random experiences....
Some times my thoughts and emotions are so amplified sometimes negative words hurt when said by people and after while im sitting trying to dismiss the hurt, i blurt out, negative comments about myself as if im talking to myself as another person, im my head and sometimes out loud, that hurts even more ... i have no idea why that happens...
i had an argument with my friend in her car while she was driving(we were both so filled with angry)and she told me to get out of her car and while it was moving i opened the door and jumped out , with out thinking nor rationalizing, it was as if i was on auto pilot, i got hurt pretty bad and up to this day i dont know why that happened...
i remember trying to help a friend through a depressive day that she was having and ended up feeling depressed to point where i physically started walking as if i wanted to get away from the emotions and feelings and ended up by the sea side trying to get over what i was feeling. After going home and calling my friend i realized that she was no long depressed, my friend was happy and i was sad and depressed... what sort of transfer was that?
i AM so obsessed with finding out what life really is and at times regret that im human, i know that im different but sometimes i dont know to put the pieces together ... i think i go crazy sometimes trying to fiind out what this is all about
Am i emphatic or going crazy?