updated by @jessica4: 03/04/17 08:25:53AM
You are going through a whole lot of new and stressful experiences in your life, boyfriend just left, you start new school, which really is a whole a new way of life for you. It really wouldn't surprise me if this added stress is also making it's way into your meditations. I don't want to know where your boyfriend was deployed, but is it an area where the possibility of conflict also is likely and possible?
No is he is in basic right now the conflict purely emotional where he is and thank you for respecting privacy of his whereabouts secrecy and privacy has become much more prevalent these days though I don't think anyone here would be a risk but as the saying goes you can never be to cautious but that is most definitely true the stress has seeped through everything and its an ongoing battle its even starting to mess with my communication with spirits