I'm so suicidal right now
I recently had my trust shattered as well....not an easy thing to deal with. We just have to take things day by day.....
You are a good person, worthy of love and respect. Take care of yourself now.....to leave this plane of existence in your state will only bring more suffering for you
Blessings to you
ditto for suicidal. i am sorry you are feeling that too. that you are able to say anything here is good to see. your doubting so much you can trust anyone would hurt. i hope you find a few people who you know will be safe and who have safe arms awaiting for you. is there any therapist that could help or does that seem like too much right now? for me, my problem is someone left me in position that nobody believes me on something extremely unlikely to happen. even therapists have thought it hallucination as it was so unlikely i went straight into shock. the other person is not being forthcoming, though it has been readily apparent i am in trouble. being isolate from others support hurts us. that you say anything about how bad things are for you is as such a good sign. you need others in this. i hope you find others who will understand as i know way too well giving up on humanity hurts. you saying something here i hope will be part of a way humanity shows it hasn't given up on you and wants you around. i am sorry for the pain you go through. i sincerely wish you the best for finding comfort and love. it is hard for me to say that right now or even care as my being left alone in a truth of one has left me spiraling downward. even such as i am, more disconnected from everyone and at the edge of death, i choose to say something to you. please remember that. my best to you finding safe others.