was me who walked away? There are some who it seems resented anything about her at all and my mind was too far gone to decipher what was what.    I wonder how she felt.  I was shattered in how things went and my healing from it is compromised by many not believing me.   I did post on my facebook at one point when she still may have been looking in trying to explain everything.  At another point i asked for at least a note i could take to a therapist so i could be believed, none has come. 

So much of what it seemed to allude to went badly because i was too silly in some of my influences and should have been keeping some riff raff out of my life a bit better to be honest.  My bad.  I felt horrible about things i said, yet angry about being in position for being doubted and even struggle with God/ the universe etc about many things that happened that have me in position for being disbelieved for things that really did happen.  Some of the most extraordinary could be comfirmed by someone who was multiple personality , but her therapist insists on 'alter death' at times so that rather than having her memories more in tact, after years of therapy she is missing many memories including those of raising her son. 

The most recent confirmation of one of the voices happened after this, but i don't know if that means anything else will come of it all or not.  I am dismayed and hurt and look to the sky going 'why?'.  I am sure that in no way all of how this went after she showed up helped her.  It has certainly hurt me and my life.  I had a terrible tirade against her after some said 'it wasn't a God thing but a satan thing and she was satan's toy sent to break my faith'.  My mind was too far gone to see what a horrendous and outrageous thing for anyone to say.  I fought out of the state where my boundaries had been totally shattered as part of me was fighting against what seemed so terrible things to say about her not seeming right on their parts somehow. 

My life has been terribly hurt by all of this, with me having my spirit very broken.  My faith in God and the universe is not good right now.  Why like this?  I am feeling guilty about things i said yet angry and hurt about being left in position to where people disbelieve me for something that really did happen.  Much secondary trauma from being disbelieved. 

So is there something yet unplayed in this where she will muster up the ethics to say 'yes, i followed him into the store' and something that will play out that will explain so many mysteries?  I do not know.  It doesn't look good.  It feels good to at least talk about a couple of voices of things that seemed outlandishly impossible for things that did happen and not be considered insane.  White Russian reference?  Geez not in a million years could that have come up by sheer coincidence.  Some of the synchronicity was so outrageous it seemed it must be a God thing, so then why like this for how things are going?  I am changed into a less caring person by how many reacted.  I spent years helping others who turned coldly away.  

One of the things on synchronicity is that in her home country, i was visiting a town and only talked with one person there all day, some guy at a t-shirt stall.  The person talked about his sister being in the states now, on the other side of the camera now, flying back and forth from coast to coast, but her being actually being two years younger than what people thought.  Later i found she lived there, does have four brothers.  The picture i found of the woman at the VK website (Ukraine, white Russia),  was wearing a t-shirt with Paramount studios and the birth year was two years younger than the stated age of the celebrity.  After i posted about it on facebook, the year of birth listing was removed from the VK profile.  When i say outrageous synchronicity, i mean OUTRAGEOUS.  Out of about 40,000 people the only one i talk with is her brother and he says something about her that is exactly what i need to know to find her listing 12 years later and what he said is certainly something she would not have wanted him to say so he probably would not normally. The name that led to the updated name and the finding of the VK listing was out of Atlanta from a few years back, two years younger than the celebrity's stated age.  What in heavens name is going on? 

I know this is lengthy and appreciate your patience in it.   What when all the signs and being loyal to God and the spirits leads ultimately to heartbreak and my intent of her thinking at least one person out there gives a crap about more than just her body and face gets hurt to where my original intent is hurt and i feel duped for having been loyal to the signs?  

Is there more than one force out there that plays with empathic signals and synchronicity or was much simply interfered with by some with not so pure intent when it came to it?  Was there different ways she should have done?  Different ways i should have done?  Was it all a prankster or ill influences putting things wrong or is it really still ongoing with better to come?  I do not know, but have felt myself shaking at times from some of the events along the way going 'did that really really happen?".  It all seemed so enchanting and mystifying along the way, yet part of me under it was going logically 'no way this is happening !!!!!!!!!!!!' and the fall out is very serious. 

I am wondering how well a person should develop such senses as it seems like there is a wading pool and the more into it you can get the deeper the waters get.  What about getting into shark infested waters?  I am thoroughly lost.  Again, this is lengthy.  I have seen you posting and there seems a kind hearted way about you so hope you will understand my confusion and explanation of a few things that happened, though i leave many many parts out for space sake.  I am shaken to the soul and hurting.  I look to the sky and ask 'why??????????' and am heartbroken, looking like someone simply insane to any who walk in only a logical world where nothing in spirit ever directs anything. 

