This isn't a vent, but it's a declaration of being tired of the same behavior from everyone in our lives that express that you don't talk to them when it could be for a reason such as being busy with life. I don't have the energy to soothe people's egos especially when they have shown time and time again that they could care less about our lives. It's always one sided and the most frustrating thing of it all is that I always find myself in these situations where, no matter how many times I inform people about my true nature, being an introverted person who needs plenty of me time, they disregard that and talk to each other about how they haven't heard from me and they are worried. If they are worried, reach out.
I'm not gonna let people turn something like me being busy into a personal issue entitled "You aren't talking to me." It's ridiculous and I'm shocked that humans don't have the logic to see this. Now, to soothe his ego, I'm about to send my brother an email reminding him that I have been busy. I told him when I last saw him that I had several projects to work on as soon as I got back from vacation. But anything about my life is overlooked. They see what they want to see and that is not fair to people like us. He tells my sister that he is worried about me cuz he hasn't heard from me but at the same time, I don't see him reaching out to me to make sure I am alright. So where is this worrying coming from? it's tiresome and anytime I see behavior like this, it pushes me further away from them cuz I have my own life that I have to worry about and I can't always be concerned about trivial matters such as this. And, if I should do something as horrible as express how I feel, I've hurt many people's feelings and I should have gone about it differently. It's a no win situation. I'm always told to keep in touch, yet on the other hand, they don't keep in touch with me either and if I were to be "emotional" and tell them how I feel, they would remind me of how busy they are in life and they can't just drop what they are doing to see or talk to me. This is why empaths are such lonely people.
updated by @the-importance-of-being-jonny: 01/13/17 02:22:46AM