I was at a family funeral this week and had some interesting feelings that I wanted to share and reach out for comment. We were celebrating the life of my 98 year old grandmother who just passed. Due to her age and declining health, it was not a tragic event. We all saw this coming. In fact some of us were relieved for her that she died as she was pretty far gone mentally and is now in a far better place. But there was still some sadness and tears from her immediate children.
We had the burial service out at her burial plot. And we all had the unavoidable situation of standing on the graves of others while at her service. She had bought her plot some time ago and there had been a lot of burials since that filled up the immediate area. I have to tell you, I do not at all like standing on the graves of others. It gives me the creeps. But at the start of the burial service I was hit with some pretty intense anxiety. My chest was super tight, my face was flushed. I was having trouble breathing. And I was pretty worried that I was going to have the embarrassment of a full blown anxiety attack. Luckily, the priest projected some levity and positive energy to all of us. And some funny stories in remembrance of her were told. That brightened the mood and my anxiety passed.
Several years ago I was at a very sad funeral of an 8 year old boy that died. And the immense sadness that I picked up at that funeral was unbearable. He had died tragically and I have never since felt so sad and so low in a group setting like that. But I didn't have any anxiety, just deep sadness. At the funeral of my grandmother I just felt an intense anxiety. I wanted to throw these questions out to all of you as I'm starting to wonder if my empath radar needs to be tuned? Do any of you ever pick up on sadness in a group setting that comes through as anxiety? I'm also wondering if maybe I was picking up on some energy from the dead in the area that caused my anxiety? In any event, thanks for helping me figure out what happened.
updated by @hop-daddy: 10/10/17 07:42:00AM