Okay, so I know I can get very emotionally involved with any story or person - I don't have to know them, to feel them, so to speak. As soon as I feel an attachment to a person, real or fictional, and the story, real life or fictional, the pain starts. Not always though. Sometimes my 'obsessions' help me get through stuff and heal my own life. I always get the full spectrum of emotions, thoughts and physical sensations, making everything I get involved in emotionally to a wonderful journey of discovery and mostly joy. I am grateful for that.
But sometimes, it's like my heart is ripped out, and my chest gets heavy and I just want to turn it off. It feels like overload of some kind. Most of the time the pains stays just below the pain barrier, making the experience mostly enjoyable, but sometimes, just sometimes, a story can make me feel so much, I feel close to losing it. Fortunately I almost always just need to take a break from whatever it is, if I can.
I was catching up on a tv series the past week, and the story, especially being able to watch episode after episode, makes me feel so much, it's almost unbearable. I invest so much in those characters, they become like family to me, and even though I know in my mind that it's not real, my heart chakra doesn't seem to care. It's like my chest is going to burst. All it takes is one tiny second where the characters come really close, or the story upsets me, and the pain starts. With this series, there was so much sadness. At the same time it's like I am watching something I can't be a part of, and it feels so real to me, and I feel so sad that it isn't.
In the end I am grateful for those experiences.
I was just wondering if anybody else experiences stories and characters like this. Almost like you become them and can feel their heart beating. It's like a pure ray of love that goes through my heart with full force, no pull backs. I wonder if it's all that healthy? I mean, most of the time I don't really want it to stop.
updated by @nea: 01/11/17 08:53:08PM