I just have a strong urge to be with people like myself. EC is amazing and I cherish it wholly, but it's not enough. I want to interact face to face with empaths and people going down a supernatural path in their lives like I am. I just feel so outta place with regular human beings. We don't click. I can't even sit among regular people because it's like I'm a sore thumb, a caged bird that needs to fly away. I've done the whole Google search for empaths in my area, or similar terms like paranormal, healers, lightbeings and it brings up nothing concrete. I made an account with meetup.com just so I can get some hits on events going on in my area. Ugh. If only it were as simple as a spidey sense going off when you encounter an empath on the street so you can stop them and be like, heyyyyyyy! Right???? I knowwwwww. Not a soul will ever understand me like an empath will. And truth be told, I'm so tired of being misunderstood and trying to be understood. I give up. This is where the whole lonely thing comes in. It's like, is this destiny for a typical empath? Are we to be lonely forever? You feel close to the entire world, so it's difficult as hell to know who is a true friend and who you simply feel close to.
Another thing I tend to notice, and I know it's not just me, is we aren't meant to have our own sources of emotional therapy. Like no one is ever there for us the way we are there for them. You know how many times I'm venting to someone and they cut me off to tell me what to do, say or feel, or "identify" with how you feel by saying, "I feel like that all the time." Just fricking LISTEN for Pete's sake! That's all I want. I dunno about anyone else. I'm not looking for advice from you, I don't want to hear your wise words, just listen to me so I can get some emotion off my heart. But that? IMPOSSIBLE. I notice a lot when I am in mid venting, getting stuff off my chest, the person I am venting to gets interrupted, and I have to constantly wait til they get back and give me their full attention and that alone gets frustrating to the MAX.
Sigh....the full moon is so bright and low tonight and I just came back from talking to the Man upstairs, just venting to him, letting him know how I feel as he is the only one I can do that with it seems. I like night time here in Oregon. The sky is absolutely amazing. Clear for days. Makes you wonder what else is out there. Anyway, good night. I'm gonna work on some art.
updated by @the-importance-of-being-jonny: 01/24/17 03:09:03PM