My profile was written in the beginning of what ever this is that's happening. I will amend it to confused..
I am not afraid because I feel I can manage; I'm still in charge at this point. I am however, overwhelmed by the magnitude. To have, what I can only speculate to perhaps mean something going on everywhere" I am far out of my comfort zone.
I am practical and rely on common sense. Although not quite an "A" personality; I strive for order and control. I am the one usually helping not being helped. I am ALWAYS in control - I am a borderline perfectionist. Although, not a leader so much, I will rise to the occasion. I am a "fixer".
With all that being said, I am struggling with the unknown. I challenge myself at each turn of events. Did I actually see or imagine? Did I assume? Is it possible? Is there reasoning? I am trying very hard to accept the unknown, the unexplained.
I research all the time. Try to weed through all the garbage out there. Although I am very comfortable being alone.; feeling alone is quite different. There is no validation. I can not find one person that has a similar situation or at least willing to share details of thier experiences. I get that given the situation, people want to protect and keep a low profile. I guess I feel as though I have nothing to lose.
There's that and the fact that my experience is so all encompassing. It is not like I think I see a ghost or hmmm something is out of place. It's not occasional it's constant. I can't go anywhere that there is not some degree of webbing and now quite often there are mechanical looking spiders leading the pack. If I just glance at something there is a good chance it will respond with exuberence. I never know if the bed is going to roll like a water bed, the carpet ripple, the walls and ceiling appear to have a mole running behind them, paper waves,plants dance or a jacquard curtain covers a wall, door or something on the floor, and I lose depth perception, webs can be spread across the room, hiding in cabinets or attaching itself to me or encompassing an entire room; while I have to casually act like nothing is there.
A puzzling thing with the Jacquard pattern, when I close my eyes I see the burgundy w/black design it is like an enveloping tent then it slowly floats down until it covers my face. If there is any eye movement it's gone. I realized that for a long time now when I look at something black there is a defined yet vague burgundy color within.
As I type this post, my teenager comes to talk to me about a party. I am sitting and she is standing. As we speak the webbing is reaching out to her from different places. She doesn't notice that it is attaching to her. I just sit there. What else can I do? As she leaves part breaks off and trails behind her. Husband and grandson came in and also left dragging some as well.
I'll slightly touch on music /sounds
I constantly have a wire singing noise.
I hear music. Sometimes it is more of an impression of a certain song, then once in a while it is a complete clear original artist singing song. That of course no one else hears.
For the last few months relentless music is playing over and over again and again. It is all instrumental; a cross between "Hello Dolly" & "The stripper" meets "Chicago" the band. Ending with the trumpeter hitting the highest pitch note he can for as long as he can.
As for the last question: if you are asking do I believe in UFOs & Aliens. I am not so grandiose to think we are "IT" within an enormous solar system. If you have theories, I would love to hear them. I respect your thoughts and ideas