But whenever I try to do anything like this I get scared. Like something telling me I shouldn't do something I don't know well about. It's like being afraid of doing something you are not sure of rules.
There's your answer You don't know enough about any of these things to try any of it. I'm also sure you have read horror stories about opening yourself to this side as well, so I would suggest is to do more research specifically in the areas you are most interested in. Your not going to be drawn to all aspects of it. For example, tarot, it's not for everyone and I'm a witch! Seriously, I have more oracle cards then I will ever use and I had two sets of tarot that I got rid of for two reasons, the first, I didn't connect with them, tarot is to confusing for me and I hate having to memorize a bunch of stuff, and two, I don't like the energy of them in general. The energy in tarot feels like a lower energy to me and I don't feel anything beneficial from them. It doesn't mean they are bad, it just means that my energy and the energy or regular tarot cards, for some reason don't mesh. You may find that is true for you as well. Or you may have a desire to open up to one side of the spiritual realm, such as a higher spiritual realm but you don't want to open yourself to all of the realms, more specifically, the lower realms. This is a common fear and one that shouldn't be taken lightly, because the reality is when you begin to open yourself to the spiritual realm, it's like emotions, you don't really get to pick and choose, either your open or your not. Now, alot of people have trained themselves to focus on a specific area of spirit, which is why they use protections, grounding and focusing excercises in order to connect with one side and protect yourself from the other.
So my advice is this. Figure out what you are wanting to accomplish. If you are wanting to meet your spirit guide, then study how people connect with them. Study the protection, study on meditations that will connect you with more light energy, and how to ground your energy, so you can stay focused on that specific area. Don't try anything just for the heck of it, because this is what your conscious is trying to help you avoid. The world of spirit is broad so you don't need to know about everything, just on the things that you need to know in order to help you move forward on your path. I always suggestion people connect with the higher spiritual realm first, to either meet spirit guides, angels ,ect, because this energy you will know, you will feel and will be your anchor if you ever do run into anything negative. You always have access to it so once you learn to call upon it and bring it towards you,the quicker you will get at it, and the easier your transition if you do decide to move into another area of spirit. It will also help you figure out what spirit you are dealing with. Since Empath's are so sensitive to feeling energy, you will learn what energy is good and be able to pick off other enetites that are not so good, simply by feeling that shift in energy. Instead of feeling peace and comfort, you might pick up a hint of something that just doesn't feel right, and if that's the case, that's you cue to know your not dealing with what you think your are.
Fear is common, but knoweldge is power and the more knowledge you have, the better the experience you will have. With that said, I will leave you with a couple of things that are shared more amoung magickal practitioners. The reason why is because it's ALL about energy, connecting to it, feeling it, controlling it, and since everything is mad up of energy, these little tidbits should help. The first one is to be specific! When you go into meditation, know what your goal is, be specific who you are trying to contact even if your not sure.. aka, my guardian angel, ect. Be specific on who can speak to you. Be specific on why you are doing it. Having these goals with specific intentions will help better target the energy you are wanting and not accepting just anything that comes your way. So, be clear and specific on what you are trying to accomplish.
Two, always know your emotions and state of being. Though emotions can be very powerful tools, like attracts like. It doesn't mean you won't have any negative emotions such as fear or anxiety or whatever, let's face it anytime we go into something new, we will feel a little uneasy, but, there is a huge difference between going into it feeling a little anxiety over what you are about to do and going into it after a huge fight with the boss or spouse. If you got something big that just happened and it's hard for you to focus on anything else, you might be better off just doing an energy cleanse,grounding and focusing exercise before going into it. The emotions and thoughts are energy and can manifest or turn into a beacon for unwanted entities if we don't have control of them. When we are grounded and in control, we project that energy and this is the energy that will come to you.
And three, listen to yourself! It's one thing to try something new and get a little doubtful or uneasy, but if your brain is screaming at you "don't do it", then listen to it. It may be the wrong time. It may be the wrong circumstance, or it may not be the right fit for you, or maybe you just need more information. But listen to that little voice inside and trust. Just because it's the popular thing to do, doesn't mean it's right for you. Or maybe it is right, but the method for you is not right. This is when you take a step back and ask yourself questions.
And last, when researching, take what fits YOU! If it sounds off the wall and you don't relate to it, it's not meant for you, or maybe just needs to be tweeked a bit in order to fit you. What works great for one, may not work for another. But this is your journey so study different beliefs or methods and go with fits you. And if it doesn't sit right, even if Sylvia Brown herself swears by it, then move on to things and methods that do.
Much of this will be trial and error, but if you follow your intuition, the process will go much smoother and quicker for you. This is your jounrey after all, so make it your own Many Blessings on your path