Oh, and the angel i associated with the voices, Uriel.  That is where i know it sounds nearly outlandish as Uriel is one of the top three of all angels.  At the same time, i first saw his name and broke down crying when reading about the 'cloaked angel' remembering a night through which i should not have lived.  I had taken about 60 - 80 strong meds with alcohol.  Part of me turned and said to God, "i leave it to you to decide".  I sensed two presences fighting over me that night, one being cloaked and far the stronger wanting me to live.  My psych nurse knowing of the meds that i took said i should be dead. That certainly there is no way at all that i should have awakened after 6  1/2 hrs sleep feeling refreshed fully as if taking nothing and seeking no medical help.  one of the meds i took normally would leave me groggy 4 hrs after waking up when just taking one of them.   It felt as if i had taken nothing at all, rather than being so sick i would be puking my guts out.  As i say, my psych nurse says that the chances of this, her knowing these meds, was 0.000.  Why me?  Why someone as major as Uriel?  and why for it to have gone like this?  Uriel of all angels supposedly the one who knows the most of the timeline and i don't understand why he would have me live for a time when my faith is fully broken. Is the final verse in this yet written?

I am confused about how these things work so came here where maybe a few could at least understand things that seem paranormal.  You having listened means more to me than i can say. 


updated by @raindancer: 03/04/17 05:49:41PM
Hop Daddy
@hop-daddy
10 months ago
535 posts

@raindancer

Wow. You have a great story there. Between running in to a star at Safeway I am guessing you must live in Southern Calif. I grew up there and Kevin Costner used to live up the street from me in my home town. Anyway, dare I ask who the celebrity was? Or at least initials? There seems to be something written in the stars between you and that celebrity.

I myself am starting to understand messages spirit guides are leaving us as we follow our life path. You know them as synchronicities. I happened upon a really informative web site last night that had a really good article about synchronicities. I thought you might like it:

http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2011/08/how-to-tell-the-difference-between-a-sign-and-a-coincidence/

Of course the main problems for us mortals are that the signs are there but we're not very good at reading them. And we often ignore them or are too busy in our hectic lives to see the forest for the trees. I think this often happens when ideas that are not mine get dropped in to my head. I'm trying myself to slow down my life enough to start examining the ideas and thoughts dropped in to my head as well as the other synchronicities that appear daily throughout life.

Raindancer
@raindancer
9 months ago
28 posts

Hey again Hop-daddy :)  It's a hard time here yet a weak smile comes to me when i log here and see your name.  A weak smile is a blessing to me these days. Thank you! 

Yes, it is quite a story.  I was wondering if there were a few things in that i shouldn't have said in my post above and there remains much more i do not say regarding the things that pointed to the celebrity as it would compromise her identity.  Her following me into the store was not in Southern California.  It was in Washington state.  That is the part where i go "huh?" even more. I did look myself up on one of those people searches and yup my address and current phone was there, probably from my license and registration in Washington.   Did i write on my Facebook about her and she was somehow living in the same area in Washington state when she was from originally from across the ocean and then maybe a several years ago in Atlanta?  How does this happen?

Thank you for the link about synchronicity.  I used to not believe in this type of stuff in the least, though that night shook i mentioned shook my foundation needless to say.   I saw another quote online about synchronicity that seems to answer some who said it was a 'satan thing':

"God would never point you in the wrong direction and it’s highly unlikely that the evil side is responsible for these coincidences when they are only love based."

So what has gone on for what happened has me in shock.  Her not verifying her following me into the store has led to much damage.  Will it all just be like this with nothing further on the issue and it leaving me being a worse person than before this all happened? Is this all there is for my having been so faithful to the signs?  Or is there something that will direct things into better in tomorrow that i can not see?  I do not know. 

Thank you for your understanding and your encouragement.  For yourself, i hope that the synchronicity that you appear in your life will guide you well . . . with results that are a true blessing to your life.  For us believing or having faith and putting in the extra steps into our path to try to do right or want the right results, we certainly need that.  It seems how it has gone has been to leave damage where the original intent was care and brokenness from having walked a path of faith and dedication.  What is left of me hopes the universe has better in store and will guide things better, though one thing i learned which applies to both her and me and well just about to anyone else: we need to make sure we have those in our lives that will not step in the way or push us the wrong direction.  Prayers from others are sparse as i find it seems few really want to listen to the universe or God. They weren't listening they aren't listening still.  I guess they never will.  Which is the stronger though, those influences or the universe/God?   The results as they stand would seem a cosmic joke. Will she simply leave me being doubted in ways i can not heal as well so that my affection of her and prayers for her are lessened?  This is not a good result for years of concern. We can overcome so much.  What is my human limit?   Her caring more about herself, doing the right thing, and the world around is the only result to all of this that would be justice and mercy.  This is not healing for her. She and i both caring less as a result of how things unfolded would be a crime.  As things currently stand, it does not look so good.  Yet even her birthplace name and mine point to each other.  Her last name is the first part of my birthplace name with 'view' after her last name and hers would refer to something that is fully on cue but i can't put without it being too easy to look up who she is. 

I hope to be able to report better to you than how things currently are.  My deep appreciation for any hope you have that i will be able to. 

And i wish so hope that your guides help you in ways that are easy to understand and help it all unfold in ways to overcome that obstacles that others would throw in the way.  Paths of faith are not the easiest.  So for you i hope the extra effort will show pay off in the long run in terms of peace, healing, and larger blessings.  

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